Chapter 16 1928 Honest Man - Honest Man

one "Honestly, useless aliases!" However, it is better for people to be honest these days, because being honest can avoid many natural and man-made disasters. Should people behave in a well-behaved manner?It's hard to say. Some people say that if everything is tolerated, this person lacks the most important "life force" in life. Without this force, a person is doomed. Another said no.He said to be honest in face, not to argue with others in everything, it is not considered useless. It is very reasonable to say that the whole image is full, and it is difficult to distinguish right from wrong.

The so-called life force is full of heaven and earth. At this time, there seems to be no shortage of college students among college students. Look at the college students from all provinces and places who live in halls or apartments. "Malaba" and "Damn", "Wangba" and "Dog bastard", all the wonderful uses of dialect culture, when you have a chance, you can surround a poor countryman with a few people Get a good beating and try out weapons other than literary affairs. This kind of people are people who don't lack vitality! With one "useful" student in an apartment, the others have plenty to watch.In some places there is always more than one such useful student.Or it may be a pair, or three, or two pairs, or a larger group.When encountering such a place, a useless person can only blame his own fate except to move immediately. This is a generous gift from the person who has too much vitality!

In the apartment, it is normal to sing operas for those gifted youths who are too vigorous, swear, yell and make so much noise that they can't read books.Occasionally sleep should also be called the light of such geniuses (because there is rest when tired). From my point of view, among college students, it seems that everyone has a little laziness, which is much better.Because of laziness, ordinary people who lack vitality can do a little work as they should.What we want is laziness in the mouth as well as laziness in the hands: because the laziness of the mouth saves the need to sing "have mercy on me, it's like one" in the middle of the night and early in the morning for no reason, and it can save the clerk from being wronged and scolded a little bit.If the hands are lazy, others can avoid the obligation of listening to Dazheng Qin and Erhu, and can read some books quietly as one wishes.

Advocating or advocating the word "lazy" in this way is not a serious crime. No matter how honest they are, just being lazy is impossible! There are also those kind of people who see you silent all day long, as if they are worried about your illness, and know that when you are working and reading, they intentionally or unintentionally come to keep you quiet.It was probably because he knew that he was too good-spirited, and practiced the way of forgiveness for himself and others, so he came to harass him like this. In fact, from such small things, we can see the current national fortune.

two In the apartment, while listening to the ditty "A Flower" played beautifully by a fellow villager, I wrote that I was looking for some suitable compliments for that kind of dishonest character.As soon as we heard the phone ring, our buddies went to the courtyard to greet us loudly as usual. "Mr. Wang, call!" "Where did you come from?" I also asked aloud.He ignored it. That guy, after calling me about once, ran to the kitchen and finished eating another steamed bun. I went to the telephone. "What's the matter!" "Can you hear whose voice it is?"

They said "how" to each other, which was a secret signal from my old friend Zikuan, and asked me whose voice I could hear. You were really joking with me! "Speak!" I said, "I can hear you, stop making trouble, it's been a while, what's the matter recently!" "Is there something wrong?" I said, "I'm writing a little article. It's an explanation about geniuses and ordinary people. The analysis is quite interesting!" "Then I'll come, what I have is good material!" "Then hurry up!" "quickly."

I hung up the earphones and walked back to the courtyard, suddenly a person from a room yelled buddy, which startled me.This unknown friend thought I was a buddy, gave me a dry drink, and then went on silently when he saw that I should not answer. I thought to myself: how mighty this is!Take it as a general, and on the formation with troops spread out on both sides, isn't it enough to frighten the enemy's courage! ? Now I was the only one who was on the front line and was startled, but I was used to the yelling, and even though I was unintentionally startled, it didn't make my heart beat for a long time, and I felt it was a pity for this strong and heavy yelling .

Since Mr. Kuan said, he came, and when I returned to the room, I just stayed and waited. But for him, he should have arrived long ago from the inner part of Dongcheng to Jiadao.When I arrived and didn't arrive, I regretted that I forgot to ask him where he made the call. I deliberately imagined it for him, for example, when a car hit the ground at this time, the car had already driven away, but the old friend smiled bitterly on the ground with blood on his head and face.He also thought that he met the woman surnamed Ma in the east of Banqiao, which made him feel sad for Mr. Baman. My friend, Mr. Kuan, has the same temper as me in many ways. I expected that no matter when any of us sees that woman, he will feel as unhappy when he sees it as if he had been in love with himself.We are both useless people, and when talking about the useless facts and experiences together, the two of us seem to be similar, and it seems that we can't finish talking.

Because I was waiting for my friends to come, I just went to listen to the people next door talking in a boring way. "That madman! Don't you see he doesn't leave his room all day?" "It's very interesting, my mother called the buddy yesterday: Excuse me, fetch a basin of water!" The two exchanged jokes with each other and laughed.I understand that this is a discussion of the word "excuse me" for my fellows.Because of these two words, the two white-faced teenagers could be caused to laugh wildly for a while, which was a miracle that I didn't expect at first.At the same time, I remembered the thing called "life force".

... Well, as long as you don't try your best to sing "I'm like a goose from the south" with a loud voice, and make fun of others, you can easily kill this "life force" that must be used. After staying for a while, I heard someone yelling for a buddy in the room again, but the footsteps in the courtyard did not hear the answer, and only said "no" in a low and half smile, I knew it was Mr. Zikuan who came. one After entering the room, he smiled and said, "Ha, I was startled, your college student from the same courtyard has such a loud voice."

