Over the past ten years, Zhu Dan has answered countless useless calls from his mother, but the only thing he rejected was a report that could prevent his own death.At that time, she was walking back to her mother's house, the noon sun made the floor clear and shiny, without the wind, swallows and cicadas singing, it was like walking into a dead city that made people panic.Her mother was crazily walking up and down the board, walking towards her.When I saw it suddenly, my mother had already turned into a side alley.She stopped the shouting that rushed to her mouth, why bother. The second person she met was the owner of a commune restaurant, squatting by the bridge to peel chickens.The restaurant has a history of more than ten years. After nightfall, he and his wife often pour swill into the moat.This is a fat man who is weak and easily excitable. He glanced at Zhu Dan, but Zhu Dan didn't look at him.But after walking a few meters, she still scolded: "He will have no children or grandchildren."

"what?" "Break off children and grandchildren." "It's not that I fell alone, they all fell." "If you have a kind, you will fall again." "Just pour it down." The boss picked up a big red plastic basin and poured water mixed with chicken feathers into the moat, and then threw down the rotten vegetable roots one by one.And she had already reached the door.Every time they met for ten years, she cursed him, and he must fight back, and there has been no retribution.According to what he said, he dumps garbage into the river, and if there is no garbage, he also dumps it into the river.

Hanoi has long been left with only a stagnant trickle, and the swamp on the river bed is covered with grass (hair grows on the grass), and there is a strong smell mixed with feces, swill, sanitary napkins, dead animals and even dead babies.A secretary of the county party committee once held a meeting, saying that this is the eyes of the city and the mother river, and that restoration and management is urgent. Zhu Dan was very excited at the time, but as long as he entered the field to calculate, the project went bankrupt.It involves 150 million. Ten years ago, the Zhu family built a house by the river because it occupied the main road for farmers from eight towns to enter the city.When it was about to be completed, my mother had a quarrel with the construction workers from Fujian because the stairs leading to the attic were narrow and steep. "What's the use?" the mother said, "I can't pay this part of the money. You think it's not worth it, so you dismantle it." The contractor couldn't argue, and finished the work hastily. After this year, I will take your surname." Standing in front of him at that time was Zhu Dan's father, who was stunned.

The father is a kind person, and his kindness made him take the initiative to name the contractor's son, and also prevented him from stopping his wife's unrighteous behavior.As New Year's Eve was approaching, he seemed to be waiting for his daughter to get married, and also to fulfill his guilt as a man towards the Fujian people. He left fish baskets, fishing tackle and unfinished cigarettes in the long river in the suburbs, and disappeared into the world. The smell of gunpowder left by the firecrackers at the wedding has not yet dissipated, and new firecrackers are lit again, and guests pour in again, tidying up, taking care of, eating, drinking, crowding around like groups of penguins.Zhu Dan turned his back to the sky and cried loudly, almost suffocating several times. The women took out their handkerchiefs and wiped the tears bubbling down her face from time to time.When they were gone, she was still crying endlessly, like crying was an umbrella, or something worth lusting over and over again.

Because of his father's death, Zhu Dan, who is already a wife, goes back to her parents' house for dinner every day at noon to accompany her mother.It can also be said that her mother made her fulfill this obligation.She and her elder brother Zhu Wei were under the control of their mother from an early age, "Don't even think about escaping from my grasp." My mother always said, and of course added, "I'm not doing it for your own good." This control bears two fruits: Zhu Wei was drunk and dreamed of death, while Zhu Dan was terrified. Zhu Wei knew that if he didn't do anything, he would be protected by his mother, so he simply let her do everything.He dropped out of high school in his second year of high school and was dragged to work as a temporary worker in the traffic police brigade. After a few years, he switched to a career editor.His mother bought a wedding room and asked him to marry the conductor of the movie theater whom she had always had a crush on.He is only responsible for growing flesh, and at a young age, he rises like bread. When he returns home, he always slumps on the sofa and says, "Talk about me again, what else is there to say, or just leave it alone." And Zhu Dan knows what to do None of them would satisfy her mother, and her life was always full of such and such things, such as whether to join the party or not, as small as buying vegetables and cabbage, she felt apprehensive.Sometimes she had to make a choice, and she would hide it, trying to convince herself that her mother didn't notice.

