Chapter 49 Four, dream

Yang Na was very excited when she got home, we haven't been together for a long time, it's the so-called Xiaobiesai newlyweds.After we washed, Yang Na lay tenderly in my arms, her eyes sparkling with joy.Looking at my wife's snow-white skin, I couldn't help but kiss her. Yang Na is so happy tonight, like a fountain, she can't stop moaning.I seem to be flying in the clouds.Two people are like two fires fused together, rushing to the peak of light together.We floated and floated, and finally melted into the sky.I'm tired.Yang Na also fell asleep gently, she slept soundly and sweetly.I was thinking about it in my dream.

It was already three o'clock in the middle of the night, and the cold white light of the moon shone directly into the window.My whole body was filled with some strange thoughts.I dreamed that Li Guofan and Zhang Guochang were drinking together in a private room.This private room floats in the air.The private room was brightly illuminated by the moonlight, and Chen Jianxiang and I stood behind pouring wine for Li Guofan and Zhang Guochang respectively.The wine was black with white smoke.The eyes of the two were like bullets shot into the chest, and the conversation was like a sharp knife pierced into the chest.

"Guochang, how does the wine made from the soul taste?" Li Guofan asked viciously. "Brother Li, is it brewed with your and my soul?" Zhang Guochang also asked coldly. "It's the soul of a corrupt official." "So it's black, what happens if we drink it?" "Good medicine is bitter! Guochang, do you hate me for making you like this?" "What should come will come, what should not come will not come, I hate my soul!" "Yes, no matter how big the tree is, if the roots are rotten, the wind will blow it down." I have seen and heard big trees being blown down by the wind.I remember that when Yang Na and I first got married, we lived in a small one-story house in the Civil Aviation Compound. This small one-story house was a two-story building with a flat roof.I used to climb on the roof and tinker with the TV antenna.In front of the house, there are dozens of big poplar trees that can only be hugged by two people.When I got married and first moved here, these dozens of big trees were lush and lush.In addition to dozens of big poplar trees in front of the bungalow, there is also a family room of the air force.For the convenience of drying clothes, the family members tied them with iron wires between two big trees. Over time, the wires broke the bark of the trees, and the big tree died. I walked by the big poplar every day and never observed it. life and death.

One summer at noon, it was unbearably hot and there was no wind. I rode my bicycle and went home with a big watermelon in my hand.She was seven or eight months pregnant, and she had a big belly. Seeing that it was inconvenient for me to get out of the car with a big watermelon in my hand, she came over to help me. She took the big watermelon in my hand. I locked the bicycle and walked into the door. The two of us As soon as we walked in, we heard a loud bang like the sky falling apart. We were terrified and thought there was an earthquake, but it turned out that a big dead poplar tree fell and hit the roof of the bungalow.I was stunned. If I walked a little later, the consequences would be disastrous.I suddenly felt the fear of nature that people in ancient times had. Later, the army sent more than a dozen soldiers to saw the big poplar tree for a day before carrying it away.

My father once told me that when he was a child, there was a century-old willow tree outside the west courtyard wall of his grandma’s house, with its luxuriant branches and leaves covering most of the courtyard.One day, there was a sudden heavy rain, lightning and thunder, and strong winds. Finally, the century-old willow tree fell down and smashed down the west courtyard wall. The family members sawed off the tree and repaired the courtyard wall.A few years later, another willow tree grew from the root of the old willow tree, which everyone called magical.After a while, my father grew up, and one year when he came home from college for the summer vacation, there was a storm again, and the willow tree that had grown for more than ten years fell to the courtyard wall again. The wind snapped.After a few years, the willow tree grew again. The last time I went back to my hometown to visit my uncle in Beixindian, and visited my grandma’s grave, I took a special look at the willow tree that had gone through vicissitudes, and asked my uncle to take a photo with the willow tree.

Li Guofan said that no matter how big a tree is, if its roots are rotten, the wind will blow it down.The big poplar tree in front of my house had rotten roots, and it also fell to the ground when there was no wind that day.The big willow tree outside the west courtyard wall of my grandmother's house has not rotted roots, so no matter what storms destroy it, it will spring up like mushrooms after rain.Li Guofan and Zhang Guochang are like that big poplar tree, they are completely dead, and they are drinking bitter wine brewed with their souls in the underworld. is healthy, so I will definitely get back on my feet.

I suddenly realized that the soul comes from the sun, the soul comes from the air, the soul comes from the ocean, and the soul comes from the mountains.In fact, the soul comes from nature. The soul is the new leaves in the dense forest, the gurgling spring water flowing from the crevices of the green cliffs, the laughter of spring rain moistening things, the refreshing meditation of autumn clouds, the river of flowers, and the sea and sky. Blending eternity... I poured another glass of soul wine for Zhang Guochang. "Guochang," Li Guofan confessed, "God must know what we have done in our pain. Our hearts are too stubborn."

"Brother Guofan, we no longer have a soul. The soul is the patent of the living. When we die, we only have the soul." "Aren't heart and soul the same thing?" Li Guofan asked in amazement. "We lost our lives because we mistook the difference between heart and soul." "Then what is the mind? What is the soul?" Li Guofan asked painfully. "The mind is the core part of the human spiritual realm. It lives and dies with the body, exists with the existence of the body, and dies with the demise of the body. The soul comes from religious fantasy and is the existence after the demise of the body. It depends on God. , Shakyamuni, Allah, Buddha of Infinite Life."

"Guochang, I didn't expect you to be a philosopher. In fact, the real judge is God, Sakyamuni, Allah, and Amitayus." I listened to the conversation between the two people as a kind of confession. In fact, I don’t understand God. I only know that the Buddha’s original intention is to be an awakened person. Can people awaken after death?Since the soul exists after death, the soul itself is an awakening. The sky gradually brightened, and the images of Li Guofan and Zhang Guochang gradually blurred. They laughed and disappeared, waving and throwing two yellow streamers.Chen Jianxiang and I each picked up one.I saw "Official Talisman" written on my yellow streamer.I don't know what is written on Chen Jianxiang's streamer.Two policemen in full armor came up, grabbed the yellow ribbon from his hand, tied it to him and escorted him away.

A woman's laughter came from the sky, and with the laughter, the woman said loudly: "Leimo, this guy is my horse, and he slipped down to the mortal world while I was asleep." As soon as the words fell, Chen Jianxiang turned into a unicorn, and the two policemen turned into two red boys holding long guns. The woman left behind a string of silver bell-like laughter.