Chapter 7 Chapter VII

Zaohua needs surgery. After a period of treatment, Zaohua's condition seems to have improved, her body is not so weak, and her spirit has improved a lot.However, the ascites did not subside significantly. Xiao Tian said that Zaohua belongs to intractable ascites, which is a serious complication of late liver disease. In order to prevent possible ascites infection and hepatorenal syndrome, Xiao Tian suggested that the patient should be shunted by the abdominal cavity and jugular vein surgery.This is a kind of operation that is still rarely used at present, but it is quite useful for the disease of jujube flower.To be cautious, Xiao Tian repeatedly told Yuyin the purpose of the operation and the possible consequences, but he said: "Although this operation is rarely used at present, it is mainly related to its popularity. I also repeatedly choose among several options." Yes, please rest assured, I am sure of this operation."

Yuyin hurriedly said: "It's not that I'm worried, Uncle Xiao, don't think so, I'll hurry up and make preparations." The hard part is money.Although Yuyin couldn't bear to spend Tuotuo's money so much, she still let her spend Tuotuo's 30,000 yuan.A few days ago, Tuotuo sent another 20,000 yuan, Yuyin couldn't ask for more, so she resolutely rejected it, and Tuotuo was so anxious that he almost quarreled with her.The cost of surgery is not small, and Yuyin was so anxious that her mouth was full of blisters, and she almost cried on the street. That day, she called Qiao Xue and asked her to take care of her aunt, while she set foot on the road back to Shaxiang.At this time, only father and mother can be found.

Yuyin came home in the dark. In order to save money, she was reluctant to take the high-speed through train. Instead, she backed up a few times and came back from the sidewalk.The village was quiet, like no one else. The twilight concealed the hustle and bustle of the day and lowered the solemnity before the night. This small village in the depths of the desert looked mysterious, peaceful, and slightly lethargic. Father and mother are not there, the courtyard door is open, the upper room and side room are also open, the kitchen is full of pots and pans, it seems that the meal is half cooked and ran out.Yuyin's heart tightened.Every time I came back, my mother would fall asleep on the kang, or squat lazily at the street door to bask in the sun.What's the matter today, what made them run out without even caring about their meals?

Yuyin turned around and walked towards the village alley. Just after turning the first alley, she ran into Hongliu.Hongliu also seemed to be chased by a ghost, and walked in a hurry, almost colliding with Yuyin.He looked up and saw that it was Yuyin, and said in surprise, "Yuyin, you are back, the sky is falling, I am so anxious that I am about to touch the wall." Yuyin grabbed Hongliu: "What happened?" "Take it over, take over all Shawan Village." What Hongliu said didn't match the first three and the last four, and the more she talked, the more chaotic things became. After talking for a long time, except for the cold sweat that broke out in fright, Yuyin didn't understand why.

"You should speak clearly!" Yuyin wished she could get the words out of Hongliu's belly. "The police, the police have arrested your father, Wang Simao, and many others. During this time, people are all blocked at the other end of the village." At the other end of the village is the road to Xinjing Township, which is the opposite of Yuyin's way home. The police came into the village after five o'clock in the afternoon. It was useless to come early, because people were not in the village.The police wanted to catch him by surprise when people had just returned home from work.The police's idea was very good, and the result was exactly as they had imagined. Except for the two who escaped on the way, the other eight people suspected of stealing in Shawan Village were all crowded in the house.

But the police did not expect that this major action was met with a collective protest from the villagers of Shawan Village. Seventy or eighty villagers gathered in front of the car before they were escorted to the car, and surrounded the three police cars in a daze. .From 6:00 p.m. to this time, almost three hours have passed. Not only did the work of the villagers fail, but the contradictions became more and more acute. Some people even shouted to smash the police cars.The mayor is here, and so is the deputy county magistrate. No matter how many people come, they are free. If they don't let them go, the police car won't leave. The people of Shawan are going all out this time.

The reason for the Shawan people is very simple, why should only the people of Shawan village be arrested?Yuhu was captured in Inner Mongolia, it doesn't matter, he deserved to flee to Inner Mongolia.But Niu Genshi is different from Hongzaoer and the others. Whether they stole Xinjing's camels is hard to say, and I don't care, but if you want to catch them, you have to catch Xinjing's thieves as well.It's not fair to just focus on Shawan Village. "We must also catch the thieves from Xinjing. Please rest assured, not only the thieves from Xinjing, we will not let go of any thieves who have been found out this time." Captain Hou, the leader of the team, said patiently.

"Don't worry about your heels! When did you not let us rest assured, but when did you really catch it? If you eat a few sheep from others, or charge a little fine, you will let them all go, so that we will be lost today, too. I lost it tomorrow, and almost stole the house." said the uncle who picked up the grass. "That's right, if you don't believe their lies, you will use them to coax people back, and you will gain experience." Some people echoed. "Mother's Day, it's still a lie, it's just fart, and you won't take it seriously once you say it a hundred times!" A young stunned young man simply cursed.

From six o'clock in the afternoon, until now, the people in the town and the county have talked a lot, but the people in Shawan Village just don't listen.In any case, there is a reason, either let the person go, or lose money. In fact, letting people go is false, but asking for money is true.Yuyin may not know that over the years, as the people in Sha Township have raised more livestock, the county and township have also used a lot of brains.Let’s talk about the public security. Since last year, they have inexplicably collected a security management fee for desert grazing, which is based on the number of livestock. A camel pays ten yuan a year, and a sheep pays one yuan a year. If you pay the money, you will lose it for nothing, and you will not be responsible if you lose it. Of course, that’s not what it says, but that’s the reason.After much deliberation, the people from Sha Township still hardened their hearts and handed over the money.I'm afraid, if no one cares about the loss, it's okay, half a daughter-in-law is exchanged for a camel.But after the money is paid, it should be lost or lost, and it is more lost than those years of not paying the money.If you lose it, you still can't ask. The police station said that there are few people and they can't take care of it. They can't send people to the depths of the desert to look at it every night, right?What are you listening to, what are you talking about?Someone who understands the law will stand up and sue him for being a dog, and he will have to pay after paying the money, which is written in the law.So people from Sha Township petitioned everywhere, wanting the police station to pay compensation.As a result, guess what, the higher-ups didn’t say that at all. It turned out that the Public Security Bureau wanted to repair the building, and there wasn’t enough money.Now, the people in Shaxiang were annoyed, really annoyed, but there was nothing they could do about it. No, they took advantage of this opportunity to arrest people and competed with the police.