"No, I heard you promised him no." "If you don't agree, it's as if you're sorry for the loud throat." "You man, I just thought that there are many places where we are in the same mood! I yelled at him when I answered your phone and returned to the courtyard. I am very sorry for this." "Ha ha." Mr. Zikuan still behaved according to the old rules, and with a smile on his face, he collapsed on one of my old rattan armchairs. I have a bit of a temper, and it’s also self-forgiving. I love thinking about my friend’s future and my previous situation outside of my friend’s words.From a friend I can always guess what he has done.I can sometimes guess in my heart whether my friend is happy or frustrated in life recently. So I don't always speak first before my friends speak.Who said he wasn't guessing me there. "Stop being a Sherlock Holmes obsessively. You wouldn't guess my life for a few days in a year!" My friend spoke first. From what my friend said, I guessed one thing.This thing is that I guessed that my friend's words are really meaningful, and the meaning is always the same... It's okay to be poor, sick, or a woman, but he said that he can't guess for a year. Come on, I really dare not guess. "I see you have a pretty complexion on your brow. I've learned to read lately." "Don't be a child. Do you see the color on my forehead?" In fact, what color can I see?My friends also knew that I was joking, so they deliberately joked with me, saying that they could take a closer look. After a closer look, I can see that my friend surprised me. Normally, Mr. Zikuan's cuffs and neck would not be so dirty, but now the inside of the nostrils are all black, and the contours of the ears are full of smoke, and the black eyebrows seem to be much thicker, with a haggard look, Scared me. Seeing the astonishment in my eyes, my friend smiled, pinched his knuckles, and made a crisp sound. He said, "Why, did you see anything?" I shook my head miserably.I understand that my friend must have had a very unexpected distress recently. "Oh," I said, "what's the matter? Are you sick again?" "Do you see that I am sick? Didn't you just say that I look good?" The friend then laughed again. I could see tears in my friend's smile.I feel sour. In this world, do people like us really count as a person?Put all your energy into a hopeless life, let people check it out, let people entertain you at the same time, and prepare for the countless contempt and indifference to bear, and the endless use of people.Hushi philanthropists are benefactors, people who call pseudonyms for the cultural movement are comrades, and have to work and relocate themselves to a profession. On the other hand, he has become a kind of proof that people with a good life at home are insulted as "hacks".As far as the impact is concerned, ordinary ignorant people also think that selling money is not a good article.The harder I try, the easier it is to get contempt and jealousy. Every time I think of these things, it always makes people very sad. Seeing a woman who is a little more beautiful, I often unconsciously feel that "if others count me as a human, I should be regarded as a pig and dog". Why is my self-view so despicable?Great in soul.Can this greatness shake the hearts of men and women in this era?In this era, who wants such a beautiful or big soul?Is there a little unconditional sympathy for the helplessness and hopelessness of this work? Therefore, it reminds people of the death of Mr. Meng Wei, why did he die so easily.If he had 100 yuan at that time, he could have been admitted to a better hospital half a month earlier, and it may not be impossible to save.If I can raise two hundred yuan and leave Beijing early, it may not turn the disease into a serious one. One half less than one hundred is fifty, and with fifty yuan at that time, he would never have died in that third-class hospital within half a month!This amount, in a slightly generous family, is not worth it!There are so many people who use the word "ten" and "ten thousand" to squander on a good prostitute.How can a dead Mengwei die like a dog! Working hard, doing the work that celebrities who shout about sports are disdainful, the blood is dry to the last drop, the hands are weak, and the people are stiff, we are finished. Only from ourselves can we believe that there are people in the world who survived from dreaming.But among the same kind, there are those who attack with ridicule even in their dreams. There are quite a few such people around us! When my friend saw me looking down and thinking about something blankly, he told me that I wanted something to eat. He took ready-made pears for him, but he bit the skin of the pears himself because he didn't have a knife. "Didn't you say you have the materials?" "Didn't you say that you are explaining geniuses and ordinary people? Let me see it first, and then talk about it." Show the written topic to Mr. Zikuan, which makes him laugh. "Stop complaining, we are really useless, we can't blame people." "Then you think the noise is necessary." In fact, my friends are more afraid of making trouble than I am!However, he said today that "if he had that kind of genius, he would have suffered a lot less." Regarding this suffering, my friend has the following words to explain. three "Do you think I've gone to Xishan these days? It's your fault for thinking so. "I want you to guess where I have