Chapter 2 Chapter 1 Wei Na and Lu Tuo

A woman is completely white, her face is fair and thin, her eye sockets are a little deep, and her eyes are bright.I don't know if it's day or night, or where.Only this beautiful woman.Lu Tuo wanted to see her clearly, but he didn't dare to look directly at her.Suddenly there was a loud noise, and Lu Tuo hurriedly looked around.Looking back, the woman was gone. Lu Tuo opened his eyes abruptly, his heart beating violently.Most of the dream is forgotten, so regretful. The thunder is still going on, like tens of thousands of fierce horses galloping wildly in the sky, for a long time.Lu Tuo was a little indescribably panicked, his body was weak, as if he was floating in hell.The rain was pattering at first, and then became violent.I don't know what time it is, Lu Tuo ignores it.No sleepiness, eyes open in a daze.Lightning tore the room blank, like a devil's den.Lu Tuo was thinking about that woman.His usual dreams are always related to his real life.Even if it is the kind of erotic dream that is difficult to explain to others, the one who shares the bed is a real woman he knows or has seen.But he couldn't remember who this white woman was.

Lu Tuo joked with others, always saying that he was in exile, but he didn't go to Cangzhou or Yili, and stayed in Jingdu.He said it was a soft exile.Curled up at home all day, reading or writing, but also happy at ease.If you are not in the study, just make tea in the teahouse.Unless you are a close friend, you will not meet.The weather in Jingdu is getting more and more tempered.The timing is already spring, but it doesn't make people feel a little warmth.It rained continuously, and the cold wind whizzed.This night, it rained all night. In the morning, the rain stopped slowly, but it was overcast and windy.Before I had time to eat breakfast, the phone rang.The cousin answered the phone and said a few words to settle the matter.Lu Tuo had already been a little nervous by the phone call, and his chest tightened when he heard the phone ring.Then he told his cousin that he was not at home.The old cousin took care of Lu Tuo's life.Those friends who have to dig three feet to find him will call him.The pager vibrated, and he would always check the business phone first to see who it was before calling back.

At ten o'clock in the morning, my cousin answered the phone and said that he was not at home as usual.The cousin put down the phone and said, "It's a woman, and I have something urgent to call you." The cousin looked a little uneasy.Lu Tuo smiled and said: "It's okay, she insists on looking for me, she will call me." My cousin was also afraid to answer the phone, for fear that she might miss something important if she didn't reply properly.My cousin didn't read much, so she had a natural respect for cultural people, and she always thought that Lu Tuo was doing great things.Lu Tuo secretly laughed at himself: What great things can I do?An exile!

Not long after, Lu Tuo's pager vibrated.He checked the business phone, but there was no such number.Unknown call, ignore it.But he also thought that he was a procrastination person. Sometimes a friend gave a phone number, but he didn't save it in time, and he didn't know where to put it afterwards.I'm afraid if it's really a friend?After a moment of hesitation, he called back. Unexpectedly, it was a strange lady who spoke Mandarin with a nice voice, and seemed to make him feel a heat wave in his ears. "Mr. Lu? Sorry, you don't know me. I am your reader and I like reading your novels very much. I was the one who made the call just now."

It seems that she knows that Lu Tuo is at home.Since she didn't mind, Lu Tuo didn't feel embarrassed.He thanked him and asked, "What can you do?" She said, "It's okay, I just wanted to meet you on the liberty." Lu Tuo didn't want to see anyone, so he politely said some excuses.He was often invited by enthusiastic readers and friends, but he politely declined.He really didn't dare to agree to an appointment with a strange reader.Family and friends have asked him not to meet strangers.God knows who they are?People are unpredictable, be careful with yourself.Lu Tuo also knew that he should be more careful.His novels upset some people, and maybe others will think of ways to deal with him.For example, Jingdu's magic master, famous philanthropist, and social activist insisted that one of Lu Tuo's novels alluded to him.One of the great disciples of the master actually entrusted someone to send a message, saying what to do to him.Lu Tuo listened, smiled lightly, and asked this friend to pass on a message: "Master Shengong can perform gongs thousands of miles away to kill people, so please ask him to perform gongs on me in Beijing, Zhuhai or Hong Kong, and see if I am a good person." He was killed on the spot in Jingdu, or the seven orifices bleed." It has been more than two years since Lu Tuo spread the word, and he is still alive and kicking.He thought that the master might really be a philanthropist, so he couldn't bear to kill.Having said that, Lu Tuo is still very cautious.He was afraid that others would resort to unscrupulous means, so he never agreed to meet with strangers alone.He went out alone, always with a dagger on his waist.The writer is somewhat paranoid, so he always imagines how he will deal with the three things: with a hiss, the dagger is drawn out of its sheath, the white knife goes in, and the red knife comes out.It's funny.

