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Chapter 52 Force structure small window essay

"Ligou Small Window" is the east-facing window of a room in Qianlu.This room could be regarded as a study, because there are several bookshelves and two desks. There are some books and newspapers on the shelves, and some pens, ink, papers and inkstones on the desks.However, there is still a bed under the west wall, there are bookcases under the bed, and there are hangers beside the bed.This bed is often not vacant. Students who go home on weekends and guests who cannot go back after traveling in the mountains all sleep there. Therefore, this study is often turned into a guest room, and when it is available, it is not too much.

When we were in Peking, we gave our study a name, "Hard to Make Spring Room", which was "September 18" at that time. After that, it was full of wind and clouds, which meant "autumn is everywhere in the world, and it is hard to be spring in one room".We also asked our friend Mr. Rong Xibai to write a small horizontal drape in oracle bone inscriptions.After going south, the little Hengpi also disappeared.Before moving into Qianlu the year before last, I asked a friend to write the banner with these four characters again. This gentleman thought the three characters "hard to be spring" were too old-fashioned, so he repeatedly postponed and evaded, and finally the study room The house that serves as a guest room has no name yet.

Chinese people like to give names to pavilions, houses, and houses. These names are not only pictographic, but also understandable. Examples abound, needless to say. Qianlu is just an earthen house facing east on the hillside of Gele Mountain, with only six rooms in size, and it looks boxy from the outside, which is not interesting at all!On the contrary, the dozens of pine trees around the house have grown four to five feet in the past three years, completely covering the house, and it is full of thick shade without winter or summer.On the left and right of the house, there are two Yunding Rabbit Mountains facing each other at the window. No matter where you look out from, you can see the victories of the ups and downs.To the east of the house, under the pine tree is the hillside. There is a small open space. Standing there and looking down, it is like looking down from an airplane.Across the river is Chongqing, and outside the mountains of Chongqing are the mountains on the south bank. It is really "the water of the Shu River is as clear as the mountains of Shu and the mountains are green". A view.

The Qianlu has neither a sign nor a plaque, only the owner mentions the name with the guest. When the guest writes the letter, as long as the owner's name is written correctly, the name of the house seems to be effective.The Qianlu in Gele Mountain in Sichuan is the same as the Molu in Santai Mountain in Yunnan.So the house was often very quiet, and the children couldn't even hear their laughter when they went to school.Only the master himself is busy quietly, sometimes writing letters, sometimes keeping accounts, sometimes washing rice, washing vegetables, sewing clothes, mending socks... But it is rare to write articles!

Now let’s go back to “Structural Small Window”—this book room has a useless name, and the looking around room really doesn’t deserve any elegant name. There is only this window, a desk in front of the window, two wicker chairs, A thick shade, when the pine tree branches out, a layer of yellow powder falls on the table, thick fog in the mountains, clouds rushing into the curtain, these scenes are quite poetic.In the night, a lamp is like a bean, and there have been love stories from relatives, friends' chats, sometimes the sound of rain seeping through the window, and the moonlight soaking in from the window, all of which can be used as materials for future memories.Especially when a friend who is an editor is struggling to find a manuscript, he pulls a chair and sits down in a fit of pique, and draws a pen to conceive, and this window is in front of him, and he can't get rid of it.

A friend said: "Do you know? Writing is one point for genius, nine points for persecution..." Now this point of genius has been exhausted, but persecution has increased from nine points to ten points. I have always insisted on " The writing conditions that must come naturally and not be constructed by force can no longer exist.Busy work and illness are connected, and the little literary thoughts that I occasionally get in the middle of busy work and illness disappear in the past. How much is life?It’s better to write scribbles by force, so I named Wu Chuang as "a small window with strength", which also means that the old bull broke the car and forced to move forward under the whip!Visiting the sick is because I am often sick, and I often serve the sick. I just sit on the sidelines and feel that visiting the sick is really an art!

There are several conditions for visiting a patient: First, is the patient someone you care about very much? Second, will this patient feel happy and happy because of your visit?Third, the conversation during the visit; fourth, the articles brought as a gift to the patient during the visit, such as books, flowers, candy, and other utensils and food. Visiting a sick person is not a matter of "face". For example, if someone is sick, so-and-so has already visited him, and I am still friends with him. I am embarrassed not to go for a walk, but your attitude when visiting is often reserved Conversation is often forced, more unnatural than usual pleasantries, which makes the patient restrained and forced, which makes him tired and bored. This kind of visiting is really harmful to the patient.If you feel that he will be offended because you don't go, you might as well write a small letter, short on paper and long on love, understatement, and stop from then on.Or send a bouquet of flowers, a free book, a bag of candy, with a small card attached, and God knows it is not bad.