"People always want to get married. I have been paying attention to that young man for half a year." One day, my mother said.This is something that has been decided, but the mother still pretends to discuss it with her.Sure enough, after she hesitated for a while, her mother scolded loudly: "You know, there are a lot of matchmakers for him, what are you!" A fair-skinned young man works in the town government, and his father is the deputy secretary of the political and legal committee of the county party committee. After the adults left, he kept his head down and rubbed his hands.Zhu Dan said, "I recognize you."

"How do you know?" "I just recognize it." After going out, Zhu Dan heard the director of the police station ask him in a low voice: "How is it?" "I have no opinion, it depends on what people think." Soon they got engaged, and when they were trying on the wedding dress, Zhu Dan rarely showed that kind of woman's love for him, circling back and forth in front of the mirror. "How is it?" Mother asked.She suddenly bowed her head and wept. "Not satisfied?" "No." "Then why are you crying?" "Maybe I'm so happy that I'm crying." Zhu Dan smiled ugly.The mother checked several times later and was sure that her daughter was satisfied.But when the wedding banquet was about to take place, the situation changed suddenly, and Zhu Dan became sluggish. It was like a cloud of shadows hanging over the hearts of the two families.Several months after the marriage, the mother-in-law couldn't take it anymore, so she came to the door and said, "I know you are a strong woman, but I have to talk about it today. There is something wrong with Dandan."

"What could be wrong with her?" "Refused to have sex." Mother said loudly that it was impossible, but she was completely defeated in her heart. "It is said that Dandan is sad because his in-laws have gone. We understand, but we can't be sad for so long; if we say that we dislike our family Xiaopeng, we are not afraid of dislike. I will not say this, but it is always like this. I think it is still early. It’s better to end it a bit.” said the mother-in-law.Mother thought of the sorrows of the two generations of women in her family, and feared that her indifference would be inherited—after marrying a good man Zhu Qingmo, they lived together no more than three times a year, all begging and begging, the first time she pushed back and forth, Almost broke his genitals.

When Zhu Dan came back, his mother said, "Women have to do this. It's a woman's life." "I know." "Be patient and pass." Later, I talked with my mother-in-law, and the mother knew that her daughter would vomit every time she had intercourse, and she vomited on the bed once.Although the mother-in-law didn't say anything, the mother was ashamed.She frightened and persuaded her to study "Must Read for Newlyweds" with her daughter, and to eat cistanche and placenta, but the effect was not obvious.Mother was desperate, so she found a believer to ask for advice, but she didn't know that the believer's face was anxious when he heard it, and his eyebrows were beaming when he spread gossip.After a while, all the county towns knew about it.Zhu Dan's husband, Chen Xiaopeng, couldn't bear the stares, so he fell in love with an intern at an agricultural school.The mother walked down and slapped her three times, and was pushed to the ground.My mother called the chief of the police station to take the girl away and lock her up for 24 hours.

Facts have proved that the mother was right in choosing this husband for Zhu Dan.Although he never had a night of joy and was always abetted to divorce, he still protected the marriage like a gentleman after all.During the holidays, he brought many gifts in one hand and Zhu Dan in the other, and came to Zhu's house.He went to worship the ancestors with the Zhu family, and many things were done inwardly.In society, he is kind and friendly. People often see people with upturned nostrils. When they see him who has face and is not arrogant, they are always very affectionate.When the mother saw him for the first time, she felt that her son Zhu Wei was not up to the mark, but now she still looks at him with kindness.Mother is grateful to him for taking care of the overall situation.