Maybe it's the writer's professional fault, Lu Tuo always likes to think wildly when he encounters problems.Things that didn't have a shadow in the first place, after asking him to think in images, became the same as the real thing.For example, a friend asked him to have dinner, and several police officers suddenly rushed in and seized drugs from him.He couldn't argue with a hundred words, so he had to enter the game to talk.If he can't settle this matter, he will have to suffer eternal injustice.He went to the hotel to meet friends, but there was no one in the room, and the door was ajar.Suddenly, a beautiful woman came in and took off her clothes without any explanation.A few more policemen rushed in, so he couldn't tell.Since then, acquaintances and friends all know that Lu Tuo still has such a good taste.Every time Lu Tuo thought about it like this, he didn't feel that he was crazy.This is not a virtual movie scene, but a political tactic that is very popular in the world today, called the "smell method".Generally speaking, there is no way to defeat a political opponent with a good moral image. This method is often used, and it has been tried and tested.

China is already in line with international standards in all aspects, so what else can we learn from the West?Lu Tuo often sees such news: the police use this method to catch clients.The police bribed the prostitutes to set up a trap to lure the clients to the hook, and the police followed behind to catch them.The client thought he was unlucky, and was fined tens of thousands by the police.It's a shame that such a clever way of making a fool of himself should be put to such an indecent use. Lu Tuo said a lot of polite words, but he didn't agree to meet.But the lady was very persistent and sincere, and said that she must meet him.Lu Tuo only hated himself for not being as humorous as Mr. Qian Zhongshu, for not being able to tell witty chicken-and-egg jokes.The lady's voice suddenly became melancholy, and she said, "I'm sorry, I'm a disabled person with inconvenient feet. My experience was quite difficult. Telling me about it may be useful to your writing."

Lu Tuo couldn't bear it any longer, and said, "I'm so sorry. I'm very grateful that you care about my creation. Let's make an appointment. But I'm busy now, can you see No. 10?" The lady's tone became calm, and she said: "Okay, No. 10. There is a tea house on South Avenue called Ginkgo House. Can we meet there? You can take down my phone number." Lu Tuo remembered the phone number and asked again: "I'm sorry, I haven't asked your name yet." "My name is Vera," she said. Lu Tuo put down the phone, and suddenly felt an inexplicable feeling in his heart.He wanted to shirk the appointment, but now he thought it was too late.On the tenth, we have to wait a week!

Throughout the day, the lady's voice lingered in his ears, as if accompanied by her warm breath.The voice seemed to have some kind of magical power, making him unable to help imagining her appearance, age, occupation, and so on.Her voice is soft and mellow, it should belong to a graceful and gentle woman.He almost forgot that she said she was disabled. But before the tenth, Lu Tuo suddenly left Jingdu.On the 9th, at the invitation of his friend, he flew to Kunming.It's not that he broke the appointment on purpose, it's really a last resort.Mr. Li Yong, the owner of Kunming Xinzhi Book City, is a friend of Lu Tuo, so he must be invited to attend the 10th anniversary celebration.Li Yong is really a strange person. Ten years ago, he borrowed 30,000 yuan from his ancestral home to open a small bookstore.Now he owns the largest private bookstore in the country.His wealth is like a nuclear reactor, fissioning and proliferating at an alarming rate.In Lu Tuo's eyes, he couldn't see that Li Yong looked like a rich man.Mr. Li told an anecdote.Once on the plane, he happened to meet a famous comedian.The comedian laughed when he saw him, and said: I'm acting in a sketch, it's your outfit.It turned out that Mr. Li was wearing a crumpled suit, but he still had sneakers on his feet.The only thing that looks luxurious is his belly, which is so shy.Lu Tuo joked with him, saying that there are generally three ways to tie Chinese people's belts: the ones tied above the navel are party and state leaders; the ones tied below the navel are entrepreneurs; It's the common people.Mr. Li clapped his hands and laughed.

