Chapter 10 -2

three Jiu Shang did not return to the dormitory.There is only one other classmate in the dormitory, who is flipping through the book of ×××.Zhu went into the room. "Miss Long, isn't she here?" "It seems to be going to class." "I have no class after class, and neither has she." "That's at her brother's place." Zhu wanted to leave, but Long, who was in the same room, said, "For some reason, this child cried for a while today." Zhu replied "Oh", as if this matter was not her at all. Concerned about the matter, I hurried down the stairs, and I did meet the girl Jiu when I got to the stairs.They are all standing by the stairs for the time being.

"I went to your room to look for you, but I didn't see you." "What's up?" "Go and play with you, and I will lead you to a good place." "Would you like to go to the riverside to see the boats?" Zhu Zheng saw that the girl Jiu's slightly swollen eyes were sad, so he didn't answer immediately. Jiu said again, "Wait for me when you want to go, I will change my clothes, and my second brother is waiting for me outside." Zhu focused a little and thought for a while. He was going to invite Jiu to have fun, thinking that he could comfort the girl, but now it seemed that he was invited by Jiu, and suddenly he couldn't say anything.She said, "I'm not going," and no longer added "I remember" to Qitu's words.

Or the "I almost forgot" kind of verbal explanation, which can't be said, and immediately left.Girl Jiu didn't pay attention at all, and hurried upstairs to change.When the woman Zhu walked out of the house, she saw the man A standing on the road, putting his hands in his pockets in a military posture, and greeted her with a melancholy voice.The woman blushed slightly, nodded, and when she walked past man A, she was as docile as a kitten. Man A saw the back of the woman walking in the Daguangping, and did not expect that this was the first woman holding "compassion for others"

She came here with a heart, and then left with a heart of "lack of pity from others", a very lonely woman. The woman Zhu returned to her residence alone, and a woman in the same room was reading Li Shangyin's brocade poems. When she saw Zhu, she asked her if Li Yishan's poems were her usual happy poems.The woman Zhu Zheng was troubled by a little dispute in her heart, so she said strangely, "I don't love anything." After saying that, she sat on the side of her bed and didn't do anything, bewildered for a long time. Four The weather is almost deep in winter. Although the sun rises from the east and falls from the west all day long, and it is common for people to dry grains in the sun and work shirtless, those are just some uneducated, stupid and tenacious people. The behavior of inferior people, in XX school, and in the place where I work, I have set up coal stoves for the winter.Dirty men in twos and threes carried bamboo ladders, iron cylinders, and iron stoves to the Academic Affairs Office and then to the Office of Affairs. They ran all over the school, beating with big maces casually, and talking loudly when they passed outside the lecture hall.If it wasn't for the placement of the iron furnace, such a presumptuous behavior, I am afraid that a one-month salary would not be easy to make the dean happy.These workers had the opportunity to rest on the sofa in the reception room because of the installation of the stove.And as soon as he went out, he rushed to the dining place with the students and sat down.But although the young people eat with these men, they all understand that these are ignorant people, and they all know how to take care of themselves, so they don't have to talk to them anymore, and they don't ask how this year's coal stove is better than last year's. The price is different, and it is not necessary to know how much income these people earn from working every day. Because they are the children of school, they have to take four homework lessons before eating, and four homework lessons after eating, so they only record the content of the homework, or Just remember the name of the homework and the face of the professor who is in charge of this lesson.

Including people who occasionally write slogans in secluded places, these high-class people all understand the use of such things as status! Because I heard that the reception room with a newly installed coal stove and a new fire is very warm and pleasant. After class, many students sit around the stove in the reception room to keep warm and chat with their classmates. It was very comfortable. Some of them sang softly, some yawned, and were willing to take a nap next to the stove. Some people think of the fourth class before complaining, so they also become the Liberal Party. There were two other men, in a corner of the reception room, debating the current popular "art issues".Based on memory, each of them cited some examples that he didn't understand clearly in some new books that he had read once or twice.I also talk about poetry, it’s emotion, it’s emotion, it’s rhythm, and I’m talking about art, it’s revolution, it’s the cry of the lower classes, and it’s power. , so it had to end.Each of the two young people read one book, one book, and subscribed to "Fiction Monthly" and "Yusi" and "Beixin". They also read five or six translated books, listened to famous speeches, and could Good punctuation, and could do a bit of fiction.When these two accomplished young men talked about the intense tension, they were almost on the verge of breaking up and fighting. If they hadn't both thought of a friendship other than doctrine, the two geniuses would have exploded.Changing the direction of the conversation, the two talked about a female classmate, and they were on the same front. They both felt that the fifth girl was not bad, and there was reason to make people's heart beat when they remembered it. A woman's future lover.

At this time, boy A and girl Jiu met Wu at the station, and Wu saw someone off at the station, so they went back to school with the two brothers and sisters at the same time.Outside the window of the reception room is the road, and everyone who comes and goes can see it.As a rule, young people have feelings as soon as they see a woman, and they can create so many rumors and fantasies about a woman's words and deeds that they feel relaxed all over their bodies. When man A, girl Jiu and the other three walked by the side of the road, they were already a sophomore in the English department, with long hair and neat suits, who could be valued by an artist just by sending them to a pawn shop like that. This man already looked like an artist, and he was pressing his face against the glass window to watch the weather outside, when he suddenly saw Wu and A walking from outside together, his heart skipped a beat, and he croaked, just as he was talking about Wu's two words. They all looked out the window at the same time, without thinking about what they saw, and thought that it was necessary to use the jealousy of an ordinary man, each cursed a wild word, and guessed some rumors out of thin air. This thing that I imagined is troubled.The two went out deliberately, because they could try Five to see if she was still afraid. They met in the corridor, and Girl Five still approached the brother and sister. Man A didn't understand that he had such two enemies. He only paid a little attention to the faces of these two college students who had probably read a Shakespeare play and were proud of it, and he paid no attention to it except admiring the lucky appearance of a young man with big ears and a round head. walked over.

