Chapter 59 fifty-nine

... Ding Jie's self-analysis should be said to be basically accurate.But there is one thing, maybe she ignored it on purpose, or maybe she neglected to say it because of excitement, that is, Fang Yulin's warning still cast an indelible shadow in her relationship with Zhou Mi, especially affecting her. mentality.From then on, she still longed to see Zhou Mi, but it was no longer the pure desire of the past, and it somewhat contained a kind of "peeping"—wanting to see what was wrong with Zhou Mi from the relationship.This was obviously influenced by Fang Yulin.Maybe it's because of this kind of "peeping" in the heart

The wish that led to what happened last night... "Yesterday, I drove downstairs to Zhou Mi's house as scheduled. In order not to attract the attention of the neighbors, I parked the car in different places every time I went..." It was very dark up the stairs.Ding Jie walked upstairs slowly.Naturally, the six-story building in the worker's residential area would not be equipped with an elevator, but Dan Dinghuo thought it would be more "convenient".If you take the elevator, after a few times, the elevator driver will remember that she often comes to see Deputy Mayor Zhou.She didn't want anyone here to "remember" that.

"...He once told me that he may have to move in the near future. The city government allocated a special fund to buy several existing houses to solve the housing problems of their new leaders. If he doesn't move to a new house, other leaders will not It is easy to move. But he is very reluctant to leave these two old houses that he has lived in for many years. He hopes that I can accompany him tonight, sit there for a while, talk... and go shopping with him... We have an appointment , I arrived at his house at 6 o'clock. But it is very strange that he, who has always been very punctual, is not at home..."

Ding Jie knocked on the door twice more.No one answered.She hesitated for a while in the corridor, took out her mobile phone and called Zhou Mi.The voice on the phone was: "Sorry, the person you dialed has switched off." Then she called his office again.No one answered in the office either. "...I waited in the corridor for about ten minutes. This is really unprecedented, and I can't wait any longer. But when I was about to leave there, something completely unimaginable happened..." Suddenly, there was a sound from the door of Zhou's house, which startled Ding Jie who was turning to go downstairs.At first she thought she had heard it wrong, because there was something wrong with her ears.But then, there was a series of sounds of puffing and puffing from inside the door.Facts told her that the voice was real, and someone inside was clearly unlocking the door to go out.Then, the doorknob was turned with a "click", and the door slowly opened with a "squeak".

"...I decided it was a thief, so I instinctively ran to the corner of the fire escape and hid..." But what came out was Zhou Mi.He stood at the door, looked around briefly, and then came out alone.The man shook hands with Zhou Mi, and hurried downstairs alone.The moment he turned around, Ding Jie saw very clearly that this person was the eldest son of Deputy Secretary Gu, known as "Gu Sanjun". "Gu Sanjun? The son of Deputy Secretary Gu?" Fang Yulin asked in surprise. Ding Jie replied tremblingly: "...Yes..." Fang Yulin asked again: "Did you see clearly? It must have been very dark in the corridor at that time."

Ding Jie said: "I couldn't see it clearly at first...but when he was walking downstairs, he lit a cigarette..." Fang Yulin said: "Zhou Mi doesn't smoke on weekdays." Ding Jie said: "It was not Zhou Mi who lit the cigarette, but Gu Sanjun. At that time, I also wondered if I had misread it. Because I had never heard Zhou Mi say that he had a relationship with Gu Sanjun, so I really wanted to confirm it. Who is the guy? When the lighter "click" sounded and a small ball of orange flames popped out from the nose of the machine, I quickly poked my head over to take a closer look at the face illuminated by the fire, and confirmed As a result, I can say responsibly that he is Gu Sanjun."

"Do you know Gu Sanjun?" Fang Yulin asked. "It's not just acquaintance." "very familiar?" "Gu Sanjun was also a frequent visitor to my house." "why?" "He chased me." "Gu Sanjun ever chased you? Impossible. He is several years younger than you." "You, I don't know people like Gu Sanjun. He has chased after girls from middle school students who are ten years younger than him, to rich women who are ten years older than him. This is his great hobby." "You never told me about it..."