After Zhu Dan gave birth, his mother felt relieved.A person with a height of 1.57 meters and a weight of 80 catties almost emptied his body to give birth to a son of 6 catties for the Chen family. How can it be justified?What the mother-in-law wanted was incense, not sex, but now that they got it, the family went from precarious to balanced, even more balanced than an already loving family.They reached a tacit agreement, as long as Chen Xiaopeng didn't bring a woman home, everything would be fine.They can assign roles and tasks around the newborn: mother, grandmother, grandma; Feed him, change his diaper, put him to bed. However, once the baby passed the breastfeeding period, Zhu Dan became sluggish again.Not only dull, but also frightened.Sometimes when I was sitting, I was suddenly struck by a gu, and I was panting heavily while clutching my chest, and my forehead was sweating profusely. "Dandan, what's wrong with you?" Zhu Dan stood up, grabbed the bag and wanted to leave. "What are you going to do?" asked the mother. "go home." "Isn't this your home?" She stopped abruptly. "What's wrong with you?" "I'm about to die." She said anxiously, and then said: "I can't die, you see, I just feel a little uncomfortable suddenly." This symptom comes every few days, sometimes several times a day.My mother couldn't answer the questions and lost sleep, so she hallucinated the sound of a man's footsteps upstairs, walked back and forth a few times and disappeared.The mother felt that she was not afraid of the slanting shadow, so she fumbled upstairs and turned on the switch at the top of the stairs, but she didn't see anything.In the corner are the furniture from when she and Zhu Qingmo got married, and a four-poster bed. "Old Zhu, Lao Zhu." She called several times but no one answered. Mother didn't dare to sleep anymore, turned on the big TV, quarreled with herself all night, and asked the nanny to stay with her the next day.When the bearded nanny was snoring in the living room, she felt more secure than ever.Afterwards, she took Zhu Dan to worship the ancestors in front of the grave and burn incense in the temple. The sound never happened again, but her daughter was still flustered. Once, my daughter walked into the kitchen talking to herself as if she had made up her mind.Mother asked: "What is Dandan doing here?" She went back in a daze, shaking her head desperately. "What are you doing in the kitchen?" "I have no idea." "Don't be afraid, Dandan, just tell mom if you have anything to say." His mother softened, Zhu Dan took a painful look, and lowered his eyes, "Don't be afraid, son, just tell me, I won't blame you for whatever you say." Zhu Dan But he went back to the living room.The mother turned off the gas stove, walked over, grabbed her daughter's hand in a rare way, and said, "How can you save people if you don't tell me? We treat diseases when we have illnesses, we treat physical diseases when we have physical diseases, and we treat mental diseases when we have heart diseases. We women all have this and that. You are not the only one suffering from this disease." "It's okay, you see the baby is born." "Yeah, the babies are all born. That means you've got nothing wrong." "There is a next generation." "Yeah, then don't think about it, the more you think about it, the more you can't think about it." So is the mother.Later, she went to her mother-in-law, and her mother-in-law came to Chen Xiaopeng and said, "Don't go out to play tricks in the future, what a shame." The mother said, "Don't talk about Xiaopeng, even if they are husband and wife, husband and wife should be taken care of by husband and wife." "I know." Later, Chen Xiaopeng at least looked good, picked Zhu Dan off from get off work, and slept with his arms around her shoulder at night, but the latter did not improve.Even taking alprazolam and Prozac didn't work. One day, my mother took Zhu Dan to the provincial capital to see a psychiatrist.The doctor said, "Take a deep breath." After Zhu Dan took a few minutes of deep breathing, he was really dizzy and his head was swollen, and his footing was unstable. "Do you feel like you're going to die?" "yes." "Are you afraid of death?" "afraid." "Before you die, do one thing for me, squat down with your hands behind your back, and jump forward a step." Zhu Dan was a little taken aback, and his mother said, "You can do it if you tell me." Zhu Dan squatted down with his hands behind his back, and took a small step forward stiffly like a frog, which made the doctor laugh out loud.He said, "Do you think a dying person can still jump long? Have you ever seen it?" His mother laughed, and Zhu Dan looked at his mother and laughed too. "Nothing happened," said the doctor. "Yes, I have always been suspicious. Please ask the doctor to prescribe some more medicine." Mother said. "Fuck off. Let me tell you, your daughter's illness is self-intimation. When she feels uncomfortable, such as shortness of breath and chest tightness-how normal is this-it feels like a sign of death, so she panics. The more terrified she became, she felt that if she was not about to die, how could she be so terrified? What the