The two darlings seemed so insulted that they stopped going to the reception room to keep warm, and went to an empty classroom. When I got to the classroom, I picked up the scraps of chalk from the ground and wrote a sentence in English scolding the girls, so that I could feel a little calmer. That's how things happen in the world. Girl Fifth walked into Man A's residence without thinking about those two students from the same department.However, A doesn't make any assumptions, and always talks like a professor in a lecture hall, completely ignoring how the woman opposite is willing to have someone who understands her heart.But precisely because of this freedom, he talked a lot casually.And even more unrestrained is the girl Jiu, who treats people with the most innocent attitude. After the girl arrives at five, she still goes back to the dormitory as if she has gained something.

Fives Days and other worlds are now being wasted on wars, or on wine and food, or murders, or cries, or displays of flesh, or beatings of bamboo and wood. Although everything is different, night generally comes again. It's night, and the soldiers in the barracks are still singing in groups in the playground, just like the burial of the day, it needs the poorest stupid human beings in the world to sing and shout, so that the god of night can sadly grab a handful Darkness spilled on the ground. ------------------ exclusive launch Chapter Four one Ten days passed.The weather has changed.During the day, the strong wind blows from the north, blowing powerfully, and it doesn't stop until late at night.

In Daguangping, there are countless things with legs running on it, and the withered grass is trembling in the wind.In the evening, there was no one in Daguangping, except for one or two small restaurant food deliverers walking past with their heads bowed.In the dark night, the electric lights on the sidewalks near the school are very desolate, emitting a dim yellow light. The wind blows in the Guangping, in the corner of the house, walking everywhere, and pushing through the windows and doors everywhere, one or two walks from the corridor. People who passed or walked from the end of Guangping all shrunk their necks and walked away, fearing that they would be pulled away by the wind.

Man A was so tormented by the fire of annoyance in his heart that he remembered that girl Jiu's quilt was too thin, and he was afraid that it would be cold and insomnia at night, so he sent the woolen blanket he used to the girls' dormitory.When I got there, I saw Zhu, who was talking to the girl Jiu, and smiled unnaturally when he saw A. This was the first time that smile walked past A ten days ago.Because originally, as long as there is a little disagreement, as soon as I arrive at Jiu's place, I can decide to see A, but Zhu often avoids A on purpose because of a very disturbing dispute.She knew that A was often at Jiu's office, so she didn't dare to come to Jiu's office.She knew that Yu and Wu had a relationship that was better with Jiu than she was with Jiu, because she was afraid that Jiu would mention it to Yu and Wu, so she stopped talking with Jiu in class.Because the wind was strong tonight, she thought that she would never meet A, so she came to the nine place to talk.

Unintentionally, they were still together, and the woman Zhu wanted to leave without saying anything. Man A said, "I'm bothering you, I'm sorry. I have to go to work, I'd better go first, you can talk more." Girl Jiu also said, "Don't go, you should play again, and I will take you back later." The woman Zhu had to sit down. Although the man A wanted to leave, he couldn't leave for a while.Girl Nine asked him about the new women's issue, how should it be expressed in a play, and wanted him to explain it for him and tell him a solution.This matter was exactly what Zhu Tongjiu discussed before Man A came here. Man A thought for a while, shook his head and smiled. "How about it? Tell us a little bit. Tell us your opinion. We are talking about how to describe it if we don't know the method, and how to extend the overall situation into a perfect script." Man A said, "What's Miss Zhu's opinion?" "I have no objection. I think," she said as if she was herself, "tragedy is not necessarily about human bloodshed. I don't know if it is. Please ask Mr. A for instructions. I think that men should be stubborn at work, and women should be stubborn. It is also possible to be stubborn in consciousness. If she has a stubborn heart and encounters obstacles in career desires, she should be able to be a new person within the new moral concept, but she sees reluctance everywhere. This conflict of hearts is a tragedy. " Girl Nine said, "I don't understand that at all." "What do you kids want to know about this?" Man A said, then changed his tone and said to Zhu, "You are absolutely right. Tragedy is not death, it is not bloodshed, and sometimes tears are not tragedy.Tragedy should smile, and there are helpless smiles everywhere. " Girl Jiu and girl Zhu Jie were really smiling, but girl Jiu still didn't understand these things very well, so she read the words from the script.At this time, because he heard someone talking on this