If the patient is your best friend, he is looking forward to your coming all the time, you must know that you will immediately meet his surprised smile when you open the door; Overexcited, too much talking, not enough rest.Under such circumstances, you'd better sometimes send flowers, sometimes fruits, and sometimes introduce one or two lightly decorated books or leisure books, and then especially on stormy days, when others don't go out much, go and see him. .At that time, you will find that the ward is very deserted and the patient is very lonely. When he is turning around and bored, you go in gently and face him alone.If someone else comes to see you in the middle, you just sit and go, which not only gives others the opportunity to express condolences, but also reduces the patient's sleepiness. This kind of visit is often the most welcome by the patient.

Some people are idle and have nothing to do, and they can't find someone to spend time with, and suddenly think that someone is recuperating, why not talk to him?This kind of visiting person is the most terrifying!Because of your enteritis, he will mention his own relapsing fever, his wife's typhus, and his child's tetanus. The bedside is full of sick ghosts!Or when the patient is worried about the world, he complains a lot, homesick for his hometown, and expresses his depression. As a result, the patient is also depressed and complains, unable to control himself. This kind of visiting person is most disgusted by doctors and waiters.Therefore, it is advisable to use light-hearted conversation with the patient, and report the joyful and funny news among relatives and friends to make him happy and make him laugh.If he is a person who likes literature and art, you might as well tell him the epigrams in the poems you have seen recently.If he's into music or sports, you can also tell him what great music he's playing, or a ball game.Before leaving, you can also give him some hope of joy, for example, you can say "next time I come again, I can take a walk with you".Or say: "Next Sunday night, I can accompany you to listen to music." All this made him have many happy hopes and longings in the leisurely sick bed.The most important thing is to find a way to lighten the burden in the patient's heart. For example, you can write a few letters, do a few things, and see a few people for him. These burdens can be found out from the conversation.

As for gifts, flowers are of course the most suitable, flowers are the greatest comfort and joy to the sick.But there should be a choice in the type, color, and fragrance of the flowers. It is best to know the flowers and colors that the patient usually likes, and it suits his liking. Some people don't like strong floral fragrance, and for those with too little scent, fragrant flowers can also cause headaches.The fragrance of flowers should be sweet and clear, such as orchid, osmanthus, lotus, rose, and sweet bean flower, all of which belong to the sweet and clear road.Otherwise, flowers with color and no fragrance, such as crabapple, rhododendron, camellia, carnation, are bright but not fragrant, and are most suitable for patients to watch.If possible, the vase should also be arranged by the giver. It is appropriate and elegant, and it is held on the side of the bed for offering. Not only will the recipient be happy, but the giver will also be happy.Another thing is to send flowers when there are no flowers on the side of the patient's bed, otherwise, if they are mixed with many other bouquets, not only will they appear noisy, but the colors may also be incongruous.

