Chapter 22 Chapter 21 Wei Na and Lu Tuo

Wei Na was not in Jingdu for several days.Lu Tuo called her, but she only said that she was working in another place, her words flickered, as if she was not enjoying herself.It was inconvenient for Lu Tuo to ask in detail, but he was faintly worried.Knowing that she was back today, he went to Ginkgo House. The waitresses stood in two rows and listened to Wei Na's lecture.She didn't see Lu Tuo, she just talked to herself.Her tone was very friendly, and after such an order, it was over.Turning around suddenly, seeing Lu Tuo, he smiled and said, "Are you here? Go, let's go up and drink tea."

She led Lu Tuo to the purple and blue box, and the lady brought tea afterward.Wei Na said: "This box is never open to the public. It is a place where I chat with my friends. The sofas, tables and chairs are the same as at home, and they are cleaner." Lu Tuo joked, "You left mysteriously, I'm afraid you're going to go out for a walk again." Wei Na said: "I can't stand that kind of blow anymore. If I go out like that again, I'm afraid I won't be able to come back. Let's put it this way, Guo Haoran makes me feel humiliated, and Wu Wei makes me feel humiliated."

Lu Tuo didn't expect his joke to touch her sore spot, so he wanted to speak lightly and asked, "Has your daughter ever been back?" Wei Na smiled brightly, raised her head, and looked far away: "Xue'er has grown up and is going to college. She is studying medicine, which is a relatively stable career in the United States, which is very suitable for her. The child will call me every week She comes back once a year and stays with me for twenty days. Xueer is very beautiful, I will show you the photos someday. She is really beautiful." Lu Tuo asked, "Does it look like you?"

"I don't think it looks like me. Others look at me and say it looks like me." Lu Tuo said, "It's more beautiful to look like you." Wei Na was a little embarrassed, lowered her head and smiled, and said: "That child is very American, self-improvement, self-esteem, tolerance, understanding, and politeness. She is also very polite in front of me, and she keeps saying 'is that okay?' , 'I'm sorry', I'm still not used to it, and said she was too out of touch. Then she apologized and even said 'I'm sorry'. There is no way, she received that kind of civilized education."

Lu Tuo wanted to know Guo Haoran's situation, but it was inconvenient to ask.Wei Na herself said: "Guo Haoran also came back once, and we met. His living habits have changed, and his words and deeds are quite different from before. He couldn't find a suitable job there, so he could have been free. Yes, but it's not the American way of doing nothing until you're sixty. He works as a flower worker at a college and can support himself. His old aunt is still going strong, God bless her." Vina spoke of God with great exclamation, and then fell silent.She sipped her tea slowly, looking down at the carpet.The carpet is straw yellow with a geometric pattern.Lu Tuo also looked at the carpet, silently counting the lattices.There are ten grids horizontally and twenty grids along the line, a total of two hundred grids.Lu Tuo has a habit of counting things when he has nothing to do.Sitting in the car, you can count the trees on the roadside, looking at the house, you can count the windows, and squatting in the toilet, you can count the tiles on the floor and walls.When the numbers are too complicated, and there is no pen at hand, I will worry about it.Even when you get home, you have to use a calculator to do the math.Lu Tuo never told anyone about his problem, for fear that they would say he was crazy.

"Thinking about his whole life, he is actually very pitiful." Wei Na suddenly talked about Guo Haoran again, "His inner world may be messy, and you can't sort it out for him with normal reason. He is very rich now, God really Can joke. But he is nothing, nothing, not even a soul of his own. When we met, he said sorry to me. When he apologized to me, he couldn't look at me. I'm not a daughter of God, but At that moment, I thought God must have forgiven him. He is old, and seeing his suit and leather shoes, he does not look like a veteran who came back from the United States, but a veteran who came back from Taiwan.”

Lu Tuo sighed: "I can't understand the religious spirit of Westerners. But according to our Chinese religious feelings, Wei Na, the God you mentioned is actually yourself. You forgave him at that moment. According to Chinese Buddhism, Everyone has a Buddha in their heart." "Maybe." Wei Na nodded, "Tell me about you, how are you doing?" Lu Tuo smiled bitterly and said, "My neurasthenia is getting worse and worse, and it's hard to fall asleep. When I fall asleep, I keep dreaming. Don't joke, Wei Na, I always dream about you." Wei Na blushed and said, "I have nothing to dream about."

Lu Tuo didn't expect to say this, and couldn't help his heart beating.Afraid of embarrassing the two of them, he pretended to be joking: "The dream is not in anyone's control. If I want to dream of you, I can't help it." Wei Na asked, "What are you dreaming about?" Lu Tuo said: "I always dream of you smiling foolishly." Wei Na said: "It seems that in your mind, I am a silly big sister who only knows how to smile." Lu Tuo's chest jumped up suddenly, and he really wanted to take advantage of the situation to say what was in his heart.But the heartbeat is getting more and more frenzied, and the heart is afraid that it will burst out of the throat.He was frightened and wanted to run away immediately.His fear is sometimes inexplicable, and he doesn't know what he is afraid of.just scared.It feels like the brain is like a dike that has been loosened by the flood, ready to burst at any moment.He was afraid that the flood in his head would flood.