Before boarding the plane, Lu Tuo wanted to call Wei Na, but he held back.I thought, maybe she thought about it later, seeing that he was not happy to meet, so she stopped contacting him?That's fine too.These days, he is always contradictory: sometimes he wants to see her as soon as possible, and sometimes he can forget about her. These days, he is really a little nervous.Every night I would dream of that white woman.On the first night, the woman looked at him from a distance with a sad look in her eyes.He doesn't care much.The next night, it was the same woman smiling foolishly at him again.He felt very strange.On the third night, the white woman fell into a dream again.He was a little panicked.

His panic was not only due to the dream, but also had other reasons.This cannot be told to anyone, and he is afraid to think of it himself.His family is mysterious and eerie.Starting from the distant ancestors, every generation of his family has a lunatic, and they all go crazy before the age of forty.Therefore, every generation, before the age of forty, lives in fear.You look at me like a lunatic and I look at you like a lunatic before no one goes crazy.Until one person finally goes crazy, those who are not crazy will breathe a sigh of relief and live the rest of their lives with peace of mind.This is an extremely hypocritical and cruel family, everyone hopes to rely on others to go crazy to save themselves. In Lu Tuo's generation, there are four brothers and sisters, and he is the eldest.His two brothers and sister secretly thought he must be mad.He quit his good job and shut himself up at home to write novels, and they were all unflattering.Isn't this crazy what is it?But it seems that the younger siblings are very concerned about him, always saying, brother, don't think so much, the most important thing is to live the life you like.He knew what his younger brothers and sisters were thinking, and he didn't blame them.He also thought that maybe he was really going crazy.Many of his words and deeds are considered unreasonable by others.He thought, if he was destined to go crazy, he couldn't avoid it.Even if he is crazy, he can keep his family safe, what's wrong with that?However, as long as he thinks that his younger brothers and sisters will be thankful that they are not crazy, his chest will ache again. After hesitating again and again, he still called Wei Na. "Wina? Hello..." Without waiting for me to say anything, she said, "Oh, Mr. Lu. I called your home early in the morning, and then called your mobile phone. I turned it off and called your pager. I didn't see you back." Lu Tuo hurriedly said, "I'm really sorry, my pager doesn't support roaming. I've already arrived in Kunming, and I have to go to Dali, Lijiang, and Banna." She was silent for a while, then said: "Oh, yes Is it?" Listening to her voice, apart from disappointment, there seemed to be some resentment.He had no choice but to apologize again and again: "I'm really sorry, I'm really sorry. My friend here invited me over, but I was in a hurry, so I forgot to tell you." She seemed to have suddenly recovered, and said in a lighter tone, "I wish you have a nice trip." Lu Tuo called Wei Na on the phone while lying on the bed during his afternoon nap.These days, he always suffers from insomnia at night, and after finally falling asleep for a while, he always dreams.If you don't take a nap at noon, you will be like a fish fainted by medicine in the afternoon.But after hanging up the phone, he couldn't fall asleep. "Oh, really?" Wei Na's voice kept lingering in his ears.The more she pondered about her voice, the more inexplicable its meaning became.She is really just a reader who has never met!In fact, he didn't need to feel guilty, but his chest was tight. Before boarding the plane, Lu Tuo called Wei Na: "Hello, Wei Na, I'm Lu Tuo. I arrived in Jingdu around three o'clock this afternoon." "Oh, okay." Wei Na's voice was so flat that it was almost indifferent, and he was faintly unhappy.He thinks most of the disabled have weird personalities, so don't take it to heart. There are many clouds in Yunnan, and the plane travels through the clouds for a long time.Usually traveling alone, whether on the train or on the plane, Lu Tuo likes to close his eyes and take a nap.It is also a kind of enjoyment that you can do many things with your eyes closed that you cannot do with your eyes open.But not today.As long as the eyes are closed, there will be a woman in white floating