Chapter 6 Six, ugly girl

That was the result of my online chat.She is a girl from Beijing. She is a graduate student majoring in screenwriting at the Shanghai Theater Academy. Her online name is "Watching You in the Rye".My net name is "Mouse Loves Rice". We chatted online for more than a month, almost every day for an hour or two, and several times we chatted all night.The girl's quality is very high, she knows a lot from all over the world, and her views are profound and simple.Chatting with her is very clean, there is a sense of purification.Because she is a graduate student majoring in screenwriting, I even learned a lot of screenwriting knowledge from her online.

"I am using modern narratology theory to intervene in the research of TV drama art." She said in a professional tone. "Is this your master's thesis?" I asked. "Yes, this research is very difficult, because there is no ready-made theory for reference in TV dramas." "What questions do you want to answer in your TV drama narrative research?" "This is a meaningful theoretical entry. TV dramas are narrative art. What kind of story to tell, how to tell a story, how to tell a story movingly, there are several ways to tell a story. This should be the focus of TV drama creation. It is also a question that theoretical research should answer.”

I don't know why I can talk to her about so many TV dramas, maybe out of curiosity, maybe because of her influence, I almost became interested in writing TV dramas.In fact, the so-called chat is communication, and it is a kind of spiritual communication. Through this communication, it is easy to understand the inner world of the other party. "Do you know what love is?" She suddenly asked me online one day. "Love is when one person always thinks about another person in his heart." I replied casually. "I'm always thinking of someone right now! What about you?"

I understood what she meant, but I didn't answer because I'm a family man and I'm in trouble again. "I'm going to Dongzhou to meet you, okay?" I hesitated and agreed again and again.I think it's good to meet each other, maybe we can keep a friendship.She first sent her photos from the Internet.To be honest, I don't want to go to the airport after seeing the photos. The "Watching You in the Rye" in the photos is too ugly.Then I thought about it, he was just a friend, beauty and ugliness had nothing to do with it, besides, a man kept his word, and if he promised to pick him up at the airport, he couldn't break his word.

When I saw her at the airport, I wasn't too disappointed. The girl's dress was impeccable, and her speech and demeanor revealed the natural background of a Beijing girl and the unique elegance of a Shanghai girl.This is a girl who is not outstanding in appearance, but has fair skin, elegant temperament and good taste.A stylish bag slung over one shoulder and a copy of Charlotte?Bronte's seems to tell me that Jane Eyre is just an ugly young girl, but she walked into life perfectly through love. I picked up the luggage under her feet, feeling a little ashamed.Apparently, my image was exactly what she imagined, and she was very happy, as if she had known me for a long time.

I drive a car.She looked at the fields outside the window and kept feeling.She is a bit like a poetess, and she speaks very politely.Along the way, she looked at me with admiring eyes, like a lover who has been in love for a long time. I got her a room at the hotel.After she took a break, I treated her to dinner.I still think she's kind of ugly, so cute, so elegant. "What's your real name?" I asked jokingly. "My name is Su Chou'er." "Su Chou'er!?" The name made me laugh out loud. "I was born ugly, so my mother named me that." After hearing this, I felt that Ugly was pitiful. As soon as Ugly was born, God began to deprive her of the right to love beauty. This is too unfair to an educated woman.I patted her shoulder sympathetically.She is emotional.

"Brother Lei, no man has ever patted me on the shoulder." I ignore it.Looking at the elegant and lovely Chou'er, I thought of a sentence: "When you are ugly to the extreme, you are extremely beautiful." I observed that Chou'er was far from the extreme, but I seemed to feel that Chou'er had loved me for a long time. I took her back to her room to rest in the middle of the night.She intends to keep me.I pretended not to understand, said good night, and left in a hurry. The street lights at night are like ghosts, and I drive like I am traveling through hell.I reflected on why I was empty. I was implicated by Zhang Guochang, so I should be a victim, but the reality is cruel, and no one sympathizes with me. Maybe an empty life is closer to reality. At this time, my emptiness is like a wild horse without rein. Both justice and nobility can't hold it, which is probably the tragedy of morality.I went home and drank a can of beer in one gulp.Facing the dark room alone, lying on the lonely bed, I thought of Michelle and Chou'er.

I had a dream, I was with Michelle and Chouer respectively, my wife Yang Na was in pain in the corner, I gasped numbly, the street lamps just now turned into ghosts again.The ghost entered my room and made a loud noise. "Leimo, Zhang Guochang is dead, you are his soul, and you have five brothers, named Jinmu, Water, Fire, and Earth." The ghost said with claws and teeth. "Who am I? What's my name?" I asked in confusion and pain. "Your name is Oracle, and you are the future king. Do you want to be the future king?" the ghost said seductively. "What's so good about the future king?" I asked disdainfully.

"Freedom to think, don't you like freedom to think?" said the ghost through my veins. "Freedom and thought, good king!" I was seduced. "Then endure the torments of hellfire!" said the ghost, laughing. The ghosts turned into sparks.I was burned, turned into a stone, and thrown into the deserted wilderness, enduring the torment of spring, summer, autumn and winter.One day a craftsman took a fancy to me and carved it on my body.I was in so much pain that I woke up screaming. During the day the next day, I didn't go to see Chou'er, because people from the Provincial Commission for Discipline Inspection wanted to talk to me, so I turned off my mobile phone for a whole day.Chou'er didn't know the troubles that happened to me, she thought I was deliberately ignoring her, and left Dongzhou sadly.

I thought this matter was over like this, and Chouer would never come again, but I didn’t expect to see a message from "Watching You in the Rye" on the Internet: "Although I am ugly, I am not frivolous. I feel that you are an extraordinary man through chatting, and I am very attractive. I went to Dongzhou to get to know you better. I am a bachelor, but I don't want to be a virgin all my life , you are the man I have been looking for for a long time, please accept me. I will go to Dongzhou again, this time I don’t need you to pick me up, I will notify you when I arrive.” I looked at the computer screen in amazement, this is really a strange woman.

People from the Provincial Commission for Discipline Inspection kept asking me to verify Zhang Guochang's affairs. That was the most painful period for me, and every word involved a lot of people's wealth and lives.During that time, I was very tired of answering the phone.Yang Na's calls from the United States are always in the middle of the night, so I don't answer the calls at home during the day, and the mobile phone is basically turned off. I learned from the Internet that Chouer went to Dongzhou and lived in the Sichun Pavilion Hotel.I went to see Chouer at night.I wanted to invite her to dinner, but when I entered the room, I found her naked body in the short nightgown Ugly was wearing. I realized that this girl wanted to play for real. "Chou'er, you delivered this to the wolf yourself." I said brazenly. "How do you know I'm a sheep?" Chou'er asked without showing any weakness... Parting is sad, and tears are the fallen leaves of the soul.I thought to myself, wearing tears with eyelashes is the necklace of life.When I left, I gave her a toy pig.She smiled and took out a toy fish from her bag and gave it to me. "This pig is really like you, it doesn't know how a fish feels!" Chou'er said softly. I know that there are two kinds of animals in the world, painful people and happy pigs. I feel like a pig now. Some people say that happiness is being a happy pig. How can a pig understand the feeling of a fish? Chou'er is a fish, but somehow met me, a pig. This is probably the fate of the previous life.The fate of a fish like me and Chouer meeting a pig is only due to this ordeal in my life.Love is born spontaneously in this unconscious. After Chou'er left, I really missed her.But Chou'er has never heard from her since then, and I can't find her anywhere on the Internet. When calling, the mobile phone was turned off at first, and then became an empty number.I completely lost touch with Chouer.