hell, can a dead person jump long? " Later, the mother sucked and touched Zhu Dan for a few days, and when she saw Zhu Dan, she said viciously, "Damn it." The daughter lowered her head.But it took only half a month. Zhu Dan sometimes walked and walked, and when he saw no one, he would bow his body and jump for a step. After a long time, it will turn from pain to boredom, from boredom to numbness, and gradually become an eternal part of life.It was only on the day of retirement, when seeing everything was sluggish, that the mother suddenly realized that her daughter was older than herself.When I saw my daughter in the past, I felt that today was no different from yesterday, but this day seemed like a revisit after many years. I was surprised by a woman in her thirties, her hair was as gray as a coal pile covered with thin snow. "Why don't you dye it?" "After dyeing, the front is black, but the roots are still white, which is even more ugly." You have a long time to live.The mother thought, and began to stalk her daughter.The daughter always keeps her eyes fixed, like a goose, walking dully with her arms outstretched.Mother was a little disdainful.My daughter stopped riding a bicycle after falling down for the first time. Now all the women in the street are riding electric bicycles. She is the only one who walks and can't move anything. She looks like an illiterate.The daughter walks from her husband's house to work in the morning, from work to her mother's house at noon, and from work to her husband's house in the evening, neither paying attention to nor being ignored.No one knew who or what was tormenting her. Let her go.One day the mother realized that such a stalking had been noticed, and she walked back.She wiped her tears as she walked, and then simply sat on the cement steps by the side of the road, watching the world of mortals roll.These and those, those who have gone and those who have come, happy and sad, will all be gone in a hundred years.After being dazed for a long time, she saw her daughter passing by in a taxi.She hesitated for a moment, as if she had been hit by something, staggered down the road and stopped a taxi.If the daughter goes out to do errands, there will be a bus to pick her up.I called the office, and sure enough, it was said that I was going back to my mother's house.The direction is reversed. The car left the city, drove six to seven kilometers of asphalt road, turned into the village road, passed through a large rapeseed field, bamboo forest and pond, and arrived at a village called Erfangliu.As far as the eye can see, there are rows of cottages, with tiles and aluminum alloy windows, each with three or four floors. The house where the only daughter went to has only one floor, which is still green bricks and old tiles.The daughter walked through the gate like melting into a black hole.After about five or six minutes, she came out again, followed by a pair of old people.The old woman is short, smiling, and looking at her sincerely. The old man is as thin as a stick, with only a big yellow and black face, his eyebrows, nostrils, and corners of his mouth are tightly closed. He is putting his huge left hand on the shoulder of the old woman, trying to The right leg dragged across the threshold. "Dad, Mom, don't send it off, take a good rest." The old woman turned her head and said, "Damn old man, Xiao Zhu is saying goodbye to you." The daughter stepped forward again, grabbed the paralyzed right hand of the old man, called Dad, and explained a few words in a soft voice. The face that was welded to pieces of scrap iron suddenly opened up, revealing a wholehearted smile. "Got it, got it," he said. At noon, the mother sat at the dining table and saw her daughter come upstairs, changing shoes, putting away her bag, going to the bathroom, washing her hands, choosing vegetables, washing rice, and clearing the coffee table like a pantomime.She didn't ask why her mother didn't cook, nor did she want to know where the nanny had gone.How many years has she lied, how long has she lied to me.A trace of terror flashed in the mother's heart, and she sat motionless with a sullen face.The daughter finally showed a look of panic. "Put the bowl down," said the mother. The daughter's body vibrated visibly.Then she heard her mother say, "Give it to me." She looked at it in confusion, and handed over the feather duster on the coffee table.Mother pointed at her and said, "Tell me, what have you been doing all these years?" "Nothing." "No?" "No." "Then why do you call that old man who suffered a stroke called Dad?" "I didn't call." The mother raised the duster and struck it down, but was hurriedly dodged. "Kneel down." The daughter leaned on the edge of the table and turned around, as if she was about to cry. "Kneel down, dead thing, I tell you to kneel down." The daughter refused to obey, and the mother chased around with a duster.At this time Zhu Wei just came back and said: "What are you beating? You have known beating since you were a child. Isn't it enough? Isn't it embarrassing?" His mother said, "Ask her, ask her clearly, what is she outside? Don't you have a wild husband?" "No." "Not