Chapter 40 Remember May 4th

How moral concepts are formed, I need a philosopher to explain to me.All I can see is that an act contrary to selfishness is the law of morality.However, in all my circumstances, is it against the code of ethics that I have run bleakly?I perfect the love of one person, the love of two people, and give the appearance of victory to the other party in love, should I?Let everyone who loves me get what she wants. Although what I can give is so little, I am not stingy, very generous, and can give this woman just the right amount. Should this be an act against selfishness? ? The more I think about it, the more confused I become.

Let me find the appropriate result on the body that confuses me, I don't want to. I found Chrysanthemum in the porch, wearing thin white pajamas, staring at the white stone pillar of the sundial in a daze. I don't go forward.Looking at such narrow shoulders, I felt the power of spring in her for the first time.I wonder that in the past, I was able to live with this woman for a year as if I were blind and defiant.I am surprised that this sudden discovery made me unable to help laughing at my past days of ignorance. Love is a thing that will never find a proper explanation. This is not to say that it is a mystery, but a dispute of fact.The same person, why can we live our lives peacefully when I didn't find that she was inflicting emotional aggression on me, and when she didn't see that I wanted to love a woman?After one person, in another person, gives birth to a hint of sexuality, why is it useless to meet each other?It is suction. How is the so-called suction component configured?

At this moment, I put down my hoe to dig up the treasure in women's hearts, and it can be done.But to lift the veil of mystery and to see the array of priceless jewels in this rich deposit is something I would love to do too! My only hope is that I have miscalculated the chrysanthemum, and that the guilt that has been committed in my heart can be wiped away. "Pick up my hoe, I'll dig hard, and I'll try to cover it up..." I walked over and said softly, "Miss Ju, what's on your mind in a daze?" Laughing, looking at me with a coquettish smile in the same way as when dancing the night before, and frowning slightly, if you told me that I knew it was a daze, and who it was for, I should have understood it long ago.

"A person, if you don't think about it wildly, she can save a lot of trouble." What I said was half ironic and half persuasive. "Second brother, you don't know your sister." "I thought I knew you all too well." Women are like that, everything is backed by tears.What can't be represented by a smile, what can't be represented by anger, we have to rely on those slightly salty tears.Although Chrysanthemum was not crying at this time, her eyes were red. I didn't guess wrong, this is my account! At first I could only faintly hear the ground shaking, and I had time to escape, but now the ground has opened its mouth wide, waiting for me to fall into it, and I have lost all ability except to close my eyes and jump into the trap.

"Go to my room," I said.She left without saying a word. ... "I really underestimate you, Chrysanthemum." "Second brother." The voice is soft and the sentences are clear. This way of shouting is different from usual. "You don't want to be the second brother, the second brother will die for you women one day." "Die, do you want someone to accompany you? Do you want the second sister-in-law to accompany you or your aunt?" "I want the three of you to accompany me until I die, so that the seventh brother can still curse me after I die."

Chrysanthemum was silent, just smiled silly. I can see into this little girl's heart from her face.I believe that the happiness I can give her is something she can hardly find in the seventh brother.She put her drooping eyelids on my arm as if she was going to sleep, and I could still feel the trembling of this small body. I was amazed by her boldness. I didn't expect that the youngest of the crowd would be so brave in her performance of love. I thought of some psychological issues about women, and recalled the fact that I, as a man, had a cowardly and conservative nature of a woman. I blushed and felt ashamed at first, then turned around and hugged this small body tightly to my chest. up.

"Second brother, you..." Insatiable kisses made Chrysanthemum's eyes water, and for the only time in my life, I fully expressed all the spirit of a young man. "I love you." These words are as light as a sandfly's buzzing when it flies away, but the weight in my heart is as heavy as a piece of lead. Chrysanthemum would say such things to me, it really hurts me.The girl who would ask her second brother to hug her into the car five or six years ago, now she has learned to love her, wants someone to kiss her small red mouth, and uses the changes in this person's life as a mirror to reflect on my face, I'm going old already on how close!Comparing this man's life, I really should have left this world of love exclusively for young people, and I should have made some achievements in my career long ago.In fact, I am so undeveloped, I don't know what kind of poison I have.

"If this is publicized and criticized according to the Chinese people's concept, it will make me feel better! Compared with the pain of my introspection, I don't know how many times more cruel!After my wife found out, it affected me from her heart, how confused I was to deal with this matter at that time..." Thinking of this, I relaxed my hands. Chrysanthemum got up and walked away from me to the door. "I'm going," she said, not forgetting in voice, in color, in the exercise of her newfound faculties. Shaking his helpless head, he used his hands to make another move to make him return.came back.Seeing my unhappy wry smile, she wiped my face with her face.For the second time, I hugged the woman's body for a while.

