Chapter 30 Chapter Thirty

That night, Hu Yang invited Tingting, Ye Fei and Sisi to have dinner together.He is too depressed, he can only get rid of the sadness and resentment deep in his heart by calling the people in his circle together and talking about what is in his heart. During the banquet, he seldom ate food, but only drank alcohol. Xie Tingting was afraid that he would drink too much, so she grabbed the bottle and said lovingly: "You can't be too selfish, you only know how to drink for yourself, and don't care about us. If you want to drink, you have to drink it together after we have eaten a little."

Hu Yang smiled wryly and said, "Okay, okay, eat the vegetables, eat the vegetables." Then he moved his chopsticks. Seeing his gloomy look, Ye Fei said: "Forget it, think about it, don't take the officialdom too seriously. Being an official is a moment of glory, and your writing will last forever. You have left the FM station. How good it is to write more articles in a large chunk of time, it is both famous and profitable, why not do it?" Xie Tingting also took advantage of this and said: "Brother Ye is right, if I have a literary talent like yours, I would like to find a leisurely position at work, so that I can have time to write my own articles."

Hu Yang sighed and said: "What you said is not wrong, the truth is the same. However, people can't help themselves in the Jianghu. Once a person enters the officialdom and is deprived of power, the feeling is as pure It is different if you have never been in the officialdom. Although I am not a serious official, at least I have worked alone for a while. I have put my talent and hard work into my career. After the tree is planted, others go to pick the fruit to eat, this kind of humiliation and loss is hard to imagine for people who have not experienced this kind of trauma.” As he said, he grabbed the wine glass in front of Xie Tingting and drank it with a “slip”.

Ye Fei said: "Don't be too bourgeois, okay, what kind of humiliation, sense of loss, in fact, there are not so many feelings, even if there is, it is self-inflicted, you are the one who is asking for trouble. In fact, you both If you want to maintain the aloofness of an intellectual, but also want to understand in the officialdom, there is no such thing as the best of both worlds waiting for you in the world? If you want to survive in the officialdom, you must first completely change yourself, You have to betray yourself completely, you have to adapt to that kind of officialdom environment, you have to learn to be like a dog, you have to be servile and humble, and you have to wag your tail. These are not enough, but you have to pay tribute in time and put you Take out the silver taels that you saved from living and frugal on weekdays, and give them to the dogs who care about you. If you do this and work so hard, they leave you alone, and you are indeed wronged. If you don’t do this, you also If you don’t want to do this, even if you want to complain, you have no reason to complain, and you are not qualified to complain, because your dominant thinking is originally wrong, and this result is inevitable, and you have no right to complain Man, there's no reason why you can't figure it out."

As soon as Ye Fei finished speaking, Xie Tingting was full of praise: "Although Brother Ye is a businessman, I didn't expect to have such a deep understanding of today's officialdom. It's really high-sounding, high-sounding." Sisi said with some restraint: "It's so deep and it's really serious." Hu Yang said: "Whether it is deep or high-level, Ye Feiye knows me. Come, let's drink together for this depth and high-level theory!" Xie Tingting poured wine for everyone, and everyone toasted and drank their own wine together. Hu Yang breathed a sigh of relief and said: "Drinking this glass of wine, my heart seems to be much smoother. Maybe Ye Fei is right. I didn't join the ranks of dogs to grab the bone, so the bone couldn't fall off." into the hands of men."

Ye Fei smirked and said: "Actually, a person with a high IQ like you shouldn't waste his life in the struggle between you and me in the official career. If someone appreciates you and wants to promote you, you You don’t have to be humble. You don’t dare to forget the country’s worries when you are humble, and you just use your intelligence and talents to serve the party and the country. If no one reuses you, you should reuse yourself. For example, like me, I awakened earlier , It also takes a lot of advantage. However, Brother Hu Yang is not too late. You can do your own private work while you are working, such as writing articles you like and earning a little money. How wonderful!