side, Wu Tongyu came to this room with an excuse.Yu asked the girl what Jiu was discussing, it was so lively. Everyone seems to talk about the new women without restraint. During the man A's discussion, the three women all have their own ideas in their hearts. They carefully avoid the sharp edge of the words and cover up their feelings with a smile or another action. .Later, the girl who shared the room with girl Jiu also came back from another dormitory.This is a woman with an extremely ordinary appearance, silent and demure, sitting beside her bed and listening to these people talking, and when she said something that she seemed to be able to understand, there was a trace of a smile on her scheming face. Man A suddenly remembered that he was bored here.He is leaving.He left Girl Jiu's dormitory with an unreliable reason of "going to do something", went downstairs to Daguangping, and walked across Guangping.The wind was extremely strong, and the electric lights beside the road were as dim as phosphorous fire. Man A walked across the grass because he wanted to walk across the dark and deserted lawn. No one was seen five steps away from Pingzhong, but when he walked to the front, it was clear that someone was rushing past in front, terrified, and rushed to the outside of the school.In front is the wooden post of the goal, and words and sentences written in white chalk can be vaguely seen.Man A has a clear mind, and feels that a young man can see his own direction clearly. As long as he chooses it, whether he writes slogans, distributes leaflets, or shouts, he is always an admirable first-class youth.Because I felt that this young man also needed to know, so I pretended to be calm and went to the communication office by the school gate, and waited as if to see if there was any letter, to see who dared to write the slogan before ten o'clock. What a character.After waiting for a while, a person came from outside the school.If man A could still remember the time when Tong Wu came back from the station together, two second-year English students walked by the corridor, and he still secretly admired the young man's good looks, Then you will remember that this is one of the youths.But man A only knew that this was an English student, and he had seen him talking to a classmate in English, and now he dared to write a slogan when he saw him, so he thought that this must be a thoughtful person. This person knows.The man didn't expect that Man A wanted to get acquainted with him, and he didn't expect that someone suspected that he was the character who had just written something with chalk, and went back to the dormitory dignifiedly. two When the woman Zhu Yiren returned to her own dormitory from the Huangzi dormitory, she also had to cross Guangping.Because it was a strong wind and the child had a bad temper, we had to send her to the Daping Center, and the two separated and went back to their dormitories.This wayward proposal was naturally not accepted by Zhu. At the end, I borrowed a flashlight from the fifth place, put on Jiu's overcoat, and walked from the Daping by myself.According to the rules, a timid woman will not think the distance is too long, and she should walk on the track of an ordinary track race, because there are some lights next to the track.But it was also because of the strong wind, and he had a flashlight in his hand, so he was fearless, so when he arrived, he also crossed Daping as the way that man A took. I also accidentally saw the chalk book on the goal post, and I took a photo with a flashlight, and a line of words was written crookedly, which read: Professor A and the fifth girl in this department are lovers, (all) beat them down. About all the characters should be "the", and the smart college students are wrong.Zhu, who saw such a slogan, was infatuated.This kind of slogan was just written for her alone, she hesitated for a while, then hurried away.But after walking a few steps, he turned back, wiped off all the writing on the wooden pillars, and returned to the dormitory in vain.While thinking of these men or the boring men who wrote many letters to him at another time, he did not forget the words, and remembered how Wuyu called the girl Jiu a lamb in the past, so how could he treat the lamb well? , very sad in my heart.The college student who wrote this slogan was proud of himself in the dormitory, thinking that everyone would call him comrades when they saw each other the next day. Unexpectedly, the words had another meaning in Zhu’s opinion, as if they were written on their hearts with blood. The chalk writing was erased at that time. three "There is no greed for anything young people do, only work is my duty." Man A was thinking this way, and sat in his room and was about to start writing a short story. The theme was young people who were suffering from political depression, so they were brave and tragic, and wrote slogans everywhere in the middle of the night. Saying "it's windy at night", someone knocked on the door. "Please!" A colleague came in with the word please, a second-year English professor at a university, 31 years old, with a flat face and short nose, because of the new suit, his spine was straightened, and