Chapter 27 repent

Qi Jun was lying quietly in a ward; the sky outside the building was gradually getting dark.The electric light in the house was already on, but it was covered by a green gauze, leaving only a circle of light shadows.The cup of potion on the bedside table was still shaking slightly. He frowned and looked at the roof, as if to get rid of his thoughts.At this time, he saw a bug on Chengchen, wriggling, but it didn't move for a long time.He felt that his mind was very tired, so he moved his eyes to other places, counting the wires on the wall and looking at the patterns on the green gauze.After a while I got up, looked at the medicine cup, but lay down again.He sighed slightly in his mouth: "Cough! Is it awakening or falling?"

Then the doctor came in and he was about to sit up.The doctor shook his head and didn't make him move. He sat on the edge of the bed, took out his watch and put it on his lap, and checked his pulse.Then he smiled and stood up and said: "It's much better, take this cup of medicine first, and see it tomorrow." Qi Jun agreed.The doctor said again: "Are you bored? You can read the newspaper now." Then he took out a folded newspaper from his pocket, put it on the bed, nodded and left. Qi Jun got up, took the medicine, and lay down again; he slowly opened the newspaper and read casually.Suddenly saw a paragraph of reason: Xinshe contacted.

There is another paragraph at the bottom: Announcement from Xinshe: Qi Junjun is living in convalescence due to brain disease. All agreed writings and speeches have to be temporarily suspended. The colleagues and others would like to apologize on behalf of him. After reading it, Qi Jun sneered twice, threw the newspaper aside, and sat there with his head supported. At this moment the door opened, and several young men in white caps and blue shirts walked in.Qi Jun turned around and saw it, and turned around slowly.They all approached with a smile and said, "Are you feeling better today?" Qi Jun forced a smile and said, "It's better, it's hard for you to think about it." At this moment, they all sat down around the bed and started talking casually.

After a while, one said: "Qi Jun! Yesterday a Wu Youjun wrote to the club and asked you, saying that he wants to study philosophy. What book should I use?We replied on your behalf, but gave him the titles of the books we have read.Another, I forget who, asked you to start translating a book on sociology.We also replied, saying that you are sick now..." Qi Jun frowned and nodded, then said with a smile: "I am actually omnipotent! They all laughed and said, "Who in the society doesn't know that Mr. Qi Jun is a giant in the New Culture Movement, there are many..." Suddenly another one said: "I forgot to tell you, it was the meeting that day..." One came forward with a smile and said, "That one..." At this moment, Qi Jun suddenly raised his head, looked at them, his face turned pale, and tremblingly said, "Forget it!Who is worthy of the New Culture Movement?Who deserves to be called the giant of the New Culture Movement?Generally, it is a speculative business, a trick to deceive others. "Democracy"

what is it What is "New Trend of Thought"?I dare not say you, I really don’t understand it myself, it’s ridiculous and lamentable to write a few articles and publish them with only a half-knowledge.Let me tell you the truth!The so-called enlightenment is an alias for falling. Now I really see myself as worthless.I am determined to stop doing the so-called New Culture Movement from now on.Anyone who plagiarizes from east to west will not write two articles and speak twice.It doesn't matter if you fall personally, why bother adding resistance to the New Culture Movement. -"

At this time they looked at each other, unable to speak, one of them forced a smile and said: "Qi Junjun! You are tired, please calm your mind first, where did you start talking, have you forgotten the past—" Qi Jun immediately went on to say: "Please have mercy on me! Don't hold me back, and don't make up 'anecdotes' for me. If you see me or still have hope, please forgive me. "At this time, Qi Jun said tears like rain, and the room fell silent for a while. He cried for a while, then raised his head, they had already left at some point. The long night, and the thoughts in his heart flowed slowly together.The sky gradually became clear again, and his mind seemed to brighten up with the light.He sat for a long time, then bent down, picked up yesterday's newspaper, tore it into pieces, and threw it on the ground.

The doctor walked in and saw torn papers all over the floor.I stayed for a while.But don't say anything.He only smiled and asked, "How do you feel this morning?" Qi Jun smiled slightly and said, "Today? Today is much better." The doctor said, "Now you can go back to school, it's just a matter of thinking, or It’s better to do less. I heard that you are very enthusiastic..." Qi Jun suddenly blushed, and said seriously: "Thank you! Now not only my physical illness is cured, but also the illness in my soul seems to be cured. Now I- —repented." (This article was originally published in Beijing Morning Post on October 7, 1920.)