Chapter 5 Chapter Five

On Monday morning, Lin Yawen was about to go to the city to report to Secretary Sun Tao, when a phone call came from home suddenly, Zhou Qiming said in a panic, "Mengmeng is gone, I've been looking for two days, but I can't find it anywhere." "Two days?" Lin Yawen was shocked, she couldn't believe it was true. "Where did she go, why didn't she tell me until now?" Lin Yawen asked hurriedly. "I don't know either. I only saw the letter yesterday afternoon." "A letter?" Lin Yawen became more and more confused. "Mengmeng left a letter, don't want us to look for her." Zhou Qiming said again.

"She won't look for it if she says she won't look for it. Zhou Qiming, what did you do to my daughter?" Inexplicably, Lin Yawen blamed Zhou Qiming for it. She thought that Zhou Qiming must have stimulated her daughter again.This dead man either doesn't speak, or his mouth is full of thorns when he speaks. "I didn't know, I just scolded her a few words, and she ran away from home." Zhou Qiming's voice weakened, and he could hear that he was already scared.Lin Yawen was so anxious that she didn't hear the change in Zhou Qiming's voice. "Train her? Tell me clearly whether Mengmeng ran away or disappeared. You haven't seen her for a few days?"

Zhou Qiming's voice became more and more flustered: "I can't figure it out, she left a letter and left." Lin Yawen was completely panicked. This little ancestor was afraid that something would happen to her, and something would happen to her.A few minutes later, she called her father, who said on the phone that he was in Mengmeng's school and was analyzing the situation with the head teacher.Mengmeng didn't go to class for a week, and the school was in a hurry. "Did you call the police?" Lin Yawen asked impatiently. Her father comforted her on the phone: "Yawen, don't worry, I'm discussing with the school about calling the police to see if it's necessary."

"Dad, call the police quickly, we can't delay any longer." Lin Yawen almost cried. Her father said "hmm" and repeatedly told her not to panic.How could Lin Yawen not panic, after talking to her father on the phone, she called Qi Maolin again, saying that she couldn't go to the city anymore, because there was something urgent at home and she had to go back.For Secretary Sun Tao, another person should report.When Qi Maolin heard that her tone was so urgent, he knew it was not a trivial matter, he was puzzled, and it was difficult to ask, so he paused for a moment and said: "Okay, I will let Shi Lei go."

Lin Yawen was packing her things when Qi Maolin called again and asked when she was leaving?Lin Yawen said right away, the matter was urgent and she couldn't delay.Qi Maolin said: "Walk slowly on the road, and give me a call when you get home." After closing the phone, Lin Yawen's heart started beating desperately.Zhou Qiming, Zhou Qiming, you're really good at it, your daughter doesn't go to school for a week, and you don't know it!A few minutes later, the car was on the road.The driver, Sun Yin, was frowning, not sure what happened to Lin Yawen's house, but she was in a hurry, never flustered.He held the steering wheel carefully, and looked at Lin Yawen's face through the refractor from time to time.

When he arrived in the provincial capital, his father had already returned from school and was waiting at her house, but Zhou Qiming didn't know where he had gone. "Dad, how's the situation? Has the school provided any clues?" Lin Yawen asked immediately.Seeing that she was in such a hurry, her father kindly persuaded her: "Don't panic, no matter how urgent the matter is, you have to calm down and think of a way." "Dad, tell me quickly, I'm going crazy." Father just shook his head, and there was a layer of reproach in his words: "Yawen, what's the matter with you two, Mengmeng hasn't been to school for a week, and you actually..."

"Dad, what did the school say?" "What can the school say? Mengmeng didn't disappear from school. The school said they were not responsible!" "Who held them accountable? I'm asking if the school knows where Mengmeng has gone?" "I don't know." Father's expression suddenly darkened. Lin Yawen felt dark in her heart, hesitated for a moment, walked over, grabbed the phone and was about to call the police.Father got up and snatched the phone: "Yawen, Mengmeng will not have any serious problems. You should not rush to call the police. The city is full of disturbances, which is not good for Mengmeng."

Lin Yawen heard something from her father's words, and stared at her father more and more uneasily: "Dad, what happened to Mengmeng?!" "Yawen, don't be in a hurry, come on, sit down, don't panic, if something happens, don't panic, stay calm." "Dad, can I calm down?" Lin Yawen's voice was distorted, and her face was even distorted beyond recognition. Her father sat her down on the couch.The father seemed to be hesitating, and he refused to say something. After a long time, he said in a critical tone: "Yawen, you are not competent as a mother. Mengmeng is eighteen, a child of this age, It is the most difficult to manage, but you..."

"Dad, what happened to Mengmeng, just tell me directly, and stop torturing me." "She may...maybe ran away with a boy named Ma Yue." After finishing speaking, Father Lin leaned back and leaned back on the sofa, with his eyes closed tightly and his face full of sadness. "What?!" Lin Yawen's legs gave way and she almost fell to the ground.Ma Yue, boy, run away... These words are like an awl, piercing her heart.It's terrible, her daughter ran away with a boy! Mengmeng, Mengmeng!For a long time, she called out in her heart. At this moment, she realized what a mother's responsibility is.

A black cloud rose and covered the room heavily, Lin Yawen felt like she was going to die. An hour later, Lin Yawen pulled herself together and called the cute homeroom teacher. She was anxious to know whose child Ma Yue was, how old she was, and where she lived.The homeroom teacher seemed to have seized the opportunity, and as soon as the phone was connected, she began to lecture her at length.Lin Yawen was patient at first, and kept making self-criticisms, but she couldn't bear it anymore, and said in a bad mood: "Can you criticize at another time, I am so anxious that I am about to jump off the building now."

