Chapter 85 life (4)

The trading market in Nanguan, the county seat, was so lively that it was dazzling.A large empty field, crowded with all kinds of people buying and selling things.With the vegetable market, pig market, livestock market and cooked food stalls as the mainstays, four basic centers have been formed.The other largest crowd center is an animal taming troupe in a certain county in Henan. They used worn-out blue cloth to surround a large circle as a theater. Farmers squeezed their heads out to buy a ticket for 20 cents to watch bears play basketball and pugs dance. Compass.The market was dusty, the noise was like a flood, and the smell of peasant smoke and sweat was everywhere.

Gao Jialin carried the basket of steamed buns, squeezed through the county's main street sweating profusely, and threw himself into the noisy sea of ​​people. He carried the basket cover and squeezed through the crowd, not knowing where to go.He is a hygienic person, and the snow-white towel keeps the steamed bun basket tightly, for fear of dust falling into it.No one could see what he was doing. Several times he tried to open his mouth and shout, but he couldn't make a sound.He heard all the sellers in the market yelling, especially some business oil, the sound of yelling became a kind of performance art.He had only thought it funny when he had heard such shouts before.But now in his heart he admired this kind of cheerful and comfortable shouting without any scruples; he felt that it was also a great skill.He himself clearly felt that he had become the most incompetent person in this world.

Just as he was huddling around in the crowd, he heard a woman behind him say to someone next to him: "Today, the old man wants to drink again. He invites a bunch of guests. It's too hot to cook. The steamed buns in the state-run cafeteria It's dark and dirty, and it's been around for a long time, and there is no one who sells white buns in this market..." Upon hearing this, Gao Jialin turned around quickly, ready to remove the towel from the steamed bun.But as soon as he turned around, he turned around again immediately, and hurriedly hid behind an old man selling wooden shovels——he saw that the woman who was looking for buns was Zhang Kenan's mother!When he was in school, he had been to Kernan's house once or twice, and Kernan's mother knew him!

The poor boy hid behind the old shovel-seller like a thief, and waited until Kernan's mother was out of sight before moving again.Maybe Kernan's mother didn't recognize him long ago, but his self-esteem prevented him from doing this business with such a person he knew in the past. At this time, the tweeters all over the city rang.The sound of Huang Yaping's forecast program came from the loudspeaker.Yaping's voice became more dignified and softer through the loudspeaker; the level of Mandarin can be compared to that of the female announcer of CCTV.Gao Jialin was leaning back against a concrete electric pole wearily, his two saber eyebrows bouncing on his browbones.His eyes were slightly closed and his teeth were biting his lips.He thought that Kenan might be leisurely admiring the scenery of the wilderness on a long-distance bus at this moment; Huang Yaping was sitting in a beautiful studio, reading a broadcast script elegantly...but he was bumping in this dusty market Humiliated and humiliated for a few money, a bitter taste suddenly turned up in my heart.

He has no intention of selling buns at all.He decided to leave this place where he could do nothing, and stay in a quieter place for a while. As for what to do if the buns couldn't be sold, he didn't want to think about it now.Where are you going?He suddenly remembered the reading room of the county cultural center that he had not seen for a long time.He soon squeezed through the street again and came to the County Cultural Center north of Cross Street.Because he likes literature, he has a few acquaintances in the cultural center, and originally wanted to go in for a drink of water, but he quickly dismissed the idea—he was afraid of seeing any acquaintances today!

He went straight into the reading room, put the steamed bun basket on the corner of the bench, and took a pile of People's Daily, Guangmingshi Daily, China Youth Daily, Reference News and newspapers from the province from the newspaper shelf , sitting in a chair and looking.There is no one here.In the sea of ​​hustle and bustle of the city, it is rare to have such a peaceful corner. Due to the chaos in his life recently, he hasn't read newspapers and magazines for many days.He has developed the habit of reading newspapers every day since junior high school, and it always seems like something is missing if he doesn't read newspapers for a day.When he re-entered the newspaper world after many days, he immediately forgot all about it.

He first read the international edition of the People's Daily.He is very concerned about international issues and once dreamed of studying in the Institute of International Relations.When he was in high school, he had nailed a large notebook in which he bluffed "Middle East issues", "Research on the mutual political and economic relations among the countries of the European Community", "the evolution of the future relations between the five countries of ASEAN and the three countries of Indochina", " The American factor in the Sino-US-Soviet triangle relationship" and other cranky "research" topics.Now that he thinks about it, it is a bit ridiculous, but the "style" at that time shocked the students!In fact, he didn't "study" anything, just cut and pasted some newspaper materials.