been these past few days. You will never guess it. A person, who is also ignorant of himself, will have a sudden opportunity to trap him in another The ingenious arrangement of the sky is really admirable, it is not a child's play! "I was taken to prison for someone, and I sat there for four days. "Don't be surprised. Why are you surprised? Is it strange to be in prison? For someone like me who is not close to politics, it is surprising to be in prison, especially you. But it is not a big deal in this day and age. But This time I was in prison, which made me feel very strange. "It has so much to do with 'honesty'. I'm going to laugh when I say this. Do you see my eye sockets wet? But I'm really laughing. I'm not angry at all. I see from this that there's something that a person can't always No, even if it is a kind of happiness arranged by God, it turns out to be bad when it comes to us. "That's a long story! I can't finish it. How can you think of what kind of thing I was in prison for four days!? "But this should really be said to be a good experience for me anyway. "I'm sad, not because of suffering in prison, that's nothing. They are all college students, and there are many university professors. I hate that I was not imprisoned because of a case with them, but because of a misunderstanding. "The person who sent me to prison doesn't know who I am. If they know my name, then what is the situation." "For a long time, I'm still baffled! What's going on?" Friends said it was too urgent.One day to say.There is still tomorrow. I used to love being a detective, but now I can't detect any clues.I was anxious to know why he stayed in the police station's detention center for four days, and also wanted to know what happened to him in the detention center. Han Bingqian juggled, and at one o'clock he had fifty minutes to be honest, and ten minutes to do it.I think my friend is similar to Han Bingqian in many ways at this time. "I see how anxious you are." My friend was still there and glanced at my face as if nothing had happened. I said, "Brother, please be refreshed." "That's a long story, if you can't say it, you can't say it all in one go!" "Let's talk about the general first, like the excerpt in front of the official document." "The reason is that I sat in prison for four days, and it is this autumn that is suitable for imprisonment!" Makes me funny and anxious.I want to know why I went to jail, but my friend won't tell me.I said, "Tell me about 'why go to jail' in one sentence." "For a woman." My friend smiled sadly when he said it. I was puzzled by this again.What does it mean when a friend goes to jail for a woman?Could it be that when you saw a beautiful woman on the street, you approached her recklessly to talk to her, and the result was...?Do not believe.I think about it, but I don't believe it.I believe my friend's words, but I don't believe that a friend has been imprisoned for women.I still ask my friends to tell me the whole story. This is really like a legend and a dream! Mr. Zikuan sued me to go to jail like this: for a woman I don't know, this woman is one of his... Four The weather is very hot this year.In the apartment, a large piece of ice is placed in the room. The ice melts like being poured with hot water. It turns into a basin of cold water before noon, and the water becomes warm in the afternoon. In such weather, people do nothing but sweat all day long.You can't even do it.It doesn't matter where you go.This kind of weather is the weather for the sweating of the majority and the enjoyment of the few! But when July is due, the Gregorian calendar is August, which is fine. After the weather has turned to autumn, Mr. Zikuan has nothing to do, like a homeless dog, wandering to Beihai every day.Going to Beihai to slip is the business of some young masters and young ladies!Since Mr. Kuan went to see these princes and ladies, he forgot to go there.One more thing, Mr. Zikuan, seeing people is not a reason, he is reading books. In the reading room of the library in Beihai, every day there is an ordinary person who is almost a revolutionist on a seat, and that is Mr. Zikuan.Although the clothes are made of silk, they are small and old, and it is easy to suspect that they are from Tianqiao.Wearing a pair of old white cloth boots, the mud and water stains turned a natural unsightly yellow.His face was thin and clean, but haggard like a thirty-year-old. Read the book for a while, flipping through it at will, reading everything from tortoise shell characters to a recently published vulgar pictorial.When he saw himself alone in the reading room, Mr. Zikuan thought of the guard sitting in the middle of the room, as if he couldn't bear to let him stand still for a reader, so he returned the book he had taken with a smile. He nodded his head as usual and walked out of the library door with no good or evil. After leaving the library, it was about five o'clock, which was a lively afternoon in Beihai.Everyone is dressed up and comes to the garden to exhibit each other and show it to others as if it is a happy event. Yilan Hall is full of human voices, full of laughter, full of round heads and fat faces, full of fat and pink fragrance, in addition, it is also full of admiration and contempt in people's hearts, and the tricks of young men and women! Since Mr. Kuan, it doesn't matter if he comes to the team of these people. Look