The head teacher paused for a moment, but then quickly said: "I don't know the urgency now. Let me ask you, the leaders, can you cut down on socializing and spend some time with the child? You can't wait for something to happen to the child before you become anxious. what--" Lin Yawen hung up the phone with a slap, if she continued to babble, maybe she would really jump off the building. She covered her heart, and in just a short while, she felt that her heart had been crushed several times.While feeling uncomfortable, the door slammed lightly, and Zhou Qiming came back. "Where have you been? Is there any news?" Lin Yawen immediately cast her hopes on Zhou Qiming, waiting anxiously for his reply. Unexpectedly, Zhou Qiming didn't say a word. He glanced at her, then at the old man sitting on the sofa, and went to the study without saying a word. "You wait first." Lin Yawen ran over and blocked him with her body.Zhou Qiming looked at her with hatred and resentment in his eyes.If Lin Yawen blamed herself for Mengmeng's departure before and was deeply disturbed by it, at this moment, she no longer thinks so. Zhou Qiming's eyes stimulated her, and Zhou Qiming's attitude made her feel even more disturbed. Can not accept.When she got excited, she asked a question that shouldn't be asked: "Where is my daughter, what did you do to her?!" Zhou Qiming's expression changed, his body trembled uncontrollably, and he almost couldn't control it, so he returned Lin Yawen's words with more aggressive words. He was looking for Ma Yue's parents just now, but he didn't know that the situation of Ma Yue's family was a hundred times worse than he imagined.Ma Yue borrowed from the provincial capital, his parents were not in the provincial capital, but in Hexi, where he lived with his grandparents.After Zhou Qiming found Ma Yue's house, Grandpa Ma Yue didn't know what happened to his grandson. Three days ago, Ma Yue wanted to go to Hexi to visit his mother, so he let him go.Grandpa Ma Yue asked Zhou Qiming: "Who are you? What are you looking for with my Yuezi?"Grandma Ma Yue was not at home, she said that she went to help someone else's family to look after the children. Zhou Qiming saw the appearance of this house, didn't say anything, and came back sadly.On the way, he thought again and again, how could Mengmeng get involved with a child like Ma Yue? Lin Yawen asked again: "Where is my daughter, what did you do to her?" Facing his wife's condescending attitude, Zhou Qiming, who wanted to get angry, was suddenly speechless. With a long sigh, he pushed Lin Yawen away and went to the study.Just as Lin Yawen was about to stretch out her hand to tug him, her father who had been silent all this time suddenly spoke. "Yawen!" Lin's father, who was bored on the sofa, suddenly got up, and said angrily, "Look at you two, what a shame. Mengmeng's accident, I think you are all responsible!" After finishing speaking, he stomped his feet and left angrily. go out.Lin Yawen hurriedly chased her out. Downstairs, her father said worriedly, "Yawen, what you are doing now really worries me." "Dad..." Lin Yawen wanted to say something, but the words were choked in her throat, and she couldn't speak. That night, the strong scene came from the desert, followed by a strange man.The man looked older than him, with a short stature and a cropped cut, and he was dressed decently.After entering the door, the man looked at Lin Yawen timidly, and shrank in a corner. Lin Yawen asked him to sit, and he responded, but he didn't dare to move. When Qiang Guangjing heard the news, Lin Yawen's car was already on the road, and he didn't dare to delay.He knows Mengmeng's temperament, the typical one is soft but not hard.Most of the children nowadays are like this. In comparison, Mengmeng has a stronger personality.There was one time last year when Mengmeng had a quarrel with the family, and the quarrel became serious, but he was the one who came forward to reconcile.This can be regarded as one of his strengths. Although he is much older than Mengmeng in terms of age, Mengmeng can still listen to a few of his words. Lin Yawen didn't ask him how he knew, she was not in any mood right now, her mind was in a mess, and her heart was even more chaotic and anxious.She made no less than twenty calls in one afternoon, and asked all the places she could. No one in the world knew where Mengmeng had gone.Seeing her anxious, Zhou Qiming was afraid that he would quarrel again when he was squatting at home, so he went to school with an excuse and has not come back yet. "County Lin, there is no need to rush this matter. Mengmeng is a good child, she will not go far." Qiang Guangjing considered his words, but in fact he was also terrified by this incident. "Forget about the situation, don't say anything. I am very grateful that you can come, but you can't help with this matter. You should go back tomorrow." Lin Yawen said, wanting to make tea for them, Qiang Guangjing hurriedly stopped . The middle-aged man kept his eyes on Lin Yawen's face. Hearing what Lin Yawen and Qiang Guangjing said, he was more disturbed than when he entered the door.The strong light scene seemed to have just remembered him, and introduced to Lin Yawen: "County Lin, this is Ma Yue's father. I brought him here without asking for your opinion. I want the two adults to sit together and find a way Maybe more." Qiang Guangjing hadn't finished speaking, Lin Yawen's gaze had already stared fiercely at the