Chapter 43 May 1st

On the afternoon of the 1st, I went out to visit friends, and when I got home, I suddenly felt something. Was it a conversation with her?My friend for half a year is very polite, and there are no soul-stirring words; is it because of the newspapers I read at her home?Although today is the labor commemoration of "eight hours of work" and "overthrowing the capitalists", I am not so deeply moved! The towering tree shadows behind the flower stand, against the blue sky, a few birds flew past - but what's the point? That's the only way in the world.This is the only way people talk in the world.

It turns out that I am also in the world, following this vortex. No, why should I follow the world, as long as you are willing to move forward. The present is full of mediocrity and fraud.If you don't make progress for a long time, it's just like this in your life.However, the creation and man have put the future in front of your eyes, and the light of hope is flickering, drawing a happy spell—only if you are willing to move forward and struggle. Only you can know a person's real talents, and only you can vaguely determine his future.I know it, I have tried it, it is effective, and I have hope. Then there are only three words:? Go? Forward? Go!

Are you satisfied with your current status and life?Are knowledge and experience enough?If you still have problems, and you are not comfortable with the present, you must move forward! A person lives in this world, but there is only such a thing, what is the difference between vigorous and muddled? ——However, after seeing through the world, why not talk about the graceful human game with a smile. For more than ten years, I only kept my head down and walked forward. Why did I walk?People go so I have to go. — But the future is eastward?What about westward?Let's talk! There have also been several days or months of determination that a certain career can be done and must be done, and it is also peaceful, gentle, and patient.

By the roadside, I saw a strange scene by chance, stopped by chance, probed my head by chance, took a step or two by chance, and felt that a little power was contained in me. What is the future?Let's talk later. The farther you go, the ability is drawn out step by step, and happiness is discovered step by step.ah!I used to be capable, but now I neither go east nor west, but only walk toward the light of hope. All the people walking on Kangzhuang Avenue disappeared.In the sheep intestines path, there are a few in front and a few in the back!This difficult road, are they really willing to go?Sure enough, there were a few who went astray, and a few who stopped looking forward.why am i leaving now

Because people don't go, so I must go! go!Even if you can't get there, life is just such a thing, why not play games in the world. Is happiness necessary in life?not necessarily!However, in the light of hope, it may as well be called the music that inspires young people to go forward. What the world thinks is good, I may not think it is good.But why not choose what you like, it's just a game in the world for me. The books in the bookcase, the flute on the low table, the flowers on the table, the ruler in the pen holder, the swing outside the wall—what’s the point of all this?

Children are very happy, they only know how to cheer and jump, but why are we not happy? I remember one day on the court, I was walking and talking with a classmate.She said: "In fantasy, there is often a book called "Thisism myfield". This is my land-when I am mentally free, I often pre-arrange my future career. Are you wishing for something?" We talked a lot that day. Another night was also on the court, the moonlight was faint, and the wind was blowing the treetops.Walking and talking with another classmate, she said: "I often have an ideal school in my fantasy, and I have planned all the equipment clearly." We also talked a lot that night.

Everyone has his ideal country and his Utopia in his heart.This kind of conversation is the most interesting, and it's something we don't usually talk about much.Because what you say is what you say with your mouth every day, and occasionally when the environment and mood are suitable, you meet friends who are speculative, and what you say is what is in your heart. Yesterday, a classmate and I sat opposite each other in the sun. We talked about it for ten years, and it would be interesting to get together again and testify to each other's careers?Everyone laughed. What's the point of these things?What does it have to do with May 1st?What is the connection with the friend just now?What is my original intention?

Among the many thoughts, I only picked out one topic, which is: "Today is May 1st, I want to honestly accept the will of the creator and man, and run towards the future I believe. Responsibility comes and begins to work." May 1, 1921. (This article was originally published in Volume 2, Issues 1 and 2 of Yenching University Quarterly in June 1921, signed by Xie Wanying.)