at this and look at that, smiling, having fun that others don't expect. No acquaintance can greet once, which is especially satisfying for Mr. Zikuan.Sometimes by accident, I meet those kind of people who have met one side and two sides somewhere, and they procrastinate and embarrass Mr. Zikuan and feel lonely. Sometimes he would sit alone on a wooden bench next to the big dirt road where many people came and went, just watching the men and women coming and going for pleasure.Every man and woman can give him an illusion. From the appearance of the same age, he can feel the situation of the person when he returns home, and he can guess what the daily destiny has given him.Every tourist who comes to this place has a different mood, not even a couple.What kind of interest does a soldier have when he comes to Beihai to play?From Mr. Kuan's careful observation, there is a very interesting report.Under such circumstances, the significance of coming here from Mr. Kuan is simply to do a statistical classification work here! Sometimes, he went alone to the secluded and uninhabited water to see the water, which was a different mood. However, Mr. Zikuan who came to Beihai is completely boring! If you can't play by yourself, it's also a good thing to see how others play.Mr. Zikuan, who is holding a list to see how other people are playing, can see that it has been more than a month, and the weather has gotten better. The weather is good, it is really suitable for playing, but the number of people is becoming less and less, and the business of all kinds of teahouses is becoming more and more sluggish. It turns out that there is no one who can play here.Mr. Kuan, in the past, he laughed at those soldiers, and went to places like "Tianwang Temple" and "Xiaoxitian" as soon as they arrived in the garden, but now I think that the views of these soldiers coming here are much better than those gentlemen, lords, ladies and young masters. up. With fewer people, he felt a kind of loneliness, which was undeniable.But when there are many people, maybe the loneliness feels deep.If there are fewer people, all the good things in the park will be fully displayed.In some places, such as the white stone railing at the bottom of the tower, you can never tire of looking at the clouds in the sky alone.I saw people in twos and threes walking slowly from another place, and I saw one or two people looking at the Forbidden City with deep sighs, and I saw the waterman who sprinkled water. People are running rampant on the wide dirt road, and I see... it's all poetry! In the old days, the boats in the lake chased and went, with eight or ten people on board, yelling and shouting, and there was no rest, which really lost a lot of the beauty of the lake.Now there are one or two white boats, each with two people on board, slowly rocking in the faint silvery sunshine with a slightly lingering summer flavor, even if there may not be a man and a woman on board, the fun will not be less than that of a pair of lovers Paddle. Going to play near the dock, looking at those small boats moored in a row, obediently, all kinds of colors are naturally mixed, the lake water is like small waves biting the boards, and the sound is so small that it seems to be talking in sleep, how beautiful it is! It is said that there are fewer and fewer people, but it is not completely absent.However, the number of people is a little less than that of a hot day in June. Beihai has escaped from the harassment of amusement parks, and there are no places where you can drink tea and rest. Mr. Zikuan, who was afraid to eat at Wulong Pavilion before, has boldly occupied a table by himself to eat his lunch and dinner.Because what you eat is not more expensive than ordinary restaurants, Mr. Zikuan changed his lunch back to the apartment at twelve o'clock in the morning to eat at this place. The rule of the library is to rest for another two hours at noon. This rule is of course very correct. On the one hand, all the librarians can eat together at one table, and on the other hand, it will not be too convenient for the scholars.Therefore, Mr. Zikuan, after lunch, always walks slowly on a deserted road, so as not to open the door when he gets to the library, and has to stand outside as anxiously as waiting to change the banknotes that cannot be cashed. Who would have guessed on which day within thirty days there would be any accident? Going to eat according to the rules every day, the situation is the same every day, but the number of people is getting smaller and smaller every day.In the mind of Mr. Zikuan, Beihai is more beautiful because there are fewer people! Fives Friends went there again last Saturday.Everything has examples.Needless to say, by the time the clock struck twelve, my friend was already walking along the path around Qiongdao.Because it was Saturday, there were a little more people and soldiers.Since the weather is particularly good and there are people to watch, Mr. Zikuan feels an indescribable joy in his heart. When we arrived at Wulong Pavilion, all the old places had been taken by others.A guy I knew came to me and explained a few words, and sat him down at another table. Anywhere to look forward to.The place has returned to its pre-January exuberance.The faces of the guys were not as gloomy as they were a few days ago.The ashes from the teacups were also wiped off the tables in the