in his mind.Just like photography, the woman was pulled away for a while, only the pair of eyes were still scorchingly bright; for a while, the woman was pushed to his eyes, and the long eyelashes almost poked his eyeballs.The dream that used to only appear at night now haunts him during the day.Several times, he snapped his eyes open from hallucinations, almost terrified.He simply opened his eyes and looked out of the glare window.But seeing big groups of grayish yellow clouds, very bad mood. The sky outside the window was finally clear.He knew that the plane had left the sky over Yunnan.Looking far away, there are thousands of hectares of colorful clouds, which is truly spectacular.In a daze, he felt that he had left the plane window and was swimming in the soft clouds.At this time, at the end of the sky, among the colorful clouds, there is a woman with a flowing skirt walking against the wind.In the blink of an eye, the woman fled away again.The sky is full of clouds again. He finished the final journey with anxiety.Just out of the arrival gate, the pager vibrated.At first glance, it was Wei Na.It was strange that he had memorized her phone number.He was a person who often got his own phone number wrong, so he left his friend with a phone number that didn't exist several times, which was very embarrassing. "Are you there?" Wei Na asked.He said, "Here we are, at the exit." She asked, "Do you have time to meet today?" He immediately agreed.So we made an appointment to meet at 7:30 in the evening, still at Ginkgo House. It was exactly half past four when Lu Tuo arrived home.After taking a shower, I spent the rest of the time looking for something to do.These three hours were very difficult.He always had a hunch that this would be an unusual meeting, and maybe something would happen.It's really inexplicable.He knew that it was unreasonable for him to be so absent-minded, but he clearly had a premonition hiding in a certain outer corner of his body, poking his head out from time to time to tease him. Some people become more sober the longer they live, and become enlightened when they get old;Lu Tuo is not too old, nor is he very young, but sometimes he is clear and sometimes he is ignorant.For example, he has a hunch, he is half-doubtful, and he believes more than doubts.Many premonitions had been mysteriously fulfilled, so he suspected that there was some kind of strange power in the sky, always looking down on all living beings.Therefore, he would always be confused if he broke something, heard some ominous words, or had a strange dream: whether this is a sign of something. The time was approaching half past seven, and Lu Tuo was so nervous that his brain was buzzing.Getting more and more scared.What's going on today?It's not like he hasn't had a private meeting with a lady!The continuous nightmares at night and the inseparable hallucinations during the day made him a little out of his wits. Speaking of girlfriends, it's also a sign that younger siblings think he's crazy.He has many girlfriends, and they are all smart girls.His younger siblings are very concerned about his marriage and want to know which woman he will marry earlier.But he always disappoints them. "Let's start a family early, after all, it's not enough to be alone!" The younger brother and younger sister said the same thing more than once.But Lu Tuo thought: They are actually conducting psychological tests on me to infer the date when I might go crazy. At 7:15, Lu Tuo arrived near Ginkgo House.He didn't go in right away, turned into a side alley and wandered uneasily.He didn't know whether it was because of Wei Na, or because he was afraid of going crazy, but he felt that his heart was almost jumping into his throat, making it difficult for him to breathe.He felt like he had to bite the bullet and accept the poor woman's reprimand after being drunk and having sex.He held his breath and adjusted his breath, and managed to calm himself down, before he got out of the alley. The waitress asked him if he was Ms. Wei Na's guest, so she took him upstairs and opened a box called Zilan. Oh my god, Lu Tuo was so startled that he almost cried out.The person sitting in the box was simply the woman he dreamed of every night!But he didn't look thin, nor was he completely white.Wei Na was wearing a black wool skirt, and at a glance, she could see three white spots: her face, left hand, and right hand.He immediately thought of a flower: gardenia.This is a white and