Chapter 20 1928 Candide - Diary of a Woman

one diary of a woman The title is "A Woman's Diary", and I will continue to write-on April 13th, the sky is fine. Zhou Niang came in the morning and borrowed an iron.The mother asked if she was a son, okay?Say no.Borrowing an iron is to sew new clothes for Nuo Nuo.Because the in-laws are willing to send Sanmeier over to celebrate.Also, the time has come for the red dress that Master Guangxing promised to go to Tianwang Temple last time. Although his illness has not recovered, he still has to make up his wish. Therefore, he borrowed 60 taels of money from Mrs. Cai's house, with 30% interest, and used it to sew it. Clothes.The old woman was also very pitiful, Nuo Nuo fell on the bed and couldn't get up, and had to do everything by herself.

Half a day later, I got a letter from my fourth brother, who was still in Nanjing alone.Life is good, and my mother is very happy to hear that, it seems that I ate half a bowl of rice too much. The fourth brother sent a copy of "Women's Magazine" and two newspapers at the same time. "My sister-in-law doesn't have much to do at home. You can read some books. Don't waste the words you can write in the past. You can get any post you want here. If you still find a chance to go to school in the future, my sister-in-law will go to school again." It's not too late to study for two years..." According to the fourth brother's words, I took out the pen and inkstone that hadn't been touched for half a year and learned to write a diary; I don't know how long it will last?

In the evening, I read the newspaper and read current affairs to my mother.My mother said it was because I was old and didn't know anything beyond the eyes, which saved me a lot of trouble.But when he heard that there was no one in Beijing to be the president, he said that he should invite Emperor Xuantong who lived in the Tianjin Concession, so that he could see the peaceful scene of the former Qing Dynasty before he was buried, and enjoy something that is really impossible to enjoy now. Leisure blessing.How can the older generation understand what is going on today. On April 14, it rained.

In the morning, I didn't know that it was raining outside, and I wanted to dry my mother's moldy jacket, but I didn't know that the rain started to fall before dawn. There is no eaves, and when I get up, the rain is tired. Mother didn't know, and she planned to invite Lao Xiang's wife to wash the curtains.It's funny to talk about it later. The rain had stopped while we were having breakfast, and the sky looked like it was about to clear up, very bright.With nothing to do, I read the newspaper for my mother for a while, and read the fourth brother's poems in the supplement to my mother.

"I don't know what the new poem is about, and it's thanks to him for doing it." The mother said with a smile, and she was very happy to hear that the fourth brother could compose poems. The fourth brother probably sent these to make his mother happy. The fourth brother doesn't use rhyme in his poems, and the sentences are not neat, but they don't look like words, and they sound good when read, but I can't tell the benefits. The rain fell before twelve o'clock and there was no rest until the lights were turned on. My mother went to bed a little earlier than usual.

After reading Ladies' Magazine for a while, I put it aside again.Tired but unable to sleep, thinking about something, listening to the extremely low sound of raindrops falling, until after eleven o'clock. On April 15, it was rainy in the first half of the day and sunny in the evening. I don't know when it rained heavily, and I could hear liquid soap flowing alive from my bed. In the morning, cook porridge with cabbage and eat it.Mother said it was very good and wanted to do it again at night. Auntie came and brought a basket of Baba.Yesterday, the seventh sister was paid for her tenth birthday. The aunt was afraid that her mother would give her another gift, so she didn't report to her mother for dinner, and brought her her papa today.

"Why don't you invite Seventh Sister?" "It's raining heavily, otherwise I'm still struggling to come!" "Auntie is afraid that I won't be able to afford the gift, so why don't you sue me for paying for Seventh Sister?" "Where!" My aunt turned her face to me, "Look, your mother-in-law just blindly wronged people like that!" "Mother is right. Auntie feared that we would not be able to afford it, so she even concealed the fact that the Seventh Sister would be paid for her tenth birthday." "Oh, ouch, your mother-in-law came to blame me like that! You shouldn't help your mother-in-law to deal with your aunt!"