"I didn't answer him at all. I don't think it's necessary to upset you by telling you." "Since Zhou Mi asked you out, why would he ask Mr. Gu again? Even if he had an appointment with Mr. Gu, he should return your call. From common sense, Zhou Mi is not the kind of person who breaks appointments and breaks promises." Fang Yulin asked puzzledly. Ding Jie sighed and replied: "Yes. At that time, I was also very angry. As soon as Gu Sanjun left, I really wanted to rush over to scold Zhou Mi severely, then turn around and leave, and ignore him from then on. But At the moment when I was about to rush over, a sudden intuition calmed me down again. Don’t be angry. During the period of time when I was in contact with Zhou Mi, all the impressions he gave me told me that he is definitely not a person who loves me. A man who doesn't care about women. He has never had a real love life in his life, so he cherishes this interaction with me very much. He is a man of trust, especially between me and him, he always behaves very generously , considerate, as long as he promises to me, he will definitely do it. Therefore, my instinct tells me that the reason why he is so abnormal tonight must be something terrible. Only this kind of possibility will It made him so abnormal... So I retracted the foot that had almost stepped out. I saw Zhou Mi standing in front of the unit door for a while... You can't imagine at all, what I saw at this moment What kind of thoughtful man is he? Under the reflection of the light leaking from the door, he looks so confused, so tired, so depressed, even a little old, his head has shrunk a lot, and he even looks a little bit old. The hunchback. He stood there for a while, then turned and went in, and shut the door..."

... After the door closed, the corridor became darker and darker.Ding Jie waited for a while, she thought that Zhou Mi would call her immediately after seeing off Mr. Gu, explain the situation, and invite her over.But after waiting for a while, he didn't hit.After waiting for a while, he was dressed neatly, took a briefcase and left in a hurry.After locking the door, Zhou Mi pushed the door hard to see if the door was locked.Then he looked around and confirmed that there was no one else around, so he stuffed a key into a gap between the iron frame of the anti-theft door and the wall, then turned and walked downstairs.

"...He left a key outside. This is very typical of his personality: no matter what he does, he always keeps a back hand, just in case. This may be too hard for him when he was a child. , the struggle in his life is too difficult, and everything he has is hard-earned. He told me many times, until now, he still has such nightmares at night, as if he still lives in that particularly remote mountain ditch muddy In the thatched house, braving the heavy snow, he was delivering rice dumplings to a small restaurant, and suddenly fell into the abyss... He also said that his dreams were always black and white, and he had never dreamed in color. At that time It was a huge urge to go in and see what was going on. This urge and the same huge curiosity made me do something I would never do, and I would never dare to do..."