Yuyin stood outside the crowd, not daring to go forward.One of the offenders was her brother, and the other was her father. Not to mention the embarrassment, if they were caught, what would the family do, what would the aunt do?Yuyin was anxious and ashamed. At this moment, she really hated herself. If she hadn't taken the postgraduate entrance examination, the family wouldn't be so tight, and her father and brother wouldn't be thieves.Hongliu was still muttering beside her, saying that she was going to get married last month, and she blamed Wang Simao, why did she want to follow Yuhu and the others to be a thief.This is good, we have caught her house, so that she will not be able to raise her head in front of others in the future.

Yuyin said annoyedly, "Say a few words less, how can you prove that he followed my brother, and I suspect that he led my brother to death." "Yuyin, you can't say that. You are outside, and you may not know what's going on in the village. You can ask the people in this place. Your brother Yuhu has been gambling for several years. The gambling debts alone can save you money." Your house is taken away. He... he is still raising wild women outside!" Hongliu was so excited that she told the truth. "You're talking nonsense!" Yuyin yelled suddenly. This call did not frighten Hongliu, but Su Jiaojiao in the crowd heard it.Su Jiaojiao originally hugged the leg of a middle-aged policeman, but when she heard that it was the deputy director, Su Jiaojiao thought to herself that I would hug the deputy's leg, and even put on my shoes when I hugged the straight one.I was probably tired of hugging for a while, and was about to find a step to stop hugging. When I heard Yuyin's voice, I immediately let the police go and ran over here. "Oh, it's really you, you loser, you prodigal son, and you know how to come back." Seeing that it was really Yuyin, Su Jiaojiao rushed towards her when she touched her head and scratched her face.Yuyin didn't take precautions, so Su Jiaojiao grabbed her. If it wasn't for Hongliu's sharp eyes and quick hands to protect her, Su Jiaojiao's grab might really be able to grab Yuyin's chest. "You are ungrateful, your conscience is eaten by dogs, and the old lady poops and urinates and pulls you up. You are good, you can make money, and you only have her in your heart. Go, she is your mother, We kissed very much, go and live with her, what are you doing here?" Yuyin didn't expect that this was a meeting gift from her mother.At that moment, my eyes were filled with tears, and my heart was so painful that I couldn't express it.When Hongliu and the others heard Su Jiaojiao's scolding, they all changed their faces in shock.Su Jiaojiao was angry with Yuyin, it was because of the last time she was hospitalized, Su Jiaojiao believed that it was Yuyin who prevented her from asking the county magistrate for money, or, she suspected that Yuyin took the money privately and wanted to treat Zaohua .If Meimei from the county gave him a sum of money, Yuhu's gambling debts would have been paid off long ago, so how could he let others come to remind him every day, how could he force Niu Genshi to become a thief again? While weeping and mourning, I heard the crowd in front of me becoming chaotic. It turned out that it was Long Yong from the Wuliang City Government.Long Yong used to be a secretary in Sha County, and he was familiar with the situation in Shawan area, so the city sent him here with this in mind. Long Yong was followed by a few police cars. Looking at the situation, he knew that he was going to be tough.Sure enough, Long Yong said with the first sentence: "You are violently interfering with law enforcement. Do you know that this is also breaking the law. If you don't want to follow to the police station, then get out of the way and let the law enforcement officers go first. I will keep it. What are you talking about, tell me!" "Say a dick!" the stunned-headed Qing who had scolded just now returned a sentence with a tilt of his neck.Just as the crowd was about to laugh, three policemen came over and handcuffed the dazed young man neatly. "Is there anyone else who wants to scold someone? If I scold one, I will take one away today. I don't believe it. Your Shawan Village is helpless." "What's wrong with you, I still don't believe it. Your surname Long can take away the sky in Shawan." It was an old man who said this. Long Yong used to be the secretary of Sha County. Approving fake seeds almost killed several villages, and they were punished for a year.When I saw Long Yong coming today, I wanted to avenge him.Unexpectedly, as soon as the words fell to the ground, he also wore an iron bracelet on his hand. "Is there any more?" Long Yong raised his voice and shouted without fear. Then there were two more daring ones who wanted to try Long Yong's courage, but in the end, they all tried themselves in the car.That's why people are afraid, thinking that the surname of Long is the surname of Long, and it was not easy to mess with back then, and it is even more difficult to mess with now. Yuyin didn't sleep at her own house that night. After the incident was over, she followed Shicao to live in Xiaxian's house.The two good companions who played together when they were young, kept making noise until dawn.Only then did Yuyin know that her father was really a thief, and the police did not wrong him. Shicao said that the theft in Shawan Village was due to gambling, and this gambling was due to Ma Wuzi.If it wasn't