In the end, everyone laughed. When my aunt went, my mother insisted that I put the string of five hundred coins in the aunt's basket.This kind of money making is something you can't see nowadays, but my mother's cash drawer still has seven or eight strings.When it comes to New Year's festivals, they are worn with red ropes, and each hundred is a small string to send those children who come home to pay New Year's greetings. "Sister, please be considerate of the old woman, I still have to look elsewhere, such a heavy thing will hurt your aunt's bones!" The aunt put the money on the piano bench and left.The mother said that it would be sent to my sister-in-law tomorrow.

When it was almost dark, the clouds in the sky suddenly turned red.Mother said that there must be a rainbow in the sky at this time.But I saw nothing but a patch of blossoms in the fringed black-gray clouds, soon swallowed up by the twilight haze. According to my mother's wishes, I wrote the letter to my fourth brother under the lamp.Mother went to bed, and I added the following words to the end of the letter. Fourth brother: I believe what you say, you are really a drummer writing a diary every day. It's just that I read too little, and the old books have been neglected for too long, so I can't write a few words, and I don't know what to memorize.Can keeping a diary help me improve my writing?

I don't need to make a fuss, but sometimes I feel upset, and I want to write some thoughts in my diary when I can, so that I can leave it for other Japanese to read.The book you sent has been received, and I hope to send more in the future.Read your poems to your mother, she is so happy!You know many things and are several times better than me. If you see what is good, you can tell me how to do it, and I will work hard if it is better. ... The fourth brother's portrait seems to be a little fatter than when he went out last year, and next year, he will be his elder brother's age again.His mother was not engaged to him yet.In fact, even if the fourth brother gets a woman outside, it may not be better than the one chosen by his mother.He didn't object to getting engaged at home, he just said that he didn't mention it because his career was not good outside.I don't know what my mother means.Is it because the nephew is separated by a layer so that he doesn't have to pay much attention?The fourth brother is alone, he was raised alone at home, and his mother took care of him when he was a child, so why did he let him do this?I don't understand what mother means.