middle-aged man's face. Perhaps at this moment, Lin Yawen was most annoyed at Ma Yue's parents.During the phone call in the afternoon, Lin Yawen already had a general understanding of Ma Yue's parents.Later, Zhou Qiming couldn't hold back, and told her the general situation. Ma Yue's father, Ma Ming, used to be a cadre of the Finance Bureau of Hexi City. He went into business five years ago and is currently the largest computer dealer in Hexi City.Ma Yue's mother, Li Aimei, was originally a waiter at the Hexi Hotel, and was later promoted to the manager of the guest room department of the hotel. Last year, she competed for the job and was promoted to the position of deputy manager.This home was originally good and thriving.Unexpectedly, just half a month after Li Aimei became the deputy manager, the two suddenly broke out in a war, and for a while they went to the court for divorce.It is also for this reason that Ma Yue went to the provincial capital to borrow. "You are Ma Ming?" Lin Yawen stared at Ma Ming for a long time, trying to calm her tone. Ma Ming hurriedly moved a few steps to the middle of the living room, and said apologetically, "County Lin, I am Ma Yue's father, I...I..." "You raised a good son!" Lin Yawen almost said this, seeing Ma Ming's appearance of doing something wrong, she put away her unhappiness, pointed to the sofa and said, "Sit down." Ma Ming didn't dare to sit down, he was afraid at first, his son, it's not good to take someone's daughter away, he insisted on taking the county magistrate's daughter away!On the way, Qiang Guangjing was asked to train and educate for several hours, and he lost his mind about this disaster.Seeing Lin Yawen's face this time, she was so panicked that she lost her mind. "County Lin, please criticize, I didn't educate the child well, he shouldn't...shouldn't have brought your Mengmeng... Hey, this evil person, I can't spare him this time!" "Okay, don't pretend to be in front of me. Find a way to get them back." Lin Yawen interrupted Ma Ming. The first impression this man gave her was extremely bad. What was wrong with him specifically, she said no. Come out, it just looks uncomfortable.For some reason, when she saw Ma Ming, she became more worried about her daughter.Mengmeng, you are stabbing my heart with a knife, do you know, if something happens to you, how can I live as a mother?She let out a long sigh and sat down on the sofa in frustration. Qiang Guangjing and Ma Ming left quickly, saying that they were looking for him in Guangzhou. Ma Ming concluded that his son had gone to Guangzhou. There were not only his clients there, but also a junior high school classmate of Ma Yue. The two used to be very good friends.Lin Yawen didn't dare to have illusions, but in her heart, she still hoped that they could bring Mengmeng back safely as soon as possible. This day passed so fast, but it was so long that Lin Yawen could barely make it through.After Qiang Guangjing and the others left, she repeatedly read the letter Mengmeng left behind. The letter was very simple, but it was written on her heart.She finally knew that her negligence and carelessness towards her daughter had finally been retaliated. When her daughter grew up, grown-up girls were prone to accidents.Although she was worried before, she always had illusions and luck, and always felt that bad luck would not happen to her. Now she understands that being a mother has to pay, and if you don’t pay a little bit, you have to pay even more! Although her daughter's life would not be in danger, Lin Yawen's heart would be inexplicably raised when she thought that she was with a boy, and many fears that should not have came flooding in at the same time.Thinking of all the rumors in the society and the absurd things that happened among the children, as a mother, she didn't just want to cry.To Zhou Qiming, he couldn't help complaining.The greater the fear, the stronger the complaint. The daughter ran away after arguing with Zhou Qiming!According to Zhou Qiming, Mengmeng had been absent from school a month ago, and later developed into playing truant. Zhou Qiming has been to their school and also learned about the situation from the class teacher.But that head teacher is too hateful!These are Zhou Qiming's original words.Lin Yawen could imagine what the head teacher's attitude would be like when he saw Zhou Qiming.Sure enough, Zhou Qiming described the general process of the conversation with strong emotions.When Zhou Qiming found the school that day, the head teacher had a very bad attitude towards him. In front of other teachers in the teaching and research section, he satirized him: "It doesn't matter that you are a doctor and a professor. You are really an amateur in educating children." I have an opinion on the school, and think that Mengmeng has a lot of responsibility for changing from a good boy to the current school. When I heard the head teacher's tone of being indifferent and even gloating, I immediately became angry: "Why am I a layman? I also hate teachers. For this bowl of rice, can you speak politely?" "I'm already polite enough, Professor Zhou, don't think that if you achieve something yourself, your daughter will follow suit. You don't believe in the saying that dragons make dragons and phoenixes make phoenixes?" The class teacher's attitude became even worse. Mengmeng's class is Aoban, and the head teacher is a model in the teaching circle and an excellent head teacher in the