He first flipped through the various newspapers, and then found a longer article "enjoying".Curled up in the long chair, he watched Han Nianlong's speech at the Cambodia International Conference held by the United Nations. After reading almost all the important contents of several large newspapers for many days, he felt a very comfortable tiredness all over his body. It wasn't until the staff in the reading room came to close the door that he was surprised: it was already time for the city people to have lunch! He hurriedly picked up the basket of steamed buns and left the reading room.

The sun had already tilted far to the west.The sound of the city basically fell, and there were not many people on the street. Oh, he's been in the reading room for too long!What now?Most of the peasants have withdrawn from the city like a tide. If he reappears on the street at this time, he will easily meet familiar classmates. After much deliberation, there is no other way.He stood at the door of the reading room hesitated for a long time, and finally decided to go home with the basket. He left the city dejectedly, and walked towards the Dama River, and everything was still as it came, and there was no shortage of white buns in the basket.He rushed to this episode, and didn't even make a penny of business.When he walked to the Damashe Bridge, he suddenly saw Qiaozhen from his village standing on the bridgehead, fanning her face with a red handkerchief in her hand, and holding the newly bought "Flying Pigeon" bicycle by her side.Qiaozhen saw him, walked over and stood in front of him——

In fact, it is equivalent to blocking him in the road. "Galin, have you been selling buns?" She blushed. For some reason, she seemed a little nervous, her body was trembling slightly, and her legs seemed a little unsteady. "Hmm..." Gao Jialin agreed, gave her a strange look, and said without words, "You went to the market too?" "Hmm..." Qiaozhen wiped the sweat from her face with a handkerchief, looked sideways at her bicycle, but paid attention to him, and said, "I'm here to go to the market, and I'm fine... Jialin, She suddenly turned her face to look at him and said, "I know you haven't sold a single bun! I know! You're afraid of shame! Why don't you just give me the buns, and keep my car here so I can give it to you." You sell it!"

