Chapter 10 The ending of a novel in 1920

The bright sunset reflected on a building full of vines.A gust of cool wind blows the green leaves, shaking them like waves.Sitting by the window was an eighteen or nineteen-year-old woman, with a roll of manuscript paper on the window sill, holding a pen in her hand, smiling slightly, looking at the flowers and grass downstairs, listening to the birds at the bottom of the tree. In her quiet eyes, she seemed to be thinking about something. This lady is like a very thoughtful female student.One day after class, she returned to the dormitory, put down her book, and walked to the window. Facing the poetic and picturesque scenery, she stood there for a while, as if her soul was completely immersed in this beautiful scenery. In a clean world.In an instant, her heart was filled with beauty, and she felt very happy. She turned around and walked to the table by chance, took a pen and paper, pulled a chair, and sat in front of the window.

She picked up the pen and wanted to write a very happy novel. After thinking for a while, she raised her head, looked at the mirror on the wall, brushed her hair, and suddenly said with a smile, "Yes! From a girl to an old woman From spring to autumn, it’s interesting to write to the opposite side!” At this time, she didn’t hesitate, and just wrote down with the drive of her feelings: the small house, the paper window was blown by the autumn wind. ringing.There was a slight fire in the room, but it was very warm. There were many dishes and bowls on the table, full of dishes, and they were all covered with bowl lids.An old lady was sitting by the fire, her wrinkled face was full of joy, her eyes couldn't help looking around; sometimes she stood up, wiped the table here, and moved the vase and clock there. , looked left and right several times, then smiled slightly, nodded, and went to the table to try with his hands whether the wine and dishes were still hot.He sighed slightly to himself: "Tao'er is in the army, where can he eat such hot and fragrant food and wine!" He sat down again, looked out the window, looked at the clock, and took out a letter from his pocket. A broken letter arrives.He put on his glasses, moved over the chair, approached the window, and opened the letter to read.This letter has been kept in the old lady's pocket for more than half a year, and she has read it hundreds of times, almost upside down and can recite it... When Ms. Ru wrote this, she couldn't help laughing, and then continued Wrote: Numbled and said-"Dear mother! Have you received the letters I wrote before?

Now that I have arrived at the front enemy, I am used to the sound of gunfire and artillery fire.He didn't have the slightest fear, and he was used to killing people, so he didn't think it was such a cruel thing.Several times I was almost killed by others. When I came back from the battle, I recalled them one by one, like a dream.But there are two things that will never be blurred in my heart, that is, I love my motherland, I love my mother, mother!Why does the world have wars?If we want to be patriotic, why do we need war and kill people?Mother!The horn is sounding, and I'm going to battle again!

"Xihe's cousin is now on our team. He is often with me, and he also greets you, old man. Your son, Mengtao, is on February 18th." After the old lady finished reading the letter, the tears fell on her smiling face.She said to herself, "Tao'er! After all, killing people is a cruel thing!" Suddenly she became puzzled and said, "Why haven't there been any letters since this letter? Could it be..." She didn't dare to think, she felt a little trembling in her heart. At this time, the bell rang five times, the old lady woke up startled, she smiled again and said, "Didn't their express train come back at 4:30? Now he's almost home." Then the door opened, and He heard the sound of leather boots and waist knives.

The old lady's heart skipped a beat, she put down the letter and stood up. At this time, Ms. Ru Ru felt that she was tired of writing, so she put down her pen and leaned back in her chair, still thinking about it in her heart. After a while, the dinner bell rang, she packed up her pens and papers, and went downstairs. In the next day - two days - three days, she will not have the time to do it again. On the afternoon of the fourth day, she sat in front of the window again, but it was very dark outside the window, and the raindrops were dripping on the vine leaves, making a ringing sound.The flowers all over the garden bowed their heads, caged in the indifferent light smoke.A group of birds are perched deep in the leaves, brushing its feathers. Looking at the bleak and pitiful scenery, Ms. Feiru felt a little depressed, and suddenly remembered the novel, so she took the manuscript paper again, put it on the window sill, and slowly continued to write... and.The old lady hurriedly asked, "Xihe! Where's Tao'er?" Xihe didn't make a sound, just took a step closer, looked at the old lady sincerely and said, "Auntie! Brother Tao and..." He stopped talking here Yes, the old lady understood Xi He's faltering words and distressed expression in her heart, but felt a darkness in front of her eyes.

After a while the old lady woke up, opened her eyes and saw Xihe kneeling in front of her knees.The old lady didn't say a word, so she struggled to take the letter from the table, and looked at it vigorously, only to feel that..."gunshot"..."cannon fire"..."war"..."killing"... These words gradually surfaced on the paper, and gradually grew bigger, like demons, dancing in the air, and it seemed that their joyful and grinning voices could be heard in my ears. When the lady finished writing, she read it from the beginning. When she saw the last paragraph, she stood up in shock and said, "Didn't I want to write about the happy scene of their mother and child reunion? Why did it end like this?" The manuscript paper was torn, changed to a piece of paper, and picked up a pen to do it again.However, she couldn't write anymore, she only held the pen in her hand, staring blankly at the pile of shredded paper on the window sill.

There is happiness in the world... Brightness "In such a chaotic country, such a dark society, and such a sluggish heart, is there any other way for young people to go besides committing suicide?" Ling Yu trembled when she said these words. His voice was full of depressed and miserable feelings. He is only nineteen years old. He is a very calm and detached young man. He has been very enlightened since he was a child. He likes to read books such as inner classics. He looks at everything in the world like flowing clouds and flowing water, without interfering with himself. .But in the past few years, he has watched the general situation of the country, and he can't help but often think that the saying "everyone is responsible for the rise and fall of the world" temporarily abandons the ambition of "being alone" and wants to start a career. Save this distressed being.After he changed his ambition, he mustered up his enthusiasm and courage to move forward.