he walked with a very Western demeanor ×× Provincial people.It was probably for the sake of fame, so I often came to the residence of man A to talk.As usual, man A and his colleagues and students are treated without distinction. When they come, they sit on the bed, eat when they have something, and don’t take care of the hot water when there is nothing. He is very reserved, and he seems to be very familiar with it after being there three or two times.Every time the English professor came here, he always said "Are you writing?" which seemed to be a joke and admiration, and he agreed to say "No", and then sat down. If you promise to "do a little thing", then say "don't do it for too long, I will change your direction".How to change direction?It is necessary for A to listen to this professor's brilliant confession, how to study, how to teach, and how to often write articles in English, but it is not very good, and when he talks, he reveals a little injustice to the English level of "doctors". Mistrust of celebrities, that's all.Although I often feel bored, sometimes I feel "ambitious" in the troubles It's also a good thing to talk to someone who is a person, so this person often has the opportunity to come. People are coming in now, breaking the usual practice, and don't ask the question "are you writing?" "You turned off the light earlier, where did you go?" "I won't come back until the girls' dormitory." "You writers are..." He meant, with a sensitive right mind, to say "Girls always like you" But I immediately felt that this was not very good, so I stopped talking. After a while, the professor changed the direction again, and said with a completely unconvinced air of layman: "You are here, our school can give you a lot of novel materials!" Man A smiled and thought to himself: "Of course I'm just looking for materials." As usual, when man A talks to his colleagues, there are many opportunities to be embarrassed. For example, when making a fuss, they are always happy to talk about a little layman's opinion politely, and at the same time, they don't forget to provide the embryo of a story, such as who loves whom, how to love, who is robbed, and later pays respects to the robbers. son.Otherwise, if they say "my life can be written as a masterpiece, strange and great", they think this is good material for a writer! Students write articles in the same way. They write a story in 500 or 1,000 words, and it takes a lot of effort to finish it. It seems to me that I am often very moved.So I copied it out in a regular manner and handed in the paperwork.The whole innocence leaves one completely helpless, and all explanations are useless.When encountering this situation, man A can only nod his head in approval, smile, or say "very right, very right", so colleagues feel that this young professor is interesting. Not so annoying anymore.This English professor really believes that every conversation has a great influence on a writer, so he often said as a joke, "Don't write me as a character in a book!" Make a wry smile. At this time, the English professor walked around the room with his leather shoes rattling, as if he couldn't forget what he said earlier, so he asked man A again: "Are there any girls in our school who are talented?" "I don't know. Women are usually smart, and of course there is no shortage of very good women." "Of course, (nods branch) otherwise, (shakes head branch) I mean writers should match writers to complement each other. dont you agree? " Because of this banter, man A has nothing to say.From hearing this, I realized that I usually go to the female dormitory, and I have already paid attention to these knowledgeable university professors.He thought to himself that it was very difficult to talk to these people, and he didn't understand the irony. If he didn't make a sound, he thought it was a guilty conscience, and he might as well fabricate some rumors and spread them among the students.Thinking of this, I felt a little pitiful, so man A said: "I thought about it too. One was looking for materials, and the other was looking for women, so I came to this place." The professor didn't think it was ironic at all, so he asked man A in a soft and concerned tone: "Who is it? Tell me." "Of course I want to tell you. After a while, I still need your help with many things. Are you happy?" "Naturally. I can always solve any problems. But you have to beware of Mr. X, he is extremely bad, spreading rumors everywhere, and he has eight o'clock classes a week, and there is always twenty-four o'clock to criticize other people's things. This man is really a person who dare not learn." As for Mr. ××’s gnashing of teeth, it is obvious that he has suffered from ×× in some matters between men and women. Man A guesses that this man must have fallen in love with some woman, so he is so happy to talk about the genius of girls.So he asked the English professor: "You are a genius, is there such a woman in your class?" The man didn't make a sound, only to see man A dumbfounded. Man A asked again, "Tell me, who is it? You must have discovered it for a long time. Of course, you know a lot more than me in the past two years." Still smiling stupidly, his