Chapter 29 Chapter 28 Wei Na and Lu Tuo

Wei Na said: "Since then, I have never seen Li Long again. The two of us have not even talked on the phone. To be honest, I am very uncomfortable. I dare not admit that I am in love with Li Long. Li Long is such a good man , I respect him. Every other week, I go to Shenzhen to visit Mengze. Mengze entered the drug rehabilitation center for more than five months before coming out. Her heart addiction is very heavy, maybe because she is the kind of girl who is easy to indulge in inner feelings After she came out, I still took her with me and watched over her all the time. She followed me for more than four months, and she was fine. I think it will be fine after a year. But Zhu Min came to quarrel several times, and Mengze had to go back. Unexpectedly, within half a month after going back, she took drugs again. I had to send her to Shenzhen again. Li Long is really unfortunate."

"Sometimes you disappear mysteriously, and you can't be reached by phone, so you just went to Shenzhen?" Lu Tuo asked. "Yes. I can't tell anyone about my whereabouts," Vina said. "I hope Mengze will get better." Lu Tuo said, "Weina, I will go out for a while." Wei Na asked, "What are you doing?" "Close one thing. Either I won't come back, and if I do, I'll come to you right away..." Lu Tuo looked at Wei Na, hesitant to speak. Wei Na opened her eyes and said, "Lu Tuo, why are you getting more and more mysterious? Don't be scary. Tell me, what's the matter?"

Lu Tuo smiled and said, "It's okay, just kidding." "Are you okay?" Wei Na asked. Lu Tuo said, "It's really all right." Lu Tuo is about to celebrate his fortieth birthday.He didn't say hello to his younger siblings and went on a journey alone.He went to Yantai and chose Binhai Hotel to live in.Yantai is not big, and winter is approaching, so there are not many tourists.He only spent half a day in downtown Yantai before losing interest.Don't go to the street anymore, just lie in the room every day.He propped up the pillow high enough to see the blue sky and blue sea.But the desertedness of Yantai suits his state of mind very well.

I don't know where Wei Na came to Yantai alone that year, where did she live?What Lu Tuo thinks about all day is Wei Na and her story. Lu Tuo always lay down and didn't bother to get up.The meal was not eaten on time.I always sleep until after ten o'clock, go out to eat a bowl of noodles, and come back to lie down again.At dusk, I went out to find a shop, asked for some seafood, and had two bowls of rice.The seafood in Yantai is really cheap, twenty or thirty yuan, and the stomach can't hold it.The taste is also exceptionally good.In fact, there is no work done, mostly boiled, and it is very delicious.

After dinner, go slowly to the hotel.Occasionally, I come across a bookstore and go in for a walk.Jian has his own books, all of which are pirated editions.The bosses seem to have made a lot of money and don't pay much attention to people.Lu Tuo was also angry, but just thought it was funny. The sea breeze is a bit chilly, but it feels different from the wind in Jingdu.The cold wind in Jingdu is like cold water spraying on the face; while the cold wind by the sea is like cold silk swaying on the face. Lu Tuo likes to listen to the sound of rushing waves, and he is indescribably excited.He walked closely along the seawall and saw the street lamp reflected in the sea, which was stirred up into a pool of broken gold by the waves.Some people who fish at night are wrapped in coats and look very leisurely.Lu Tuo went up to chat, but others didn't have time to pay attention.Lu Tuo thought, maybe not all the rich people live in Yantai?Otherwise, why are you so moody?Lu Tuo seldom spoke when he came out this time, and sometimes he remained silent all day long.When he spoke suddenly, he could hear heavy echoes in both ears.I am a stranger to myself.

I want to watch the sunrise every day, but I miss it.He suffered from insomnia all night long, and fell asleep dimly when it was almost dawn.Knowing that it was just the time of sunrise, the headache was unbearable, and no matter how much it was, he refused to open his eyes even if he died. It's finally my fortieth birthday.It was also after ten o'clock in the morning, and Lu Tuo went out to have breakfast. "A bowl of noodles." He only said these three words, nothing more.The people in the noodle shop don't talk too much, they just go down, collect money, and change money.They all kept their faces straight, and no one looked at anyone.After eating, Lu Tuo didn't say thank you, and no one in the noodle shop told him to leave.

Today Lu Tuo didn't go back to sleep, but paced back and forth along the coast.The sun was shining and the wind was still strong, but not as cold.Lu Tuo kept walking, feeling the subtle changes in his thinking.Sometimes you feel buzzing in your ears, which is not a good sign.Try covering your ears, it seems that the sea breeze is blowing again. Lu Tuo walked into the afternoon like this, and looked at him with strange eyes.Finally an old lady came over and said, "Sir, are you a tourist?" "Yes." Lu Tuo felt his head swell from the shock of his voice. "Are you here alone?" the old lady asked.