After Zhou Mi went downstairs, Ding Jie immediately went to the anti-theft door, took out the key, opened the door of Zhou Mi's house, and walked in quietly.Although she knew that there was no one else in the room, Ding Jie's heart was still beating violently after entering the room.During this period of time, although she has been to his house many times and entered this door, she has never been alone.Perhaps it was due to psychological reasons, as soon as she entered the door, she was overwhelmed by an invisible tension... "Have you been to Zhou Mi's house?" Ding Jie suddenly asked Fang Yulin. "How could I have been to his house..." Fang Yulin hurriedly denied. "Did you search his house secretly?" Ding Jie asked again in a daze. "Don't be ridiculous. The deputy mayor's house can be searched casually? Even the homes of ordinary people have to be approved, and they can only be searched after obtaining a search warrant!" "Zhou Mi's home is very clean and simple whenever you go there. The cleanliness and simplicity are so touching. It will make you think that this is a place that has absolutely no extra demands on the world in front of you, and no extravagance. A person who thinks, has very clear goals, and lives a very meticulous life. Think about it, he is a deputy mayor, he is so busy with work, his wife is not around all the year round, and he has not hired a nanny. His parents retired early and returned to their ancestral home. Lives alone. He can actually keep a house so spotless. Based on this, I always think that he is a man who never treats himself casually. By extension, he is absolutely reliable. People—at least from the perspective of personal life order, it should be possible to know in this way. However, the real reason that excited me and prompted me to steal his key, steal his door and sneak into his house is not that he is outside I have already seen these two rooms, one is the living room and the other is his bedroom. What tempted me was the other room... This room he never allowed me to enter. He He always said that the house was too messy and there was nothing to see...but I never believed the reason he said. If it was really messy and there was really nothing to see, he would have let me see it. Think about it He even let me read his diary, what else is there to hide from me? That is to say, there is something more important than his diary in this room. Is it a correspondence with another woman? The collection of treasures of ancient calligraphy and painting? Is it the bridal chamber where he and his wife lived together, which retains countless traces of affection and indelible memories? Or is it a place where he and other women have a tryst? Let it be which of them One item, I want to know immediately! I want to know what the great mystery it contains..." Ding Jie stood in front of the door of this room for a long time, trying to calm herself down a bit, and then bravely opened the door slowly. "...But what I saw was still a very clean room, still spotlessly clean. Everything was arranged in an orderly manner. Except for a bed, there were old-style bookcases on three sides of the wall. Inside the bookcase Not a single book, and about half the shelves are filled with old newspapers that he has collected over the years..." "Old newspaper? What kind of old newspaper?" Fang Yulin asked. "I looked through, mainly newspapers that publish the speeches of leaders at all levels. From central leaders, to leaders of provinces, cities, prefectures and counties; I know that he has such a specialty. For so many years, the main leaders at the central and provincial levels, no matter what term they are in, what main ideas have been raised on some major issues, and in what year? He remembers very clearly what was brought up at the meeting. He can recite many of the original words in their entirety. I thought he had a strong memory. It took a lot of work..." "It's not just a year or two!" "Of course, judging from the old newspapers he collected, he started working on it when he was an associate professor at the School of Finance and Economics." "No wonder..." "What I can't figure out is that it's understandable for him to memorize the speeches of previous leaders of the central government. Why would he spend such time memorizing what leaders at the provincial level, as well as prefectures, counties, and large enterprises have said?" "Perhaps, this is his uniqueness and excellence of Zhou Mi. In the first 20 years, such things often happened that some people could stand out in the world just by reciting the original words of Marx, Enley, Lenin, and Mao. Maybe Zhou Mi Get inspiration from here. Think about it, most people can only get in touch with the leaders below, and you can actually get started by reciting the original words of these leaders. At least when dealing with these leaders, large and small, it will make them feel that you are very reliable and very Lovely, it is a usable talent, and it can be promoted and used faster..." "I really don't believe that Zhou Mi can be so vulgar, so pragmatic..." "Vulgarity may also be forced..." "Who forced you to be vulgar?" "Ding Jie, Ding Jie, you really should get out of your general's mansion and live in a slum for two years." "I know you're always prejudiced against my parentage!" "I won't talk about the things between us today, you can continue to talk about it. What did you see in that room?" ... The other half of the bookcase is full of used notebooks, sorted by date.Ding Jie pulled out a few books and looked at them, almost all of which had the same content: recording what he said to whom and who said what to him every day.Then what happened that day (something about him, or something he was a part of).In these matters, what