face became even more oblate because of his joy and complacency. When man A didn't ask any more questions, the man said softly: "They all said that ××× is the first in the whole school." This guy turned out to be a person with a wound in his heart. Although he was born with a face that should be more responsible, he has a heart that cannot be content with being ordinary. There is no problem that he loves the student ×××.Man A thought of the uselessness of all men, so he was very sad when he heard this shallow and ridiculous behavior that was desperately looking for opportunities to complain. . "She chose your class again, how happy she is!" The professor said again. Man A can only see the university professor wryly smile.Because there is absolutely no need for such unreasonable and pitiful jealousy. Even though I am thinking about a woman day and night, I never think of any girl in this school.But I have to explain to this kind of stupid person, saying that I want my colleagues to rest assured, I am here to seriously say that it is just life, neither I want to learn from my colleagues to find creative materials, nor do I want to fall in love with any of the girls. I believe this professor is also very clear.After arriving, he offered the English professor a cigarette, which represented his sympathy.The circle of smoke circled the face that was getting flatter and flatter, and it was gently stroked, and then spread out. When the professor praised the smoke, man A saw the best example of human tragedy on his face. . Because he did not forget his flat face during the smoking season, man A leaned on the table alone, the edge of his heart seemed to be eaten by a kind of melancholy, and he could no longer write the article he had planned to write before.Thinking of the tragic behavior of young people who wrote slogans, thinking of the torment of flat-faced people's stupid and vulgar love, man A has not undressed to sleep until twelve o'clock.But the flat-faced professor in another small room, already in the new cotton wool, dreamed of knocking down the man A who robbed him with a punch, and knelt down in front of ××× to read English poems about courtship. Four The fifth girl in the dormitory with yellow letters wrote a long letter by candlelight, and when it was finished, she didn't have the courage to send it. ------------------ exclusive launch chapter Five one The girl Zhu felt very lonely.Especially with the girl Jiu.However, when seeing man A with girl Jiu, he always excused himself and left immediately.Occasionally, I also asked Jiu if he was Huanxi Wu. Jiu's answers were mostly children's words, and he didn't pay attention to it at all. If Mr. Zhu lost something, he was silent for a long time. One day, in Boy A’s class, we were talking about the direction and progress of new Chinese literature. Because of the introduction of slogan literature, Boy A talked about the feelings of other people who wrote slogans. Houses and other places are very unrestrained to write some characters. If you are more artistic, you can become a poet. When it comes to this, everyone laughs. Among them was a person who had written something with a pencil on the wallboard, with a reddish face.Man A also talked about how he respects that kind of people. The girl Zhu sitting in the student seat didn't make a sound, but also smiled along with everyone.When I met Jiu at the end of the class, I said, "Mr. A doesn't know that someone wrote a slogan and scolded him and Miss Fifth." Girl Nine said, "Who?" "I don't know who it is, it happened half a month ago." "Say what?" "Mr. A and Wu are a couple..." "It's so funny, the second brother himself doesn't know at all." "I'm afraid no one will know, because I wiped it when I saw it." "I'm going to tell Miss Fifth." "Hey, no. Don't tell her, this is something you can't say casually." "Then you told me again!" "You are such a child." Zhu left, and Jiu went to her second brother's residence.Man A is correcting a paper, and there are still many papers on the table that he has not read. "Second brother, I heard that someone wrote a slogan to scold you." "That's nothing. This is the strength of college students." However, after changing some other people's manuscripts, he asked Jiu again: "Who are you listening to?" "It's Zhu." "where?" "I don't understand. She seems to say that she saw this text more than ten days ago. It was written in chalk, and she wrote you and Wu together, saying that they are a couple." "This is a very unreasonable rumor, and I'm afraid it's almost as if it was fabricated by a woman." "Girls don't have such interest." "Does Five know?" "I don't seem to know that Zhu Tongwu is not good. She doesn't allow me to sue Wu." Man A just laughed.He thought: "For sure, a woman's heart is not shallow, but too sensitive." After a while, he said: "Jiu, did Zhu ask you anything else?" Jiu said no.Because she was afraid of hindering her second brother's work, Jiu left after telling the story.Man A thinks that Jiu must have said some naive words, and probably said these words in Wu Tongyu and many other students.Man A was a little pleased with these women because it seemed a good place to put himself in a place where