Lu Tuo replied, "Alone." "Come out alone, pay attention to safety." "thanks." The old lady sized him up carefully and said, "Sir, you are in big business, right?" Lu Tuo smiled and said, "Do you think I look like me?" The old lady shook her head again, and said, "It doesn't look like it when you think about it. Businessmen, how can you have time to hang around like this? I saw you walking around for a whole day. Really, are you okay?" Lu Tuo finally understood what the old lady meant, and said with a smile: "Ma'am, do you think there is something wrong with me?"

The old lady said: "In life, things don't always go as you want, so you have to think about it." Lu Tuo suddenly asked: "Ma'am, look, do I look like a lunatic?" The old lady clapped her hands and laughed: "This young man is interesting. But, some lunatics can't see it, and they are almost the same as normal people." Lu Tuo whispered, "Then no one will know if I'm crazy." The old lady raised her hand to her ear and asked, "What did the young man say?" Lu Tuo laughed and said loudly: "I said that my aunt is really a kind person!"

The old lady said: "Young man, you are fine, so I am relieved. People often come here to commit suicide by throwing themselves into the sea. When I find out, I talk to them. Let me tell you what is on their minds, and I will let go of it." In the world, there is no knot that cannot be untied." "Thank you, ma'am!" Lu Tuo said. Lu Tuo bid farewell to the old lady, found a random restaurant, and still ordered seafood.He likes to eat seafood.He didn't plan to treat today as a special day, and he didn't order more dishes than usual.I only ate two bowls of rice, and walked back to the hotel.After washing, I turned off the lights and listened to the sea by the window.Suddenly the electricity stopped, and there was no light outside the window.Gradually, the sky became twilight, and the sea appeared more real and softer.The surrounding area became quieter, and the sound of the waves filled my ears.