The nature of the book should be light, the articles should be short, so that the patient can pick it up and put it down at any time, without requiring mental effort; the decoration of the book should be small and light, without requiring the patient's arm strength; Picture albums are also most suitable, such as art paintings, landscape paintings, etc., so that patients can often swim lying down.As for the purchase of food, you must first obtain the doctor's permission, and then suit the patient's preferences. Fruits are usually beneficial and harmless, such as oranges, apples and the like.The dishes cooked by oneself will arouse the patient's appetite, and they are light and clean, and those who are approved by the doctor may also wish to send them at any time. Sickness is a hard thing, but if there are caring people who come to visit the sick, sickness will not only become a pleasure, but also a blessing.When he is idle due to illness, his state of mind is the clearest, and his writing, thinking and poetic feelings all arise from this. When the ward becomes a dojo, being sick is really the sweetest and happiest thing.Dreaming that Chongqing is a mountain city, there are so many steps, sometimes as high as hundreds of steps.When walking in the city, it is rare to walk on the flat ground. When you rest in the middle of the stairs, you look high and unattainable when you look up, and there is no ground when you look down. Therefore, since I arrived in Chongqing, I often dreamed of climbing or going up. ladder. One spring night last year, I dreamed that I was walking slowly up a white stone staircase lined with white pines and emerald bamboos. In my dream, I felt that I was climbing the stairs of Biyun Temple in Xishan, Beiping, and reached the turning point of the stairs. Suddenly there was a loud bang, the surrounding pine needles and bamboo leaves danced, and the white stone railing beside the steps tilted and collapsed. A large piece of fire water poured down from the top, rushing and burning on the steps.In the midst of the smoke and fire, when I was panicking, I suddenly heard a very clear and loud voice calling my name, but when I looked up, I could only see the steps half hidden in the smoke.At the same time, there is also a very familiar voice below, calling my name, and looking down, there are balls of red flames and black smoke.In the dream, I happily ran down without hesitation, as if I was barefoot, stepping on the burning water and fire on the steps, and walked straight to the end of the steps. In the thicker red flames and black smoke, a man reached out to pick me up in the black smoke, and I yelled, "I can't go on!" He said, "Jump!" With this jump, I jumped back to reality Here it comes! My heart was still beating, and my body still felt vacant, as if in a cloud of smoke. This is really a spring dream!They are all the steps of Chongqing and the bombing of the enemy, intertwined with some concepts.But when I hear two voices calling at the same time, why don't I go up into the white clouds and down into the black smoke?Maybe it's because it's easier to escape, and the downward trend is easier and smoother! Dreaming is already absurd, but interpreting dreams is even more absurd.All my life I have loved dreaming, and the reason is that I seldom have terrible dreams.I was not afraid of ghosts when I was a child, and I was not afraid of thieves when I was growing up. No story of ghosts or detectives can disturb my spirit.I open the window when I sleep, and I don’t cover it too hot, so my sleep is cool and peaceful, and my dreams are often happy and bright. Although sometimes they are too chaotic, they are never terrible. I remember my mother often said to me with a smile: "I will definitely ascend to heaven after I die, because I often dream of living in a very elegant and comfortable house." In this way, I will definitely ascend to heaven after death, because it is the most wonderful house I have ever seen. Shanshui, the most comfortable house I have ever lived in, I have seen and lived in in my dreams.And the landscape and houses are combined together.For example, I often dream that I am alone in a reading upstairs. The desk is facing a huge glass window, which almost covers the entire wall, and the window frame is exquisitely carved.Outside the window is a lake, and there are often shadows of sails and rays of light on the lake.Except in my dreams, I have never seen this scene in pictures or paintings—I often want to ask someone to draw my dreams into pictures. I also often dream of moonlight: once I dreamed that under the porch of a hut, the place that was usually a mountain suddenly turned into water, and the moonlight shone on the water, like a sea of ​​light.There seems to be a fisherman drying his nets by the water.I said: "This fisherman is drying the net..." Suddenly a friend stood beside him, he smiled and said, "Can the moonlight also dry the net?" In his laughter, I woke up again, really , How can the moonlight shine on the net? "Dreams are what you think in your heart." When I was young, I often dreamed of taking a book test. When the questions were handed out, I couldn't understand a single one, and I woke up in a hurry.When traveling, I often dream of missing a car or boat, and I wake up when I see the car leaving the station and the boat leaving the exit.When I was weak, I often dreamed of holding an extremely fat child, and my arms were weak, so I threw him to the ground.Or I dreamed of going up the stairs, walking in the middle, the stairs were broken, and the stairs seemed to be made of rubber, hanging me tremblingly in the air.However, in my life, what I dream most often are landscapes, pavilions, and moonlight... In a monotonous life, dreams are a replacement; in a chaotic life, dreams are a comfort; in a difficult life, dreams are entertainment; In the weary life, dream is a rest—dream releases man from the shackles of reality, makes him free, makes him soar in the clouds, makes him run on the mountain.Being able to dream is happiness, and doing it happily is even more happiness.There is more than enough in reality, and you can "stay with the heartbroken to dream".But dreams also have setbacks, "Poor dreams are not clear", "Dreams are afraid of sadness and interruption", "Why don't you think about it, except that dreams have sometimes gone. There is no evidence, and dreams are new." Wait until "and dreams." Is there still a trace of poetry in life when you are new and don’t do it? ?
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