province. He thinks highly of himself. Mengmeng keeps falling behind in class, which affects the grades of the whole class. The head teacher has long wanted to let her She stays in this class.The class Ma Yue is in is a borrowing class, which is basically a poor kid. Mengmeng wants to go to that class wholeheartedly. Considering the special identities of Zhou Qiming and Lin Yawen, the school has always disagreed and asked the head teacher to grasp Mengmeng's study in a short time go up.The head teacher had a lot of opinions on this, and even had a dispute with the school leaders for this.Probably he was also on fire, so he took advantage of this to vent his dissatisfaction on Zhou Qiming. He didn't expect that Zhou Qiming was better and more serious than him in how to be a teacher.Zhou Qiming grasped this sentence and began to argue with him seriously, discussing and discussing, the two became arguing with each other, the scene was extremely agitated, and finally discussed with the principal.But this time, instead of criticizing the class teacher, the principal scolded Zhou Qiming very bluntly: "As parents, you can't ignore your children. You are all social elites and celebrities, but what about elites? For children, the simplest education is also the most useful education, learn to care, learn to communicate, and learn to be friends with children.” "Stop talking about these great principles!" Zhou Qiming began to lose his composure. He thought that the principal and the class teacher were both shirking responsibility and making excuses for the school, which was wrong.When a student has a problem, the school must first review its own education, and the school pushes the responsibility to the ground. What kind of school is this? "I want you to explain, what are you doing besides instilling meritocracy in your children?" "Children now rely on their grades!" the head teacher interjected. "But my child's grades were very good. When she entered high school, she was ranked second in the city!" "You have to ask yourself, do you parents know about her puppy love, fighting, drinking, and playing truant?" "But she became like this at school!" Zhou Qiming became angry. He didn't want to shirk his responsibility as a parent, but he wanted to take advantage of Mengmeng's changes to make the school vigilant. Don't see the child slipping down. Just beat him to death with a stick.He was very annoyed by the negative methods such as transferring classes and persuading children to drop out of school. The head teacher had already mentioned to him the topic of letting Mengmeng drop out of school. Zhou Qiming quarreled with the school for more than two hours, but in the end there was no result. The next day, Mengmeng didn't come to school and ran around outside.Zhou Qiming was very busy in those days, and it happened that there was a project that had to pass the review of the Ministry of Education. When things were sorted out, and I asked Mengmeng about her studies later, she learned that Mengmeng was renting a house and wanted to move out. .Zhou Qiming was in a hurry, but he really lacked a way to communicate with Mengmeng. In front of Mengmeng's pile of new terms and concepts, the helpless Zhou Qiming lost his temper. He made a lot of hair, and his words were also very aggressive. It was probably those aggressive words that made Mengmeng completely lose confidence in this family. Zhou Qiming came back very late that day, and drank alcohol for the first time.Zhou Qiming seldom drank alcohol. After all these years of marriage, Lin Yawen hadn't seen him indulge in alcohol, but I heard that occasionally when he was excited, he would use alcohol to cheer him up, such as producing results or winning awards for his thesis.But at home, in front of Lin Yawen, he hardly drank alcohol.Unexpectedly, he was so drunk at this time that he came back staggeringly. Lin Yawen just got out of the shower, the panic did not pass, and the cloud was always covering her. She prayed to God in her heart to bless her Mengmeng and her family.She had been waiting for Zhou Qiming to come back. During the waiting process, she repeatedly persuaded herself, don't get angry, don't put the responsibility on him alone, the two of you should be calm, and the most important thing is to be calm at this time.If he gets angry, I have to bear it, and let him take the opportunity to vent out the unhappiness and grievance in my heart. As a man, getting angry is just a sentence or two, and it will be fine after sending it out.You have to let him put out the fire in his heart first, and then he can think of a solution.Also, at times like this, you must listen to your husband more and let him make up his mind.Who knew that she had thought everything through, but she didn't expect Zhou Qiming to drink, and he would be so drunk that he couldn't stand upright. "You are really caring, can you still drink today?" Lin Yawen couldn't help but said something.Without thinking about this sentence, Zhou Qiming seized the opportunity.Zhou Qiming spit out a belch: "I...Of course I want to drink it. I, Zhou Qiming, am not talented, so I can't control your daughter. I..." Lin Yawen held back and didn't speak.Zhou Qiming said again: "You are the county magistrate, so you can deal with such a big matter. I will leave this... this matter to you. I... I..." As he spoke, he fell headfirst on the sofa On, the mouth is still making a sound indistinctly. "Zhou Qiming!" Lin Yawen