Chapter 57 Cremation(11)

Since the fall of Wencheng, Meng Lian not only has not been out of the street, she has hardly even been out of the house.She has no face to face people.To the people in Wencheng, she once boasted that her father would never do anything wrong to others, but Jurengong actually accepted the enemy's order and became the president of the maintenance association.The most embarrassing thing for her was Ju Rengong's statement to her: For the house, real estate, food and clothing, I have no other choice!Also, for you, Meng Lian - I have to surrender! She wanted to escape, but there were always people watching Ju Rengong at the door and in the courtyard—they also watched her casually.She wanted to commit suicide, but she couldn't bear to part with this world.The world is for the young.She still wants to keep this youthful life and try to wash away the shame her father gave her.Besides, she also has Ding Yishan.When she could see Ding Yishan, she thought, she would fan out her life and the firepower of life, and join hands with him to create some glorious cause.She had to wait patiently for him!

She locked herself up.Whenever Juren came to see her, she locked the door behind her and didn't say a word, and when Juren walked away with a sigh, she burst into tears. Menglian's stature is not high, and there is no unevenness in her body.When she is naughty, she is like a "doll".When she was angry, or about to do something serious, she looked like a full-fledged little woman, which was awe-inspiring.She has a small long face and delicate eyebrows. She cannot be considered a beauty, but she is cute.Her face was always playing jokes on herself.After a while, her small face became serious, the corners of her mouth drooped a little, and her brows were slightly frowned; she was about to lose her temper.After a while, her face was full of small pits, small, shallow, and active; she was about to laugh or sing a song with a low voice that only she knew what it meant.Her temper is never fixed, and it can change several times a day; it really shows that she is a spoiled girl.However, no matter how fickle she is, it is charity, integrity, and justice that have taken root in the depths of her heart.The most frightening thing is her black and thick hair.When she was angry, the hair seemed to come suddenly to her forehead, like the fringe of a bird of prey.

When she was seventeen or eighteen, Ding Yishan was already her good friend.Ding Yishan is very obedient, what she wants to do, Yishan will never object.At this time, he was just her partner—a partner who could play together.She is playful, she likes to come up with ideas, and she has an idea every now and then.So her partner must be a spinning top that spins according to her ideas, and Ding Yishan happens to be such a young man, that's it, sometimes she loses her temper without knowing why, making Yishan elusive.So he also got angry.This kind of unprovoked skirmish caused the two to not see each other for three or four days, or even a week.Both hated each other, and both decided never to see each other.But the resentment was gradually diluted by those sweet past events that could not be completely forgotten, so they gradually yearned for each other until their hearts were as sad as if a bug was biting them.Finally, the two men, somehow, met again; more affectionate than usual.In this way, during the play, the age of the two grows longer, and the element of love is gradually added to the play.

The main taste of love is bitter.Ding Yishan doesn't know when she needs love and when she wants to play.She didn't know it herself.Sometimes, she was very enthusiastic, as if she wanted to entrust her life to him immediately.Sometimes she was cold and frowning, as if she was tired of herself and the world, and wanted to become a nun; Ding Yishan felt bewildered and did not dare to ask her what this change meant.When she was the happiest, he boldly tried to walk and inquire.Her face was full of innocent smiles, and she told him: "It's not interesting!" She is quite smart, if she concentrates on painting, or music, or mathematics, she will definitely have considerable achievements.However, she is a spoiled girl, what she likes to learn and what she doesn't like to learn are all determined by her momentary pleasure.She must not learn to nurse, because if she is happy, she may give the patient medicine ten times a day; if she is not happy, she may not do anything for three days.She does not know how to obey and is not restrained.In this independent spirit, however, she needs love—a love that should be interpreted as a mixture of maternal love, friendship, and love.This kind of love is difficult to produce in large quantities, and cameras supply it; and Yishan often feels indescribable pain.

Meng Lian doesn't like Lin Daiyu—too outdated!However, she has nothing against La Traviata.Sometimes, she was very cold and blamed Yishan for lack of enthusiasm. She meant: "I am La Traviata, but you, unfortunately, are not Amon!" Well, he hurried to imitate Amon; And put Amon in the ice cellar.Every stranger has a kind of temptation for her.She doesn't like money and looks down on power, but she likes to have new thorns all the time.For a person meeting for the first time, she can teach him that she fell in love at first sight, while at the same time almost forgetting the old friend completely.When the novelty passed, she casually threw her new friend into the trash can.So she has many friends, and it is hard to say which one is her real friend.She is like a boat tied to the willows on the bank of the river. She is always stirred by the running water, but no one can wash her away.Yishan couldn't help being jealous, and couldn't help questioning her, but she didn't answer.She didn't say until she was in a hurry, "This is La Traviata's method!"