As Qiaozhen said, both hands quickly came to take his basket. Before Gao Jialin could figure out what was going on, Qiaozhen had snatched the basket from his arm.She didn't say anything, just turned around and walked down the street with the basket in hand.Gao Jialin looked at her slender back, not knowing what to do.He felt around the bridge railing with both hands, but he couldn't figure out why such a thing happened suddenly.For Qiaozhen, her actions today have been planned for a long time.It's not a day or two, but the feelings buried in her heart for so many years, it's unbearable—— She is going to explode!Otherwise, she felt that she simply couldn't survive! Liu Liben, the second daughter who is as beautiful as a flower, is not a simple rural girl.Although she did not go to school, she has a strong ability to feel and understand things, so her spiritual pursuit is very unusual.Coupled with her natural passion, she formed her extremely rich inner world.The peasants in front of and behind the village only saw the beauty of her appearance, but could not understand her brilliant spiritual brilliance.It's a pity that she herself is uneducated and unable to approach people she thinks are "more interesting".She has a deep sense of inferiority in front of educated people.She often complained in her heart that her father didn't let her learn.By the time she realized it, it was too late.For this irreparable misfortune, she did not know how many times she cried secretly. But she is determined to choose a man who is cultured and spiritually rich as her partner.As far as her beauty is concerned, it is very easy to find an ordinary cadre in the commune, or a formal worker from the country who has gone out of the countryside; and the matchmaker who introduced her to her in this area almost broke the threshold of her family.But she refused all of them.In her opinion, some of these people are even worse than farmers.To take a step back, it means marrying such a person. The man is often outside the door and does not come back several times a year; she has to deal with the baby and the family alone.There are many such examples in rural areas!And the most fundamental thing is that among these people, there is no one she likes.If there is really a man who suits her heart, she is willing to make any sacrifices.That's who she is! Although her father gave birth to her and raised her, he didn't understand her at all.Seeing that she was not looking for cadres or workers, he rushed to find her in the countryside.And concentrate on looking at the horse tie in the next horse shop.She had a lot of contact with Ma Shuan during the commune's farmland infrastructure battle a few years ago.He is honest, his mind is not dead, he is very agile in business, and his labor is also famous in the village.The family is well-off and prosperous, and from the perspective of the countryside, it can be regarded as an upper-class family.But she just couldn't feel the love for Ma Shuan.Although Ma Shuan enthusiastically ran to her house every three to five days, she always avoided seeing her, so anxious that her father scolded her several times. In fact, she is not without someone in her heart.For many years, she has been crazy about this person in her heart - this person is Gao Jialin! Qiaozhen fell in love with Jialin in her heart when she first realized that there is such a thing as love in the world.She loves his natural and unrestrained demeanor, his beautiful body and the masculine temperament that he shows everywhere.She thinks a man should act like a man; she hates femininity in a man.She thought, if she followed a man like Jialin, it would be worth jumping off a cliff with him!At the same time, she also likes his abilities very much: he is good at playing, playing and singing; he can install electric lights, drive a tractor, and write articles for newspapers!Besides, I also like to pay attention to hygiene. Regardless of whether the clothes are new or old, they are always clean, and the whole body smells like soap! She had dreamed countless times in her heart of the scene she was with this person: she put her hand in his and let him hold it, in the field in spring, among the flowers in summer, in the fruit forest in autumn , on the snow in winter, walk, run, and let him hug her and kiss her like in other movies... But in real life, her inferiority complex made her not even have the courage to approach him.She misses him all the time and avoids him everywhere.She was afraid that her walking, posture and speaking would appear inappropriate in front of him and make her beloved laugh.However, her mind and eyes never left him! When Garin was in high school, even though she knew that he would definitely go away and she would never get him, she still loved him deeply and in her heart.Whenever Jialin came back on Sundays, she would find excuses not to stay on the mountain, and sit by the river in the courtyard of her house, secretly looking at the courtyard of Jialin's house opposite.If Jialin went to swim in the pool in front of the village, she quickly took a pigweed basket to the field near the pool to hunt pigweed.On Sunday afternoon, she watched Jialin leave the village.After going to the county seat, she couldn't help but shed tears, feeling that he would never go back to Gaojia Village again. After Jialin graduated from high school and failed to enter the university, and returned to the village in despair, Qiaozhen was so happy that she almost went crazy.How many times her dreams revealed the light of hope.She made a plan: Jialin has become a farmer now, so maybe he will have to find a rural wife in the future?If he looks for a girl with a rural household registration, although she is uneducated, she has the confidence to make him love her.She knew that she had a strength that other girls could hardly match: handsome. However, the light of hope soon dimmed.Galin became a teacher.Teachers are now the only ones with any hope of entering the world of commodity food.According to Jialin's ability, he is completely sure to become a formal teacher in the future. She fell into deep pain again.She often hides behind the old locust tree on the riverside of their house alone, and stares blankly at the school.She watched Jialin walk towards the school on the path trampled by the white light of the schoolchildren; she also watched him walk towards the village on that road... She is a very lively girl!All this is done no one can see.Yes, no one in the village knows the dream and pain of this handsome girl!Only her younger sister, Qiaoling, who is in high school in the county seat, seemed to be a little aware of her numb daze and inexplicable restlessness, and sometimes smiled secretly or sincerely sighed for her!Now, when Gao Jialin became a farmer again, her long-suppressed feelings were violently revived again.This time it was as if a volcano had broken through the earth's crust, and the torrent of emotion was almost beyond her control.She was happy for him to be a farmer, but at the same time she was in pain for his pain - for this reason, she even scolded Gao Minglou in front of her elder sister for not being a person. She didn't know how to feel sorry for him.At noon yesterday, when she saw him go swimming, she hurriedly carried a hogweed basket through the corn field by the pool, and picked a melon in the private plot by the way, trying to comfort him: today she saw him in the last episode Went there, and rode a car to rush back.She was fine in the last episode today; she rushed to the episode this time just to find a chance to tell him all of her heart!In fact, she has been following Jialin in the crowd at the fair all the time today.She saw her dear one carrying a basket of steamed buns, dodging in the crowd, unable to sell a single one, and when she leaned on the concrete pole in pain and closed her eyes, the tears dripped from her face and wiped them with a handkerchief. Can't get enough. Later, when she saw Jialin enter the cultural center, she knew that his steamed buns would not be sold.She really wanted to go to the reading room, but she thought she couldn't read, so why would she go there?Besides, there were too many people there, so it was difficult for her to have a conversation with Jialin.So, she rode to the Damashe Bridge, where she waited for him to come over, and stood there from noon to the afternoon... Liu Qiaozhen is now carrying a basket of steamed buns, walking on the streets of the county town excitedly, feeling that the world suddenly It became very bright; it seemed as if all the people in the street were grinning or pursing their lips at her.A group of dolls who had just finished school in kindergarten approached, and she hugged one and kissed it! She didn't stop until she crossed Cross Street, crossed the main street in the city, and came to the free trading market in Nanguan. The steamed buns are ready to be given to one of her aunts in the city.Her aunt's house lived on the hillside above Cross Street, but now she ran here insanely!As for the money, she would not ask her aunt, she had already prepared it for Jialin.She also bought a good pack of cigarettes for Galin, which she put in the calico bag of her bicycle. She quickly turned around again and walked towards her aunt's house.Qiaozhen put down a basket of steamed buns at her aunt's house, turned around and got up.Her aunt and uncle forced her to eat, but she resolutely refused: she was afraid that Jialin would get impatient waiting for her on the bridge. She came out of her aunt's house with an empty basket, and almost ran towards the Dama River Bridge.