couldn't control it anymore, and grabbed him: "Get up!" "What... do you want me to get up for? You... aren't you the county magistrate, I'll leave this... to you." Zhou Qiming shook, his legs gave way, and he fell on the sofa again. Lin Yawen was completely lost.She knew that Zhou Qiming drank this wine on purpose for her to see.Didn't you refuse to listen to my dissuasion and insist on becoming the county magistrate?You don't even want a home, you insist on doing your career?Well, I will let you do it, let you do it happily! Thinking of this, tears flowed down again without heeding dissuasion, wet her face and also wet her heart. Half of the tears were for her daughter, and the other half were for herself.Lin Yawen suddenly felt that she was so isolated in this family, and she was so unloved by them.Could it be that all of this was caused by that choice two years ago? The phone suddenly rang. In this withered night, the beep sounded like a horn. Lin Yawen turned around and ran out, picked up the phone and looked at it.She thought it was news about Mengmeng, but who would have thought... The person who no longer harassed her sent a few strange lines on such a night: Difficult to decide Difficult to separate and chaotic people get together The wind blows the clouds and the moon is gone How much love was lingering but love is deep and relationship is shallow In a blink of an eye, the music is gone Only then do I know that looking back, the dream is far away hateful!Before finishing watching, Lin Yawen threw away her phone.After a long time, she thought, who is so boring, who seems to be hiding behind her, spying on her life, deliberately sprinkle a handful of salt on her heart when she is about to collapse! In the middle of the night, Lin Yawen felt better.It's not good, it's calm down.That's right, my father was right. At a time like this, being calm is more important than anything else, and it works better than anything else. She walked out of the bedroom with an extra blanket in her hand. The living room was brightly lit, and the coolness of late spring soaked in the room, making the house a little cooler.She stood silently for a while in front of the antique shelves in the living room and bedroom.For a while, she was thinking of her husband in her heart.Zhou Qiming really drank too much, so he fell headlong on the sofa and slept until now.She walked over, her steps were a little heavy, but also a little guilty.He also felt bad, otherwise, what kind of wine did he drink?Thinking of this, she turned his upside down body and covered him with a blanket.Then I sat beside him blankly, listening to him snoring long and short. The night is so quiet, and the night is so restless, I have to roll up many things buried in my heart. rolled up... Two days later, Qiang Guangjing called and said that Mengmeng had found her and was working in a boutique in Guangzhou.Lin Yawen's heart almost jumped out: "How is Mengmeng, nothing happened, please let her call me!" "She's fine, County Magistrate Lin, don't worry too much, I'm with Mengmeng." "Mengmeng, quickly give the phone to Mengmeng, quickly give it to her!" There was a crackling sound on the other end of the phone, as if there was a dispute. After a while, Qiang Guangjing said helplessly: "Lin County, don't worry, leave Mengmeng to me, and I will take her back." What else did Lin Yawen want to say, Qiang Guangjing had already hung up the line, Lin Yawen guessed, it must be Mengmeng who rushed to hang up, this child! Thank goodness, my daughter finally found it! Lin Yawen's heart shrouded in clouds finally revealed a glimmer of light, and she hurriedly told her parents the news.My father said a lot of worrying words on the phone and insisted on letting her go to Guangzhou.Lin Yawen said: "Wait a little longer, this child is competing with me now, it's not good for me to go." The father resented: "She is your daughter, you can figure it out!" Lin Yawen felt sad for a while, for fear that her father would say If you are more aggressive, press the phone. In the afternoon Sima Gufeng called suddenly and asked where she was?Lin Yawen said she was at home.Sima Gufeng still had the same tone as before, and blamed her for not saying hello when she came, because she didn't want to see him as an old man.Lin Yawen hurriedly said no.Sima Gufeng laughed: "Then what are you doing at home, come out." Lin Yawen hesitated for a while, and agreed. In the provincial capital, there is a teahouse called Tongxin Pavilion, which is located in the downtown area, where Sima Gufeng often goes.The teahouse was opened by Mr. Wang Erbing, a famous painter in the provincial capital.Wang Erbing was born in a farming family and experienced ups and downs. He served as a soldier twice in his life.Mr. Er Bing has done many things after his demobilization, including being a grassroots cadre, teaching, and even going to a farm.Later, he specialized in painting and calligraphy.Mr. Er Bing is intelligent by nature, he is a geek, and fortunately met with the guidance of his mentor Mr. Wu Shui, he made rapid progress.After Mr. Wushui passed away, Mr. Er Bing became a leading figure in the painting circle in the province.Later he divorced and married the youngest daughter of the old gentleman.The two were just like children, they had a deep relationship at first, then they quarreled fiercely, and occasionally they fought violently. From time to time, he has to join in the fun, Mr. Er Bing's life is