yet." The mother beat her down again, but the daughter threw her head back.The mother stopped beating, and saw her daughter twitching her nose in grievance, crying, and taking the bag to leave.The mother caught her and said: "Don't go, make it clear today, if you don't make it clear, you will die here even if you die." The daughter couldn't break free, so she said angrily: "It's not because of you." But because of this, my mother knew that she broke up a pair of mandarin ducks back then.At that time, she only wanted to remind her, but unexpectedly, they really broke up.She once taught her daughter for no reason: "When you like someone, you must think clearly. You only have one life, like only ten dollars, and you spend it on impulse. Your brain is easy to get hot, and you like to listen to sweet words. Remember, if you don’t take life seriously, life will never treat you seriously.” Later, Zhu Dan’s cousins ​​brought men as guests, all dressed elegantly and behaved decently. "Look at them, they either have a lot of money, or their parents are officials. It's a lot of face to come together," my mother said. Zhu Dan thought that his mother had seen the clue.She secretly dated a classmate for three years. After retiring from the army, he went to work as a sales director in a relative's battery factory. He called Director Liu Director Liu, which sounded nice, but he still had an agricultural registered permanent residence after all. "However, no matter what, it's my own choice, it's my decision, and it's impossible for me not to have any feelings." Zhu Dan said, "Now that I think about it, if I had lived with him, it would have been a little bit bitterer, and I would have been better than him." It's good now. Now there are no people or ghosts." "Then why didn't you say it then?" "Dare I say it?" "You are always thinking about fighting against your mother. Think about it, if I die, don't exist, and don't interfere with you, would you still want him? Are you willing to spend your life with such a person?" "That's at least better than it is now." Because of this, they knew that Zhu Dan had experienced a horrible night.At that time, it was only half a month before she and Chen Xiaopeng got married. Her mother was on a business trip, accompanied by her father, while her elder brother took care of his wife in the hospital. She was the only one left to take care of the big new house.Like a rabbit, she locked the door as soon as she got home, trying to convince herself that her boyfriend Liu Guohua didn't know.But the latter heard it at the banquet, "Your woman took a wedding photo with someone else." The eyes of the crowd were like a huge gas, pushing Liu Guohua to walk dangerously. "Forget it," said a friend. "What kind of?" He took the Mongolian knife and went to Zhu's house.It is said that they blew up the pot, except for one person who called the police after thinking about it, and the rest fled home on motorcycles.The policeman on duty said: "Verbal crimes are not crimes." "Does it have to wait until he kills someone to count?" "Theoretically so." Liu Guohua, who is 1.8 meters tall, walked to the moat with a burst of hostility, screaming like a wild wolf for a long time.All the lights in the surrounding area were extinguished, and the one in Zhu's house was also extinguished in hesitation.At this time, Liu Guohua's zhenqi had been blown up and down again and again exhausted. He slapped the anti-theft door with his hands and cried: "Dandan, open the door, my heart is cut to death." For the past two hours, Zhu Dan's head has been buzzing, and he just feels that he can't get rid of it. All the unhappiness and torture in the world are rushing up, like countless whips whipping him, like he is hiding in an inescapable corner, and the tiger Keep patting the fragile railing with sharp claws.She wanted to bang the wall, to have a pistol pointed at the temple and shoot a bullet into it.She wants transparency, a transparency of light. "I'm going crazy," she said to her mother. "I can't help it." She opened the door.Liu Guohua rolled in and hugged her feet.Apart from crying, he would just keep asking, "Why?" "My mother doesn't agree. I explained it to her for several years, but it didn't work. She didn't agree." "Then do you still love me?" "have no idea." "I don't know, you don't know." Liu Guohua burst into tears, "It's clear that you don't want me anymore, you despise me." "I have no idea." Then she said, "I've thought about it, I'm sorry." "you dislike me." "I don't dislike it." "Then why are you still married to someone else?" "People always want to get married, I'm getting old. Don't tell me, listen to me, I've waited for you, you always say you will make money, where does the money you make go, where is the house you built, Do you want me to marry the second wife Liu?" This is a good time to break up, Liu Guohua kept saying: "Okay, okay." Then he floated downstairs.She never thought it would be so easy, she was sweating and followed.He closed the door as soon as he went out, which was what she expected, but she insisted on leaning against the door and watching him to show that she was not