Chapter 16 an open letter

Mr. Shi: I really didn't expect that "the publication you edited" was still waiting for my manuscript, let alone that I still couldn't write an article until today! You know that my health is not very good, and I also have a lot of odds and ends.In fact, this is not the biggest reason. I have a very bad habit, that is, when I write, I must be in a special state of mind. If this state of mind cannot be grasped, sometimes I can stretch out the paper all night. Holding a pen for several hours without being able to write a word is really painful! The arrival of this kind of state of mind is very sudden, like a gust of wind, like a ray of light, there is a person, a thing, a kind of emotion, in the silence, boredom, melancholy, melancholy, suddenly strikes, in my heart Suddenly awake, suddenly joyful, at this time the mind will be as smooth as a torrent of water, even in the middle of the night, I can quickly put on my clothes and sit up, and guide the rush of thoughts in the silence of the night.

Over the past few years, I have only adhered to the principle of "what comes naturally, not to be built by force", and writing has become less and less. Sometimes, for the urging of friends, I have to write some "responsibility" indiscriminately under forced circumstances. Things are sent out indiscriminately, and when they are printed out and re-read by themselves, they often cause endless regrets. ——Naturally, the more you don’t write, the less you write, and the less you write, the more you don’t write. This kind of situation is caused by each other, but I can’t find a suitable solution.

A few nights ago, I woke up in the middle of the night and suddenly thought of "Phoenix", it is a kind of divine bird that will fly high from its own ashes - maybe after a while I burn everything in myself to ashes, a pile The slender and white ashes, and then let my new heart and soul lift up high from this pile of ashes... I want to write this meaning into poetry. Poor, I haven't played this tune for a long time! Having said that, now I don’t intend to always wait for this “unavoidable” state of mind. I want to read a lot, and when I see good ones, I want to translate and translate to activate my pen. When I get inspiration from other people's artistic conception, I will write again at that time.I am not discouraged about myself, although sometimes I am anxious, I know my "infinity", and I also know the limit of this "infinity".

Let me stop here.I remember you once said that letters are also acceptable. If you don’t mind, this letter can be made public. Please forgive me for my difficulties. Wish you well! Bing Xin stayed at Yanda University on March 8th.