for Ma Wuzi and Ge Meiren, if Ma Wuzi and Ge Meiren hadn't opened a casino in the town, Shawan Village, it shouldn't be like this. "It's a thousand cuts, a mouse killed a pot of soup." Shicao scolded.Ma Wuzi and Yuhu were arrested in Inner Mongolia. Shicao said that when the police arrested them, the two were still at the gambling table, and they were about to defraud the potters of their money. Fortunately, they went to the police.Only then did Yuyin know that Ma Wuzi and Yuhu turned their heads to Inner Mongolia because they fell in love with the potters there.There are many coal mines in Inner Mongolia, and there are many Shaxiang people who go to dig coal. "You deserve it, you deserve to be shot." Shicao said angrily. After scolding, he was afraid that Yuyin would be suspicious, so he hurriedly said, "It's just hard work for your brother. He won't follow anyone, but he wants to follow Ma Wuzi." In Yuyin's heart, it was darker than night, too dark to see a ray of light.His father Niu Genshi was actually a thief for the first time because of his elder brother Yuhu.After losing the money, Yuhu was dejected and wandered around in the desert without eating or entering the door.Niu Genshi asked about the situation, sighed, and said, "Baby, a living person can't be suffocated by urine, where he falls, where he crawls. Go, follow Dad, and Dad will help you find a way." So the two groped in the dark. , Came to a newly opened machine well in Xinjing Township.When his father, Niu Genshi, used to be a party secretary, he led people to dig a well, and he was good at the work in the well.Yuhu was watching the wind on the edge of the well, and Niu Genshi went down the well, and came up after about a meal, and said to his son, "Pull the rope!" Niu Yuhu pulled the rope up with all his strength.This pull will pull out the annual income of the people in Shaxiang. It's a pity that Yuhu gambled away the money, half to Ma Wuzi, and half to Heigou and the others. The black dog is from Shabiliang Village, and he is also a second-rate guy. He is in his thirties and has no home. He is lazy and has a bad reputation. Who will follow?When picking up grass and talking about black dogs, he scolded louder than Ma Wuzi.Those who suffer thousands of knives dare to do anything, such as being a thief, digging holes, eating, drinking and whoring women, there is nothing he won't do.Shicao was silent for a moment, and finally said: "Last time, he was the one who took off your pants last time." It thickened overnight, and it was too thick to breathe.Yuyin seemed to have forgotten about it, but she remembered the mention of picking up grass.I really didn't expect that Sha Township has become like this in these years!In Yuyin's memory, Sha Township is such a warm harbor. The strong fragrance of sand date flowers, wrapped in thick memories, always permeates her heart.Unexpectedly, as the fragrance of the sandy dates gradually drifts away, what is gone is the sweet nostalgia, the pure nostalgia... Shicao went on to say that Niu Genshi was forced to steal the camel this time.For one thing, Yuhu owed too much gambling debt, and people came to collect the debt every day, and a flock of sheep was chased away, but he still couldn't pay it off, so he had to think of other ways.On the other hand, the camels in Shawan Village were stolen by thieves from Xinjing Township. Wang Simao can testify to this.But the police station on the Xinjing side didn't care, and the police station on the Shawan side couldn't control it. Together, they stole!Why can't they steal from us? !So I stole it. I didn't think about it, so I stole Lao Dier out. "Oh, your father has stolen it a few times, Hongzaoer man, this is the first time, the conscience of heaven and earth, it is really a loss to catch him." Shicao sighed. The night finally made them louder, and when Shaxiang revealed the first white, Yuyin yelled to leave without eating breakfast.She was anxious for her aunt, and also afraid that her mother, Su Jiaojiao, would chase her over at dawn.This time, she really had a different view of her mother and father.Let them deal with the mess they messed up by themselves. She doesn't care about it anyway, and she can't control it. Picking up grass couldn't stop me, I rummaged through the box for a long time, and took out a kraft paper envelope: "You take this, you know the situation in my house, it's not much, it's left over from selling pigs, five hundred, don't think it's too little If you can't help with the treatment, let's buy some delicious food for your aunt." After speaking, tears welled up in her own eyes. Yuyin didn't dare to ask for it, so she immediately pushed back, Shicao was angry: "You think I'm poor, why are you so ignorant of people's hearts. This is for your aunt, not for you." Yuyin still didn't want it, she was choking on the words in her throat and couldn't spit it out, her eyes were already hot and humid. "Your aunt is a good person. If it weren't for her back then, my father, my father would have died..." Shicao said halfway, but couldn't continue, covering his nose for fear of crying out in front of Yuyin. sound. In the other room, the blind fairy coughed loudly, and every year when autumn came, the blind fairy coughed violently, and Xianxiao couldn't sing, so he could only stay at home. "Take it, do you want me to beg you?" Shicao's face was already very gloomy, as if the past like smoke had wrapped her up suddenly. ... Picking grass is right, if it weren't for Zaohua back