Chapter 25 Huang Jun's Diary - Notes on the first day of April

Did not get up.Knowing that the sky is sunny, there is a oblique sun on the window, and the sparrows outside the window are also chirping lively, it is a frustrating morning.For some reason, annoyance has become an inseparable thing like a snack for nearly half a month.Inexplicably, slightly sickly, something burns in my heart.It's not obsession with desire, it's not like being poor, it's just annoyance.You can't even do a little thing.For example, when typing a short text, the typewriter seems to have a lot of problems recently.The yamen is a strange place that you can go to but not go to. When you go there, you can only hear some boring talk, exquisite entertainment, exaggerated arrogance from the boss, and humility of different levels.These are all situations that add to one's headaches.If you don't go, it won't hurt your salary at the end of the month, so you simply don't go.As if thinking about something casually, he slept quietly on the small bed.What are you thinking about?I don't know myself.I always feel that the eyes are narrow, ordinary, and empty.But don't you want to be wider, or get rid of the ordinary and make your life more fulfilling?No, I don't want to.Narrow, ordinary, empty, is intolerable, but still so bearable.Still alive, is the obvious thing.The body is not necessarily worse than last year.So sometimes it seems ordinary but it suits me a little bit.

As a result of random daydreaming, I feel that opening a small bookstore, selling some fungus oil, or going to the national army is more promising than going to the office for a day or two to sign and return. It suits me better.But all this is just an empty concept.In normal times, it is a specific plan, and it will never come out of my heart. Thinking, thinking is enough.There must be quite a few young people who are so cowardly and afraid to come into contact with real life. The watch stopped, and the needle still pointed to a quarter past three, but the big living room outside had already rang nine times, and there was still no intention of getting up.Yukui came in, threw a letter on the table near the bed, and went out.The letter was sent by my wife from Henan, and I knew it just by looking at the cover.Four thin pages, understated, unwilling to reveal the pain when writing the letter, but the depressed, thin and pale face was shaking in front of the paper.When she wrote this letter seventeen days ago, she was full of bitterness and used words to comfort people outside!The letter also said how Dull Cub missed his father.Alas, unfortunate child!You are not born worth mentioning.Papa has done nothing wrong with you.If your mother didn't have you, it wouldn't hinder her studies, but when you came, your mother could only give up everything to take care of you.If it wasn't for you, how could your mother go to the hometown where the soldiers and bandits are inseparable and run around all day long as a refugee?

If it wasn't for you, your father wouldn't be here with others at this time.I sacrificed all the hopes of your parents to raise you. If you love to cry and love sickness again, even if your father is a bad person, he dare not ask you to be a filial son, but your mother is the mother who lost her own health to take care of you... When a father thinks of you mother and son, he can only cry. In order to relieve the suffering of the poor mother and child who are far away in a different place, at eleven o'clock, I went to Dong'an Market to divination, hoping to get a little empty comfort from the face of the dignified elder.I couldn't understand why I suddenly became a follower of the Bodhisattva.Or, my wife's devotion to the "Ming Bible" has been influenced by my wife's sincerity over time.Sincerely, in front of a fortune-telling old man with white hair and beard, he burned incense, kowtowed, and prayed for a while in the name of his wife. Finally, the elder spoke.

This surprised me.I can clearly see that he is an old liar in normal times, but at this moment, in his simple and slightly rough voice, I am completely overwhelmed. I think that the pastor can indeed maintain his proper dignity on the altar, and there is no need to ask too much of him, as he has already fulfilled his mission of saving people.Just like the elder at this time, he grasped my heart and my emotions with his serious voice, making me return to him double the respect I had for contempt for him at that time.He smiled at me before speaking, and that smile already made me want to kneel down and beg him to help.

"This," said the old fairy. "This is your man's fault. Young man, be steady, don't throw yourself into the whirlpool. The hexagram clearly says 'two women compete for one man'!" I laughed.I thought to myself that my piety was ridiculous just now.I see how clever this liar is.Pretending to be solemn convinced me, and put an ordinary man's most concerned and common doubts on my account.But I'm still overwhelmed by his no-nonsense attitude.After a while, ask him softly: "Sir, don't you make a mistake? The mistake is only in the word 'compete', otherwise it means that one man 'occupies' two women. Sir, I am asking for a woman."

I'll set myself aside to see how the old crook turns his helm.While talking, I can no longer restrain my contempt for him. But he went one step further. "Young man, let me tell you, you can read this hexagram. This is the hexagram of Xiao Xing—a concubine. Don't you believe it? Let's talk about it later when it comes to fruition." Full of nonsense, I don't want to hear any more. When people are bored, praying to God and converting to religion is a safe place to hide, but after a lot of questioning and answering, it is obvious that praying to God is not enough, so I have to run into the queue of people and beg for anesthesia .

In the afternoon, go to the real light.The feast on the eyes can be satisfied in the movie theater.But the old liar's words were still in his heart.This is a very funny idea for me, if it is really like those little bureaucrats, asking for an aunt to stay at home. From the tone of the old liar, we can see how the auntie is becoming popular in society.On the other hand, among his friends, people in their thirties, with career status, stand in university lecture halls to teach every day, and they are not poor. , There are quite a few single men. In this world, when the marriage system collapses, there are really too many unexpected sacrifices!

Although it was funny, just because the old liar mentioned it, I was stuck in this funny thing, and temporarily forgot about my wife.In front of the seats, there are probably quite a few aunts or aunts-to-be.She is properly tidied up, her body is very fragrant, her hair is cut or left according to the master's preference, and there is still a little trick to seduce the master in every look.The lips were especially red from the master's bearded mouth. …Then I thought of the life of a concubine—every day, I accompanied a fat man in a vest, a red melon cap, and a small beard to sleep until half past nine or ten.After dinner, we went to the park to drink tea.Play cards at night without watching a movie.In a day or two, I went to the master's colleague or relative's house to play.When the weather changes slightly, go to Ruifuxiang to choose the clothes that the master likes. ... The master smokes opium, so he learns to make some bubbles, and carries the gun for the master.Jealousy is also something that a concubine should have.There are also those who suffer from the master... and how the educated concubine lives. There is one more thing that can be guessed in detail-going to the Beijing Hotel to dance.But it depends on how the master is.If the master is an old-fashioned master, he knows that women are always seducing men, or are in danger of being seduced by men at any time. The master is afraid that the treasure he bought with money will run away with others, so dancing is absolutely forbidden.It is a half-new master, if he can see that his aunt looks better than other women, it is safe to not dance.Originally, in a large living room that was brightly lit like daylight, I asked my aunt to accompany other young and beautiful young men to hug her. Apart from myself wanting to get promoted and make a fortune, the other is probably a fearful old man.

After returning from the true light, I gained some new insights into society, that is, according to China's economic situation, the concubine system cannot be abolished and does not need to be abolished.Isn't it common for an ordinary clerk in the ministry to have a concubine?Aren't some warlords adopting the system of "fifty big couples"?As far as women are concerned, books are for reading, but knowledge is a tool for men, and a decoration for women, and it cannot be used in two ways like necklaces.Because of this, the reservation of the concubine system can satisfy the extravagant desires of educated women. Although it is not suitable for most people, it is the same as all modern systems, at least for women, and for rich men. After that system, I have enjoyed all my blessings.