unfeeling. "No, I still love you." Liu Guohua came back from the darkness, "I can't restrain myself from not loving you at all, I can't live without you at all." Later he insisted on going his own way like a madman.He found a new weapon, one that wielded so well that his weakness was concealed and all his excessive demands respected. Either you die, or I die, or both die. "You know what? You scare me." She shook her head. "I do not care." At first he seemed to be performing, but then he fell into it completely, "Fuck me, this is the only way, you see, I can't restrain my love for you at all." She went to the kitchen to pour water for him, and when she came out, she saw him Returning to the state of grief in an extremely exaggerated way, the disgust is completely overwhelmed.She said: "Drink some water, don't say those stupid things." He drank it down, looked at her with a silent and terrifying animal-like look, and said, "Do you love me or not?" "You drank too much." "Do you love me or not? Let me ask you." "I don't love." She suddenly entered into a rare calm, and said, "I tell you, I don't love you, and I will never love you. If I don't love you in this life, I won't love you in the next life. Even if you kill me, I will do the same Say." "Do you think I dare not?" Liu Guohua said, drawing out the knife. "Then come on." She closes her eyes.In that exceptionally silent waiting, she was like a martyr, surrounded by an unprecedented sense of autonomy, she said: "Come on." Palm to yourself. "what are you doing?" "Go away!" The beast went down like an excellent executioner, drawing lines on its belly, arms, knees, and forehead successively. At first, the line suddenly turned white, and then a row of bright red blood beads rushed out of its head. come out. "What are you going to do?" "Go away!" When she was stunned, he yelled again, "Go away, you bitch!" She saw him put his left index finger on the table and cut it off like a vegetable.Then he said: "I just want myself to remember. I put all these scars on my body just to let myself remember. This way I will never be soft on you. I let these scars remember for me, I have a relationship with you A deep hatred. From today, we have a deep hatred. I promise, one day I will come back to liquidate you. I may come back anytime, I may ruin you, I may ruin your parents, husband, and children, and I may kill you It may be disabled, one or all. One or all, dead or disabled, it’s all up to my heart. I will wait for you to grow into a big peach before picking you. I will do what I say .and even if you beg me, I will not forgive you. I swear on this finger that I will never forgive you." Then he disappeared forever. Zhu Dan was stunned because of this.She was known to be terrified at the wedding, looking at the door now and then, always huddling behind her father, and once the procedure was over, she hurried back to her room and locked the door.At that time, everyone was just shy. "I'm afraid he will throw acid." She said to her mother. When the latter took her into his arms, she cried loudly: "After the child was born, I was afraid that he would suddenly jump out and snatch him to death. Over the years, He is like a steel plate stuffed in my head, making me feel unsafe. Mom, I am like standing in a lonely temple, with the sound of horseshoes everywhere in the rain. I turn around, not knowing where the danger will come from. I am afraid !" "Don't be afraid, I will save you, I'm here to save you. Has he come?" "No. He disappeared. I thought for a while, he was just bluffing, and time would make his anger disappear. I even thought that the threat itself was a prank, and the prank was the purpose, and he relied on this to punish me. After all, there is still a king in this country. He scares me, scares me so that I can't live, and his goal is achieved. But just as I was thinking this way, he asked someone to bring a package from another place. There was a plastic bag with dripping water on the edge of the bag. Transparent butter, with a moldy finger in the bag. It was his chopped off index finger. He's coming back." Although she didn't quite believe this statement, my mother still summoned her family members on the street in a rage, and went to Erfang Liu Village in a murderous spirit. "Where is Liu Guohua? Where is Liu Guohua?" They shouted in this village where young and middle-aged people went out to work, and found the small house.As usual, the old man clasped the shoulder of the old woman with his left hand, and dragged his crippled right leg out. "What are you?" said the mother.A puddle of water dripped from the corner of the old man's mouth, and he said, "What are you talking about?" "She said that Guohua harmed her daughter." The old woman said, and then she said to her mother, "You have to show your conscience. We have been farmers for generations, and I know you are from the city. They didn't get along well. We never blamed the girl. Not a condition." "Why not? Your son said he was going to kill my daughter." "Impossible, my son is so honest." "How is it impossible?" The mother went crazy and yelled, only to see a tear the size of a ball rolled