really prosperous. Sima Gufeng has a deep relationship with the second soldier, and also with his little wife Wang Meier. It was Sima Gufeng's suggestion to open this teahouse.He loves to taste tea, but he doesn't like to taste it at home, so he tricked the second soldier's little wife, Wang Meier, to open a teahouse.He has been the most loyal tea customer since the teahouse was opened, but unfortunately, he drank Er Bing and Wang Meier's tea a lot, and even if he never settled the bill with him, Wang Meier firmly refused to let him.During a spring rain in March of the year before last, the old man of the second soldier passed away, leaving behind his widow Wang Meier and the teahouse.Wang Mei'er doesn't expect to make money from the teahouse, it's just a place to relieve her loneliness.As for Sima Gufeng, after Mr. Erbing passed away, he came here more frequently than before. Sometimes he would sit there for a whole day, his mind full of his life with Erbing; In my own state of mind.Things in the world can make people's hearts very warm, but also very cool.In the warm and cool room, love and hate are sometimes really hard to taste. When Lin Yawen came to Tongxin Pavilion, Sima Gufeng was already waiting at Moonwatching Pavilion.The Moon-Watching Pavilion is facing the window, which is the most sunny room in Tongxin Pavilion.The sunlight came in from the window and shone on Sima Gufeng, giving him a certain kind of light.Yes, light, Lin Yawen often felt that there was a kind of light in Sima Gufeng, which could illuminate a woman's heart, especially a woman like her who was ambitious and thoughtful but often confused.Probably, Wang Meier also felt this way, otherwise, why did she always stare at him with fixed eyes? In Lin Yawen's memory, Wang Meier had been staring at Sima Gufeng for at least ten years.Sometimes she thinks this pair of old people is very strange, they obviously have each other in their hearts, but they just don't say it out, like a pair of stone lions, sticking to the bridge of friendship, they would rather look forward to the autumn water than take a step forward.Sometimes, she was very confused, it didn't feel like that, she thought them vulgar. Suddenly, she remembered the scene again, also in Tongxin Pavilion and Moonwatching Pavilion.Mr. Er Bing was still alive at that time, one day Sima Gufeng called and asked her to come here immediately.The tone was so urgent that Lin Yawen thought something happened to him, so she dropped the work at hand and ran to Tongxin Pavilion.In the end, it made her laugh and cry! It turned out that Mr. Er Bing was jealous of Wang Meier because of him!The two of them were drinking tea, and Mr. Er Bing is also addicted to tea, otherwise, he would not have opened this teahouse.The two were talking about a painting. A Hong Kong painter came to the mainland for exchange and made a painting in Tongxin Pavilion. In the painting, there is a copper pot and a woman as light as tea.No need to guess, that woman is Wang Meier.The two chatted around the Hong Kong painter for a while, and the topic turned to Wang Meier.In fact, Hong Kong painters are just an introduction, and paintings are also an introduction. Wang Meier is what they want to talk about.So he talked around the painting, around the woman who was as light as tea.Mr. Er Bing said that the painting is not good enough, his eyes are not enough, Meier's eyes are like the rainy days in April in the south of the Yangtze River, misty and misty, and he will never see through them for a lifetime.Sima Gufeng agreed at first, but later disagreed, saying that the painting resembles not only the image, but also the spirit. "What's the rainy day in April in the south of the Yangtze River? She has been with you all her life, but you actually see her so darkly. Meier's eyes are like the blue sky in May in the desert. It is clear and transparent. It reminds me of grapes in Xinjiang." "Not like." Mr. Er Bing said. "Like." Sima Gufeng said. "Not like." "picture." "If I say it doesn't look like it, it won't look like it!" Mr. Er Bing raised his voice. "I said it looks like it!" Sima Gufeng's voice became louder. "My wife, I still don't understand?" Mr. Er Bing stared at him blankly. "That's not necessarily true." Sima Gufeng spoke slowly, sipping his tea while talking: "Scent, light taste, but strong." "Who are you talking about?" "Say tea." "I don't sound like it." "Then who do you say I'm talking about?" "You know it yourself." Mr. Er Bing resentfully took a sip of tea. "It's memorable." Sima Gufeng ignored him, took another sip, and said. "I knew your intentions were wrong!" Mr. Er Bing stood up abruptly, then sat down again, unable to sit still, and said, "How could I make such a friend like you?" He got up again, as if to leave.Sima Gufeng ignored him, indulged in his own realm, closed his eyes slightly, and thought about it with great taste.There was a look of pride on that face. "You man, I have nothing to say!" Mr. Er Bing didn't leave, and was pissed off by his expression. "Then don't say it." He still didn't open his eyes, too drunk to wake up. Mr. Er Bing thought for a while, and said bitterly: "It has to be said, make it clear!" "What?" He opened his eyes, pretending to be surprised and asked. "Your character!" "What's wrong with my character?" He suddenly jumped up, "What's wrong with my character?!" "It's a problem, it's a problem!" "You're the one with the problem!" The two of them really quarreled, very