Hu Yang said: "Now I am too lazy to do anything, and I am too lazy to write articles. Last time I wrote a reportage that reflected the increasing dropout rate of children from poor rural families. I wanted to tell the truth for the common people. It aroused the attention of relevant parties. Unexpectedly, as soon as the article was published, it was severely criticized by relevant leaders in the city, saying that I exposed the dark side of society, exaggerated the backwardness one-sidedly, and had a bad impact on Yindu City. Said my My eyes are always fixed on the problem and the backward side, and I can’t see the great situation of reform and opening up, and I can’t see the advanced figures and advanced deeds that emerged first in industrial and agricultural production. What’s more, some people took the opportunity to slander me, saying that I am a People are mentally unhealthy, so they can’t see healthy things. I didn’t expect this article to attract one million investment funds to Liugou Village, which calmed down those chattering noises.”

Ye Fei said: "The more backward the place, the more closed it is. This is the virtue. The more you cover up your ugliness, the more lawful your ugliness. You are always used to reporting good news but not worrying. Even if they are seeking truth from facts when they are worried, they always feel uncomfortable. So, in the future, you should stop writing such socially-focused articles, write poetry and prose, play chess, cultivate your mind, how good it is, why bother people?" Hu Yang said: "It is reasonable to say that Chinese literati are most aware of urgency and political enthusiasm. When the environment is not favorable, they will have two behaviors. One is to take the world as their responsibility and fight against reality. It’s escaping from reality and not talking about state affairs. Since you can’t fight, it’s better to evade reality. Why not be happy when you’re in the unit and in seclusion. Bai Juyi once called this method “Zhongyin” and wrote a poem:

The big hermit lives in the morning market, and the small hermit lives in Qiufan. It's better to be hidden in the middle, hidden in the official. It seems to come and go, it is neither busy nor idle. Not laborious and hard, but also free from hunger and cold. There is no official business all the year round, and a salary is paid every month. Whether it is a big hermit, hiding in the long streets and busy streets, with cart drivers and pulp sellers, or a small hermit in the mountains, forests and springs, making friends with farmers and old people, all kinds of hard work, food, clothing, hunger and cold are unavoidable.Only Zhongyin is the most carefree.From now on, it's really not bad to live a leisurely life like old Bai Juyi is hiding in Luoyang. "

Xie Tingting said: "I'm afraid you are just saying that. Your character determines that you will always be a realistic protester." Hu Yang said: "Reality is the best teacher. After tempering, the edges and corners on the head are gone. If you don't want to be mediocre, you have to be mediocre." After such a chat, the atmosphere at the table gradually became more relaxed, and the wine became more and more delicious. Before he knew it, he had already finished two bottles. Hu Yang felt that he was not satisfied and wanted to drink, but Tingting stopped him. Hu Yang said, "This is so boring."