April 16, sunny. Got a sad dream.It seems to be in another place, and it seems to be in Huangtupo's old home, seeing Zhiqing coming from outside, forgetting that he is dead. Zhiqing was still laughing and yelling, as soon as he saw me, he came closer... "You haven't shaved for a long time, look at your beard, it stings!" He just laughs. "Why don't you talk?" At this time, I suddenly remembered that he had died once, so I was suddenly afraid, and I walked in. I met my father at home, and told him that I saw Zhiqing at the right time. He lost a little weight, but still looked the same, so my father ran out Chasing him,...waking up, chasing after a very clear dream, and crying. Listening to the sound, it only turned five o'clock.Afterwards, he didn't sleep again, just laying on the bed thinking about the smiling and shouting Zhiqing's face.Crying is the first time this year. My head was just dizzy, and I was afraid that my mother would find out, so it was better for my mother to get up first. After breakfast, my mother went to Nanmenping to see Nuo Nuo at Zhou's mother's family, and took half of the cakes that my aunt sent yesterday.As soon as his mother left, Yicheng's shop brought ten catties of camellia oil, telling him that he had no money and the old lady was not at home. The boy said it was all right, put down the jar and left.When my mother came back at night, she realized that she had ordered it when she passed by the shop. My mother said to use five catties to fry mushroom oil for my fourth brother, and I would do it when I encountered good bacteria. Wen Jian and his mother sat down for a while in the second half of the day, and talked for a while about the situation of the fourth brother. "I can be a matchmaker for him. The eldest sister of the Zhang family relative in Liaojiaqiao is very good!" "You can try to talk to my mother next time." "That eldest sister is so kind, her looks and temper are worthy of the fourth brother. My literature review is too young, otherwise I will keep it for myself as a wife. Who wants to help others as a matchmaker?" I urged her to wait for another try to talk to my mother, and she agreed. When I left, I sent my aunt to that papa, took more than a dozen of them and sent them to Wenjian, and the two mothers went.Wen Jian was very sensible at a young age, and thanks to him, Sister-in-law Tian was born into this world with some fun.If my Bibimo is dead, he will be five years old on the fifth day of July. I don't know how good he is, and how spoiled his mother is. ... This is also fate. Hearing the little suona playing outside, she wanted to help Auntie Zhang to catch and eunuch the four little roosters, one for twenty cents, a total of eight copper dollars.When the mother came back, she said that it should be locked in the cage, otherwise it would start clucking again after drinking water.I told my mother that Baba was halfway there, and my mother said that we don't like to eat glutinous rice, and it happened to be delivered to everyone tomorrow to avoid mold. The pot of arrowhead mushrooms in the yard, after the rain, the leaves are even more pitiful. There were nine leaves in the first ten days, but now there are fourteen leaves.The rose forgot to clean up, and the bustling flowers that were blooming were all knocked down by the rain.It's the same with people, when a storm blows to the heart, the color will be destroyed and haggard in a short time; the heart like a mushroom will make the leaves fatter. I have written a lot in my diary today, and if I keep writing it down like this, there will be a thick one by the end of the year, which is also a gratifying thing. April 17, sunny. Ask Mrs. Zhang to call Lao Xiang to the people in the house to put down the tent and wash. I used crucian carp Sichuan soup as a breakfast dish, and my mother said it was very good.Recently, crucian carp sells for more than 500 catties, which is half as expensive as last year.But comparing chickens and ducks, it is still appropriate.Crucian carp is good, but it is thorny.Mother doesn't like the thornless mandarin fish, but likes crucian carp.Every time she sees her old man move his chopsticks, his heart skips a beat.She doesn't want anyone to help her choose. Amitabha never heard of a fishbone stuck in his throat. Someone from Huangtupo's family came to pick her up. After asking her mother, after a little tidying up, the woman who came with her went home.When I saw my father at home, he seemed to be fatter.I asked my eighth brother, only to find out that the price of gallium has risen recently, and my father plans to go to Changde soon.There are more than 3,000 catties of gallium, and 40 barrels of tung oil.The eighth brother was allowed to skip school for a day because of my return home, so he was very happy to see me.He asked me to take money to send him to try to buy some new loquats to eat, and soon he came back with a big basket of loquats. "Father is not allowed to eat it. If you come, sister, I'll eat it all up!" The eighth brother, who put the basket on the floor, squatted down and picked out the big and fat ones for me, and chose the small but familiar ones himself. "Eighth brother, eat less. Save half for elder brother, otherwise daddy will call you naughty again." "Yes, I know." He was also afraid that his father would know that it was his idea, so he ate some and went to play. When I got home, I saw my father, aunt, sister-in-law Zhu, brother Song, brother Bai, and eighth brother eating at the same table. I was afraid it would be dark, so I came back