Chapter 39 Chapter 02 "Guilty", "Conscience Condemnation" and Others (22)

By this point the reader has already guessed what is going on behind all this preaching: the will to suffer, the cruelty to fall back.The introverted animal man frightened back into himself, the prisoner imprisoned in a "country" for domestication, who, after his natural desire to vent pain has been prevented, invents conscience to serve Create pain for yourself.It is this man of conscience who, with his regressive cruelty, seizes upon religious assumptions, and thereby intensifies his self-torture to terrible proportions.The idea of ​​being in debt to God becomes his torture device; he catches in God what is finally opposed to his true, unexhausted animal instincts.He points out such animal instincts in order to take them as proofs of indebtedness to God, of hatred of God, of rejection of God, of rebellion against the Lord, rebellion against the Father, rebellion against the Father and Creator.He put himself in the opposition of "God" and "Devil".He denies everything: he denies himself, he denies nature, he denies his own naturalness and reality; he takes what he dug out of himself as a positive, a possible, real, living , as God, as God's judgment, as God's punishment, as the other world, as eternal, eternal torment, as hell, as endless punishment and immeasurable debt.This cruelty of the mind is an unprecedented insanity of the will: man is willing to think himself indebted, vile, and irredeemable; The problem of debt and punishment pollutes and poisons the very foundations of things, thus cutting off forever his escape from this labyrinth of "paranoid ideas"; Proving himself worthless.oh!These unhinged, pathetic Beastmen!How grotesque their ideas!Once their beastly behavior is stopped a little bit, their abnormality, their absurdity, and their beastly thoughts will immediately explode!All this is very interesting, but people have gazed too long at these abysses with a forbidden, black, melancholy, nervous, sad look.Undoubtedly, it is a disease, the most terrible disease that has ever afflicted a man.Who can still hear (it's a pity that people have no ears to hear these days!), in this night of misery and absurdity, the cry of love, the cry of ecstasy, the cry of release in love, which frightened all An insurmountable fear and leave!There are so many horrors in man!Earth has been a madhouse for ages! ...