fiercely, from the beginning to the end, no one mentioned Wang Meier, but they all knew why they were arguing, who they were arguing for, and what they were arguing about.In the end, Mr. Er Bing was defeated, and teased: "It's useless to quarrel, your purpose will not succeed!" "What purpose do I have, what purpose do I have?!" Sima Gufeng was anxious, so anxious that he forgot that he was a gentleman, grabbed the teacup and made a loud noise. "It's showing up, you've been pretending for half your life, can't you pretend?" "What have I pretended, what can I pretend!" "You know, ask yourself!" "I'm very frank!" "It's useless to say it yourself, you have to be frank!" "You...you're boring!" "You are more boring than me. Let me tell you, don't think about your purpose!" After saying that, Mr. Er Bing left Wangyue Pavilion bitterly. As soon as he went out, he bumped into his little wife. When people were tearing up their faces and arguing, Wang Meier was actually eavesdropping outside the door.Seeing his wife's smug face, Mr. Er Bing couldn't stand it even more. "Hmph!" He snorted and left in a rage! "You think he's boring, isn't he?" Lin Yawen arrived, Sima Gufeng was still angry, and Wang Meier tried to persuade him, but he still couldn't appease his anger.When he saw Lin Yawen, he asked the first sentence. "I don't think so." Lin Yawen smiled slightly. "What do you mean? He's not bored, am I bored?" "Neither do you." Lin Yawen said while sitting, Wang Meier glanced at her, and went out blushing.Lin Yawen covered her heart with a smile: "Is that why you called me here?" "Shouldn't this matter call you? This is a big matter, a matter of principle!" "Okay, don't be angry, you have principles in everything." Lin Yawen said deliberately. "Why do I have no principles? In my life, Sima Gufeng, what I value most is the principles of life." "Here again, last time I said that the most important thing is friendship, the kind of friendship that can be tasted even if you drink cold water together, why has it changed now, and it is said to be the principle of life?" "Is it the same thing, is it the same thing?" "It's not the same thing, there's a big difference." Lin Yawen said while refilling his tea.He snatched the cup: "Are you angry with me or are you comforting me?" Seeing how anxious he was, Lin Yawen gave a snort and let out a suppressed smile. "You, you say you are an old urchin, you are really an old urchin. Well, don't be angry anymore, drink tea in a good mood, otherwise, what you drink will be full of anger." "Just get angry, I like to drink!" He said, but the anger was obviously much less than before.Lin Yawen took advantage of the situation to say a few more words, which completely calmed him down.He finally turned his anger into a smile: "The one who knows me is Yawen, come, drink tea, don't talk about him." This him is Mr. Erbing. On that day, Lin Yawen couldn't bear it anymore, and asked him about the ins and outs of Mr. Er Bing, including Wang Meier. He actually told the truth about his friendship with Mr. Er Bing, but didn't mention anything about Wang Meier.Later, when Lin Yawen insisted on asking, the topic changed, and he talked about his sexual history, how he was when he was young, how many girls chased him, and one of them looked like Meier, and his appearance was more like a god. .Just as I was talking, the door was slightly pushed, and Wang Meier flashed in: "Who are you talking about, why have I never heard of it?" "I didn't say anyone, I really didn't say anyone, isn't this bragging to Yawen." Seeing his flustered look, Wang Meier, who didn't smile so easily, couldn't help laughing.After laughing, he said: "There are quite a few people you pretend to be in your heart. You are indeed a romantic talent." It was that day that Lin Yawen found out that Sima Gufeng had another nickname, which was given to him by girls when he was young: Da Xia.It is said that he is chivalrous in chasing women, and even more chivalrous in loving women. Heroic!That's what she said of him. 世间的情，原本有好多种，就如她跟司马古风，就如她跟郑奉时，那种飘飘忽忽似有若无的感觉，谁能道得清？上帝创造了男人和女人，既给他们诱惑，又给他们设置障碍，让情爱两个字，变得既复杂又朦胧。身为女人，林雅雯自然渴望生活能浪漫一点，感情能丰实一点。当然，这种浪漫和丰实是另一个层面上的，不会俗到影响家庭。 其实也没有俗的机会！Is not it?想到这层，林雅雯心里暗暗一笑，她的圈子里，还没有一个让她变俗的人。 司马古风真是一碟老菜。林雅雯还以为他不知道萌萌出走的事，正打算跟他说呢，他倒先板起脸，责备起她来。 “你不该这样的，看看你把这个家折腾的。”林雅雯刚坐下，司马古风就说。 “我折腾？”林雅雯愕然抬头。 “不叫折腾叫什么，天下哪有这样对待老公和孩子的。”司马古风向来在林雅雯面前不说客套话，要么是尖锐的批评，要么，就是富有智慧的告诫。 “你还怪我，我都快让这个家搞疯了。”林雅雯抱怨道。 司马古风淡然一笑：“雅雯啊，家是啥，家是女人的港湾，是女人一生都不能丢弃的地方，你这些年，有点本末倒置。别的事做得都不错，独独对家，淡了，疏了。” "I……" “你先甭辩解，启明找过我，跟我说了你家里的事，我倒觉得，萌萌出走是件好事，你们不用这么惊慌。” “好事？”林雅雯更愕然了，目光诧诧地瞪住司马古风。 “坏事有时能变好事，当然，萌萌这孩子，这样做是过激了点，但也能让你们夫妻明白，孩子长大了，他们有他们的世界，有他们的想法，说梦也行，不能老用你们的意志去强迫她。” “我哪点强迫她了，我对她宽松到家了。” “你那不叫宽松，叫漠视。我听启明说，你很少跟萌萌交流，也很少带她去上街或是逛公园。” “她是学生，没事乱转悠什么？再说，我最烦上街，到处都是人，到哪儿也是谈钱的声音。” “就冲这点，你不但当不好母亲，也当不好这个县长。”司马古风说着，品了一口茶。他品茶的样子很享受，涤杯，温壶，醒茶，分茶十分老道，端杯在手，观色闻味，嘬饮在口，徐徐咽下，每一个动作，都很是讲究，尤其闭目回味陶醉其中的样子，让人看着也享受。 “这话怎么讲？”等他重新睁开眼，林雅雯问。 “道理很简单，你不会不明白，你是装不明白。你连转街的热情都没，还有啥热情？” “我不这么认为。”林雅雯固执地说。 “雅雯，太固执不是件好事，对你，对家，对县上，都不好。今天我要批评你，一，往后要对孩子和丈夫好一点，别在家里也扮你县长的面孔。启明人虽偏激，但他是好人，对你更是赤胆忠心。萌萌呢，虽是出格点，但现在的孩子反叛性很强，追求另类，这没什么不好，关键是引导。你们首先得转变观念，不要老盯着成绩，也不要老担心她会不会早恋。早恋有什么不好？早恋的孩子往往有思想，敢想敢做，引导好了，将来会有大出息。我是反对给孩子们设禁的，啥都想禁，啥都禁不了。第二，是你的工作，我跟孙涛书记交谈过，他对你感觉不错，有意要重用你，可你有时不会拐弯子，本来可以变通着做的事，非要固执己见，结果弄得谁也下不来台。一次两次无所谓，久了，你就成了另类。你跟萌萌不同，萌萌可以另类，你不能，你是县长，是要统揽大局的人……” 这个下午，在普洱茶袅袅的清香中，林雅雯强抑着内心的不安，老老实实听司马古风分析她，批判她。你还别说，司马古风这一通批判，直把她心里给批舒服了，包括萌萌的事，也不那么犯急了。还是司马说得对：“孩子有孩子的判断力，也有孩子的行为准则，不要老是用阴暗的心理去揣测他们。凭什么你就断定，跟男孩子出去就要出事？