home here.Mother and Aunt Song were having dinner.Aunt Song said: "I heard that I went back to my mother's house as a guest. I'm afraid you won't come back. Your mother-in-law still keeps me as a company!" "There is a partial aunt. I didn't know that my aunt was coming, otherwise I wouldn't go." Mother didn't know but thought there were many guests, "Who did you invite?" "Not a single one! It's for my father's plan to sell a son in Changde soon, so I want to go sit around." Aunt Song struggled to go back after dark.Mother didn't want to keep it anyway, so she just wrapped the remaining papa in a towel for a few little old cousins. In the evening, my mother said that I was afraid that I had eaten too much, and my stomach hurt a little.After simmering some glutinous rice tea to eat, my mother sweated a little, and immediately seemed to feel better.I'm afraid that my mother will be uneasy in the middle of the night, but the night light is only turned on very small, and I went to bed after the third watch. April 18, sunny. Mother seemed to have forgotten the abdominal pain last night and got up very early. "Big sister, are you still awake?" I woke up to my mother in a dream, and my mother was standing by the bed and laughing.I wanted to get up, but my mother pushed me down again. "Don't be too busy, sister. It's still early. I woke up and remembered that today is the Buddha's birthday, and I had to go to the Yuhuang Pavilion to find my teacher's wife, so I got up early. I washed my face and went out. By the way, I went to my aunt's house to invite She, probably at night." "Is Mom all right?" "Good morning, I slept well last night. Sister, you went to bed too late last night, so go to sleep again. I reported to Mrs. Zhang and bought you breakfast dishes. You can eat salted eggs in the jar to your liking, just use new hot peppers. Fried and eaten." I don't know when my mother left the gate. It was already ten o'clock when I got up. The sun was very good, so I took out my mother's leather jackets and put them in the yard to dry. The green Ningxia silk jacket shed a lot of hair, and there seemed to be something wrong with my fox-leg vest. According to the "Women's Magazine", camphor can be used to kill insects, and spraying with Fenjiu can keep the hair from falling out. Because I don't know how to spray it, Zhang's sister-in-law bought two hundred cents of camphor, made small bags and put them in boxes. I received five copies of the newspaper from my fourth brother, including one pictorial, which printed the scenery inside the Qing Palace in Beijing.I heard that recently, you only need to spend one yuan to enter the palace of the Qing Dynasty. The yellow tiles and red walls are majestic and rich. I don’t know how interesting it is!The fourth brother always came here often when he was in Beijing, but it is a pity that we never dreamed of it. When my mother came back, she brought a pack of fresh loquats, and said, sister, this is specially brought for you. It was picked from Mrs. Liu's garden.I don't know that I have to eat earlier than my mother. He read newspapers to his mother under the lamp, and read to his mother a commemorative article written by his fourth brother for Zhiqing. "That's right, I feel sorry for the two brothers when they were soldiers. Your fourth brother is really young. I heard that after he became a secretary, he was nicknamed 'Master Shooter'." At the end of the reading, my mother was listening silently with her eyes all wet, and I couldn't finish reading, only saying that the article was over. I don't know if this article was written when the fourth brother had tears streaming down his cheeks.His eldest brother, apart from being alive in the hearts of his mother, me, and the fourth younger brother, is now living in this article again.So it made me feel more hurtful.If the two brothers still exist together and do things together without being separated from each other, even though it is impossible for the mother to meet, the mother will feel less worried.With Zhiqing at home, it is not necessary for the fourth brother to support him alone. The fourth brother can also go to learn more.Looking at the appearance of the fourth brother, the body seems to be thinner than his elder brother. The poor man has been so helpless since he was a child, and he is still drifting around so helplessly. It is also because of our mother and daughter-in-law... I fell on the bed and cried for a long time, and I was afraid Mother Zhishi felt sad, so she had to cover her head with a quilt. ... (twelve days) The truth seems to be that the book has caused me a lot of troubles.As usual, it's not like that. Recently, I just feel that piles of troubles are flying over me like bees.I seem to have newly discovered that many things are missing. This evening I got a letter from my fourth brother, saying that I will go home in the near future, and I got 70 yuan for selling articles, so I have enough travel expenses.Mother was very happy to hear that. The fifth day of May. Duanyang, morning, the third aunt brought zongzi, and at the same time sent a pair of chickens.The mother told Mrs. Zhang to kill the little chicken woman.After breakfast, the Zhou family sent rice dumplings and sweet snacks. Because there were too many, my mother asked someone to take them back and rewarded him with four hundred dollars. The eighth brother came to worship the festival, and his mother asked him to send two hundred coins. "Give him a hundred and that's it. This kid, once he gets the money, he'll go buy fruit