Xie Tingting said: "I'll take you to an exciting place so that you can relax." Sisi said, "Where is it?" Xie Tingting said, "How about the place we went to last time?" Sisi said: "Okay, let's go to that place. Let these two stinky men feel the new fashion." Ye Fei said, "Where is it? You two are very good." Sisi said, "I won't tell you, but you will know when it arrives." After getting in the car, Sisi sat next to Ye Fei to guide the way, while Hu Yang, who was sitting in the back row, lay on his back on the backrest and panted heavily.Xie Tingting touched his forehead and asked if he had drunk too much.Hu Yang grabbed her hand and rubbed it together and said, not much, this little wine is nothing.Xie Tingting said that when she was tired, she would lie down and rest for a while, and then took Hu Yang's head into her arms.Hu Yang felt hot, and said from the bottom of his heart, Tingting, you are so kind, without you, maybe I would collapse from now on.Xie Tingting patted him on the shoulder like a mother coaxing a child and said, no, a strong man like you will never collapse. After about ten minutes, the destination arrived.When the two men saw the place, they realized that it was a disco called Yiren.Ye Fei said, I thought you were going to invite the two of us gentlemen to take a sauna, but who knew it was to dance disco.Sisi said, it's a good idea, the lady has found you all, and you can go to the sauna.Hu Yang said, there is no need to look for a lady, you two ladies are enough.We can't bear more.Xie Tingting pinched his arm and said, who is Miss, we are not Miss.Hu Yang exclaimed and said, "Okay, okay, you are either young ladies or wives, one is Mrs. Ye, and the other is... Hu Yang was at a loss for words for a while, so Sisi asked, tell me, tell me, where is the other one?"Hu Yang said, dare I say it?It's hard to say that I'm afraid of being pinched again. While joking, they got out of the car and walked towards the disco.Ye Fei said, this is where the ruffians go, so it might not be suitable for us to go, right?Sisi said, don't be arrogant, you'll know when you go, there are plenty of men your age.Hu Yang waved his hand and said, let him go, go in and have a look first, if it is not good, then retreat. Entering the disco, suddenly, the strong sound of disco music, the swaying red, green and green lights, the long and short fat, thin and thin men and women who twisted their waists, and the high and low, large and small platforms, all of a sudden. Zizi put them irresistibly into this atmosphere. They asked for a small table, ordered a few snacks and drinks, listened to the provocative music, admired the men and women intoxicated on the platform, felt a little itchy in their hearts, and consciously or unconsciously produced a feeling The desire to wiggle. Although Hu Yang came to this kind of occasion for the first time, he had heard about it a long time ago. He heard that several discos like this had opened in Yindu a few years ago, because most of the consumers here were ten-year-olds. Young people in the next year, people in their thirties who are about to enter middle age like him are embarrassed to join in the fun.Today's patronage made him suddenly feel that time is fleeting and the scenery is gone. In Yindu, people of different ages, identities and classes have different consumption places.Generally speaking, people who often go in and out of bowling halls, karaoke halls and sauna centers are pleasure seekers from powerful groups with power, wealth, status and status, and those who go in and out of various discos are young mass consumer groups .Those who listen to music and chat in the bar room belong to the level of the working class, or men and women in love.Those who drink tea and listen to Qin Opera in the tea garden, or only listen to Qin Opera without drinking tea, are mostly retired old people and migrant workers from other places.A considerable part of this group that often goes in and out of dance halls is the so-called "city hunters". Whether they are old men, young women, or young men and old women, they all use the eyes of hunters to find prey among the opposite sex. Go hunting.And the person who is called the prey is not the hunter?They are also hunters, because when others want to get her, she is also getting others.They are such a group, looking for deals in this so-called dark dance hall for the purpose of sex and money.Generally speaking, old men have a fixed income or have just retired. Their goal is to target girls in their twenties who don't have a proper job. They can catch each other with a little favor.And these little girls are targeting this guy, or they are targeting the contents of their pockets.In this way, one is willing to fight and the other is willing to suffer, and the transaction becomes inevitable.And those 30-year-old and nearly 40-year-old restless old ladies are staring at those young men in their twenties. Once they catch their eyes, they will attack with no less force than old men. Little girls, they don’t stop until the other party is caught. Most of them have a certain monthly salary, and they save part of their lives to support the young man.And these old girls are never ashamed of it. On the contrary, when they get together, they often show off to each other and are often proud of it.This forces those women who are ambitious but not courageous to try their luck, so the ecological balance has been trampled and destroyed wantonly in the ballroom, and those young men and women in pairs and Chinese in pairs On the contrary, there are fewer old men and women, but there are many pairs of old men, young women, old women and young men.Uncover the inside story of urban nightlife, where sex and transactions are everywhere, entertainment and culture are just a symbol floating in the flickering neon lights. Hu Yang thought about this, and felt that the nightlife in the city really had a lot to write about.He thought that he should study it seriously and write something of weight, so that he would not be in vain to bear the name of a cultural person. At the end of the song, Sisi and Xie Tingting couldn't bear it any longer. When the music started again, they dragged Ye Fei and Hu Yang to the stage together.At first Hu Yang felt a little awkward, but when he entered the atmosphere of that music, he couldn't help but wriggled along with the rhythm. Although that kind of music is strong and powerful, Hu Yang always feels that there is something pathetic in it.Therefore, when dancing and twisting with the rhythm, it seems that the depression and resentment accumulated deep in my heart have been vented and released.He jumped and twisted desperately, sweating profusely from his twisting, dancing heartily.He was completely melted by this atmosphere. He felt that he was not playing disco, but hitting someone. He hit Tian Zhenjun, Fang Xiaowei, that punch, that kick.It is full of strength everywhere, and every time it goes down, it weighs a thousand catties.He wished he could smash them into meatloaf with one punch, and turn them into mud with one kick.At this moment, he met Xie Tingting inadvertently. He suddenly saw crystal teardrops on Xie Tingting's cheeks, which looked very dazzling under the neon lights.He was surprised, why was she crying?Why is she crying?