he could sing.But if there are really naive college students in this school who, with their little cleverness, spread some rumors outside of class, making the rumors develop in some people's minds in an absurd way, and the ridicule and jealousy continue, It is still an intolerable pain on the part of man A. It seems that no matter what, even though the written slogan was only seen by Zhu alone, as long as someone actually felt the need to write some ridiculous words in a place where the public can see, it can be seen that there must be others. Many other young people have been accumulating the seeds of this rumor in their hearts for many days.For this matter, should we think about how to deal with it?Or just love it seriously, even though some people read books all day long and stop reading to "injustice".Or leave this place, so that some young men and some women can fall in love with each other, and get a chance to blush in a heartbeat.These are the methods.Using this method or that method can change one's own position at this time, and at the same time can change the position of all people's hearts.But he didn't do any of these two things. He thought that if Wu had this desire, it would give Wu a good opportunity to cultivate this desire, and if he didn't have it at all, then it would give Zhu Ye some opportunities to do other things. one Ben Wu's examination papers were dug out, page by page was inspected, except for traces of cleverness, there was no other concealment at all.He threw the paper away, and said to himself in his heart, "It's impossible, I can't stop this rumor from spreading, and it will make this woman stand forever in her senseless attitude in one matter. I have to let some people who are often around me know that I have no love for anyone, and I have no pain for anyone. I can’t have any reason to be pitiful in front of you young people. If I commit suicide one day, I just hate everything. I am happy to live in the same world with many people. For this reason, I may commit suicide. When I really don’t want to live, I am just because someone loves me. I may jump into the river and drown. But there is no woman in this school who makes me weary of the world!" But how to make this rumor no longer occupy a certain person's heart, man A doesn't think about the solution. two It's just a reason. Man A likes to analyze some personnel matters. The result is that although a matter that can be dealt with calmly, he still can't let it go completely.Boy A saw Zhu in the school's small court, Zhu looked very embarrassed, wanted to walk but couldn't, seemed very pitiful. "Miss Zhu, I heard Jiu talk about something you sued her." The woman's red face was speechless, and she looked down to the ground. "Is this really the case?" "I have no reason to spread rumors. It happened half a month ago." "They are so pitiful, I really think they are very pitiful, and I will leave here in a month, and everyone will be happy." "If you go, everyone will be happy... Of course someone will be happy! I think so." Man A laughed, and girl Zhu felt that what man A said and what she said could make her heart weak, to the point where she had to cry, stopped saying anything, nodded, and ran to the other side of the court to the group of female students up.Man A suddenly felt the need to leave this place urgently.Just for my own selfishness, it seems better to leave this place early.Because of all necessary progress, completely trap oneself in a situation from which one cannot extricate oneself.I usually focus my mind on my own work and my own sorrow and appreciation. Once I have to take on some unnecessary responsibilities in these men and women's affairs, life will be more troublesome. But the man A who came here, the weather still can't install a stove in his residence, the finished novel has already been returned with a very polite reason, and it was sent to another place, the second time Disappointment also got.Now all schools have to be on vacation for only one month, the book industry is extremely sluggish, and it is impossible to get any money from places where you are acquainted, and it is not suitable to change schools. If you still move to Shanghai to live, what will you use to pay for the rent? Food?Shanghai is not Beijing. Once you live there, you can live for half a year without a penny. Beijing can’t just fly away. Where can you find life in the foreign concessions?And people who don’t quite understand their own dispositions that make them come here to teach will think that young people have no perseverance, change their minds, abandon their inherent occupations and wander around, which is incurable.Although one's own life may not necessarily be perfect, it is still a pain to give the convenience of this misunderstanding to others.Also, being poor made him a person that many people disliked him in the past, and now he is still unable to take life seriously because of being poor. After watching the behavior of the young people interested in the game for a while, and watching the ordinary faces of the spectators who enjoy watching the game for a while, Man A feels the burden of evil in his heart, and feels that using others The happiness of