down the eyes of the old man, and said with force: "You guys go." "Why are you going? I'm here today to tell you that my Zhu family has never been afraid of anyone." "Let's go." "I'm just here to tell you that my daughter has come to your house all these years. I beg you to please you so that your son can change his mind and don't harm her. Is she worth it? Are you worthy? Are you worthy of her favor?" The old man was so angry that he tremblingly grabbed the glass from his carry-on bag and threw it over, but it fell when he was one meter away from his mother.The old woman burst into tears immediately: "They are all dead, and no one has come out to make decisions." The mother was not afraid of any villagers, but she was afraid that they would have another stroke, so she forced a few words, then calmly got into the car, I went back to the county seat in a flash.She approached the director of the police station, who declared Liu Guohua as a fugitive without saying a word. Another two years passed, and things were calm.My mother suffered a lot in the past, and she was singled out in her old age. She was summoned by a practice team and applauded vigorously every evening.She also happens to be from an atheist background, so she can control herself in appearance, so that outsiders can't detect it for a while.It's just that madness is like fat, often tempting her to go willingly, and if she doesn't move forward, it's like ten thousand ants gnawing at her heart. When Zhu Wei saw the situation like this, he went home less.People only know that the daughter is a little padded jacket, and they see Zhu Dan still coming back every day.The mother began to torture the nanny endlessly, such as suspecting poisoning.How could the nanny, a village girl with a beard at the corner of her mouth who could not read big characters, endure such insults?Packed up his bed and wanted to leave, but was held back by Zhu Dan, who gave him an extra salary of two hundred.Zhu Dan said: "Third Aunt, you have been serving here for eight years anyway, so just treat her like a child and play tricks on you." The nurse's heart softened when she heard that, and she was able to joke later: "Old monster, you said I poisoned you, If I want to poison, I have done it long ago, and it is not my turn today." Mother said: "Hmph, you eat first, it would be best if you poison yourself first." The nanny drank in big bowls and ate big pieces of meat.Then they played games for a long time in the house.My mother always put the RMB with strange patterns on it in the corner by surprise, pretending to forget it.The nanny always collects them and returns them to her. She dips her saliva and places them one by one. They stole all the money." The nanny looked for it with a flashlight, and soon found five yuan. But one day, my mother had an inspiration, and suspected that the nanny would bring relatives from the countryside to live there, so she couldn't stay idle and searched around.She flipped from the first floor to the fourth floor, but found nothing, so she went to the attic.The stairs leading there were narrow and steep, and she climbed up, holding her head with one hand and the steps with the other.As soon as she opened the lock, she saw that the inside was gray, and a huge crow flew out of the window. Two wooden boxes that were glued tightly with adhesive tape and tied up with packing tape lay there, and the dark red paint had not yet peeled off.It can be seen that it is always waiting to be moved, but it is like an unfortunate child being forever forgotten.Mother wiped the dust off the cover, and said to herself, "I've never sorted these two boxes." She went downstairs to look for the nanny, but she couldn't find it, so she came up with scissors, tore off the stickers, cut off the packing tape, and opened the lid of the box.A stale air almost overwhelmed her.What she saw next stunned her.She first thought that the nanny's father had slaughtered a cow, and then judged that it was definitely not an animal bone.She was interested.At this time, in her whole mind, there were two things going against each other, and when they came together, she understood. Bones... daughter. But at this moment, the nanny's hearty laughter came from downstairs.Third aunt, you are still laughing, you did a good thing, you killed someone, and you hid the body here, entrapping my Zhu family!She stumbled downstairs, flipped through her notebook, and looked for the phone numbers of her son Zhu Wei and daughter Zhu Dan.Zhu Wei's cell phone has not been answered.Zhu Dan's cell phone has not been answered.When he called for the second time, Zhu Dan had turned off his phone.Mother went downstairs in fits of terror, into the bright noon.She crossed the moat and walked into Zhishu Lane. She was about to bump into her daughter, but she turned sideways into the side alley.This is a big deal.She took a shortcut to the Chengguan Police Station.After Zhu Dan finished Zhishu Lane, walked across the moat, exchanged a few words with the owner of the restaurant, and then walked to the door of his house.The lazy nanny flashed out in time with the wool, and said with a flattering