Lu Tuo thought that this night at the beach without electricity was the best birthday gift God gave him.Before the electricity came, he took out the sleeping pills he had prepared long ago.I took four pills.He didn't want to suffer from insomnia tonight, so he had to get a good night's sleep.His insomnia was so severe that he usually took two sleeping pills without any effect. Lu Tuo had never treated sleep with such solemnity.He sat upright on the head of the bed, breathed evenly, and then slowly lay down, lying on his back with his hands loosely spread out.Gradually, I felt my consciousness blurred, as if the TV had lost its signal, and snowflakes flickered on the screen, accompanied by hissing noises.He thought that there must be no call right now, let's look at Yehai again?Look at the night sea again.But the eyes could no longer be opened. Lu Tuo woke up in shock.He sat up almost the moment he woke up.He opened his eyes, but saw the place where the sea and the sky meet, and there are thousands of rays of light. "I love Vina!" "My name is Lu Tuo!" "I'm in Yantai!" Lu Tuo called out to the sea three times. The sun slowly emerged from the sea. Lu Tuo turned on his cell phone and dialed Wei Na's number.But turn off the machine.He thought it was too early, Wei Na must still be asleep.Regardless of whether he was arguing with her or not, he hung up her home phone. Someone picked it up, it was Wei Na. "Vina, hello!" "Who are you?" Vera asked. Lu Tuo felt strange: "What's wrong with you? Can't you hear my voice?" Wei Na asked again: "May I ask who is the gentleman?" "I'm Lu Tuo? I'm in Yantai." "You are Uncle Lu? I am Xue'er, Wei Na's daughter." Lu Tuo could hardly believe that Xueer's voice sounded like Wei Na's. "Oh, it's Xue'er. You're back? Where's mom?" Lu Tuo asked. Xue'er didn't answer, just said: "Uncle Lu, can you come back? Come back right away." Lu Tuo said: "I'm just going to tell your mother that I'll be back today. Say hello to your mother." Lu Tuo hurriedly packed his luggage for breakfast and rushed to the airport.You have to wait two hours to buy a ticket.He entered the terminal early and greeted everyone, like a cheerful American.There was a young man sitting next to him, and Lu Tuo started talking with him.He was surprised that his thinking was more active than usual, and he could speak Mandarin fluently.The young man actually asked him if he was from the north.He said that he was from Jingdu, and the young man was surprised. After getting on the plane, Lu Tuo kept chatting with the seat next to him.He actually played a prank and talked about Lu Tuo's novel with others.He said that he didn't like Lu Tuo because Lu Tuo's novels were too moralistic, too political, and too heavy, just like Tolstoy.He said he didn't like Tolstoy either.In fact, Lu Tuo loves Tuo Weng very much.But that friend likes to read Lu Tuo's novels, accusing the stranger next to him of being a privileged class, otherwise he shouldn't be so intolerable to Lu Tuo's novels. After getting off the plane, Lu Tuo called a taxi and went straight to Wei Na's house.It was Cher who opened the door.My God, Xueer and her mother seem to be made out of the same mold.Xue'er looked at Lu Tuo with a look of embarrassment on her face, and said, "Are you Uncle Lu?" Lu Tuo didn't have time to wonder, he suddenly raised his head and saw the portrait of Wei Na with a black border in the living room.When his head buzzed, he froze. "Xue'er, tell uncle, what's going on?" Xueer said, "A car accident." Lu Tuo said, "Your mother drives very steadily." Xue'er said: "She went to Beihu to see Uncle Zheng Qiulun. It was Uncle Zheng's birthday that day. Mom was drinking, and when she was crossing the Beihu Bridge, she broke the railing and fell into the lake." "My God!" Lu Tuo trembled all over. "I salvaged the empty car and brought it up, but there was no mother's body." Xue'er cried bitterly, unable to continue. Lu Tuo and Xue'er wept together, neither of them forgot to comfort each other. Xue'er said: "Uncle Lu, thank you for spending the last days with my mother. Mom, she is too bitter." Lu Tuo felt strange, how could Xueer know about his relationship with Wei Na? "How is your father?" Lu Tuo asked. Xue Er said: "Thank you. Dad is old and doesn't want to stay in the United States. He came back with me and doesn't want to go to the United States anymore. He doesn't speak the language there and is very lonely." Lu Tuo lowered his head and said nothing. Xue'er said, "Uncle Lu, sit down for a while, I'll go up and get something." Lu Tuo stood up and looked at Wei Na's portrait. "Weina, Nana, Nana, why can't you wait for me to come back. I said I'm coming back to find you!" Lu Tuo said a few words, and then burst into tears. "Uncle Lu, don't be sad." Xue'er took his hand and asked him to sit down. Xue'er held a delicate notebook in her hand and said, "Uncle Lu, this is my mother's diary. I want to give it to you. It is most suitable for you to keep it." This is a diary with a brown-red sheepskin cover, exuding a faint fragrance. certain day of the month So much like him.When I opened his novel, the photos on the title page surprised me.He is simply Zheng Qiulun.In other words, Zheng Qiulun should look like this if he is thirty-eight or nineteen years old. After reading his novels, I was almost a little scared.This is a very bloody writer.Isn't it the same for Zheng Qiulun back then?He left early. ... certain day of the month I finally made an appointment with him.I know I'm being presumptuous, but I can't control my desire to see him. He really looks like Qiulun, even more so than in the photo.It's just that her complexion is fairer and slightly shorter than Qiulun. Chatting with him, I often have hallucinations, as if my autumn wheel has been resurrected.I really want to throw myself into his arms. He is very talkative, which is also like Qiulun.When he talked about what happened to him after he wrote the novel, my chest felt cold when I heard it.He laughed it off.He is a person who has forgotten the practical utility.It also has a taste of Don Quixote, which is so brave that it makes people sad. ... certain day of the month ... His eyes are a little blurred, which makes me uneasy.I dare not guess his mind. Does he know what's on my mind? I suspected that I had secretly fallen in love with him.He may be a respectable and loving man. I got really drunk today.The heart is too annoying.Somehow, here he is.When I woke up, he was lying on my bed and fell asleep.When I saw myself in pajamas, my heart beat like a drum.It was he who bathed me, it was he who wiped me all over. Will I be his woman? certain day of the month Today he looks weird and speaks inexplicably.He said maybe he won't come back, but if he comes back, he will come to me.What does it mean?I thought about it over and over again, puzzled. In a few days, it will be Qiulun's birthday.I want to go to Beihu, sit by the lake, and talk about what is in my heart.I want to tell Qiulun that I fell in love with someone and ask him to forgive me. I will close the tea house and travel all over the world with him.Find a place with mountains and water, and build a few wooden houses to live in.He writes and I take care of his life.There are no more earthly noises, but the song of birds and springs is heard. Reading Wei Na's diary, Lu Tuo's chest ached so badly that he almost lost his breath.If he had confessed his love to her earlier, she might have been safe and sound, right?If he didn't go to Yantai, but stayed by her side every day, or accompanied her to Beihu, she would be safe, right?Lu Tuo hated and regretted, and wanted to bang his head against the wall. Xueer said: "In my mother's car, the empty wine bottle is still there, but the person is gone." "Xue'er, did mother tell you about the dead soul bird?" Lu Tuo asked. "Revenant bird?" Xue'er shook her head, "I've never heard of it from my mother." Lu Tuo bowed his head in silence.Perhaps it was God's will, Wei Na was ordered to go with Zheng Qiu in turn.There is another dead soul bird in the vast North Lake. Friends of Wei Na kept coming to visit.Someone saw Lu Tuo and looked at him with wide eyes.Their eyes were a little weird, and their expressions were almost terrified.Lu Tuo was puzzled at first, wondering if they saw anything strange about him?His heart skipped a beat, worrying that if he wasn't like a normal person, he might be crazy.Then I thought, they must be old educated youths, seeing that he looks like Zheng Qiulun. An old man came downstairs tremblingly.Lu Tuo guessed who this person was.In the end, Guo Haoran wants to stay in the villa left by Wei Na until his death.God is such a bad kid who likes to play tricks. (full text)