being a role model can never be achieved, so I went back to my residence alone and sat down at the small table I usually use for writing. Because the thing in my heart is not allowed to expand, and reading an old book is entrusted to my soul that has nowhere to go. three These people all went to nine places after eating.In front of Jiu Tong Wu Tong Yu, the girl Zhu is extremely unnatural.The obligation of being a man is that this woman has more than all other people.She knew a few more things, and she got a lot of trouble for these things. Seeing Zhu's silence, Jiu thought it was something else on her mind, so she said, "Miss Zhu, you look like Avalokitesvara. I heard that Avalokitesvara is kind and sad." "What am I worried about? What your child said is not counted." Wu smiled knowingly, as if he knew the reason for the silence.However, thinking that Zhu was just having a dispute with another man, he asked Zhu frankly, "Is it because of one person?" Zhu turned around and talked to Yu as he had never heard this.She said, "Miss Yu, have you finished reading "People's Heart"?" "Where can people's hearts be read?" Jiu interjected like this. "I mean the Maupassant novel." Yu said, "I've seen half of it, it's okay." "You'll probably think it's better after you've seen it. But the women on it are too much. It was probably a French woman. " "You mean what should Chinese women do?" "I don't mean that I understand Chinese women very well. But the average Chinese woman is—" Jiu Zheng gave Wu a wooden box, and when the wooden box opened it made a loud noise, everyone was startled. Jiu said, "This box is very strange, it can hardly talk." "Child," Zhu said softly, snatching the box into his hand to read. "If it could talk, you'd enjoy it even more." Five said, "If it can talk, it can say 'I hate you, hate you,' and if you don't believe it, just ask it." The woman Zhu showed a pitiful look on her face, and handed the box to Jiu, "Exactly! If you have a mouth, you are very smart and can speak a lot.I admire it very much.great.Very cute. " The girl Yu saw the two people talking strangely and smiled innocently, and said, "Mouth is not for talking, remember?" Jiu said, "That's something that eats pears and candies." The other three felt amused when they heard this.When Jiu talked about candy, he remembered the candy that his second brother bought back when he went to Shanghai to inquire about the manuscript the day before yesterday, so he took out the carton from the box under the bed and invited everyone to eat candy.Jade is the first to get candy. Girl Five said, "Yu, why are you eating candy again?" Yu remained silent, tossing a piece of ocher coffee candy into his mouth and chewing slowly.At the end, Wu also ate a piece of candy as usual, and wanted to take it again, when Yu suddenly remembered something, held Wu's hand tightly, and said, "I mean, your mouth is not for eating. It’s for sugar, let you eat it once, and you still don’t control the extra benefits, it won’t work!” "What a sharp mouth! You can really curse! But I still want to eat candy." "It's just not allowed to eat!" So they scrambled, and each made a fuss in a woman's wayward manner. In the end, Yu, who was stronger, snatched the box containing the essence and stood in the middle of the room. Wu was helpless.Yu Tu said five times: "Five, your job is free, you should be free!" Wu didn't answer, and sighed softly, thinking about what was on his mind. 玖却说，“这里还有一个更好的东西，”她把抽屉里剩下的一种香糖给了五。“试试这个，吃过了你满口会香！” 女孩玖并且把这香糖也分给了站在一旁微笑的朱，朱摇头拒绝了，用“不能再吃” 作为理由，意思却是“这糖只有五一个人有分能吃”。玉也拒绝吃香糖，说是“那个并不是人人有分的东西”。 五就一人吃香精，神气很自然，说，“我吃了看你们怎么样！” 玖一点不觉得这些女人为什么说话行事必须这样难于理解。她当真是一个小孩子，在这些情形中，仿佛不能了解这些女人很快乐健康生活，到了二哥面前，谈谈故事时，二哥因为这话所生的摇动，这孩子也没有见到。 Four 四个人不到一会就上课去了，与女孩玖同住一房因为有朱等来此才走出到外面花圃的那女人，回到房中，看着满地包糖花纸，摇摇头，就拿起一册放到女孩玖写字桌上男子Ａ所作的××小说来看。她很懂这些女子同玖能要好的原因，她虽与玖同房，却反而没有什么话说了。 这人是数学系二年级学生。一个看来也不讨厌也不使人特别欢喜的女子。年纪是二十一岁。看样子是规矩中人。男子Ａ间或来女孩玖房中时，这女人总是很少说话，沉默的坐在自己位子上，看看书，或假装看书，听玖同她二哥说话。男子Ａ一点也不会想到这是一个了不起的女人。 这女子这时看了两页书，心中仿佛非常烦乱，不能自持，放下书，伏在自己的字桌上来写信了。到听打下堂钟为止，把信写成了，又把信藏到衣箱里去。 At night.男子Ａ同玖把饭吃过后。 “玖，你认得这是谁写的字？” 男子Ａ把一个信封给玖看。女孩玖看了一会，就摇头。 “认不出，又好象是熟人的笔，非常熟，就说不分明是谁。” “你看是象朱的？” “不。朱的字体很写得长，我看得出。” “象不象玉的？” “也不象。” “象五的？” “更加不象。”玖肯定的回答了她哥哥的询问，又把那信封拿到手上反复的看，“二哥，为什么得这个信？写些什么话，让我看看好不好。” “不送你看。这奇怪极了！上一次我接到了一封也是很怪的信，里面只说一句话，说得很怪，在一张纸上写上：”你真是有幸福的人！ '我先以为是一些学生做的事，很平常，把它扯了。今天又得一个信，字迹似乎同前次的一样，写的话是女人口气，你说怪不怪。 " “写些什么？” “写得很可笑。但这个人我觉得是很可怜的。这人以为我当真是有幸福的人，并引了我写在××××上的两句诗。一定是女人，信上就是不说是女人，也可以看得出是一个女子的口吻。” “也许是男学生胡闹，开这样玩笑。” “上面又并不是玩笑话，我猜想是……”“我看朱——”“可是你说不是朱的字。 并且我认定也不是朱写的，因为语气近于同我并不很熟的一个人。 " 女孩玖在心中揣想一切同学，想了半天，想到另外一些事了。到后忽然说道：“二哥，你实在是有幸福的人，别人说得不错！” 女孩玖的笑话，使男子Ａ沉默了许久。 晚上到后落细雨了，男子Ａ把玖送回宿舍，过玉五房中说了一会话，吃糖，说女人在新的世纪里应当如何多明白认识自己那一类话，雨大了，借伞回去，说是不必送回，明天自己来取，那是女生五的话。 女孩玖回到自己房里去时，见到同宿舍的女同学正把脸伏在枕上，象是在哭。 “什么事？不舒服么？” 这女人见到女孩玖问她，就摇头，且作苦笑，稍过一阵，就聊以排遣的样子唱起上一天所学的一支洗衣人歌来了。 同样的是这冬天晚上细雨霏微里，被饭馆主人用懒惰的一种原因打了一拳又踢了一脚的送饭江北小孩，拭着眼泪提了饭篮正从广坪走到女生宿舍楼下，很寂寞的捡拾女生们把饭吃过放到楼梯下的碗盏，把碗碟相磕发大声音。为女生服务的妇人，以为是狗来了，开了门就想把手上的木槌掷去，见到是送饭孩子，就说：“多福，我差一点把你当狗打了。” 孩子什么也不说，不管当狗当人，只望到栏杆上一顶红纸做成的高帽子出神，因为这帽子是在日里学校赛球时学生们戴到头上的东西，这时却戴到上楼梯的栏杆的木头上了。 ------------------ exclusive launch Chapter Six one 女孩玖在男子Ａ的房中低低的哭泣。男子Ａ一脸是血，静静的躺在床上。满地是血染。桌上一条用为擦手的毛巾，也全染成红色了。 窗外落雪了，小鹅毛片样子正在落，从窗上望去，望得见两个相叠的红色屋顶，上面匀匀的铺着薄雪，把屋顶渐渐的变成了白色。 房中还无火炉，故清冷异常。