to eat, and he's not afraid of hurting his food." "Others come so far away to pay their respects, there is hope." Mother said it was amused. "Mother hurts these children too much. If I were a child, I would be hurt by the elderly!" Mother laughs.Say, "Little children are lovely." It is true that the older a person is, the more he loves children. "Eighth brother, you can't buy plums and loquats with all your money. I will sue my mother when I go back to see my mother tomorrow." "Yes, yes, I buy paper to copy." Not long after the eighth brother left, Wenjian came.It was still twenty coppers to send.I asked my mother, why not give the small money, saying that the small money was saved for the New Year. Mother said: "Wenjian, I want your mother to come to dinner at night, eat preserved eggs, and eat white slices of pork." "Okay, okay," and left. "Remember to ask your mother to come, we'll wait for her." I chased out to sue. "Okay, okay," said the kid, who ran like a colt off the bridle, and must have taken the money to buy a cricket cage from Lao Rui again. Wen Jian's mother is here, and the mother wants to play cards, so she wants to pick up some customers from the sister-in-law. Pick up sister-in-law, pick up Liu Ganma, pick up Aunt Song, pick up Aunt Wu's family.I guess, except for the hungry Ganma Liu, everyone else is afraid that they won't be able to come.Tell mother, "I'm afraid I can't come." Mother said, "Sister, think about it for me." "I think Liu Ganma is the only one who can come out to play cards during the festival." "The eldest sister who invited the aunt to come, said you want her to come." The eldest sister is the eldest daughter of the aunt. "Okay, if you want her to come, sister Zhou will also come. If you play one, that's enough. Wen Jian's mother can play for three days and three nights without leaving the table. From mahjong to mice moving, come and know everything. Come home. At that time, he would not hesitate to fight with Songdi Baidi for a coin or a pier." When people came, they often deliberately asked the eldest sister to sit on the mother's hands, so as to let the old man's Zhang Zi go.The card is to play "one hundred and two hundred stacks", and I sit on the elder sister to start the game. When my mother is the dealer, I "keep awake".So I stood behind my mother and sister and tied the line, so that my mother could get the best of the cards.Ganma Liu knew she could only laugh. Because there were too many customers, bacon and salted duck were added to the dinner dishes.Everyone eats realgar wine, and puts realgar powder into the wine.Mother was very happy and had four glasses of wine.Wen Jianniang pulled Wen Jian's ear and drew the word "Wang" on her forehead with realgar. The mother laughed and said that she remembered drawing the character "Wang" for her eldest sister a few years ago, and now the eldest sister is the eldest girl's home.The eldest sister laughed and asked my mother to draw it again, and I also asked my mother to draw a small king character for it. Everyone couldn't breathe from laughing.Mother was very happy, and she also put three ideas on her forehead.Liu Ganma also puts on it, and so does Xiang's sister-in-law.In the evening, because the eldest sister was staying at home, she would not go back, and played cards again. It was not until the Second Pao, Wen Jian, mother and son went to Liu Ganma and waited before changing home.When playing cards, my mother wins and I lose, and I lose all my mother's wins, which is not enough.I should lose some money today to make these old people happy. Sleep with my eldest sister.When we were going to sleep, my mother told us that we could get up a bit tomorrow, and she had already asked my sister-in-law to buy vegetables. My eldest sister came to our home in March.We were going to go to bed after taking care of my mother, but my mother refused, saying that the eldest sister was a guest.In fact, when the older sister comes here, it is more casual than when she comes to her own home. The guest has to go to the kitchen to cook by herself. This guest is really not like a guest. On the sixth day of May, it was sunny. The weather is very nice.We woke up early in the morning, got up immediately, and talked together in bed. The eldest sister said, "Sister-in-law SuTM, I want to cut this hair off my head. I really hate it!" I do not agree.I heard that many people elsewhere cut it very short, just like men.But I think it doesn't look good if you cut it too short. "Big sister, your hair is as long as it is, it would be a pity to cut it off." "I think it's too long. I comb it at one o'clock and two o'clock every day. I hate it when I sleep." "I think hair is a beautiful thing, look at my mother, how beautiful her hair is! I would like to have longer hair but I can't. " I also remembered that my aunt's hair is also very good, and my third aunt's hair is also very good, but my fourth aunt is not. "My mother doesn't want me to cut it, and my fourth aunt said it looks good after cutting it." "Ha, Fourth Aunt, Fourth Aunt's hair is not good, so she likes you to cut it! I was thinking about these old people, why Fourth Aunt's hair is particularly bad!" "She is because of glass" I really don't want my elder sister to cut off her beautiful green hair.Zuo Xing cut it off and regretted it later.But it is true that it is much more convenient to cut. In the morning, my mother taught sister-in-law Xiang the small croissant dumplings that she had prepared last night, and she brought them to the bed before she got up.The