contradictions occurred, who were involved in these contradictions, how were the problems resolved, and what problems were left unresolved... etc. What surprised Ding Jie was that he had been involved since middle school. doing this kind of recording.At that time, he was the general affairs officer of the student union of Shuanggou Town Middle School... and the latest record, you can see that when he met Ding Zhi last time, he made a brief postscript of what he said... and There is a kind of note, which is specially used for self-dissection.Strictly check your own shortcomings, and condemn the "problems" that happened to you that day (most of them are those "evil thoughts" that just popped up in your mind, and you haven't had time to do them, or you can't do them at all).This kind of self-dissection and self-condemnation was done most strictly, in place, and in detail in middle school. A self-dissection can write two to three thousand words, citing classics and criticizing it online.Later, it was shortened a little bit. In the past few years, sometimes it was just a simple line of words, such as: "Zhou Mi, you should pay attention!" "Hey, the old problem has happened again!" What's wrong? What's wrong? What's wrong..." And on a certain day last year, I only wrote these two words "God!!!" "...Why did he do this? It seems that he has been living in a very depressed state, and it has continued since middle school?" Fang Yulin asked. "...Maybe it's just out of a kind of self-protection, out of a kind of inferiority complex and panic that he can't explain clearly..." Ding Jie said. "Why is he inferior? Why is he panicking?" Fang Yulin asked again. "I don't know... I can't say it clearly... But my intuition, deep in his heart, seems... It seems that there is always a kind of lack of self-confidence, fear of losing everything he has... I was flipping through that room when suddenly my phone rang..." "Zhou Mi called?" "I picked up the phone and saw that the caller ID was from Zhou Mi. I instinctively rushed out the door. I thought he was outside the door. But there was no one outside the door. I went back into the house. Then the phone was connected... I asked him, where are you?He asked me, where are you?I pretended to be very angry and asked him, you asked me to meet at 6 o'clock.What time is it now?He also hurriedly interrupted my words in a restless tone, and asked urgently, stop talking about that, tell me quickly, where are you?I asked, where are you first?His answer really surprised me.He said, I'm next to your car.I came out and saw your car..." Startled, Ding Jie ran to the window, opened a curtain, and looked down. Under the faint moonlight, beside her Opel, there was indeed a well-built, slightly hunchbacked, medium-sized figure.With a mobile phone in his hand, he was calling her, and he was looking upstairs. Ding Jie knew that she couldn't hide it from him, but she couldn't let him know that she had sneaked into his house, so she hurriedly picked up her purse, ran to the door, and said to Zhou Mi: "I'm in your house." Up the stairs upstairs, heading for your house." As she spoke, she rushed out the door and closed it hard.She didn't expect that the mobile phone was still on, and the loud sound of closing the door would be transmitted to Zhou Mi's ears through the sensitive mobile phone.In fact, Zhou Mi did hear the sound of the door closing, and subconsciously asked: "What sound? You entered my room?" Immediately, he walked quickly towards his own building.Ding Jie realized that Zhou Mi was coming here, and became more and more flustered. When the door was closed, a corner of the hem of the coat was caught in the crack of the anti-theft door. While tugging at the hem of her coat, she explained to Zhou Mi through her mobile phone: "There is no sound... what else can there be..." Zhou Mi was afraid that she would take something from her room, so she strode at a faster pace. Running over, he pretended to be very peaceful and said to Ding Jie: "You wait at my door, and I will open the door for you." He wanted to keep Ding Jie steady.Of course Ding Zhi didn't want Zhou Mi to see his coat being caught by the anti-theft door of his house, he just wanted to get out before Zhou Mi arrived, so he blushed and tugged at the hem of the coat roughly, yelling into the phone: "You don't need to come here, I'm leaving. I won't see you again, and I won't wait for you here." Zhou Mi ran faster and was already close to the entrance of his house.He yelled to the phone: "Ding Jie, don't leave yet. Listen to my explanation..." Ding Jie squatted in front of the door, clamped the phone in the crook of her neck, freed her hands while tugging at the hem of the coat, while Said to the mobile phone: "You don't need to explain anymore, you don't need to..." Zhou Mi rushed up the stairs, jumped on the third step, and ran upstairs with two steps.He shouted: "You must listen to my explanation..." At this moment, Ding Jie turned off her mobile phone.He hurriedly called: "Ding Jie... Ding Jie..." When he rushed to the door of his room, Ding Jie was gone.He was taken aback, he didn't believe that Ding Jie would walk so fast, he quickly looked around, and shouted twice: "Ding Jie! Ding Jie!" But still no one answered. The corridor is also empty.He rushed to the anti-theft door, put his hand into the edge of the door frame, groped for a while, and found the key.He breathed a sigh of relief, then went to open the door and rushed in. At this time, a black figure suddenly flashed from the corner of the fire escape in the corridor, and ran downstairs like flying.Zhou Mi, who had just entered the room, heard movement outside the door, rushed out and shouted: "Ding Jie, listen to me..." But it was too late.