男子Ａ是从早上流过许多鼻血以后还不曾起过床的。 “玖，什么时候了？”男子Ａ幽幽的涩塞的声音问，见女孩玖不作声，就叹气，说，“为什么这样子？我不是说过我们应当好好的活下来么？” 玖用那因为流泪已略显得红肿的眼睛望到男子Ａ，男子Ａ就又说道：“怎么这样子？ 眼睛又肿了！别人笑你！二哥这点点血是不会死的。纵要死，也不是哭的事。我算是尽过我的本分了，天使我到这种情形，应当想想哭以外的法子！前几天不是同二哥说到要做男性的女子么？如今是时候了。如今还是应当努力，譬如二哥，不工作，怎么办？工作结果虽仍然象这样子，没办法了就流点血，但是我们总算活过一段了。 " 女孩玖仍然不做声，不哭了，坐到平时二哥做事的桌边，只痴痴的望到窗外的飞雪，为男子Ａ的病心中难过，热的泪还是沿了脸上流下，滴到前襟。直到男子Ａ想把身体抬起，恐怕又得流血了，才很轻的说，“你不要起来，再摇动是不行的！” 男子Ａ就仍然躺下了，问：“雪还在落么？” “落得很大。” “你穿这点点衣，冷不冷呢？” “很好过。” “很好过，可是不许为我这件事哭泣！” 女孩玖就把脸背了男子Ａ，“这样流，怎么办？” “我这点血毫不要紧，你不能随便哭！你这时节没有在你二哥面前流泪的权利，因为你知道我玻你自己转到宿舍去看看书好了，你或者就坐到这里看书。我明天一好就又可以写更好的文章了。我记到每一个集子我总有一篇文章是流过鼻血以后写成的。流过血一次，我就又有精神了，或者明天，或者后天，一定可好。他们既然说文章要篇数多，才能照得行市算钱，我就写许多短篇出来，同他们再做一次生意，让这些人刻薄一次。 有了钱，我们可以办一个炉子，买点药，把你衣服赎出当铺，还了这里火食账，病也不怕了。 " “但是这时节怎么办？我想可以到上海去向蔡小姐借一点钱来，你还是到医院去。” “医院有什么用处？我这样子你以为我可以坐三十分钟汽车么？” “请江边的医院医生来也好。” “莫做这呆事情。医生不是为我们这种人预备的！你让我静静的躺一天，不要为我担心，你要玩就同五她们玩去，你昨天不是说朱要你到她那里去吃从家乡带来的菜么？ 仍然还是去好。 " “我不想玩。” “那就在这里看书。把我告你那本书念过再玩，你应当照到我说的话，书念完了做点记录，你不能又借故不做。” “我不欢喜那书。我现在来为妈写信好了。” “好，就写信也好，只不许哭。你要校役把地下血点洗去，把手巾也搓洗一下，这时不流了，我自己很明白。” 女孩玖就走到门边去叫了两声用人，返身到桌边预备写信。男子Ａ又嘱咐：“不许说身体不好，不许说又流了血，应当说一切很好，知道么！” 女孩玖点头，把一张信纸开始写着“近来我同二哥身体很好……”一面把不能制止的眼泪滴到纸上。过了一会，男子Ａ问：“好了么？”女孩玖说：“好了，你不要看，我念给你听。”她就对那仅仅写过一句话的一张信纸，读着许多使男子Ａ听来愉快的话。 two 在扁脸教授的房中，照料宿舍的长头校役正把白铁壶中的沸水倒进热水瓶。 扁脸汉子说，“Ａ先生在住处么？” "exist." “有女学生么？” “没有，你家，他病了，鼻孔流血，今天爬不起来了，你家。” “哈，有这回事？怎么不请医生看？” “今天是礼拜，校医到上海去了。” “病了没有人来看他吗？” “就是那个小姐，他的妹妹吧，你家。” “别是传染病？” “不是，是老玻” “鼻子破了吃三个蜗牛会好。” 校役把水瓶灌满了，所以不说蜗牛应当如何吃，只说“先生还要水不要水？”扁脸教授于是仍然说，“把蜗牛三个敲碎生吃，治百玻”校役出门不久，这教授就到男子Ａ的房中了。一进门就问血是不是还在流，还不等男子Ａ回答，就又把蜗牛治病的方法告给了男子Ａ，一种天真的热情见出这人的肝胆。男子Ａ倦怠不能支持，卧到床上，不作声，然而点头，意思表示感谢也表示一切领教了，对于这方法将来是总得试试，就因为这丹方新奇，说来也很动听。 扁脸教授在房中各处望了一会，“Ａ先生，人病了，寂寞不寂寞。” 男子Ａ说，“并不寂寞。”男子Ａ这意思是“纵寂寞也是当然。”但扁脸教授却以为这样话极中肯了，他得到一个方便把一个女人的名姓提出了，他问男子Ａ，有学生来看过没有。 告他没有谁来，就又露出不大相信得过的伟人神气，“我好象听到×××在你房中说话，”这样说时且悻悻的笑，把一个俗物的脸更夸张的摆在Ａ眼前。 男子Ａ望到扁脸教授，心里想：“你这呆子，凭什么理由总得来我这里谈一个与我毫无关系的女人？”可是男子Ａ也并没有说出口来，沉默的态度倒给了扁脸教授一种同样的领会，以为男子Ａ同自己一样对于×××这个名字也能悦耳适心，故第二次这女人名字提出时，且附以由自己感觉到的猜想，说是“有人造谣言说×××同你很好”这样荒谬绝伦的话，男子Ａ分分明明看得出这谣言就只是这俗物的谣言，所以说：“既然有了谣言，将来或者就特意来把这谣言证实一下，也是很有趣味的事。” “可是我不相信，因为这属于不可能。” “你怎么不相信？是可能的。”男子Ａ看不过这人的样子，所以故意说出这话来窘这扁脸教授，“本来是谣言，但我这人的趣味是不避谣言，却常常把生活跌到谣言里去，以为这至少也可以使一些造谣的人又开心又不舒服。” “你这个人这样可真不得了，太浪漫了！” “本来不浪漫！” “但是谣言算不得什么，我们生存有一个更大目的，不是与谣言这东西对抗的。你这样一来不是太浪漫了么？” “本来是严肃的！”男子Ａ几乎是在嚷了，因为很奇怪某一种人耳朵对于言语的解释特别。 但扁脸人还是说教授不能浪漫，“太浪漫了就要病，我听说，你流了许多血，可了不得！” 男子Ａ忽然又觉得同这种人说话为无聊了，就把脸掉到另一面去，对墙装睡。 扁脸教授似乎为怜恤天才的原因，叹息了两声，轻轻把门带上走去了。男子Ａ想到这俗物又单纯又狡猾的心事，哭笑皆非。可是想不到是这人回到他自己房里时，就告给校工即刻应当为Ａ教授找寻蜗牛的话。他似乎想从这些事情上尽一个朋友的义务，使男子很明白×××是有了一个爱人，而这爱人自己虽间或造点谣言，是不许谣言从另外口中发生，也不许谁证实这谣言的。男子Ａ在流血衰惫中静静的体会到面前活跃的一切人行为心情，但在另一空间的人事，男子Ａ完全没有猜中。 three 女孩玖到了自己宿舍，一双美丽的眼睛显得略肿。对于玖的注意，是近于与玖同房女人的义务，已经有许多日子了。 那女人每见到女孩玖一时非常天真的笑闹，一时又很可怜的样子坐到自己座位上，半天不做事，总觉得有一点不安。本来不欢喜同其他女人说话的性格，在与同房的女孩玖是应当把脾气稍稍改正了一点的。但因为女孩玖还是另外一个人的妹子，那女人，为了一种隐匿在心中深处的罪孽，虽同在一个房间住下，同玖也不能说多少话语了。 这时这女人见到玖眼睛是哭过的眼睛，就在心上猜想这红肿因由。 另一个女子来邀玖到×××去开××会，本来是先两天答应了的期约，现女孩玖却说不愿意同去，因为身体不好。那来邀玖的女人走了。同房的女人得了说话的机会，“是不是有病？” 玖不做声，想了一会。到后才说： “我哥哥鼻子坏了，血流了许多。” 同房女人听到这个话，脸色白了一点，好象是这鼻血同女孩玖的眼睛，皆由于自己所作荒唐事所成，神气很不安定，到后破了例，一个人披了大衣，走到江边去了。玩了一点钟才回来，全身是雪。回来时，见玖同朱正把头聚在一处念书，心中若有所失，第二次复又离开宿舍到图书馆去。看了一些宗教神学的书籍，一些在图书馆看杂志的男子同学，皆估计这女人是一个努力读书的好女子，她自己则一点不曾注意到书上的文字内容指示的是些什么东西。 到晚上，因为玖的原因，朱同玖曾到过男子Ａ房中坐了一会。晚来雪更大了。然而天气转比白天暖和了许多，所以到病人处谈了一会以后，朱仍然伴女孩玖回宿舍，两个人毫无顾忌的谈到男子Ａ的病中情形。年青的玖，忽然说到她二哥接到的信那件事了，她说：“不知是谁，写这样信给哥哥。” 朱说，“那容易明白之至，绝对是远在天边，近在眼前。” 朱的意思指的是玉同五。 女孩玖摇头否认，“不是的，决不是。” 朱说，“这人倒聪明！是应当明白的了！人家那样热情，不是……”女孩玖好象想起了一个人，把话岔开了，她说，“落雪了，朱小姐，我们做罗汉，罗汉是不要热情的。” 朱说，“若是要融，还是缺不了热。” “融了就完了，有什么用处？” “你只晓得雪。” “难道你说的不是雪吗？” 朱点头复摇头，“玖，今夜雪太大了，我不去了，好不好？” “好极了，我们明天可以在坪里堆一个大雪人，每天可以见到。” 与玖同房的那女人又想披了大衣有出去的样子，为朱见到了。“这时还有事么？” 对于朱这样询问只用一个使人不愉快的摇头作回答。这女人走到另外一个宿舍去，一直到熄灯时才回来，回来时衣也不脱，就把被盖搭到身上睡了。这是同谁在抖气，做这样任性的事情，女孩玖同女生朱虽同在一个房间，完全没有明白，就是这女人自己，也仿佛是说不分明的。 Four one 夜的雪把世界全变了。这雪真似乎是特给了许多人堆雪偶像的方便而落，到第二天早上，平地已有雪六寸厚了，天色还晦暗不明，有要把雪再添六寸的神气。酿雪天照例无风，天空全是厚的灰色云，落了雪地气特觉暖和多了。从上海开来的八点钟火车到站时，三等车中仍然是一些肮脏的人同一些兵士下车。这些人各以其方向，到了站，把车票递给一个查票员后，就把肩膊缩拢，从积雪的小路上走去了。兵士们穿起庞大臃肿与身体不相称的军服，用大的竹杠，拾取由火车运来的军米，吵吵闹闹的在雪中走着。 穷学生也夹杂到这些人中，穿薄薄的夹衫，飘飘然如学道之士，从上海赶回学校。 二等车中只有三个体面人，穿厚而柔软的皮袍，外加毛呢大氅，挟大皮包，从家中吃了白木耳之类清补的早点，赶到学校来上课。这些上等人下车了，一群车夫皆围拢来找生意。 教授之一是哲学家，对雪生了诗意，于是说，“好雪啊！ 好雪啊！自然之神秘美丽使人赞美佩服！ " 另一教中国诗的就吟柳子厚“千山鸟飞绝”的五绝诗。 又另一经济学教授，就提议踏雪走去，以为一面是欣赏美景，一面也实行平民生活。 虽车夫如何谦卑客气的请坐上去，说是雪深路滑很不好走，终于没有坐车，三个体面人就在一些穷人所走的雪路上走去了。 因为好雪，雪的美，给了许多人以新鲜的喜悦，壮观的感动。守在车站边以为星期一生意一定不坏的车夫，完全失败了，无一个人坐车，大家皆失望得很，火车且即刻又开回上海去了，就觉得非常寂寞，相对无聊的笑，且互相用一种野话嘲谑。 雪一落，于是各处皆有雪的偶像产生了。在车站边小屋子中住下的路工，把大的铁铲铲取站上路轨旁的积雪，在车站旁堆起大雪人来了。学校外小馆子送饭小孩子，把路上的雪扫除的结果，也在饭馆前堆起雪人来了。军营中兵士，把营部操坪的雪铲成一堆，也砌成一个雪人了。××学校的广坪，则有了三个白雪作成的偶像。学校中雪人比其他地方的稍稍不同，就是纵然这东西也是积雪所成，全身的装束却俨然体面许多。学校的雪的偶像，在坪中三个以外，又有几个为女生作成的。女生宿舍附近的园里，女生五同女孩玖等一共七个女人就合作堆了一个极美观的雪像。五同朱用刀削刮雪人衣服同肩部，站在一旁袖手旁观的玉却这样长那样短的指挥。把雪人作成就以后，因为没有眼睛，不活泼，女孩玖就回到自己房中找出了两粒黑色圆钮扣，陷到那雪人的眼眶里去。 雪人精神极了，大家皆拍手笑，且邀约站成一字，排排向雪人行礼。站在一旁的玉，看了雪人一会，却故意装成惊讶的样子，同女孩玖说话。 “玖小姐，怎么把扣子放到眼睛里去？应当换一种东西才对。” “只有扣子象眼睛！”女生甲说。 “还有更象眼睛的东西。” 女孩玖就说，“玉小姐，你说换什么？” “换糖好一点。” “糖要融。”女生乙说。 “难道雪就不融么？眼睛应当是柔软的，是甜的，不应当象钮扣那样子无味木强，明白我的意思了么？” 玖是对于玉的奇巧提议完全赞同的，正想当真去取糖，五却说道：“玖小姐不要听诗人的话！诗人只会口上赞美同铺张，总是不动手。……你要甜眼睛你自己去要，怎么指挥玖？” 玉说：“玖小姐，你还是去取糖来，莫听她的话。” 女孩玖当真就跑上楼去了，取来了糖，很有兴味的把那两粒钮扣挖出，另把嵌两粒糖到雪人眼眶里面。女孩玖完全是个小孩子，见雪人已成就，欢喜极了，就把其余的糖分给众人，说，“你们大家吃眼睛吧，味道不坏！” 虽然禁止过玖取糖的女生五，见到糖，也仍然不反对放到口中了。 大家笑着吃糖时，与女孩玖同宿舍的那女人，正独自在楼上晒台间看到下面。 Fives 望到屋顶斜面一片白，男子Ａ心情拘挛着，为这眩目的东西所摇摆，想出去看雪。 加了一件夹衣，戴了帽子刚要想出宿舍下楼梯，扁脸教授却从后面追来，很亲洽的把手搭到男子Ａ肩上。 “老Ａ，你这血我晓得不要紧，鼻血不是玻看雪去么？ 我两人去看。外面坪里好极了。文学大家应当不缺少赏雪雅兴。应当有诗。听人说有学生在造偶像。 " 男子Ａ站在楼梯边却不动了。 “我不是这些人的偶像，