smile, "Dandan is back?" "How is my mother today?" "It's not the same." "I saw her run out." "Don't be afraid, she will run back, she is afraid that I will steal her things." Sure enough, not long after, my mother yelled "Don't run, don't run", and brought a group of policemen to run.There are many strange things about this matter—the lunatic reported to the police was never ignored, even though the old director was her lifelong lover.Since junior high school, they have never held hands, hugged or kissed once, but they are like the closest brothers and sisters in the world, and he has always been the one to tolerate and accommodate her arrogance.That day she knelt down suddenly while crying, and the director burst into tears: "If it's a joke, let's treat it as a joke with you. Anyway, I would have retired to the second line." He took a policeman and two interns away. Enter Zhu's mansion.When they went up the stairs, they saw Zhu Dan walking down with sweat profusely, so they retreated to the corner together and let her go down first. "Dandan, what's wrong with you?" He asked. "fine." She smiled wretchedly and walked limply while holding on to the railing.About ten minutes later, when the four policemen were inspecting the scene, they suddenly realized that they rushed down, and one of them even drew a gun.They saw Zhu Dan just walking to the bridge.In these ten minutes, she only walked ten meters, her feet seemed to be stuck with huge chewing gum, and she ran away hopelessly like in a nightmare. "We found Liu Guohua's business card in the deceased's suit. Is he your first love?" "yes." "How long has he been dead?" "ten years." It is said that when Zhu Dan was handcuffed, his mother suddenly became sober. She threw herself between her daughter and the police, yelling in a very normal language: "I did it, I did it." "It's me." Zhu Dan said. The old director almost lifted her away like a rabbit, so she hugged his trouser legs tightly and shouted: "I killed him, I killed him one by one, chopped him up one by one, I chopped him to pieces .” "It's me." Zhu Dan said. Since then, my mother has plunged into a deep fog with no end, and has never been normal again.She used to go to watch at the gate of the detention center, but she didn't know that it was her daughter who was waiting at the door, and the nanny led her there.When the prison van drove past, Zhu Dan saw through the bars that his mother was even smiling. The smile was indifferent and artificial, as if laughing at a person outside of blood.This incident caused a sensation in the entire county, and even the entire region. Every day, many people came to Zhu's house with their trouser pockets in their pockets, looking up to visit, and some even took out their mobile phones to take pictures.Liu Guohua's relatives had already plastered the slogan "Blood Repayment" here, and also put up banners.At this time, my mother was like one of them, looking at every detail curiously, and sometimes touching the white paper with her hands, using the remaining memory of knowledge in her mind to read some words. The case is heard in the District Court.Unexpectedly, Chen Xiaopeng suddenly disregarded his mother's accusations, and used his father and all his connections in the political and legal system to work for Zhu Dan.He invited a barrister who was well-known in three provinces, and the lawyer brought the trial to a deadlock with just one sentence in court: "The deceased committed suicide by taking a large amount of sleeping pills. My client sniffed the deceased after he fell asleep, and found out that he had passed away. In a panic, my client dragged him to the bottom of the bed and hid him. Later, out of fear, Divided his body and tried to transport it away. According to the current punishment, she would constitute the crime of insulting the corpse, but at that time, the law did not stipulate this crime." "Crap." The relatives of the Liu family, who had already caused trouble, started clamoring in the auditorium.At this moment, the judge hit the gavel and asked with the compassion of an elder: "Defendant, is this the case?" Turning his head, Zhu Dan saw Liu Guohua's mother clutching a white handkerchief, covering her lips and nose and crying.Crying and crying, she grasped the tip of her nose with her right thumb and index finger, blew her nose crisply, and then continued to cry with her head tilted.在她大腿上有一张缀着白花的死者遗像。在意识到朱丹看她后，她站起来，大声说：“可恨这女子，这些年来总是到我家来，不是骗我儿子在广东，就是骗我儿子在福建，说是我儿子一定要赚可以买下一个县的钱才肯回来。你骗了我们多久啊。你这个骗子！” 朱丹说：“对不起。” 接着她转过来，对法官说：“我现在呼吸平稳，神态放松，医生说得对，当我转身面对恐惧时，恐惧便也如此。” 此后，公诉人要求出示证物。那两箱子白骨便被抬来，其中一只下肢还套着皮鞋，多数骨头被剁裂，裂口像开放着的喇叭花。“可以想见当时用力之猛。”公诉人说。 “这并不意味什么。你并没有证据表明此案系他杀。”律师说。 “我们有被告总共八份供述。” “我认为我们还是应该重证据而轻口供。” “被告，你自己怎么看呢？”法官这时又慈悲地说，他的态度引得旁听席上一片震动，一伙由刘家邀来的亲友拍起桌子来，纷纷批评起这世道来。却是这时听到朱丹说：“我要说是我杀的，你们就会判定是我杀的；我要说不是我杀的，你们也就很难判定是我杀的。我如今要说，是我杀的——你们可以知道，我家地板上有一块划痕，那是他皮鞋蹭的。你们可以看见他的鞋跟有蹭掉的痕迹。那是我勒死他时，他的脚在本能地往地上蹭。他喝了我泡过安眠药的茶水，睡过去了，我扯下电话线，缠住他颈部，勒死他了。当时他的脑袋靠着我这边肋骨，这块肋骨现在还痛——人是我杀的。没什么好说的。你们刘家提出要赔偿，我这些年一直在积，积了有七万，算是对你们的补偿。” 她说完后，现场一片安静。那刘母举起遗像，想说却不知道说什么，便摇晃着它。“别让我看到他，恶心。”朱丹说。在处决她前，她写了一封简短的信，说：晓鹏，你一定要相信我是爱你的，我一直就在爱你。我们的儿子属于你。 她在牢里一直跪着，死命地闭着眼，就像枪决在即，但最终她是被注射处死的。 （感谢C先生为我讲述这个故事的雏形。）