Hearing the door to the inner corridor opened, she had already entered the place.I was left alone in this room, and felt that the house was unusually spacious.I don't understand what I did. I cannot analyze what I have done and how to deal with it in the future.It's like being drunk and unable to sleep or wake up. In such a situation, the most likely thing to cause is the sadness of doing nothing, so I cried. She, Chrysanthemum, is innocent and fearless, she throws a heart full of enthusiasm and beating beats to this new love, and what she dreams of in me is always a boundless optimistic dream, how can I think of this? Is it something that cannot be compensated with tears and introspection for a lifetime?She would not have thought of the price of a kiss when an improper love fell on her head.Not to mention that what is sacrificed here is the shattering of a virgin's priceless phantom about love.A twenty-year-old woman who is a little younger and has just reached the completion of her development, although she is very ignorant of the act of love, can perfectly fulfill the moment of her feelings. Compared with a woman who is nearly thirty years old, she is always extraordinarily bold.Chrysanthemum didn't think about it, and in a day or two, she lifted me to the top of the peak.Those who have never fallen will not know the sadness after falling to the ground.I am a useless middle-aged man, and now I am dragged by my little cousin to play on the cliff road, and I have a tendency to accompany her to fall together.

I thought, if God wants to test my ability to bear sins and bear sufferings, it shouldn’t choose such things to be happy with me!The account of one place is still unclear, how can I live on two kinds of business to control my worries and joys? one A man who is nearly thirty years old, he has learned the way of being a human being so proficiently that he can never go anywhere, so he has completely forgotten the way of falling in love.Love is just an enthusiastic and exciting game for two lunatics to abandon everything in the world and find the truth in their bodies and minds. I want to keep my mind clear in this kind of career, but the result is only a tragedy. That's all.