eldest sister got used to bed early at home, and ate four or five meals without washing her face. While eating breakfast, the eldest sister asked her mother for advice on her hair. "Second aunt, do you see that I have cut my hair?" "That looks like a nun." "Fourth aunt said she saw someone else cut it well." "Your fourth aunt, she wants to cut off her own hair." "I also thought about how my fourth aunt's hair is so bad! A person is the smallest, but her hair is the worst. Mom, your hair seems to be better than the third aunt." "No, it's much less recently. In the past when we were girls, we used to put our hair on the back of the chair and turn it around to make two combs. Let it fall loose and reach the heels." "It's a pity to cut it off. My sister's hair is about to drag her feet. If it's like mine, if it's cut upside down or better, others won't be able to see that it's yellow and mangy." I'm just talking, I'm I don't want to cut it either. "I don't agree with cutting it off. It's better to have hair. Sister, look at the hair, and the bun is well combed. This person is going to drink, pay more attention!" The eldest sister stopped talking.Big sister laughs. I know that my eldest sister will still cut it off one day. It's a pity to cut off that good hair. The dishes for dinner are sliced ​​meat in Sichuan soup with mushrooms, and yesterday's unfinished bacon.The eldest sister likes hot peppers, so the bowl of new spicy fried pork liver and hot peppers is especially rich.There is also eggplant, which is steamed on a rice cooker and eaten cold with sesame oil sauce, vinegar, onion and ginger. After dinner, I still took Wenjian's mother to Liu Ganma to play cards.Because it was the sixth day, I knew that Aunt Song and Aunt Wu's family must have nothing to do, so I also picked them up.Aunt Song came first and took a basket of salted eggs wrapped in grass ash.After a while, they all arrived. If there are too many customers, I will not play, and everyone will not follow suit. As a result, I will win and lose in a joint venture with my eldest sister. The younger sister will play the cards, and I will cook the dishes. I killed a big hen, and cooked the pair of pig's feet that my sister gave me when she came yesterday.At noon, I weighed two catties of sliced ​​noodles with chicken soup, and there was nothing left. Playing cards mother won again.Today, Godmother Liu is sitting on the upper hand of her mother, and she is even more able to irrigate Zhang Zi.Mother was very embarrassed, and deliberately fell into Aunt Wu's hands, and deliberately bet the winning money with Wen Jianniang on "the first big one". The eldest sister said, "I don't see my second aunt, but she knows many ways to gamble!" "I learned this from Wenjian. Wenjian is a kid who can bet in a dozen or twenty different ways. He will definitely become a gambler in the future." Wenjian's mother laughed, and the older sister laughed too.In fact, the eldest sister is a capable person, who can play more than 20 kinds of cards.Rolling six dice, the eldest sister can also call out many names.As for Wenjian's mother, when she came to the aunt's house, she would be with the children. She would always be the banker when pushing Pai Gow, and she was very good at rolling money. Mother didn't know that. The eldest sister deliberately pretended not to understand, and came to bet with her mother according to Tong Wenjian's mother's method. Ganma Liu couldn't bear it anymore, "Second sister, you were cheated by the big girl. She is a gambler. She lied to you and changed the cards." Only then did the eldest sister return all the money she had won to her mother, and the mother pushed it back to the eldest sister.Mother said that it doesn't matter if the eldest sister cheats, because the eldest sister is in partnership with the daughter-in-law. I said, "This is because my mother purposely wanted to give us a little money, and she was afraid that we would be too embarrassed to pick it up with our hands, so I changed the cards as if we didn't see the older sister and let us win money, otherwise it would not be so easy." Everyone laughed and said yes. "Since you say that, just give me back." However, the eldest sister didn't give up anymore, knowing that when she did, her mother wouldn't take it seriously. After dinner, the eldest sister struggled to go back, so everyone stopped playing night cards.After the guests left, the mother was also very tired and went to bed early. Write a letter for the fourth brother under the lamp, and tell the fourth brother what happened in the past few days. On the seventh day of May, it was sunny. Get up at eight o'clock in the morning and tell my sister-in-law to wash the tents, quilts and tablecloths. Read a letter to my fourth brother for my mother. The mother said, "Add a sum, ask him, tell me what I mean, tell him about his wife, if you are willing or not, write back a letter." "Mom, is it the one Wen Jian's mother talked about with your old man?" "No, I still have someone in my heart." "Don't tell me, old man, let me guess." I don't need to guess to know it's the eldest sister.But first I guessed Miss Su from the Hu family, then I guessed Aunt Wu's nephew and sister, then I guessed Yang Sanmei, and finally I pretended that I hadn't guessed about the eldest sister. "It's the eldest sister. I think it's good." "I also agreed, there will be helpers in the future, the two of us can bully the old lady." Mother said, wait for the reply to make a public announcement, so there is no need to mention it at this time.