then, the blind fairy would have died. The Blind Immortal was not originally blind, but was very bright, not only his eyes were bright, but his heart was even brighter.When he was young, Xiaxian worked as a teacher in Huyang Middle School. He was good at teaching books and writing characters.If you want to blame it, blame the good handwriting.At that time, it was popular to write big red slogans, take a few buckets of red cellar mud and water, and take a big pen to write in black all day.The situation of the revolution is tight. When writing and criticizing, there are people who sabotage the revolution. If you don’t write, you will pay back.Xiaxian was originally very revolutionary. Whatever the commune asked him to do, he actively did it and never delayed.After writing it, the blind immortal became a little bored. It may not be appropriate to say that it is boring, but the revolutionary cannot be bored, and the blind immortal is very clear about this.Around August, the battle at Shawopu was in full swing, very lively, the commune was about to hold a competition, and all the teams wanted to flatten the desert overnight.That day, the blind fairy had something on his mind, something urgent, something good, so he hurriedly finished writing, and then ran to Shabiliang Village.There is a girl waiting for him in Shabiliang Village, and the blind fairy is right there with the girl. The girl is also the iron girl. In order to meet the blind fairy, she bravely pretended to be sick, took half a day off and sneaked back, and had to rush to Shawopu before dark.The two of them were shyly chattering in the room, and before they could even touch each other, the courtyard door was knocked open with a bang.Yang Hongqi of the Commune Revolutionary Committee took a few people with him, tied up the blind fairy without any explanation, and sent him straight to Shawopu.The criticism meeting was held immediately, and people knew that the blind fairy had made a mistake, a big mistake, a terrible mistake.He left out a word, and the word "no" in "Never forget class struggle" was not written, which is not bad.On the spot, Xiaxian was designated as an active counter-revolutionary, his teacher was dismissed, and the same cards as Zheng Dayuan were hung around his neck.After the criticism meeting, Xiaxian was sent to Zheng Dayuan's group to undergo reform through labor. There are two groups in Shawopu undergoing transformation, one group is the old right Zheng Dayuan and others, and the other group is the wealthy elements.The treatment of the two groups is the same, the only difference is that in the wealthy group, there are occasional family members who sneak in to help, but the old right people have to rely on themselves.Blind Immortal could have been assigned to the group of rich people, but Yang Hongqi said that he was educated, and if not done well, he would teach the rich people badly, so he was put into the group of old right. One of the militiamen guarding them was Yang Pianmao, a man who couldn't be picked up, but he and Yang Hongqi belonged to the same Yang family, so he became a master.Yang Pianmao and Xiaxian had a deep hatred, but the key is that Xiaxian is too educated, knows so many characters, and can sing such beautiful songs. Yang Pianmao's several blind dates failed.This is good, Yang Pianmao finally has a chance to clean up the blind fairy.Forget about Xiaxian being educated, as soon as he arrived on the big stage of the revolution, he was terrified and had nothing to do, so he could only obediently endure Yang Pianmao's bullying.About a month later, or a little later, one night, the sky was blowing yellow wind, Zheng Dayuan and others were lying in the nest to write acquaintances, Yang Pianmao came in, holding a word, and asked the blind fairy: "This is a what word?" When the blind fairy saw it, his head buzzed and his heart went dark.Blind Immortals can recognize this word, but they cannot say it.Once said, the crime of blind immortals is serious.The blind fairy raised his head and stared at Yang Pianmao in surprise, looking terrified.Yang Pianmao's voice was evil: "Do you recognize me? I told you to talk. What do you want me to do?" The blind fairy hesitated, no, he was afraid.This word is a rare word, people say it a lot, almost everyone says it, but not many people recognize it.The word means to mate, and in Shaxiang, saying it is a curse, very rough and wild.The blind fairy knew that if he recognized it, Yang Pianmao must have another trick, maybe he would have to ask him to demonstrate the meaning of the word. It's not like he hasn't done this kind of thing before.Not long ago, Yang Pianmao punished Zheng Dayuan in this way, because Zheng Dayuan talked to Niu Zaohua, the iron girl.But that word is not poisonous, that word means genitals, especially women, Zheng Dayuan said its pronunciation very generously at that time, and Yang Pianmao really asked Zheng Dayuan to explain in detail.Zheng Dayuan thought for a while, pointed to a female camel in the distance and said, "You can see it when it raises its tail." Yang Pianmao was so angry that he punished Zheng Dayuan for a long time.Today, I'm afraid it won't go so smoothly. "Do you recognize him or not?" Yang Pianmao became impatient, he had already thought about how to deal with the blind fairy. "I... I don't know." After thinking about it, Xia Xian still decided to say that he didn't know. "You really don't recognize him?" Yang Pianmao asked angrily. "I don't know." Yang Pianmao asked