fragrant flower that blooms in summer.Gardenias are slightly yellowish at first, but surrounded by rich green leaves, they are as white as snow. Wei Na looked at him, smiled lightly, and stretched out her hand from afar.Knowing that it was inconvenient for her to get up, he bowed over and shook hands with her.He sat down opposite her, said a few polite words, and looked at her carefully.But he saw that her eye sockets were the same as in his dream, slightly darker, extraordinarily bright, and somewhat blurred. Wei Na didn't say how good his novels were, as he usually encountered.She just looked at him, and suddenly said: "It's not that high." She didn't make sense of what she said, and he was confused for a moment.He thought that maybe she meant that I was not as tall as I looked in the photos, so he laughed at himself: "I never thought I was so great." Wei Na didn't tell him her story, but just listened to his nonsense.Since she said that her experience was very tortuous, maybe it was something unbearable.This has to let her talk when she wants to. He can't ask her questions directly like a reporter interviews.No matter who you chat with, Mr. or Ms., if the other party is dumb, Lu Tuo will always talk.He wasn't trying to grab the limelight, or wanted to make a statement, but he was really afraid of being cold and embarrassed.But his problem, in the eyes of his younger brothers and sisters, is also a harbinger of going crazy.Before the onset of madness, a person is either suddenly silent or eloquent.His two younger brothers and sisters praised his eloquence for getting better and better many times, saying that he was not very good at speaking before, but now he is an orator.He understood what they meant. Wei Na supported her chin with one hand, tilted her head, and listened to his chatter.He didn't spare his saliva, and stopped after talking for a while.Seeing that she just smiled, he had no choice but to continue talking.What do you say?It's not about literature, is it?He then told her about his trip to Yunnan, the ancient city of Lijiang, the Jade Dragon Snow Mountain, the lovely Naxi girl, the romance of Dali, and the tropical rainforest of Banna.She was always fascinated, and smiled from time to time, as if to reward him for his speech. Inadvertently, he found some unknown substance floating in Wei Na's eyes, which made him want to try to figure it out.This feeling was fleeting, as if there was nothing there, which made him secretly panic.His back felt a little hot, so he took off his coat.Unexpectedly, Wei Na burst out laughing out loud, which made him at a loss.It turned out that she saw the dagger pinned to Lu Tuo's waist. This is the second time that Lu Tuo made fun of the dagger.Once on the street, he also felt hot, so he took off his suit.A patrolman caught up with him, quickly handed over his dagger, and sternly reprimanded him: "This is a controlled knife!" For the first time in his life, he experienced the taste of being controlled.The patrolman wanted to check his ID.He could only smile, and took out his identity card and work permit.Unexpectedly, the patrolman looked at his ID, looked at him again, and laughed: "So it's Mr. Lu, are you kidding? What are you doing with this guy?" He laughed and said, "Old naughty boy, it's fun!" The constable returned the dagger to him, and told him not to show it. Lu Tuo told Wei Na the story, and said, "I'm used to it. But today I brought it along unintentionally." She laughed again, and said, "Let me just say, to deal with a disabled person like me, you still use such a big fight ?” Then she asked again: “Did you really bring the dagger for fun?” Lu Tuo smiled lightly and said, “My novel has offended some bad people.” Her face became a little heavy, and she sighed lightly. . Before I knew it, it was past ten o'clock.He was afraid that it would be too late and it would be inconvenient for her, so he said, "Let's stop talking today." She nodded and smiled, and said, "Okay, you go first, I won't see you off." Lu Tuo bowed In the past, he shook hands with her and nodded goodbye.He was just about to open the door when Wei Na suddenly said, "I'm very happy tonight, thank you!" Lu Tuo walked home alone.A mind full of incomprehensible ideas.He tried his best to walk under the shadow of the street trees, so as to calm down his emotions quietly.Today is sunny, and the wind is even more refreshing at night.As he was walking, he suddenly laughed.People also seem to be more awake.I