As if I had some kind of inspiration, I looked into the distant future, the miserable situation of everyone after their emotional collapse: ... Therefore, my wife hugged our common blunt son and trekked through the villages harassed by soldiers and bandits to beg for food.And I, in a kind of confession, hanged myself with a rope.And Chrysanthemum, helpless, went to study in the United States alone.As for the aunts, they sold them to the prostitutes for their masters to pick up customers... Qiqi came and said that the aunts were here, and they came to the place of Gu Gu and asked me to go.I woke up with sweat on my back.An unsuitable and frightening nightmare, just like being ordered by a demon to take advantage of my guilty conscience and enter my imagination, in fact, there will never be that day! When I saw my aunt, I couldn't tell whether the taste I felt in a flash of mood was sweet or bitter.Ah, here is the one who whipped my soul with her impressions.There was nothing for me to do but to kneel at that skirt and kiss those white feet with my mouth, to show the allegiance of the conquered captive. "I heard from Miss Ju that you are a little sick, isn't it?" "I heard Ju girl said, then, she always understands my illness." Chrysanthemum laughed, and Yu laughed too, but the contents of the smiles were different.Gu Gu is laughing at Auntie's honesty and honesty, and laughing at me for being pitiful.Chrysanthemum's smile shows that from this smile, I can see that Chrysanthemum has the air of victory and self-sufficiency. There were gossips of all sorts, jokes, and anecdotes about the family's past. Qiqi sat on the bed by herself and arranged a fisherman with jigsaw puzzles, but she still lacked the hat after every exchange. "Your Majesty, please help me, less hat." "It's hot, so you don't have to wear a hat," Qin Gu said with a smile. "It's a visor, not a hood." "Then make the bottom part of the basket a hat." "That won't work, and there's nowhere to put the fish." If a person only heard this in the next door, he would not guess that it was a jigsaw puzzle for a year. The fisherman's hat was finally found by Qiqi, and the child shouted wildly with joy. "One's success is all about courage." When Chrysanthemum heard what I said, she looked at me and then at her aunt, pursing her lips slightly. I got scared.From now on, I will see how the seventh brother will feel sorry for him!The young and beautiful seventh brother lost his love just because he was too young and beautiful. Can I explain myself to others with these words? Even if the seventh brother had come to meet her personally, I don't think the seventh brother would be very satisfied with this woman.I thought to myself, my seventh brother and I were too lacking in masculinity, but Chrysanthemum's bravery surpassed us. After a while, the government office called and asked if he was still going to the government office today.If you don't go, someone will send you a little salary for April.Say no.The other side said, then wait at home.Within a quarter of an hour or so, the money my friend had collected for me was delivered by someone.With the money, Gu Gu proposed to spend one-fifth of it as a treat. "Second brother's money is useful, I want..." Ju Zi has not been able to forgive others until now. "That's right," I said. "It's impossible for me to treat you. I have to buy a bottle of perfume for another person..." "Uncle Zeng, for whom?" Qiqi asked. The aunt mistakenly thought that the words were on her head, and blushed. I said, "For Qiqi." Qiqi didn't believe it.Qiqi said that she would like to treat guests but not perfume. "Ask Aunt Ju if she would like to," I pulled Qiqi to my side, whispered in my ear, and asked her to go to Juzi's ear and ask softly. Qiqi arrived in front of Juzi, but Juzi didn't let her speak, and took her hand to leave. "Uncle Zeng wants me to ask you." "Let's change clothes, or I don't want you to go." So Juzi and Qiqi went to Juzi's room next door. Stealing a peek at the jigsaw puzzle, he just sneered.However, Gu Gu laughed only at my aunt and me, and gave up on Ju girl. Auntie said that in the afternoon, she had to go to her home on West Street to take a look, because the fourth wife's child had acne and had other problems, "That's not busy, the second brother specially invited you today, if you don't go, he doesn't want to do this kind of favor. " In these places, it can be seen that my aunt came from an honest place. My aunt couldn't make a sound of what I said, but she recited her and came with me as the target language. "If Aunt Zhen doesn't go, I won't invite you." "Then I won't go back." The guests are bound to be invited, and Ju Zi really changed Qi Qi into new clothes immediately.Where are you going to play?The only thing suitable for me to enjoy happiness is to go boating in the North Sea, and the boat is readily available and does not cost money, so I will talk about going to the North Sea first. "I want to go to the park with Juzi to play ball." Qiqi's words were obviously taught by Juzi.What Chrysanthemum means is that during the game, I don’t have any points. My aunt will accompany me, so we can avoid two people playing in the ball room. I said, "There's nothing to eat in the park." Treating guests is to invite these ladies to eat. Yilantang's small wowotou is a favorite of all the guests. When thinking of eating, Qiqi changes her words first, saying "it's good to go to Beihai". The boat was rowed by Chrysanthemum and my aunt, and I was sitting on the boat with Yugu and Qiqi.At three o'clock, at four o'clock, he made countless laps around Qiongdao.At the end, the passengers still complained that they were tired and wanted to go ashore, and gathered the boat to the east of Wulong Pavilion. Yu went ashore first.I carried Qiqi ashore and went to help Chrysanthemum with my hands. "I don't want yours," Chrysanthemum said.Chrysanthemum jumped ashore by herself. Auntie was alone in the boat. "Ha, I don't have to go ashore." The boat was kicked by Miss Ju, who was the first to land, and left the pier two feet away. She stood up and sat down again, took an oar and started paddling.All the people laughed on the shore. The boat slowly touched the shore again.She stood up repeatedly, stretched out both hands to the people on the shore, and she dared to leave the boat with one foot only after she had to be dragged by someone. Chrysanthemum stretched out her hand at the same time, "Come on, come on." "No," she was worried.Then maybe both of them would have to go into the water.Qiqi also reached out her hand.This is even worse.Qiqi was carried ashore by someone else. "Uncle Zeng, please lend a hand," Qiqi suggested when she saw that she couldn't do it. She reached out and her hand took mine.Just like on purpose, it's time to go ashore.The boat is swaying slightly underfoot.Need two hands.She held my right hand, and I held her left hand tightly.We only dared to let our eyes touch each other a little bit.I'm the one who's had my heart broken for someone else's eyeballs all day long.Like a wounded bird, it is precisely because it is wounded that it feels attached to the person who shot it with a gun. Chrysanthemum is not free from self-sufficiency in all her actions.The words only hovered over Auntie's head, looking for a chance to fall. "You see, ladies and wives are always like this. You have to be cited even when you go ashore, and you are still a chrysanthemum girl who can jump by herself." In these words, I gave Chrysanthemum some small thorns, which can penetrate into her heart. "Not only can I jump ashore, but I can still jump off the boat." Although Chrysanthemum speaks openly, what others hear is the surface of the words, and I can find out what is there. "Is that also difficult?" My aunt laughed when she said it. It's really not difficult to get off the ship!I said, "It's all about you to get off the boat, so I'll have to be dragged by one of you!" Everyone laughed, Qiqi agreed to drag me, and my aunt laughed even more.Chrysanthemum didn't listen and left first. I personally feel that whatever is touched by the sharp edge can become the zygote of love everywhere.Repeating the meaning of the public secret discourse into two sides, and letting the other side look at the other side alone, there is a genius in this! Chrysanthemum usually retains the personality of Shang Tanchun in many places, and she can quarrel with Sister Feng when she speaks.But judging from the past two days, people are so honest that they are almost pathetic.