He repeatedly counted the grids on the carpet to calm down his emotions.After a while, he said slowly: "My sister called in the morning, saying that she had just read a news in the newspaper, saying that there was a reporter in the north who specialized in revealing the dark side of society, and was suddenly assassinated recently. The case It's confusing, and there is no clue so far. My sister didn't say anything else, but I understand what she meant, just to make me be careful. Actually, one of my classmates said it more bluntly. He patted me on the shoulder and said, man, do you want to Shouldering morality with iron shoulders, writing articles with skillful hands? You were born fifty years too late, or you were born fifty years too early. Anyway, in the present hundred years, you are not needed. Chinese intellectuals have always been good at discussing current affairs, but ignorant of current affairs. You'd better be more aware of current affairs and write something romantic."

"I told you that if Zheng Qiulun is still alive, I will try my best to protect him and prevent him from being hurt." Wei Na paused for a moment, "Old Lu, you were just about to tell you, put your edge on it. " Lu Tuo sighed and did not speak.Wei Na looked at him, her eyes filled with sadness.He didn't dare to face those eyes, and lowered his head to count the grids.He suddenly discovered that there was a dark stripe in the middle of the lattice, and the prismatic lattice became a triangle.It was very clear in my heart, knowing that there are no longer two hundred flower grids, but four hundred.But there are still twenty horizontal and twenty longitudinal, counting one by one.