five times in a row, and the blind fairy answered five times, Yang Pianmao was discouraged.If the blind fairy dares to say that he recognizes it, he must let the blind fairy demonstrate this word in the ground nest.But Yang Pianmao is Yang Pianmao, and he absolutely refuses to let the blind fairy go. "You, come out!" He shouted. Blind Immortal lowered his head, and followed Yang Pianmao out of the den, as if pleading guilty. "Take it!" Yang Pianmao handed the blind fairy a long pole, "Write this character five hundred times in this open space, try if you can't write five hundred times." After finishing speaking, Yang Pian and Mao Zhigao left in high spirits.The blind fairy hesitated and dared not write. He couldn't even say the word, but he could still write?But he is a counter-revolutionary, if he does not write, he will be punished even more.After hesitating again and again, Xia Xian still wrote it. The wind was very strong that night, and the sand and dust were even fiercer. Halfway through writing, Xia Xian's arms were so tired that he couldn't lift it up, sand got into his eyes, and he couldn't open his eyes, but he didn't dare to stop.Just as I was struggling, I heard a voice in my ear: "Good calligraphy, really good calligraphy, vigorous, powerful, and full of revolutionary fighting spirit. It's just a pity that such good calligraphy was actually written in this sandy nest." The blind fairy turned around and saw that it was Zheng Dayuan.Immediately, he blushed up to his neck.Zheng Dayuan is an old right he respects, although it was only a month, but his knowledge, his backbone, and the way he went crazy when he was working all left a deep impression on the blind fairy.The blind fairy was about to open his mouth to explain something, but Zheng Dayuan grabbed the pole and started writing on the ground with both hands.Zheng Dayuan's calligraphy is flying like dragons and phoenixes, elegant and uncertain, exuding a sense of immortality that transcends the world.All of a sudden, on the bumpy sandy ground, there was a long string of unpronounceable words. The two of them wrote all night, and they wrote far more than five hundred, maybe five thousand.The strangely shaped character was crawling all over the yellow ground, and after writing it, the two of them actually yelled and yelled as they wrote it, it was that word!I ×, I ×! The sound was like a ghost crying, like a wolf howling.It's like, my heart is full of hatred, and I want to x it out! The next day, something happened, something big. The two of them left after finishing writing. In fact, they didn't finish writing. They wrote that they finally calmed down and knew who they were. Unexpectedly, the sky almost fell down. Everything was calculated by Yang Pianmao. If this guy wants to kill you, you have to peel off your skin if you don't die.Xiaxian never expected that the county officials would come early the next morning to inspect the scene of the battle.As a result, as soon as the big cadre arrived at the scene, he saw the words all over the place. He was curious at first, but when he looked closer, his brows gradually tightened.It turns out that the big cadres also recognize this word, and understand the meaning of this word better.Immediately, there was a thunder in the desert: "Whoever wrote it, arrest him!" The big cadres believe that this is a typical dissatisfaction with the revolution, openly challenging the dictatorship of the proletariat.It's so vicious, a hundred times more vicious than ghosts and monsters.At that moment, the blind fairy was tied up by Wuhuada and escorted to the stage.A more fierce criticism will begin. Yang Pianmao didn't admit at all that he asked Xia Xian to write that word, and as soon as Xia Xian opened his mouth, he "slapped" the sole of his shoe to seal Xia Xian's mouth.The big cadres also didn't believe that the revolutionary Yang Pianmao would do such a reactionary thing, and immediately put a hat on the blind fairy: framing a revolutionary comrade is an extra crime.Combining the two crimes, the problem of blind immortality is serious, very serious.At that time, the current counter-revolutionaries were being suppressed, because everyone was shot for a single sentence, and the blind immortal committed such a serious crime, I am afraid... At the critical moment, Niu Zaohua, the iron girl, stepped forward and stood on the stage. "I report, I expose!" She raised her arms and shouted louder than thunder. "I want to expose the bad elements hidden among the revolutionary comrades, and he is Yang Pianmao." Then, Niu Zaohua said one is one, and the other is two. On the stage, some of them encouraged the local rich to urinate in the bowls of the old rightists, and dug holes on the road where the old rightists passed with their carts.There was an even more terrifying incident. He actually coerced the landlord Chen Sanliang's girl to be with him. If Miss Chen refused, he said that Miss Chen was secretly seducing the rightists. As soon as this remark came out, the audience was in an uproar.The girl of the landlord Chen Sanliang even burst into tears, and the scene got out of control for a while.The big cadres want to protect Yang Pianmao, but the one who wants to expose him is Niu Zaohua, the captain of the Iron Girl Team. This is a flag erected by the county, and her words cannot be ignored.As a result, the criticism meeting was suspended midway, and Yang Pianmao and Xiaxian were locked up respectively. Although Yang Pianmao was not convicted of