thought to myself what happened?I thought something was going to happen, but nothing happened.Could it be that he was unintentionally looking forward to something? Lu Tuo wanted to ask Weina for a few days, but she called first.Still make an appointment at Ginkgo Residence, Zilan Box, at eight o'clock in the evening.After seeing Wei Na, he thought it was over.He couldn't tell exactly what was terminated.Still dreaming every night.The woman in the dream seems to be slightly different from Wei Na, but it seems to be her.Lu Tuo always ignored her disability.The woman in the dream never moved around, she either walked against the wind, or sat opposite him, looking at him faintly; or bent over the bed by herself, grinning slightly silly.When we met that day, Lu Tuo didn't pay attention to her legs, even she was wearing a woolen skirt from the corner of his eyes.Now every morning, after he wakes up, he is always reluctant to open his eyes, still wanting to go back to the dreamland.The dream that he was afraid of originally, but now he is a little attached to it.Reluctantly, it is already dawn and the east window, and the sound of the market is like a tide.Sometimes when I wake up in the middle of the night, the dream is like a broken mirror, with broken glass all over the floor.He closed his eyes and carefully put together the remnant dream, and the woman appeared before his eyes again. Lu Tuo vaguely had an idea: Between Wei Na and I, there might really be something unfinished. Early this morning, after Lu Tuo woke up from the dream, he made a bet with himself: If the old dream persists tonight, he will ask Weina to meet tomorrow.But she called early. At 7:55 in the evening, Lu Tuo pushed open the door of the Zilan box, and Wei Na was sitting there again.Same position, same posture.She leaned on the arm of the sofa with one hand and rested the other on her chest.She didn't extend her hand, so Lu Tuo sat down opposite her.It's like meeting old friends without formalities. Wei Na held the cup and sipped tea, looked over the cup and looked at Lu Tuo, her eyes were black and white.Lu Tuo also looked at her and smiled.After sitting down for two minutes, the two haven't said anything.Lu Tuo didn't feel embarrassed.It seemed that Wei Na was not ready to speak again.It's not good for the two to look at each other all the time, so Lu Tuo wanted to say something.But the trip to Yunnan had already been mentioned, and he couldn't find a topic for a while.Talking about literature is a cliché used by frivolous literati to seduce young girls in the early 1980s. Now it is the 21st century, and he does not want to go back to the past.But in desperation, he finally talked about literature.But it's just a story, telling Wei Na about a novel he is writing.Talking about literary topics in a more popular way will not make people's teeth sore.But the Achilles' heel of Lu Tuo's novels is that the stories are not wonderfully written.When he talked to Wei Na, he always stated that the feeling of telling is different from reading.But Wei Na was moved and started wiping tears.Lu Tuo was terrified and didn't know how to comfort her.He didn't believe how touching the story he made up, maybe her emotional intelligence was beyond ordinary people. Wei Na suddenly interrupted his narration and asked, "Are you interested in hearing my story?" "Of course I want to hear it." He knew that she might have found the feeling to express it. Wei Na took a sip of tea, then leaned forward slightly, resting her chin with one hand, her gaze gradually became distant. Wei Na kept talking until twelve o'clock at night.After breaking up, Lu Tuo returned home without any sleepiness.He wanted to get up and write down the stories Vera told.But he knew that if he didn't sleep all night, his face would be blue and his eyes would be dark the next day, and he would be unable to do anything.It is not possible to sleep, it is always better to lie down. During the next day, Lu Tuo spent the whole day typing on the keyboard, writing his novel.His writing state seems very casual, almost the same as playing.In fact, he has never dared to neglect his own creation, he knows that novels may be his more essential form of life.If you don't plan to go out at night, even if you have a friend's invitation, you have to decline.Unless Wei Na asked him out.He had to write in his diary what she had said yesterday.Everyone is a good book.His point of view is certainly not the discovery of genius.