It's lunch time, and the lady brought the meal over.Wei Na knew Lu Tuo's taste, and prepared braised beef claypot rice for him.Lu Tuo laughed when he smelled the aroma of beef.Wei Na pursed her lips and said with a smile: "You are a beef treasure." Wei Na didn't want to eat rice, so she ordered a steak and a glass of juice. "I'm Jinmo Zhehei, and I also like to eat beef," she said. After dinner, Wei Na asked the lady to fetch two basins of water to wash her face.Lu Tuo said, "Can't I go to the bathroom by myself?" Wei Na said: "I'm too lazy to move, let the little girl walk, it's okay." The lady fetching water always pursed her lips and smiled, she must have thought that Lu Tuo was her boss' boyfriend.Wei Na noticed it, glanced at him, and then looked away. Lu Tuo was on an outing with Wei Na. Suddenly, several masked men pushed him to the ground and injected him with an injection.They implanted the cat's gene into Lu Tuo's body.Everything happened in an instant, Wei Na didn't realize it, she was still smiling.The masked people know invisibility, and only Lu Tuo can see them. The masked man fled away, and Lu Tuo immediately felt that he was transforming, and gradually became a huge cat with no friends.He watched his nails grow slowly, bent, pointed, and became cat's claws. Wei Na still didn't notice, the two walked hand in hand.Lu Tuo was afraid that his sharp claws would scratch her hand, and wanted to break free, but told her to hold it tightly. He was awakened by this nightmare early and could not fall back to sleep.He was terrified and his heart was beating like thunder.He secretly tested whether he was crazy, to see how many idioms he could recite without interruption.Let's start with one word, so I said silently in my heart: single-minded, helpless, successful in one fell swoop, accomplished in one fell swoop, twists and turns, taking the lead... It seems that I am not crazy yet. In another month, Lu Tuo will be thirty-nine years old and will be forty years old.He wondered if he would go crazy before his birthday. Lu Tuo's father, three brothers and sisters, and his uncle finally went crazy.My father and my aunt visit my uncle in the psychiatric hospital every week, and they take turns.Father sometimes took Lu Tuo there too.Uncle always smiled kindly and touched his head.He knew that his uncle was crazy, but he didn't dare to hide, his chest was pounding.Then my uncle died.Uncle turned yellow, dry, dazed every day, and died. Lu Tuo had the impression since he was a child that his father and aunt loved that terrible uncle very much. Lu Tuo knew that if he went crazy, his younger siblings would take good care of him.They would often visit him in a psychiatric hospital.Loving him becomes the emotional need of the younger siblings.They will find that they are very brotherly and have lived up to their parents' education.They are also qualified to educate their children and let them respect adults.Visiting him, loving him, trying to cure him, and so on, turned into a certain solemn atmosphere, which would envelope the family for decades.The whole family will live in harmony in this atmosphere and enjoy the warmth of family affection.When he dies, their generation will pass away safely.The next generation repeated their fate. Wei Na asked, "Do you want to go out for a walk?" Lu Tuo said, "It's up to you." Wei Na said, "Let's go fishing in the countryside." Lu Tuo happened to be feeling a little depressed, so it's good to go out to get some air.The outskirts are endless green seedlings, swaying with the wind.The windows were closed tightly, and no sound could be heard from outside.Everything is alive, but it seems to be performing pantomime.Lu Tuo pressed the window.Suddenly there was a breeze blowing on the face, and there were rustling sounds in the ears.Wei Na's long hair floated up, touching his face from time to time. The two of them went to a farmer's fish pond, and the owner came over to negotiate the price.There are general rules, needless to say.Some people came early and sat scattered by the fish pond.There are not many people fishing, not on weekends.Lu Tuo and Wei Na put down their fishing rods about three meters apart.Wei Na put on a pair of sunglasses and smiled at him. Lu Tuo said: "You give me a very conspiratorial feeling. I don't know that the eyes behind the black lenses are as fierce as your smile." Wei Na took off her sunglasses and said with a smile, "Let you see clearly." Lu Tuo said: "Really, when I talk to a person wearing sunglasses, I always find it difficult, as if he was absent-minded and didn't listen to me." Wei Na said: "This is all your writer's fault, too sensitive." "Actually, this is a very good psychological test." Lu Tuo said. Wei Na asked: "How do you say it?" Lu Tuo said: "When facing a person wearing sunglasses, people probably have two reactions. One is like me; some people think that when others wear sunglasses, they can't see him, and he can make faces at others. People are very self-centered and always ignore the existence of others. I am used to looking into other people's eyes and speaking, which shows that I am a frank and straightforward person and value communication with others." Wei Na laughed: "What basis do you have for saying that? It's a fabrication, right?" Lu Tuo smiled but did not answer.The fishing rod is maroon, shining brightly in the sun.Lu Tuo said: "The more sophisticated the fishing gear is, the less fun it is to fish. I remember when I was fishing when I was young, I used a hand pole, and I had to fish in the river. I stared at the buoy without blinking. Looking at the buoy , endless imaginations in my mind. How the fish come and go in groups, the fish are lingering around the bait again and again, fearing that it is a conspiracy. Finally a bold fish opened its mouth. But the fisherman is too impatient Now, what about using this kind of sea pole and installing a bell. Fishers can even doze off at ease, and it will not be too late to wake up slowly when the bell rings." Wei Na's body trembled slightly when she laughed, her wet teeth were shining brightly under the sun.Looking at the lovely beauty in front of him, Lu Tuo's back suddenly went numb, but he felt unspeakably sad. "Weina, maybe I will be away for a few days someday." Wei Na asked, "Where are you going?" Lu Tuo said, "I don't know." Wei Na's expression became strange, and she said, "Don't scare me." "I will come to you suddenly one day. Are you still like this at that time?" Lu Tuo said. Wei Na was even more astonished: "I don't understand what you mean. Are you okay?" Lu Tuo didn't know why he said these words, so he made excuses: "In this season, the reeds in the North Lake are growing green and the lake is wide. It must be very beautiful. I don't know if I row a boat and hunt wild ducks in the reed marshes. Fishing, what does it taste like?" Wei Na said: "Now go to Beihu, the expressway, and it will take more than three hours. There is no need to cross the ferry, there is the Beihu Bridge." As Wei Na spoke, she raised her eyes and looked at the distant sky.She once said that she missed fishing with Zheng Qiulun very much.She and Zheng Qiulun only caught fish that once, and the taste of herring boiled with perilla was unforgettable in her life.Occasionally, cocks crow and dogs bark, adding to the tranquility of the countryside.The white clouds in the sky seemed to be asleep, motionless.There was some distance between Lu Tuo and Wei Na, but he could even hear her slight sigh clearly. Wei Na said softly: "You are a writer, and you can understand the subtleties of human nature, otherwise I would not describe my life to you in such a detailed way. I am not Xianglin's wife, and I tell everyone about their suffering. There are so many writers in the world, why should I tell you alone? Maybe you will know one day, maybe you will never know. But you are really a good listener, and I am free to say anything in front of you." "I have been a well-mannered student since I was a child." Lu Tuo joked. Wei Na smiled wryly: "It would be nice if life were as simple as the classroom. Teachers can prepare lessons, but life doesn't give me the opportunity to prepare lessons. Everything happened without explanation." The sun was shining, Wei Na's face was slightly red, and there was some sweat.Lu Tuo found it strange that it was the thin crow's feet in the corners of Wei Na's eyes that moved his heart.At this time, Wei Na's fishing rod rang.She slowly pulled back the catch. It was a carp weighing more than two catties. Its fins and tail were dark red, very beautiful.He wanted to help, but Wei Na shook her hand like a child, not letting him approach.She wants to enjoy the joy of harvest alone.Wei Na put the carp into the net bag and dipped it into the water. Wei Na said: "I'll go back and make fried fish with chopped green onion for you. This is a dish I invented myself, and it tastes good."