pavilion.Although there are not many people in the pavilion at this time, it can be concluded that it will be very lively by three o'clock in the afternoon. one Eating fried noodles and looking at the people at the table where he eats every day, Mr. Zikuan seems to be very happy in his heart.In fact, these two people saw Mr. Zikuan as soon as he entered the door. These are two students who look like students. After cutting their hair, they let it rise as high as they want on their heads.Mr. Zikuan first saw the profile of one of the women, and when the woman turned around, he saw the front of the woman clearly again.Soon another woman's face was also spotted by Mr. Zikuan, and he put various happiness valuations on this woman. The beauty of a woman is not her face, her body, her eyes, or her eyebrows.The beauty of a certain film can never leave the deepest impression on people.To see whether this person is beautiful, you should look at this person's soul.But it's not easy yet.This is not easy, so we have to look at her attitude and actions. one A naked man in his mid-twenties tends to be biased towards women's criticism, which is unavoidable.If it is said that "when you see a buffalo girl, you will also find her thin eyebrows and eyes cute", then Mr. Zikuan will not reach this point.Mr. Kuan, after looking at these two women, I already feel in my heart that this woman is not bad. One of the women is slightly fatter and taller, which makes my friend more admired and overwhelmed. No matter where you go, watching a funfair or watching a movie, outside of the main text, go around and find those babbling words, which are always more real and interesting than the drama on stage.Everyone would think that the presentation of such things is much more artistic. (Of course, this is except for those who wholeheartedly watch the barefoot dance.) I only noticed that side a little, and then I heard: "Who doesn't say that this place is good these days." "I'm really afraid of crowds. I dare not go like Central Park." ………… Obviously it is the same tone, which made Mr. Zikuan feel that the words were beautiful. So I heard some ordinary funny stories about the two people's school. After a while, one of them seemed to be going somewhere to do business, and when he heard his fellow clerk asking for some papers, the two got up together.The woman walked past Mr. Zikuan. For the sake of friends, it is better to leave early.There is no benefit in waiting for others to return.And leave early, so that people don't find out that they are paying attention to her. Although it is not a crime to look at people, it is not what an honest person should do while staring blankly at people and attacking them all over the body while committing extraordinary sins in their hearts! Let's look at others so that people can notice that this unartistic behavior can't be worse.He got up at last. On the woman's table, besides the umbrella and the handkerchief, there were two books. Coming to the Beihai Library to read books, in Mr. Zikuan's opinion, it is the most suitable place. But seeing people bring books to Beihai or sit on a bench by the roadside to read, they always feel a little pretentious.No matter how much I like to read this book, from the perspective of others, I will be more or less suspicious that it is a deliberate show off! Now this woman has two books.Since Mr. Kuan saw that the person was not yet in the future, he just got up to look at the scenery in the lake, and slipped his eyes to the woman's table.This made my friend's heart beat endlessly.The coincidence of the situation couldn't have been more coincidental than this.This book is nothing but a novel written by Mr. Zikuan - "The Hawthorn". Looking at it again, it is not bad at all. It is the book "The Hawthorn"!I'm afraid the book has the same name?No.The cover is not bad either, so I won't be blind to my own book.The other books are the same, you can tell by the green letters on the head.This is another kind of indescribable joy. As usual, I rinse my mouth with plain water after eating the noodles, and then leave.At this time, Mr. Kuan came to make a pot of tea, and he still sat down. God knows, what kind of fate is this? ! Print the book and sell it, and use the book to sell the royalties. No matter what, there are always two thousand readers for one edition. These two thousand strangers are finally sympathizers to me.However, although this kind of readers can be concluded from the number of sales of the book, there are not many, but the customers seem to have nothing to do with Mr. Zikuan himself.What kind of people read this book, he often thinks that it is some fantasy.No one sent money from him to buy this book, and he never saw anyone paying for this book at the book stand. Therefore, after the book was published, except to use all kinds of soft words to ask the bookstore owner to settle the bill early In addition, the reader does not ask at all.Now I see these two young women holding this book, and this person is so elegant and beautiful, one can't help but feel a kind of gratitude in one's heart, and a little harmless optimism born of gratitude! Mr. Zikuan, who sat down repeatedly, just wanted to wait for this woman to come back.He wanted to use a method to make the woman understand that the person sitting across the table was the author of the new book he was reading, but he couldn't find a