that incident, it fundamentally saved the blind fairy.The next day, the blind fairy moved to the desert reservoir on the grounds that he could not accept the transformation well, where a more intense battle was waiting for him.The die-hards were all sent there to do jobs that were inconvenient for the poor and lower-middle peasants.Although this work is hard, the punishment is much lighter than going to jail or being shot. Blind Immortal escaped a catastrophe.But who knows, misfortune seems to have followed him, and in the days since then, the blind fairy has suffered one after another. First, the girl from Shabiliang Village publicly severed ties with him at the meeting. Soon, news spread that she was with Yang Hongqi. Later, she really married Yang Hongqi. The black dog caught this time was their son, the third child. .Then, his father was crushed to death by a rocky cliff. Stones were used to build the reservoir. There are no stones in the desert, so he had to go to the Five Buddhas to pull them. His father was the captain of the stone team.In the fall of the second year, he was sent to line up a squib, and he deserved to have an accident. Generally speaking, the squibs are lined up by special personnel, but the person who lined up the squibs had a stomachache and couldn't go to work that day, so he had to send the blind.As a result, as soon as he walked up to the squib, the squib rang. The blind fairy lost his eyes. There is also a touching thing about that time that people can't recall. This is the girl of the landlord Chen Sanliang who finally decided to marry the blind fairy.When the day just got better, she kicked off and left. It's really impossible to mention the sad things, as soon as they are mentioned, everyone's heart becomes a vast ocean. Yuyin came back empty-handed, except for the five hundred that was forced upon her by picking grass, this trip was considered a waste of time.No, how can it be considered a waste of time, this trip, there are really too many things on her heart. Yuyin felt that she had no strength to go back to her aunt. Qiang walked into the ward vigorously, and suddenly found that Liugen was here!The shepherd Liugen was wearing a brand new gray cloth suit, a new straw hat, his hair seemed to be shaved, and a pair of new leather shoes on his feet.Although they were all cheap, wearing them on Liugen immediately changed his appearance. At first glance, he thought he was specially dressed for a blind date.Probably his image has long been fixed in Yuyin's heart, seeing him wearing such new clothes, Yuyin couldn't help but burst out laughing.Sheepman Liugen hurriedly stood up, and said shyly, "Why don't you go to the provincial capital and make people laugh at you?" These words made Zaohua on the hospital bed laugh too.It happened that the nurse came to change the medicine. Seeing such an extra person in the ward, she stared at it strangely for a long time, put down the medicine, covered her mouth and ran out. "What are you laughing at? Why are you looking at me and laughing? What's so funny?" Liu Gen was so stiff that he didn't know how to let go. I’ve never laughed before, today, you made me laugh all the time.” "It's good to laugh, is it good to laugh? Look, when you smile, most of your illness will be cured immediately." Yuyin didn't dare to tell her aunt that she had gone to Shawopu. Zaohua asked her, but she only said to go back to school and ask for leave, and washed the quilt by the way. Zaohua said oh, and Qiao Xue told her the same. "If you don't go for such a long time, the school won't make things difficult for you, right?" These days, what worries Zaohua the most is Yuyin's going to school. The school forgives Yuyin. "School is a place to teach and educate people, so I won't even forgive this." "No, aunt, don't worry." Yuyin said, and went to the water room to fetch water.After a day in the car, her body was covered with dust, and she wanted to wipe her face. Liu Gen followed out, and kept following in the water room, checking that there was no outsider in the water room, and asked in a low voice, "When will the operation be done?" "I don't know either. If I don't have money, what should I do?" Yuyin said weakly. "You don't have to worry about money, Yin girl, you go to the doctor quickly, just say that you have all the money, and let them do it quickly." "All together?" Yuyin stared at Liu Gen in astonishment, not understanding what he meant by that. Liu Gen smiled, turned around, and mysteriously untied his trouser belt. After a long time of effort, he untied a long red cloth belt, the kind that wraps around the waist, with lumps inside. "Here, it's all money. One hundred yuan a piece. There will be no fakes. I checked it with the bank. It's 60,000 yuan. If it's not enough, I'll make it up." "Come on, where did you get so much money?" Yuyin was not only shocked, but also stupid and horrified.A shepherd with six sticks, how much money would he have? "Sheep, girl Yin, sheep." Liu Gen suddenly became airy, it's okay not to be airy, but when he was airy, his appearance became more and more frightening. "Sheep?" Yuyin didn't even know how she yelled this word. "It's sheep. I sold all the sheep and sold them for a good price. The size was evened out, and a sheep was spread out at two hundred and six, and sold by counting. Two hundred and sixteen, you count, how much? The wool money I saved on weekdays, hehe, more than 60,000 miles, but I spent a little on buying clothes, and bought some food