"La Traviata has no such method!" He said angrily. She no longer refuted, but only smiled contemptuously. Among her many friends, there is actually Liu Ergou!Yishan used the greatest tolerance to please her.But he couldn't tolerate Liu Ergou anyway. Liu Ergou is the richest family in Wencheng—according to Lao Zheng—“animal”.He is the only person in Wencheng who always wears western clothes.Tall, with small eyes, always looking at the toes of his leather shoes.His movements and expressions are very much like a big loach - always slowly burrowing into the mud, as if he can't be reconciled unless he gets to the bottom of the mud.Even when he was sitting, his body kept moving like a maggot or a loach; his two small eyes secretly looked to the left and then to the right, as if he wanted to steal something.The maggot-like movements of his body make people feel sick, and they always want to beat him to death at once to be happy.His small eyes that kept wandering to the sides made people feel uneasy, like meeting a habitual thief.

However, Menglian also entertained him——Liu Ergou!He sometimes sits in her room all day, and flips through her things casually.Yishan, based on his past experience, dared not interfere with her.However, he couldn't sit there with Ergou without conflict.He had to dodge.This somehow annoyed Meng Lian.The next day, when Yishan came to see her again (Ergou was already sitting there), she didn't hum!He smiled contemptuously and walked out! The fire in Yishan's heart burned his eyes red!He can't take it anymore!He looked everywhere but couldn't find her.He didn't see her until the fourth day, and his first words were "what's the matter with you?"

She replied blankly: "Nothing!" To men, whether they were friends or lovers, she did not show the maternal love shared by ordinary women, such as asking for warmth or hunger and so on; she herself needed a mother, and she lost her mother when she was ten years old.She was to everyone as a man is to a man.However, she is not a man, she needs love after all.In love, she will not love someone crazily and keep others away.At the same time, she will not use a little trick to make everyone live in peace.She is pure, pure as a sexless person.However, this kind of purity made all friends unable to find a "seat" and crowded around each other.She couldn't help it, and she didn't want to think about it, and sometimes she had to just walk away; hide herself, and teach them to mess with them.Because she is pure, she is brave and informal.Because she is pure, she is very weak, and dare not take risks casually.She would like to show that she is a man, but in fact she is a woman, she is easy on the surface, but she is not romantic.She had a lot of courage, and a soft heart, which made her courage a lot less.She is willing to be intimate with people, indiscriminately, so this intimacy—spread evenly on everyone—is tantamount to indifference.Everyone gets something, and no one gets something.Her kindness was in vain.

She really loves Yishan.But she would not reassure him with a simple look or a word.She wants to treat her friends equally; if Yishan doesn't understand this and feels pain, he deserves it!She regularly receives many love letters and enjoys reading them.She never encourages anyone to step up to her when she answers those love letters.However, she replied to their letters, as if hinting to them: "Don't despair!" She dared not be romantic, and she was willing to find some thorns in life in these love letters.Those emotional, exaggerated compliments made her feel important and a little scared.Fear without danger is a good stimulant!

Many people had proposed to her, and each one made her feel in real danger.She will "retreat" immediately!Yishan proposed to her several times, but she didn't comment.However, she didn't immediately alienate him.She does love him. Yishan and Ergou fought very hard.Next to Ergou's small eyes is a big blue and red bag.A piece of meat fell off Yishan's swollen cheek.Ergou brought a new meat bun to show off to Meng Lian, and twisted his body like a maggot to report the battle: He was very proud of adding a meat bun, while Yishan lost a piece of meat.Yishan didn't come to see her.Her face turned from red to white, her little hands were trembling, and she told Er Gou never to come again; she went to see Ding Yishan right away.She instinctively sympathizes with the weak.

When we met, Yishan didn't mention the fight, but only said that he was going to join the army.He didn't mention the word Ergou, as if Ergou was insignificant and didn't exist!This attitude completely won her over.She promised to be engaged to him. Jurengong does not allow them to get engaged.Menglian began to feel the joy of life.Without pleading or yielding, she is ready to declare war.If it wasn't for this stimulus, she might have broken off the engagement with Yishan just as soon as she agreed.However, Jurengong's protest made her decide that this must be done.The fun shifts from engagement to combat.As a result, Jurengong withdrew its protest.Immediately afterwards, Yishan came to bid her farewell.She didn't know how to comfort him and encourage him, but she just broke a red leaf (it was autumn) from the maple tree in the courtyard and gave it to him. After a mountain walk, Meng Lian felt a sweet emptiness.It doesn't seem to matter much whether you are engaged or not.She really lost a partner who could play with him, he was far away from her, but she hid the ring he gave her on her finger, and felt that she belonged to him but didn't belong to him.This is very interesting!Frowning, she wanders alone between the confession of being a chained kitten and the freedom of a dragonfly or butterfly.This is very interesting! After three days, she didn't want to enjoy or endure this empty fun anymore, but began to change her mind a dozen times a day, trying to create a little fun. She didn't really care about Yishan until the Anti-Japanese War broke out.It wasn't any doubts about Yishan's life or death; no, it never occurred to her that he could die.She cares about him because she loves her country very much.She desperately hoped that he would win the battle and earn some face for the whole nation.She began to write to him with true feelings that she never liked to use, encouraging him and comforting him; and telling him that she herself would like to serve at the front; What is the ability and usefulness.