way to express it himself.I can't be named first like singing an opera, and I always feel that it is not very suitable for other things.At this time in China, except for men salivating and chasing after sluts, there is basically a lack of proper recognition habits between men and women.If you want to meet a strange woman, there is no other way but to be extremely rude. In Zikuan, it is not necessary for this woman to know herself, because a reader is not obliged to know the author of a book.However, he thought that if this book had given this woman a little joy, then it would be beneficial to let her know that the person who gave her joy sat within five feet of him! I also thought that when I came to this world, I got a lot of stigma and misunderstandings that you can’t bear, and I was treated as a living slave, living like a machine. I don’t want such people to read this book, but I’m sad jealous.It is such a person who holds this book for a day and does not need to read the content, even if he has someone who has understood himself, he is doing meaningful work.Seeing this woman read any chapter of the book from the beginning to the end, the pleasure she gets will be more gratifying than the fact that the book can be printed by a bookstore.Alas, woman, how far the word woman is from a useless poor man who makes a fuss about living!Why are women born to be adorned with terms like "noble"?It is to have people like us besides women! Mr. Zikuan, who was determined to wait, was on the verge of crying when he thought of everything.My heart is only sour, as if I just ate a stomach full of red bayberry.Of course, in less than five minutes, the two women came back to their seats, and Mr. Zikuan reluctantly wanted to go somewhere else.But can't walk.An inexplicable suction came from there, holding him so that he couldn't move.This suction can also be said to be here, attracting the person on the opposite side, otherwise he should not follow and leave when others leave! "Look, this is obscene." Who doesn't think it's ridiculous and shameful to follow a young woman intentionally or unintentionally! ?But who can deny that this is the only good way to meet women in this era. When others walk to the Nine Dragon Wall, there are Lord Zikuan on the left and right sides of the Nine Dragon Wall.Others went to Beihai's board of directors, where they could see Mr. Zikuan's humble face again. As time goes by, it seems that this is also felt by the slightly immature among the women.These two people did not stay in the board of directors for a long time, and then transferred to Hao Pujian. How is it, Mr. Zikuan?Calculate for yourself.It is very suitable for me to turn around and go to the library to sit on the bench with the manager of the reading room.And when you get there, you can dream good dreams with your eyes open in broad daylight, use the facts in front of you to dream shadows, and fill in the blanks of the facts form with all the benefits you want, without losing a stable, reliable, useless and timid blushing. method.The best policy is not to take the middle policy, it is to let go of everything and not to think about it, and the less cranky thinking, the less trouble.Letting go is of course letting go. Don't you let it go until you leave the garden and go to school with you?But I can't let it go right now, I really suffer for it!There are also bad planners, who still follow along. This place is a place where everyone can move freely. Come and play wherever you like. If others can leave, I can also leave as usual. If you really want to break up, it is only in the inevitable situation. Next, watch her go.A bad move is not the worst! Take this bad strategy alone, this is the reason for going to jail! First of all, I was afraid that others would notice it, and thought that after I noticed the slightly unfriendly expression, I would immediately avoid it, and the result would be "beaten without injury".Unexpectedly, after people noticed it, the color was not as ugly as he expected. "Put a stick in the soft mud, the more you insert it, the more you go in", the more courageous you are, the more optimistic your mood is, so you continue to follow. The woman hurriedly walked towards the dock from the south gate on the east side of the Haopujian, followed by Mr. Kuan about twenty steps behind like a thief, showing a shy and pitiful look.As soon as the woman turned her head, she was very shy, worried that others would suspect him and laugh at him. As far as women are concerned, they may think that it is common for poor students to follow behind, even if they intend to follow behind, they will not disturb them in a more pathetic way than walking behind, and it will not hinder the interest of play. When I arrived at the dock, I saw two people pushing a boat away from the dock, stirring up small waves in the water. Women seem to avoid Mr. Zikuan deliberately.The two discussed quietly for a while, and sat down on a rock near the water. Three more people came to the pier to pick up the boat.A younger lady looked at this woman, then at Mr. Zikuan who was standing dazedly under the sun, and discussed with her companion, a middle-aged man with the appearance of a bureaucrat, in a low voice, half envious and half strange. Needless to say, this woman has merged Zi Kuan into a fellow traveler with the other two women.Originally hesitating between "going" and "sit down", Mr. Zikuan could not be sure. Seeing that someone commented on him, he decided to pick a stone to rest, and decided to do something today that would give him Japanese confidence. It's a shame. The people on the boat pushed the boat out of the dock and got on the boat. On the pier, under the big willow trees, there were some newly built or repaired boats, and a few boat stewards.In addition, there are Mr. Zikuan and those two. ... If you can't look over there, if you look at others, you will go away. Although looking at them is looking at them, it is still unavoidable to sneak a peek at what they are doing. On the other side, they also seemed to understand that the eyes of the people on this side were not honest, but they didn't want to leave, and opened the book on the rock, each of them looked at it. If Mr. Zi Kuan is dressed gorgeously and disproportionately, with a white face, smooth hair, and a very fashionable attitude, it is also satisfactory for women to be afraid of the young people of this new era, and to walk away without trouble.Now, in the eyes of women, he looks like one of those prodigal sons who only enjoy chasing women—it is not realistic to say "not like", and it is almost unworthy.Why didn't Mr. Zikuan realize that he didn't dare to sit down because he had the appearance of being unworthy of chasing women? Because others are reading his own book, there are some happy bubbles in Mr. Zikuan's heart.Within ten steps, there is the extremely loyal reader, and how touching the appearance of this reader is! Here we cannot forbid Mr. Zikuan to imagine something in his heart. Under such circumstances, it is a pardonable extravagant reverie to think that he will have a wife in the future who can devote himself to reading his novels like this!If you put your head down at this moment, and those who are sincerely reading his novels, fantasize about being his future wife or future friend, it is also allowed by the facts!Besides, what if what he thinks is that there are two friends in front of him?If there is, Mr. Zikuan will not know what to do.This realistic dream is not a dream that a simple and naked man Zi Kuan would dare to dream! But what can you think of?He wanted to hear the naive and honest criticism of these two readers.Mr. Zikuan wants to use women as a mirror to see whether the content of his novels reflected in the mirror is in line with the success or failure of women's psychoanalysis. six I just read it for leisure, and when I finished, I threw the book away, and smiled according to my temper and habit. It's not like Mr. Zikuan has never seen this kind of female readers.Or, without even reading it, for the sake of socializing, when meeting in the public, she also favors and praises a few words that don't bother her itching, just like Mrs. Key who visited France. Also seen. Not this man anymore.He believes that just because the other party does not know that the person sitting ten steps away is someone related to this book, as long as they talk about this book, they will always have extremely valuable insights!A kind of unintentional praise and criticism can be heard only in front of his eyes. Mr. Zikuan is sincerely grateful for the opportunity that fate can give him today. He figured that every word this woman said could be used as a lesson.All the words that come out of such a mouth will never have that empty meaning.If this unintentional criticism is on the side of sympathy, then Mr. Zikuan will be crazy with joy. It is useless to rush.A woman never expects that there is someone waiting to be dealt with beside her.However, the words came. "I heard from the fourth sister, I don't believe it, hee, it's true. ——Which article do you read?" "Which place invited him to give a lecture, and because of these people, they drove him away unintentionally." "What number?" "Forty-eight pages." 听到两个人说到自己头上来，又所说的独独是《山楂》上一篇全是牢骚的顶短的小说，自宽君几几乎不能自持到这边答起话来。他想说“还有那九十一页上的可以看看！” 这又归到他的旧日主张上来了。朋友曾说过一个十全的地道呆子，容易处置一切眼前事情。一个平常人，却反而有时发迷，不知如何应付为好了。 自宽君将怎样来搀入这讨论？他先以为听听别人的批评，是顶幸福事。这时又想不单是听读者的意见为重要，且自以为在一个读者面前还有指示她省却选择精神专读某篇的义务。这义务缺少那认为较好的机会来尽，就非常使自宽君痛苦。 顶幼稚到顶高明的自介给这女人的方法，他想出一串，可是一个全不能实用。设若是会场，是戏院，是学校，就容易多了。可是这样的地方，顶容易使人误会，一开口，一举足，就不是自宽君敢大胆无畏试试的！ 接着在女人方面，其中一个又格格的笑，说：“不知是谁说：妙极了。这比许多翻译还要好。一种朴素的忧郁，同一种文字组织的美丽，可以看得出这人并不会象自己说得那样不可爱。” “先听密司张说她的一个同学和他是同乡，且曾见到过，是长身瘦个儿的人。……周二先生你是会过？” “怎么不？我听他讲希腊古诗，十分有趣。……”“还有一个姓冯的，文字也非常美，据说学周二先生。” “在文字上面讲求美，是创造社人骂的。不过我主张重视美。两种都重要。不是有了内容就不必修词。” “是吗！那这本书真合了你两个条件了。” “……我又不是什么批评家，说话不算数！” “但你看得多。说，哪几个好？” “我欢喜鲁迅。欢喜周二先生。欢喜……在年青人中那作《竹林故事》的文字就很美。还有这本书，我看也非常之好。” “……真是批评家了。哈，……” ……偷听别人谈话以后又去偷看，才知道说欢喜的就是那大一点儿的女人。 女人的说话，每一个字都有一对翅膀同一根尖针，都象对准了他胸口扎过来。心为这些话语在心腔子里跳着。血是只在身上涌。自宽君又疑心这不过是自己一种幻觉，其实别人或许并不曾说过一句话。 天下事正难说，在这种情形下头，自宽君若并不缺少那见机的聪明，急急走开这地方，故事也就结束了。若有另一种把握，人不走，就站起来采取一个戏剧中小丑行径，到女人面前站定，用手指到自己的鼻子，说，对不起得很，鄙人就是某某呀。那谁能知道此后会成什么局面？ 在一种动的情势下虽一瞬间亦可成为祸福哀乐的分野，但不动，保持到原状，则时间在足下偷偷溜着跑着于一切仍无关系！ 船坞边，时间是正无所拘束的一分一分过去，看书的人仍然一旁看着一旁来谈论，无可如何的自宽君也仍然是无可如何的呆！ 那边无意之间把自宽君的名字挂在嘴角抛来抛去，自宽君的身子也象在为这女人抛来抛去。毒的东西能使人醉瘫，也没有比这事更使自宽君感觉到中毒一样的苦恼了，难道自己就不明白怎样设法避开这苦楚？不是不想到。就是苦，也是非常不容易得受的苦。拿一面为人“忘却不理”一面为人“念着憎恨”比较，自宽君所取的就毫不迟疑说是要后面一种。如今则不仅世界上人并不把他忘却，且口角上挂着自己的名字的又是这样年青好女人，这苦且愿无终期的忍受下去了。 远远陪到别人坐下行其所谓“尽人事而听天命”的主义，是自宽君能采取的唯一主义！ 在心中，对于情形变更后，也想着那“靠天吃饭”的计划了。女人走，就是跟着下来。女人出了门，就念着那句“由他去吧”的诗，再返到图书馆去消磨这消磨不完的下午。 这一种精神算真难得，许多无用的人就用了这种精神把自己永远陷到一种极糟糕的地位上！可是日子却过得平安自在。 倘若这时一个熟人从南边路上过来，他便得了救。不幸是在自宽君也盼着是有个熟人来救他以前女人起了身，这一行人仍是三个！ seven 走到船坞尽处将转过大道，他与一个李逵一点不差，竟赶上前去拦阻到那路。要说什么似的不即说，吹着大的气。 “先生——？”那大一点的女子，似早已料到这一着，有把握的问究竟是怎么回事，那笑着微带怒容的神色，使自宽君将所预想的一贯美妙辞令全忘去。为这半若讥讽半若可怜的问话，路劫的人倒把脸弄得绯红了。 呆着不知说什么的自宽君，见女人想从坡上翻过去，就忙结结巴巴的说出想要同她说两句话的意思。 “有什么说的？请说罢。”女人受窘不过似的轻轻的说着，就又停顿脚步下来，两个女人且互相交换那憎着的微笑。 “我想知道你们的姓名，不是坏意思。” 这种话，在自宽君自以为是对一个上流陌生女子最诚实得体的话了。这书呆子在他作的文章上，却并不缺少那隽妙言词，实际上，所有同面生的女人可说的话，真没有说得比这再失体的了。 小一点的女人听到这话就脸红。大一点的却仍然不改常度的笑着说：“先生，为什么定要知道我姓名？我们没有认识的必要，礼貌在新的年青人中也不是可少的东西。” “我知道，但我……” 说但我什么？就没有说的！别人问他为什么定要知道姓名，就说不出口。又听到女人说礼貌在新的年青人中也不是可少的东西，就临时发觉自己莽莽撞撞拦阻别人的行动的过失，自宽君真不知要怎样跳下这虎背了。 于是他又说：—— “我明白这不应当，不过并无其他恶意。” 女人见尽在“恶意”上解释，又明明见到这与其说是“恶意”不如说是“傻意”的情形！就忍不住笑。 “我们今天真对不住你，不能同你先生多谈。但若是要钱，说要多少，这里可以拿一点去。” 那小的见到同伴说送钱，就去掏手袋子中的角子。 “不是，不是，你莫在我衣衫上误会了我！我想你们一定愿意抽出你们空暇时间咱们来谈几分钟的，我想你们对于认识我总不会不感到高兴。我们可以到那旧地方去坐一下。我不是流氓，你手中的东西就可以作我的保证。”他指到女人手上的书。 两个女人看自己手上只是一个钱袋子，一把伞，两本书（书，就是书！），可是听到这不伦不类的话，凛然若有所悟认定站在对面的人是个疯子，怕起来，把先前的客气礼貌以及和蔼颜色全消灭于一瞬间，骤然回头跑去了。 人象真疯了。他赶去，又追出前面拦着两人。 “你不要装成疯疯癫癫，这地方有人会来，先生，这样的行为于你很不利，一个人应当知道自重，同时还应当记到尊重别人。” 自宽君在心里算计，“这样行为于自己是自重？这样行为是尊重别人？是我故意装成疯子？这样为人见到把我又怎样？ ..." 他见到那大一点的女人，在生气中复保存那骄傲尊严的自信，因而还露出那鄙夷笑容在嘴角，就非常伤心。 “你们把我误会了。”他现着可怜的自卑的神气说，“我要求你们谈一谈话，也许可以从两分钟的谈话上面互相会成好朋友。请两位不要那样生气。也不要那样的鄙视人，一个人相貌拙鲁一点，衣服破旧一点，也不是他的愿意。我们常常可以从丑样子的人中找出好心肠以及美丽灵魂来，在一本小说上面不是有人说过么？” 说了这一篇话的自宽君，就定目去望那女人的脸上颜色。 自以为这一篇文章可非常巧妙的把自己内心表示给这女人了。 女人意似稍稍恢复第一次镇定了。但自宽君苦心孤诣在刚才所说的话上引出自己的书上的名句来，可是这时女人却无论如何也料不到其中意思！ 自宽君，为什么又不爽快的说出自己的姓名？此中在他还有别一种计划。他以为，照此一来或许反而弄僵，纵不僵，女人若是稍多经验的人，也会瞧不起自己！世界上，有急于自介大声说自己为某某的么？若是有，这人纵算是名人，其呆子脾气，也就不次于他的世誉！自宽君实想在谈话以后再说出自己便是某某，因此一来则所给予女人欣悦的分量，必能将因冒失鲁莽拦人的嫌恶冒失乖除还有余。谁知女人就因不放心面前人的言语，仍然想亟亟离开这个地方。 女人在一种讨厌的搅扰中，总不失去那蕴藉微晒的神态，就因此使自宽君益发以为自己姓名不应在未安定坐着以前说出来。 自宽君见女人已不即于要从自己包围中逃出，想怎样来一说就更使女人认出自己是与浪子全异的人物，就绕圈子说是这里图书馆曾到过不？ 说“到过。”是小一点的女人勉强应付似的说。 既到过，那又有话了。“是常到不是？” 说“并不常到。”是大的女人勉强应付似的说。 “那我可常到。”自宽君，以为“遇到秀才讲书，遇到屠户讲猪”是讲话妙诀，就又接着说这图书馆中的利弊。 三人是两人朝西一人朝东对面站在那斜坡上谈。有过路的人，不知道也许以为原是在一块的熟人，谁都不去注意了。 “你们是在什么地方上课？我愿意知道，如同愿意知道我顶熟顶尊敬的朋友一样。” “先生，又来了！先生要谈的话就是这些么？我们实在对不起，少陪了，改日有机会再来请教。”大的携着小的那女人的手，朝对面直冲过去，自宽君稍让，女人翻越过那斜小坡走到大路上去了。 谁教他还随到翻过这土堆去？是坐牢的命！ 刚一到大路的白宽君，还想追上女人去，不顾旁边是什么，一举步便为一黄色物挡祝头抬起的结果，把面前的东西认清楚了。自宽君只差惊诧得大喊，一个警察官模样的高个儿汉子，就立在身边。悄悄的又若无其事的看警察的脸。看到警察的脸的难看样子，自宽就明白，自己的事全给这家伙所知道了。 然而以为一走也许就自然走去，就重新若无其事的提步向侧面小路上走。 “走到哪儿去？”一只有力的手擒着了自宽君膀子，“我看您这人真有点儿歪劲。干吗到这里来捣乱？” “是捣乱吗，警官先生？” “不捣乱，干吗跟着别人走还不够，再又来拦人行动？那两位是你什么人？” 自宽君心想：“那干吗你又跟我身后走，阻拦我行动？”想是想，可不说。因这官家人对自己似乎也不会怎么下不去，他就引咎似的笑一笑，且临时记起女人才说的青年人也须要礼貌的话来，便向后斜退，对警察官把帽甩起扬一扬，点头溜走了。 回头望那警官还露着一个不高兴的脸相站在路旁边不走，自宽君深怕迟了情形又会变卦，就大步往前。 女人已经不知到什么地方去了。 他把“捣乱”两个字，细细在路上咀嚼，又不禁哑然失笑。他无可不可的原谅了警察对他的误会。他不能在警察耳边一五一十把这女人于自己是如何关系相告，警察执行他的职务，亦为所应为！ 命运戏弄人的地方总不会适可而止。这时大约图书馆早已开门，要去也是时候了，他就过桥从东边塔下山路走去。他又不即到图书馆，一直上，上到大白塔脚还翻过亭子上去望全京城烟树。全是绿荫的北京城真太伟大了，而这美又正是一种萧条的沉静的美，合乎自宽君认为美的条件。为留恋这光景，以及在这光景下来玩味眼前所遭逢的奇遇，自宽君呆在那亭子上就不动了。 爱人，或者友人，或者女人，……各式各样的名词，在他心上合成一堆杂无章次的东西。为什么定要想这些无关于自己的事？在自宽君心上，根本就无所谓自己的事在。把每一类人每一个人的生活，收缩到心头，在这观察所及的生活上加以同情与注意，便是自宽君的日常工作！ 有种人，善于抽象作一切冒险行为，在自己脑中，常常摹拟那另一时代的战士勇迈情形，亦以为这是自己所不难的事。且勇于自信。但一到敌人在眼前时，就全完了，自宽君就类乎这种人物。在通常日子，为了一种欲望驱使，作着各式各样大胆的恋爱的梦，以为凡在过去所失败的是缺于机遇，非必因怯弱不前而塌台。然而瞧，如今怎样？一个长于在自己脑中摹演戏剧的，一上台，就手忙脚乱了。一切的戏原就是为那类单止口上有戏的人所演！ 他想这次可得了一个证明：证明了事实同理想完全两样。 事实纵能按到理想的环境显现于眼前，可是在理想中所拟的英雄装扮到事实里便成了傻东西。 自己傻憨的成分，不必对镜子去看，适间那一个大一点的女人脸上就为明白告他了。 天的东南角上，一些淡灰色的云镶着银色的窄边，在缓缓移动。天顶蓝得象海，海又似乎不及它的深和明。偏东的近于天脚下的地方，蓝色又渐浅，象洗过下水太多的旧蓝竹布色。这样的天覆盖着的是一个深绿色的北京城，在绿色中时时露出些浅灰色屋脊，从这些建筑物的顶脊上就可以分出街道，有时还可以从声音上辨识那街道上汽车电车的行动。新秋的北京，正是一年四季顶美的北京！ 在自宽君左右，比他站的地位似乎还略较低的，是柏树榆树的枝。这枝子上叶底缀着不知数目的蝉类，比乡下塾馆中村童温书还吵闹得凶。这是蝉的“生命力”！再过一个月，这地方会忽然就寂寞了。想起以后不久的寂寞，蝉的嘈杂又象并不很讨人厌恶，反而觉得拚命的叫嚷为可怜悯。 坏的阴郁寒伧冬月天气，容易使人对生活抱不可治疗的悲观。但佳景良辰能使一个落寞孤身中年人更感到人生无意义。 望望那云，云是正在那里变化着。云之所以美，就在善于变幻那一端。人的生活何尝不如是？自宽君自视是正有着那极好的机会可变，却为一种笨拙行为把这机会让过，如今则又俨然度着那无所依傍的生活来了。从适间的无所措手足的行为上自己又颖然悟到了这世界真已不是自己所合栖身的世界，希望乃下沉向一个无底的黑谷坠去。 这并不是今日事情的结束，还只是起头。 转身从塔西下去的自宽君，还未曾下完亭子石磴，听到一种极熟习的笑语。把身子略向后靠，则下面走过的人不会知道亭上有人在。 who is it?听她们说话自然知道。 “我早就料到，这人必是一心一意要跟着下来的。我估量他纵是有意同我们打麻烦，也不敢有什么凶狠举动。” 另一个，就更说的声音促，说，“我只怕是个疯子，遇到疯子人真少办法。” “神经病总是有，不然为什么说我们同他谈话就会认他为朋友？如今的男子也怪不得，我们学校什么鬼男生作不出？我早看熟了。” “……我记不起是谁还写过一篇小说谈到这事，莫非这就是那说为女人瞧不起的——”来的人，原不想到亭子上先有人在，正想绕着上亭子来望故宫，一面说，一面走，转了一个弯，陡然见着自宽君颜色灰败倚立在六尺内外墙下，吓得一倒退。说话的是那小一点女人，见了自宽君就怔愕红脸，忙另向那大的同伴说，“这里有人，不必上去，”回身就向西边山路过去。 心中为一股酸楚逼迫，失了自己的清明意志，自宽君忽然发痫似的向女人所走的山路追去。 Eight 怎么样就入狱，这要知道么？ 追上了女人，正如以前一次一样的蹩扭着时，头一次那警官也追到自宽君了。他赶上了他时就站在他同那女人中间空处，心里总以为正是在尽一种庄严的职务，样子愤愤的说：“你这人真不是朋友！又在这儿胡闹啦，咱们俩到那边谈谈去。” 说不去，那变脸过来，用着那铁打的手来擒着膀子，是在愤怒下的警官办得到的事。 无用的自宽君可茫然了。低了头，在说不出口的悲愤中设计。 听到警官说：“请两个先生不要再在这儿呆，恐怕还有其他的疯子。”自宽君就抬头去望这两个女人。 在女人也正望着这边的人，女人眼中露着一种又是惋惜又是惊诧又是快活的神气。两人似在商量一种计划，细细碎碎谈着话，象是想代为自宽君向警官说句情，那大的就走向警官。is talking.然而从大西边来了一群游人，那小点的女人却拖着大点女人的手赶忙走去了。 官司是在这样情形下，就不得不打了。 他让这警官把他带到园中派出所，一个小三间瓦房，房中两个土炕，就坐到四盆夹竹桃间一句话不说，懑愤的眼泪在眼眶子里酿成一个小湖。 这还说什么？现眼的人证俱全，在众人游憩的公园中，麻烦不相识的青年女人，法律就是为这类不可补救的误解而设的！ 感谢这警官办事认真，尊重国家的法令，知所以尽职，立时就打电话到区里请署长的示。 在没有到这派出所时，自宽君就决心一句话不答，坐牢认罚。为了同一切弱者分途领受这法律尊严，每一个青年人就似乎都应找寻一点小小机会，去尝尝我们国家为平常人民设置的合理待遇。若人人都以坐牢为不相宜，则国家特为制止青年人的思想进步而苦心设置的一切法律以及侦缉机关就算白费一番心了。牢狱若果单为真应坐牢的国家罪人设的，那牢狱中设备就得比普通衙门讲究些才合道理，同时衙门的设立倒是无须乎再有了。 为什么人应胡胡涂涂在法律下送命？这在神圣法典上就有明白透彻的解释。其不具于各式各样法规者，那只应说为什么人就那么无用，杀一次就死。法律不负杀人的责任，也就象这责任不应该使枪刀担负一个样。刀枪的快利，在精致雅观一事上也未尝无意义，但让一个强梁的人拿着刀把，则就只能怪人生有长的细的颈项了。 因了法律使人怎样的来在生活下学会作伪，也象因了公寓中的伙计专偷煤，使住客学会许多小心眼一样。 某种中国人的聪明伶俐，善于抓搔琢磨，何尝不是在一种法律教训下养成的？ 自宽君听到那小警官在电话间述说着今日执行职务的话语，婉约而又极详细，心想着，这块材料，一世也只好在这职位上面终老了。 在上灯时分，用两个法警作伴，自宽君已从区里转到警厅拘留所外了。在管狱员的监视下他给两个便衣人全身搜索，除了把袋中所有七块纸币以及一些零钱掏去代为保存外，互相无一话可说，随即就如所吩咐暂留在待质所候办。 把人从待质所又移到优待室来，大约因了学生模样罢。 将怎样发落？unknown.就是那么坐下来，一年或一月，执行法律的人就可以随早晚兴趣不同而随便定下。 在同一屋子内的人无一个脸熟，然而全是年青的学生。这之间，就有着那可以把头割下来示众的青年人吧。这之间，就没有比自己更抱屈的汉子么？ 来到此间以后的自宽君，却把以前所有的入狱悲愤消尽，默想到这意外遭逢黯然微笑了。 进到屋中时，不少的眼睛，就都飞过来。眼睛有大小，可是初无善恶分别。心想到，得了这坐牢经验，也许在将来作文章赞美这国家制度有所着手罢。 屋顶一盏灯，高高的悬起。三个大土炕，炕各睡十二个人，人各一床薄被，房中另外两张大桌子，似乎是吃饭所用，初初所得的印象，如斯而已。 既不能说话，又无话可说，就也去细看别的同难中人。 自己居然也有资格坐起牢来