and supplies for your aunt, so there is only a whole number left." Liugen was still talking, but Yuyin's thinking had already stopped.It was so unexpected, so shocking.My God, Liugen will be rich, and Liugen will sell the sheep to save his aunt! "Girl, what are you doing in a daze? Wash it quickly, and go to the doctor after washing. By the way, don't tell your aunt about this, just say...whatever you say, you can make up a lie, anyway, you can't say yes I sold the sheep." After speaking, Liu Gen left in a panic, he was afraid of the long delay, and Zao Hua became suspicious. Holding a red cloth bag of money, Yuyin was numb. Later, Yuyin learned that Liugen knew that her aunt was going to have an operation because of Fang Lizhi.Fang Lizhi is because of Qiao Xue again.No one could figure out when Fang Lizhi got involved with Qiao Xue. In short, the two of them got involved, and the relationship was not ordinary.This is second, the key is that the six sheep will be sold.As soon as he heard that Zaohua had no money for surgery, Liu Gen immediately said: "Why don't you have money? This tree, this sheep, which one is not money?" Of course it is impossible to sell trees.After that, he didn't care about anything, and ran around all day, trying to sell sheep.But at this time, water is more expensive than gold, who dares to buy more than 200 sheep at one go?When he was worried, Shang Limin stepped forward: "There are sheep that cannot be sold, I don't believe in this evil." After Shang Limin went there for a day, he brought the buyer, a big contractor in Wuliang City, of course it wasn't Zhou Hongnian.The son of the contractor is also in the sports school, and he also wants to go to the provincial sports brigade. The matter was settled without much discussion, and the price was uttered by Shang Limin. Counting the sheep, at the end, one was left, saying that Shang Limin and the others could improve their food. It's a pleasure to do this. What was even happier than this was that Niu Zaohua agreed to the operation. Even Dean Xiao Tian didn't expect this point. But it is true, Niu Zaohua really agreed to the operation, and said that she must cooperate with the doctor.She wants to survive, she doesn't want to die, and she can't die! When Liu Gen came back that day, Niu Zaohua on the hospital bed suddenly stopped him and sent Yuyin out.Liugen was a little nervous for a while, not sure what to do with Zaohua being so mysterious.Could it be that he found out about his sale of sheep so quickly?Just when I was in a daze, I heard Zaohua say: "Liugen, you have been in Shawopu for six or seven years, right?" "Six years and eight months, but I used to run at both ends." Liu Gen said tremblingly.It's very strange, Liu Gen has never been afraid of anyone in his life, when the sheep are herded wild, he doesn't know how to be afraid of people, the emperor dares to scold him, just like scolding sheep.However, he was very timid towards Zaohua, he was timid in his bones, as if, in his last life, he owed her, and in this life, he didn't dare to speak loudly in front of her. "Six, you sit closer, sit farther away, I'm having trouble talking." Liu Gen hurriedly moved the stool and sat down by the bed. "The sun and the moon are so fast. I didn't expect that it has been seven years. When you first came here, you wore a yellow military uniform, right? I remember it seemed to be, and it was patched, and it was blue." "That's right, it's the yellow uniform and the blue patch. You have a really good memory." Liu Gen was startled, she couldn't think of something so far away, and she could still remember it so clearly.For a moment, my heart was hot and sour.Sour and sour, I suddenly thought something was wrong.Why did she remember this?Could it be?Liu Gen was terrified, and said that when a person is dying, he would think of many things in a flash. His father was also like this at that time, remembering everything from the age of five.Liu Gen grabbed Zaohua's hand suddenly: "Zaohua, you can't..." He didn't say that word, he was too scared to say it. "Damn Liugen, what are you doing with me, throw it away, it hurts me." Zaohua shook Liugen's hand away with all her strength. When Liu Gen heard Zaohua's tone, he didn't feel like it. This woman is so magical that she scared me. The two continued to quarrel, from seven years ago to the present, and then back again, for a full hour, pulling out all the details.The six noses were sore, and I wanted to cry.这七年，六根不容易啊，老婆没了，爹没了，一个人两头跑。直到把丫头菊儿出嫁了，日子才渐渐稳定下来。可细想一下，那能叫日子么？ 六根眼里有了热，湿热，嗓子里拉了雾，说起话来，一咽儿一咽儿的。 枣花就笑：“你呀，都这岁数了，还娃儿一样，也不怕人笑话。” “想笑话你就笑话么。” 六根一句话，真就把枣花给逗笑了。死六根，老了老了性儿还跟娃子们一样哩。 再接下来，枣花就说起了正事。原来，刚才她拉六根说那些，都是个铺垫，是个过场，到了正题上，她忽就给严肃起来。 “六根啊，我想托你一件事，大事，你可得办好，成不？” “成，啥事也成，大事小事的，你只管托，我去做就是。” “你可得先应了我，这事你不揽，我不怪你。要是揽了，就得当回事。要是出了错，我可饶不了你！” “到底啥事么，你甭吓人好不？”六根真是被枣花这口气吓住了。 “你先应了我。” 六根想了想，重重点头。 枣花感激地瞥他一眼，这一眼，六根深深记住了，不只记住，还…… 枣花这才说：“这事儿我想了好久，也只有托给你我才放心。” 于是，在羊倌六根一副战兢兢的状态里，牛枣花将心里藏掖了许久，不敢轻易跟外人讲出的一个大秘密讲给了六根，她递给六根一串钥匙，很郑重地说：“这事儿，只有你知我知，千万不能讲出去，尤其跟玉音，你要是讲了，这辈子，你就是我的仇人。” 打省城回沙窝铺的路上，六根的心沉甸甸的，像是接受了多大一个使命，压得他一路都没敢张一回嘴，生怕嘴唇一开，那秘密就会自个儿跳出来。 沉啊。六根一辈子，哪受过这么重的托，哪让人这么信任过？脑子里晃儿悠儿的，闪的全是枣花跟另一个男人的事。 很朦胧，却又很清晰，只是，到现在，六根也不敢断定，他只是怀疑，只是按自个儿的猜想，给两个人做一个结局。 这结局，做起来真叫个难。 看见六根，尚立敏笑吟吟走过来：“回来了？” "came back." “钱给了没？” “给了。” “夸你了没？” “夸了。” “咋夸的？” “没咋夸。” “你这个人，没劲儿。手术呢，啥时做？” “就做。” “你中风了呀，问一句应两字儿，不能多说几句呀。” "cannot." "..." “六根，我说你没事吧，咋一趟省城回来，呆成个木头了？” “木头。” “小方，小方你快来，六根疯了。一准是心疼羊，心疼出病来了。” 等方励志闻声打树林里走出来，六根已木木地离开了沙梁子，走路的姿势木，袖手的姿势木，整个人，都木。 太阳更木。 “死羊倌，懒得操心你哩。”尚立敏丢下一句，忙她的去了。