你不也天天跟男人在一起，难道就非要出事？”这话听上去刻薄，细一想，还真有点道理。林雅雯的心终于被司马说安定了，想想也是，这两天她急得坐立不安，急出什么了呢？除了把生活弄得更乱，啥也没急到，还不如就按司马说的，先静下心来想想，为什么会发生这些事，这些事对萌萌以后的影响，到底有多大？ 包间的门轻轻打开，汪眉儿如风一般飘进来，她是来为她们续水。她走路永远如风，轻得不发出一点儿声音。林雅雯曾经感叹，这样的女人真是人间尤物啊，自己跟她一比，简直就粗糙如柴火。汪眉儿冲林雅雯莹莹一笑，她的笑有一种海水的颜色，漾在脸上，格外的温凉。 从同心阁出来，林雅雯的心情好了不少，感觉天空也一下子蔚蓝起来，天色美出不少。她琢磨着要不要跟周启明打个电话，问问他跟十三中关系熟不。无论如何，萌萌是不能在现在这所学校上了。司马古风也是这意思：“给孩子换个学校吧，不管将来成绩如何，不能在她心灵上留下伤疤。”刚要拨电话，祁茂林的电话来了，问她在哪？林雅雯说在省城，祁茂林说他也在省城。林雅雯哦了一声：“有事？”她问。 “见个面吧，有件事想跟你碰碰头。”祁茂林的声音听上去很暗，林雅雯猜想，县上一定又出事了。 果然，等林雅雯赶到酒店，看见一桌子的人，心里就明白，上头找麻烦了。 陪同祁茂林来的，除了市县两级林业局、水利局的领导外，还有企业改制领导小组的几位成员，满桌的人没一个脸色好的。未等林雅雯坐稳，祁茂林便说：“省上召开联席会议，商定流管处方案呢。” “会有什么变化？”林雅雯边坐边问。 “还没，我们刚从水利厅回来，厅里开了一个预备会，会上形势不大好。”祁茂林说。 林雅雯望一眼祁茂林，从他脸色上，感觉出刚才那会有多紧张。她抑制着内心的波澜，安慰道：“不好不要紧，只要不提太过分的条件就行。” “还过分呢，他们简直……” "What's wrong?" “算了，还是先吃饭，吃完我们商量一下。”一桌人便都闭起嘴巴，表情严肃地吃起饭来。林雅雯心里，忍不住就替沙湖县不安。就在刚才，司马古风也跟她说起了姓冯的，司马古风忧心忡忡地道：“冯桥这位同志，野心太大。人不可无野心，野心过大，就成害了。你在沙湖遇到的问题，跟他有太大关系。孙涛同志现在也很被动，你们要学会迂回，不要跟他硬碰，碰是碰不过的，要在迂回中找到折中的办法。” 林雅雯心想，怎么才能跟冯桥迂回呢？ 饭后，其他同志都回了宾馆，祁茂林硬拉林雅雯去了一个地方，说好久没轻轻松松喝过茶了，省城的茶社气氛不错，陪我去喝茶吧。林雅雯明白祁茂林的意思，他不想在宾馆谈工作，一则怕被别人打扰，另则，宾馆跟办公室是同一种气氛，谈工作令人压抑。两人来到一家叫清水湾的茶秀，要了一壶龙井，边喝边谈起了事。 祁茂林说，省水利厅重新修订了流管处改革方案，将原来的二十四条增加为二十八条，扩充了职工分流，异地安置，一次买断身份、分期支付置换金等措施。表面看，这些措施都是为妥善安置流管处职工，减少或缓解职工安置矛盾，稳定职工队伍情绪而增加的，但实质性的东西，却一条也没变。县上和市上提出的关于有效保护流域林地，坚决防止改制中以伐代毁，以农代林的十二条意见，一条也没被采纳。特别是县上提出的将青土湖、南北二湖统一规划，合理布建，形成有特色的防护林体系，为沙漠建起一道牢靠的绿色屏障战略建议，更是遭到水利厅的反对。水利厅的意见是，流管处是事业单位，不应担负政府部门承担的社会责任，过去多少年里，流管处为沙漠地区的发展，为整个流域的建设，做出了突出贡献，也因此让流管处背负了沉重的历史包袱。现在流域断水，流域内的工程单位已无法生存，国家大量削减工程项目，省上也没有大的工程项目，流管处必须由事业单位改为企业，自谋生存，自我发展，这也符合当前的改革形势。至于构建防护林体系，保护沙漠生态，是当地政府应该考虑的事情，不应再转嫁到流管处身上。 “他们这是推卸责任，是极不负责的态度。”林雅雯听了，愤愤不平地说。 “雅雯啊，这话我也在会上说了，私下里，我跟几位副厅长都汇报了。但有什么用呢，明着，他们是在改革，暗着，却是想急于甩掉流管处这包袱。你我这些想法，他们根本听不进去。” “那也不能由着他们。” “不由着他们，能由着你我？地是人家的，林子也是人家的，人家怎么弄，权限在人家手上。我们只能从地方政府的角度给人家提点建议，这建议，分量太轻啊。”祁茂林的脸色越发沉重。下午他在水利厅召开的联席会上，激动得差点要吵架。同来的市改制办主任老陈拉住了他，才没把火发到会场上。 林雅雯不说话了，同样的话她已说了无数遍，见领导就说，逢会就讲，结果呢？人家还是坚持原来的想法，非要把林地毁掉，要改建成有效益的农场。看来，那些林子真是保不住了。 “还有一件事，我一直没跟你讲，省上想把那几个小厂子，卖给县上，让我们经营。” “卖厂？”林雅雯更为惊讶，这想法他们居然也敢有？ “他们跟我谈了几次，我一直坚持着不要，这一次，看来是坚持不住了。” "why?" “上午冯桥同志找我谈话了。” “他谈也不行！”林雅雯有点急。 “由不得你我，下周冯桥同志就要到省委上班了，不是副省长，是副书记。” “是……么？”林雅雯的声音软下去，刚刚端起杯子的手一阵发软，无力地将茶杯放到了桌上。“真有此事？”过了半天，她又问。 “事情不会有假，省委赵秘书长给我打了电话，中央的文件马上要发，冯桥同志已不在水利厅这边上班了。” 茶室的空气忽然变冷，变硬，变得令人感觉不出有空气在流动。两个人的脸全都僵住，变成一个颜色，酱紫色。 这个晚上，林雅雯没再说一句话，她终于知道，祁茂林找她，并不是真的要想什么办法，其实到这时候，真是没办法再想。祁茂林的意思很明确，妥协！ 祁茂林说：“我是老了，到退休的年龄了，我已跟市委孙涛书记谈过了，打算年底到二线。但我不能在这件事上害你。你现在啥也别说，这出戏我来唱，就算要当罪人，也让我祁茂林去当。” 林雅雯怔然地瞪住祁茂林，不知是该感谢还是该…… 离开茶秀，已是晚上十点，省城的夜晚一片明亮，到处闪烁着霓虹。抬头望星空，星空更是一片灿烂。林雅雯真想在这样明亮的一个夜晚纵情地说些什么，但能说什么呢？家，孩子，还有将要面对的工作，有哪件是顺心的？哪件不把她的心折磨烂？祁茂林执意要送她回家，林雅雯拒绝了，她想一个人走走，她要在这样一个夜晚，在她曾经熟悉的街道上，留下自己沉思的脚步。 电话偏在这时又蜂鸣了一声，掏出一看，还是那个人，还是那些词。朦胧中带着期望，含蓄中透出坚韧。他是谁呢？ 林雅雯不由得又一阵乱想。谁都说自己是理智的，其实谁也不理智。林雅雯尽管不被这个躲在暗处发短信的人诱惑，但每一次收到短信，心里总要扑腾上那么一阵。扑腾的时候，丈夫周启明就到了暗处，而那个至今对她仍不冷不热的郑奉时，反倒站到了前台。这是不是也是一种背叛呢？这么想着，她对周启明，就又多了一份内疚。还是司马古风说得对，这两年，在跟丈夫的关系上，是她先选择了冷漠，尽管这种冷漠是无意识的。 她想，自己也该收收心了，这事要是让周启明察觉，还不知又会引出什么大乱。他可没她这么开明，要是他认真起来，那可就糟透了。 林雅雯没能等到强光景把萌萌接回来，第二天上午，她正打算去十三中，想事先跟校长见个面，不要到时再让人家拒绝。车子刚到校门口，市委办就打来电话，让她火速回县上，孙涛书记等她。 赶到县城，已是下午，孙涛书记带着工作组，果然等在宾馆。见面还没来得及客气，孙涛书记就说：“你那个朱世帮，想法不错嘛，让农民集资买回林地，这构思很好。” 林雅雯脸一红，路上她还在犯怵，孙涛书记找她，不会也是因了流管处的改革让她妥协吧？这阵一听，心里有底了，笑着道：“想法还不成熟，没敢向你汇报。” “有想法就好，怕的就是你们没想法。至于成不成熟，也不是靠想就能解决的，得在实践中不断调整。” “书记说得对，有你这句话，我们就放心了。”林雅雯赶忙让人去买水果，天太热，房间里又没空调，她看见孙涛书记热得流汗。 “水果就别买了，你让他们拿几瓶保健醋吧，我最近对你们的益民保健熏醋上了瘾，那东西不但止渴，还能解乏。” 说话间，就有人赶忙给熏醋厂厂长打电话，不大工夫，厂长李敏扛着一箱熏醋，气喘吁吁走进来。见了孙涛书记，李敏腼腆地笑了笑，道：“孙书记来了，我把醋给您拿来了。” 孙涛书记瞅着李敏说：“你这个厂长当得特别，自己扛醋。” 李敏不到三十岁，曾经是二轻局副局长，很有前途的一位女干部，两年前二轻系统改职，遇到阻力，职工意见很大，孙涛书记在一次专项会议上讲，我们的干部能不能带个头，主动放下干部架子，到企业去，到一线去，带领广大职工，把困境中的企业救活，让职工有饭吃，让自己也有一个施展才华的舞台？会后第三天，李敏主动请辞，要求到已经倒闭的熏醋厂去。市县马上将她树为典型，在政策上给予扶持，两年工夫，已经破产的熏醋厂起死回生，李敏研制开发的保健熏醋已成为市场新宠，备受消费者关注。 孙涛书记刚才这句话，是在表扬李敏呢。 李敏脸更红了，搓着手，站在孙涛书记面前，一时不知说啥。甭看她在市场上，是个能冲善战的好将，在领导面前，却常常拘谨得如同小女孩，平日见了林雅雯，都要脸红。 孙涛书记笑着说：“你这个厂长，性格得改改，别见了谁都怯，这咋能行？冲击市场的人，应该更有魄力，无所畏惧。”一番话说下来，房间的空气立马活跃了。李敏这才坐下。孙涛书记借机问了些情况，得知李敏又在开发新产品，鼓励道：“干企业就该这样，现在占市场靠什么，就是靠新产品，你要把保健系列做大做强，做成拳头产品。有什么困难，可以提出来，县上解决不了，市里解决。”李敏赶忙道：“谢谢书记关心，眼下企业运行还行，资金方面缺口也不是太大，有困难，一定会找您的。” “这就好，要是全市的企业都像你们这样，我这个书记，就可踏踏实实睡觉了。”孙涛书记由衷地说。 谈了一阵，李敏告辞走了，厂里有事，不能多留，再者，她也识眼色，知道孙涛书记跟林雅雯有正事要谈。 李敏离开后，孙涛书记单独将林雅雯带到另一间房，关切地问：“家里的事处理妥当了？”林雅雯摇头，孙涛书记又说：“再怎么忙，家还是要顾的，女同志更要注意这点。”林雅雯内疚道：“工作没做好，家里又老是出乱，哎，都怪我方法不当。” “话也不能这么说，是我对你们关心不够。'121'把谁都搞乱了，不怕你笑话，我家里也闹战争哩！老伴批评我，说我不要他们了，这个官，不好当啊。” “哪里，你对家，可是很有责任感的，这一点值得我们下面的同志学习。”林雅雯真诚地说。 孙涛书记笑了笑，略带点苦涩，还有遗憾：“雅雯啊，当领导就不得不做出牺牲，人嘛，毕竟精力有限，不可能把啥事都做好。欠下家人的，以后补，眼下还得鼓起劲来，把县上的工作好好抓一下。老祁年龄快到了，自己想退二线，市上呢，也有这想法，想让你尽快挑重担。让年轻同志挑重担，这是大势所趋，也是我们党培养干部的方向和原则。” “孙书记，我哪还敢称年轻？”林雅雯谦虚道。她给孙涛书记的杯子蓄上水。 “年富力强，正是干事业的时候，我在你这个年龄，已经到行署工作了。”孙涛书记笑说。林雅雯发自肺腑地说：“你是我们的一面镜子，县上的同志谈起你来，都很崇拜。” “崇拜不敢乱讲，这可是原则问题。不过老同志身上，还是有值得你们借鉴的地方，包括老祁，他为沙湖县苦了一辈子，是头老黄牛啊。” 孙涛书记这番话，让林雅雯心里再次涌出浪一般的感慨，她想起祁茂林那张沉重的脸，想起他跟她谈的那些话，一时，心重得喘不过气。屋子里有片刻的沉默，孙涛书记也像是沉浸到什么里了，心事凝重。过了一会，他说：“今天跟你谈这些，就是想让你及早有个思想准备，过段时间，市委打算把下面的班子动一下，不能再让老黄牛拉车了，得让你们这些同志去冲，去拼。” “孙书记……” “这事就这样，算是提前跟你谈个话。今天找你的主要目的，还是那个朱世帮，你到底打算把他藏多久？” “藏？” “怎么，还想跟我打哑谜是不？你跟老祁，在朱世帮的问题上，矛盾是假，用人是真。说吧，打算怎么用？” “还没想好。”林雅雯如实回答，这些日子她还哪有心思想这个。 “我倒有个建议，说出来供你们参考。”孙涛书记望了一眼她，接着道：“朱世帮这同志，是个干将，尽管他身上有不少农民习气，但把他用好了，是能干出一番大事的。” 林雅雯心里一阵轻松，她还怕孙涛书记批评她袒护朱世帮呢，听孙涛书记这样一说，她就彻底放心了。“书记有什么好建议？”她紧问道。 “他不是对沙漠有感情么，就让他干那件事，县上可以成立一个开发公司，也可以让农民自发成立，由朱世帮牵头，认真研究一下沙漠地区的发展方向，搞出一个绿色产业。暂时可以不追求经济效益，但一定要追求长远效益。县上也制定些优惠政策，拿出一部分钱来，支持他们。如果县上有困难，你再找我，我跟市财政说说。总之，沙漠地区的矛盾要解决，而且要从根本上解决，不能再这么拖下去了。” 说到这儿，孙涛书记紧起了眉头，脸也变得阴郁，看得出，南北二湖及青土湖的矛盾，在他心上像块石头。林雅雯刚要说什么，孙涛书记又说：“雅雯啊，为官一任，造福一方，我孙涛在河西市干了两届，也算干出过一些成绩，可一想这治沙，我这心里，就难受。想想，六年来在我手上毁掉的树，心疼啊——” “孙书记，这不怪你，是他们——” “不管是谁，我这个当一把手的，难辞其咎。一看到老百姓那些目光，一听到群众的骂声，我就觉得，自己是罪人，是河西市的罪人。” “孙书记……”林雅雯心里也升起一股负罪感。 两个人顺着这话题，聊了很多，林雅雯第一次感觉到，孙涛书记原来这么亲切，这么和蔼，这么值得信赖。能在这样一位书记的领导下开展