Since the occurrence of the Shandong issue, people in the country have been indignant. What kind of student unions, unions from all walks of life, have emerged in a turbulent way, and the popularity of the people has developed.Ling Yu was very happy, trying her best to think about how to arouse the soul of the country, how to resist foreign aggression, and run around exhausted physically and mentally.He thought that with such a thriving people, there might be some hope for the future of China.I don't want to think that after a few months, the excitement and enthusiasm in the society gradually faded unconsciously, and because of various patriotic movements, they could not achieve very satisfactory results. It's scattered.Looking at this half-dead phenomenon, he was very anxious, but it is difficult to recover the "crazy tide" of people's hearts.If you do it alone, there are too many things you can do, and you don’t know where to start; moreover, the strength of one person cannot last long, and you cannot achieve great results; One day, the foreign insults are getting worse day by day, I really can't stand by and watch!All in all, since he has plunged into this vortex and come into contact with these angry and troubled things, the ten thousand threads of trouble in his heart can't be cut no matter what, and he can never return to the calm and quiet nature of the past.

He was depressed and miserable, and when he reached the extreme, he suddenly thought of suicide.He thought that since there was no way forward or retreat, life was meaningless, and he would suffer a lot of pain instead, so it would be better to just let it go and let him feel clean, or he could excite others. After he made up his mind, within two hours, he quietly left the school and went to the seaside by himself. At this time, facing him, there is only the blue sea; behind him, there are only green mountains, and he stands alone on the reef.Waves of waves rolled up to his feet, and wave after wave receded.Waterfowl in twos and threes, skimming the water and flying.The crimson sunset glow in the sky, reflecting the dark green sea water, is extremely bright and lovely.Beside the horizon, the lighthouse on the island, against the glowing water, looks like a fairy mountain pavilion.It was the beginning of summer at this time, and the turbulent sea breeze was blowing slowly, blowing on his face.Although he had decided on the path of committing suicide by throwing himself into the sea, because of the current good scene, Ling Yu, who died in an instant, felt a sense of beauty in his cold heart.He clasped his hands tightly together, with tears in his silent eyes, he stood there for a while, and suddenly said to himself, "The time has come, don't miss it! I, Ling Yu, was buried in this thousand hectares of clear waves, It’s a worthy death, sunset, sunset glow, I bid farewell to you now!…”

"What's going on with this situation, I can't worry about it, everyone should do their own work!" The soft and melodious singing made Ling Yu turn around suddenly.A few steps away, there was a little boy and a little girl sitting opposite each other on the beach.They are all only about ten years old, with young hair covering their foreheads and picturesque eyebrows.The two smiled and held sand, piled up a small city, and planted a small national flag on the tower.They played and sang in unison.Ling Yu looked at the two children silently, forgetting about her own affairs.After a while, the little girl called out, "Xiao Lan, there are many wild flowers beside the cliff, you go and pick them, and we also planted them on the tower." Xiao Lan turned and walked towards the reef, but there was a gap between He couldn't walk across the water that was several feet wide, so he stopped, only smiling and looking at Ling Yu.Ling Yu smiled and said, "Do you want to pick wild flowers? I'll pick them for you, okay?" Then she picked flowers, jumped on the beach, and handed them to Xiaolan.Xiao Lan accepted it with a smile, and looked up at Ling Yu to express his gratitude.Ling Yu thought he couldn't be more cute, so he took his hand and walked to the side of the small town together, helping them to plant wild flowers.Xiaolan suddenly said, "Sir, what were you doing standing on the rock for a long time just now? Didn't you..." At this moment Ling Yu suddenly remembered the determination just now, her nerves were completely deranged, and she didn't hear the following words.After staying for a long time, he suddenly replied, "I want to take a dark and miserable road!" They heard it, and seemed very strange, and looked at Ling Yu with their dark eyes.Ling Yu didn't go on talking, only shed tears.They didn't know why, they lost their minds, stood up silently, and left hand in hand.Ling Yu was in a daze for a long time, and suddenly woke up. They had already walked a few steps away, and they couldn't help looking back.Ling Yu smiled slightly and nodded to them, and they also smiled and said, "Goodbye." Then they walked a few steps forward.Suddenly they stopped together again, turned around, and called out, "Sir! There is light in this world, and happiness in some. Please find it yourself! Don't take that dark and miserable path." The clear voice like a silver bell pierced through Into Ling Yu's ears, a ray of light suddenly appeared in his heart, and his heart was full of heat!Seeing their snow-white clothes, their gentle and holy smiling faces, and the red-gold sunset shining on their heads, like a round light on the top of an angel, shining brightly and unstoppably, Ling Yu almost wanted to worship with his palms together. .

The shadow of the angel gradually faded away; the sky gradually darkened, and the falling stars gradually emerged from the clouds. There was a cool breeze on the sea, the sound of the waves was surging, and the shadow of the water was dark.The light on the lighthouse flickers on and off.Ling Yu stood blankly on this lonely coast, and heard saying, "Sir, there is light in the world, and there is happiness in the world, please go find it yourself, don't take that dark and miserable road!" The voice was like a cloud Like Tianle, he sang back and forth several times, the halo in front of Ling Yu's eyes suddenly gradually enlarged, and the whole area was so bright that it almost broke through the night.All the gloom in his heart was dispelled, but a kind of inconceivable, solemn and beautiful emotion arose, flowing out of his mind, rippling back and forth in the air with the sound of the tide. At this time, he couldn't help tears streaming down his face, kneeling on the beach, looking up at the stars in the sky, and said softly, "I know, the world is full of light and love, waiting for young people to find it by themselves, don't go there A dark and miserable path!" It was later included in the collection of novels "Going to the Country".