方励志盯住六根背影，望了许久，忽然就想，这人，怕不是把魂丢在省城了吧？ 六根没丢魂，真的没丢。日头爷彻底退出沙漠的时候，他喂了果果，果果就是那条狗，枣花的狗。自打枣花住院后，这狗一直跟着他。这狗也是可怜得很，以前，老远里望见六根，就要扑过来，不吠也要吠几声，有时还要恶恶地扑上几扑。自打主人进了医院，一下听话了，瞅见六根，老早就摇尾巴，摇得那个欢，让六根猛一下就能想到自个儿。世上万物，原本都是个贱命，一没人疼，没人撑腰，立马儿就贱了，不只贱，也可怜，恓惶得很。 六根心疼地捋了下果果的毛，果果瘦了，毛倒卷了起来。没办法，谁让它沦落到这地步哩。 就如自己，命甚至比这条狗的还贱。 乱想了一阵，六根起身，瞅了瞅沙漠，狗日的沙漠，这阵儿倒静了，静得很，没风，也没啥景致，就是一个黑。 黑好，黑好啊。六根叹着，往红木房子走。特意选择天黑，倒不是枣花安顿了的，是心虚，咋就这么心虚哩。妈妈日，活了大半辈子，都没心虚过，老婆跟心上人跑了，心也不虚，这阵，反倒心虚了。又不是做贼挖窟窿，虚个啥？六根不明白，真不明白，可就是心虚，没办法。只能选择天黑，天一黑，啥都遮了，掩了，就是有人想看，都看不着了。这么一想，六根踏实了，稍稍有些踏实。果果在他脚下伴着，畜牲就是畜牲，它才不心虚哩，一看往红木房子那边走，甩着腿儿就跑到了前面。妈妈日，她又没回来，你欢个啥？骂过，又觉自己恶毒了些，心虚能怪得了狗，嘿嘿，老了，真是老了，担不住事儿了。 “吱呀”一声，门开了，红木门每次打开，都会这么“吱呀”响一声。不过今儿夜，它“吱呀”得有点儿让人心惊，就跟贼偷着进人家院门一样。妈妈日，咋又把自个儿想成贼了，呸，不吉利。我六根一辈子光明磊落，啥时往贼上靠过？呸，呸呸。 六根呸着，脖子先探进了里面，院里静静的，一个声渣子也没。嗨，能不静么，这长时间没人住，不静由不得。这么想着，整个身子走进去。 一走进去，感觉就有些不像了。心不那么虚了，也不那么慌了，凭啥？他闻见了一股气息，女人的气息，嘿嘿，不怕人笑话，六根心里，是很想闻这股气息的，叫味儿也行，反正，是女人的。每次打五道梁子那边过来，闻见顺风卷过去的女人味儿，他心里就踏实，踏实得很。好像这沙漠，并不孤单，并不空旷，有那味儿，沙漠一下就实腾了，心实，眼实，啥都实。反正，有女人在，他就实腾。六根爱上沙窝铺，跟女人有很大关系哩。按尚立敏她们的话说，就是心里有了人。嘿嘿，心里有了人！ 黑毛的那驴儿驮松香 走上那个青阳道儿长 听说我的心上人有了病 哥哥我急得心抽风 称了那个三斤沙冰糖 我把我的心上人看上一场 马儿啊拴在了转槽上 鞭子呀那个挂在了腰上 左脚我踩在了门槛上 右脚我跨到了炕沿旁 我问我的心上人啥疼哩 啥也不疼就是想人哩 恍惚间，六根又觉自己给唱上了。其实没唱，这声音，一直就在红木房子四周飘着哩。飘了好些年，飘得它都跟红木房子一个颜色了。 果果已房上房下地蹿了一圈，又跳回了六根脚底下。 六根这才平定心气，进了院。其实院门上的钥匙他一直有，枣花往医院送那天，就把钥匙给了他，让他有空进院看看，甭让小偷给进来了。六根心想，就你这院子，跟我那间破房差不多，小偷能看上？还不够麻烦人家哩。再者，小偷眼下哪还敢往沙窝铺来啊。怕是没人知道，牛根实和黑狗几个做贼的事，就是六根偷偷跟公安报的案，公安答应他，不往外说。六根是气不过牛根实一家子，对谁狠也不能对自个儿亲妹妹狠，你狠，我就让你尝尝坐班房的味儿！ 六根心里乱想着，人已进了屋，就是平日枣花睡觉那间。这院共三间房，两间套着，一间单另，单另那间，放杂物，厨房在院外。六根对这里的一切，是再熟悉不过。不过今儿个，感觉却鲜鲜的，有那么一会儿，他甚至有种做主人的恍惚感，真带劲。 点亮油灯，六根按枣花叮嘱的那样去找那个小木箱。枣花说，小木箱放在床下，一个大纸箱，里面塞满了破衣服，衣服拿掉，就能看见它。“它可是我的宝啊，六根，你可不敢乱翻。让你拿的东西在箱子最上头，一张报纸包着。记住了，那上面的钱，你只能动一半，另一半，还给我存着。音儿还要念一年，将来找工作，成家，都要花钱。我这辈子，啥都没给她挣下，就指望能供她把书念完，有份安稳的工作，能找个可靠的人……” 一提起音儿，枣花的话就没边没际，反把要安顿的事儿给忘了。 也难怪，打小她就对音丫头好，日子久了，就跟母女一样。六根当时这么想。这阵儿，还这么想，不过想得已有几分勉强。 头刚钻床底下，果果就扑了过来，逮着贼似的汪汪直叫。害得六根又爬出来：“果果，你个没良心的，刚到自个儿家，就翻脸不认人。”果果像是才认得六根，仔细地围着他嗅半天，摇个尾巴，出去了。六根二番又爬进去。这宝贝也藏得真是地方啊，放这么里，也不怕老鼠给咬掉。 果然是个破纸箱子，六根费了好大劲儿，才将它拿出来，一看就是过去的老古董，以前装火柴的，那时候叫洋火，如今，早没这种纸箱了。这女人，一个破纸箱能用这么长时间，真会过日子。六根就这么胡乱想着，目的就是想把注意力尽量分散一下，不要太过于集中到这事上。这事可不是件小事，一个女人把她最最宝贝的东西交给你，让你翻腾，你说能是件小事？ 打开纸箱，油灯下映出的，真是破衣裳，奇怪得很，箱子虽放在最里头，又塞着破衣裳，居然没霉味。还清冽冽飘出一股淡香，女人就是女人，若要换上他，里面怕都长出毛了。六根这么嘲弄着自己，拿出衣裳，细一看，就有点儿惊讶了。 这衣裳居然不是女人的，一看就是那男人的，六根至今还记得，他来来往往在沙窝铺和冰草湾跑的那些个年，老郑头就穿这身衣裳。当时很体面的，怕是县上的干部都穿不起，老郑头居然穿着它在沙窝里种树，直让人心疼。六根对老郑头的不满，还是打这身衣裳开始的，没想，事过多年，人走了，衣裳却还干干净净放在这。 六根有片刻的失神，这两个人，到底啥关系呢？莫不会真的如沙湾人传的那样，会是明铺暗盖的那种吧？哟嘿嘿，想不成，不敢想。这事儿，还是最好甭想。 六根接着翻，外衣下面，是内衣，线裤线衣，还有一件马夹，六根也见过，是在正式到沙窝铺落脚后，老郑头就穿这马夹，还跟他喝酒哩。你个老郑头，有福啊，城里有女人，沙窝里也有，甭说别的，单就给你把衣裳藏这么好，这么干净，你也该知足，该知足呀—— 果果又进来了，汪汪叫了两声，一看六根拿着老郑头的衣裳，扑上来就抢。这畜牲，就跟他亲哩，活着时对他好，又摇头又摆尾的，死了，还是对他好。你瞅瞅它的样子，气人！ 六根还在犯酸，果果瞅准机会，猛一下叼了衣裳，跑了。到院里，大约是记起了什么，突然就呜呜起来。那是狗在哭哩，狗这东西，哭起来，比人伤心哩，伤心。 恍惚间，六根也觉自己眼里有了泪。 一连几天，尚立敏都跟江长明不说话。女人就是这样，麻烦。事情的起因还是孟小舟，孟小舟一直说要到点上来，说要亲自看看郑达远的实验基地，顺便将沙县跟五佛的治沙情况做番调研。听听，刚当上所长才几天，说话就不一样了，都成调研了。尚立敏耐心等着，她给孟小舟准备了一碟好菜，要他当着众人面吃下去。可是，这都等了两个多月，孟小舟连个鬼影子都没送到。 谁知那天江长明突然说：“你甭等了，人家早就出国了，眼下，正在美国几所大学做报告哩。” 尚立敏一听，脸立刻绿了：“猪啊，你到现在才告诉我。” “跟你说早了能顶啥用，你能拦住他？”这件事江长明也是一肚子的不开心，他没想到孟小舟这么快就急着往美国去，按他的估计，孟小舟再怎么也得撑过这个夏天，甚至秋天，谁知国际林业组织的责问信到了还没一周，那边就发来了邀请函。等江长明听到消息时，人家早已飞出了国门。为此，江长明问过周晓哲：“你就不怕他一去不回？”这话问得很尖锐，也带点儿挑衅。孟小舟要出国，自然得周晓哲批，相关责任，也得由周晓哲负，周晓哲对此不是不清楚。可是周晓哲说：“哪有那么严重，当专家，不跟外面交流咋行？再说了，发邀请函的，是国际林业组织下面一个机构，这机构我多少了解一点，又让林静然核实过，不会有啥问题。”江长明也知道该机构，他三年前去美国时，有人推荐他加入该机构，他婉拒了。回来才知道，孟小舟是该机构的理事会成员，该机构每年都要在这时候召开一次年会，孟小舟以这个理由去，周晓哲不能不批。不过他还是不安，换了一种谨慎的口气说：“眼下下面晒得火着，他置旱情不顾，扔下所里一大摊子事，去参加这个可参加可不参加的年会，怕是不妥吧？” 周晓哲理解江长明，或者说他懂得江长明的担忧在哪儿，但他不明说，这便是周晓哲的过人之处。要不然，他这个年龄，也不会到这位子上。见江长明还在固执，他笑着说道：“也不是说走了一个孟小舟，沙漠所的工作就不开展了。你那边，不是进展得很顺么。放心，所里还有不少同志，能顶得过去。” “但愿如此。”在周晓哲面前，江长明只能将话说到这份上，就这，他还要冒一定的风险。毕竟，他跟他，隔着好几层啊。要不是有林静然这层关系，怕是见周晓哲一面，都很难。 但，一回到沙窝铺，江长明就成了另种看法。这看法不只是对孟小舟心存怀疑，关键，还在“达远三代”。如果孟小舟真的不择手段，抢先一步将“达远三代”的资料公布出去，换成他那个“腾格里沙王”，以后的事，怕是更正起来就很麻烦。所以他催促尚立敏：“手头的工作抓紧点儿，别整天像没事人一样，嘻嘻哈哈。” “我怎么抓紧，资料都让姓孟的骗走了，你让我也学那个周正虹，瞎编啊。”尚立敏也不知从哪打听到的消息，说郑达远去世前，大约是今年三月份，跟孟小舟有过一次比较隐秘的接触，这次接触居然是沙沙安排的。而孟小舟那篇引起争鸣的学术论文，发表时间是五月初。尚立敏据此断定，就是那次，孟小舟将郑达远的研究成果还有“达远三代”的资料拿走了。 “他完全可以光明正大拿走，别忘了，他是这个课题的第二主持人，他享有全部知情权。这就是漏洞，沙漠所最大的漏洞。干事的永远在干事，不干事的永远在投机。”尚立敏几乎是在吼了。 江长明很不客气地说道：“就算人家拿走，也是老师同意了的，你犯什么急？” “同意？他要是给郑老下套，郑老能躲过？亏你还是郑老的弟子，枉把你培养了一场。” “你这什么话，咬谁就咬谁，干吗乱咬人？” “我就咬！你们这些大小当个官的，都在为自己想，没一个为所里着想。”尚立敏近乎说起了混话，以前在所里，她没少说这种混话。 “尚立敏，说话要负责任的，别以为你是女同志，我就能原谅你。” “不原谅咋的？不爱听是不是，说到你疼处了是不？江长明，不瞒你说，我对沙漠所这一亩三分地，早就待腻了。什么科研机构，什么学术单位，都他妈骗人的。这儿是江湖，你们的江湖！” 江长明真的被刺痛了，很痛，他忍了几忍，终于没忍住，以更歇斯底里的方式吼：“你以为我爱待啊，告诉你，我比你更痛恨！” “痛恨？简直是笑话，是想安慰我吧？你要是痛恨，好几次我在会上声嘶力竭，你为啥不站出来支持我？！” 江长明忽然就给无言了。尚立敏虽是在说气话，但她说的是事实。多少次，尚立敏还有几个被所里公认为刺儿头的，在会上公开质疑沙漠所的体制，质疑科研成果的不公正不透明，质疑课题组的不合理性，他都默默地缩在墙角，充当看客。现在他终于感受到，这种不公正带来的危害性的确是可怕的，很可怕。 可那时候，为什么就不能站出来支持一把呢？ 尚立敏后来嘲笑他：“当时你是为了出国名额，生怕惹恼了龙九苗还有孟小舟，出国的事就会泡汤。现在你在国外碰了壁，想回国重新确立你的专业地位，没想这把剑第一个伤着了你。你也痛吧，我的江大主任，江大专家。” 面对撕起他人脸面来毫不留情的尚立敏，江长明忽然泄气地瘫坐在沙地上。不过两个人不说话并不是因了这次吵架，吵就吵了，谁也没往心里去。可孟小舟出国的事，尚立敏却坚决不原谅江长明。“好啊，你是怕我知道了会去闹是不？告诉你江长明，我当然会去闹，我会让他走不成！可我真是小看了你，你竟也学会替别人隐瞒了，学会官官相护了。是不是觉得我一闹，你这课题组长的面子就没了？还是怕孟小舟穿小鞋给你？你让我太失望，知道不，你让我看不起！” 这个疯子！江长明认定这女人是疯了，才来沙漠两个月，就憋疯了，一天不咬人，就不舒服！孟小舟啥时走的，我都不知道，凭什么就说是官官相护？罢，罢罢罢，跟这个疯子，没法解释。 结果，他越不解释，尚立敏就认为自己说的越是真理。两个人，就这么僵着。这都僵了快十天了，还是不解冻，看着人着急。 这边还没打破僵局，尚立敏跟羊倌六根，也给闹僵了，僵得还很有意思。 事情是那天晚上引起的，就是六根在红木房里找东西那晚。如今的尚立敏，外表上依旧泼辣豪放，内心，却明显静了下来，不只静，有时，她把自己强迫到一种孤独里，那种孤独是别人看不到的，对她自己，却压迫很深。 一个看似对什么也不在乎的女人，她心里，却装着整个世界，一旦内心跟这个世界产生强烈的抵触，她的苦难，便也因此而降临。 怎么说呢，她开始变得像一只狼，彻夜地、几近疯狂地，在这个冷漠的沙漠里踱来踱去。 她说她控制不了自己。 她说她被暴躁和烦怒燃烧着，快要烧死了，可她不想冷下来，还想烧。 那就烧吧。反正，这个世界上，我们每个人都得拥有一种方式，一种发泄自己内心的方式，更是一种抵抗方式。抵抗什么呢，说不清，反正总觉要有东西抵抗，而且必须抵抗。 你不抵抗，它就会趁势把你吞噬掉，毁灭或是淹没，那你将跟行尸一般，很可怕。 这个夜晚，尚立敏照样在沙漠里奔走，她必须走，不能停下来。一旦驻足，顿然就觉身上没了力气，真的没。她害怕这种疾走，更怕停。她想不通自己为什么会变成这样，就跟想不通她为什么当初会那样，多好的一个人呐，咋就跟这个世界，跟这个所谓的团体格格不入呢？Oh shit!她骂了一声。只有骂，才能让她轻松，才能让她找到些许的平衡。她从三道梁子奔到五道梁子，感觉奔错了方向，又奔回来，原又站到三道梁子。还