Chapter 11 self-deception

I drank eighteen altars back and forth, until Huarong's grandson fell to his death on a horse, and then he was satisfied! I was very happy and felt light all over. It turns out that I am also so smart.People, you always have to find some excuses for yourself. Even if you can't deceive others, you can at least deceive yourself.Some people say that I am deceiving myself and others, but who in this world is not deceiving myself?Many lies are just that we don't know, or we know but pretend not to know. When you are in love, you say you want to love each other for a lifetime, but a lifetime is very long, and there are too many temptations, who will be loyal to the end?Who will guard his body like a jade?

When we were serving in the imperial court, we ran amok in the countryside, exploiting the people, domineering, we were obviously the lords, but we lied to ourselves that we were servants; later we forced ourselves into Liangshan, robbed houses, murdered and set fires, and extorted money. We were originally robbers, but we lied to ourselves Said it was doing justice for the heavens... Sometimes, you have to believe some lies, because you always have to give yourself a reason to live.People always live in different circles, think they are right, laugh at each other, despise each other, and thus continue to have disputes.

I think, I'm very drunk. I always think of a lot of things when I'm drunk.Some people say that a perfect life is when you were born, you were crying and others were smiling; when you left, you were smiling and others were crying. In this way, Chao Tianwang's life should not be considered complete. I was beside the bed when he was dying. He didn't smile, his mouth was wide open, and the corners of his eyes were white, like a dying catfish. The veins on the upper body are bursting, one after another. The brothers were stunned aside, at a loss, Brother Song reacted quickly, stretched out his hand to grab Tian Wang's hands, and shouted: "Tian Wang, I am here, I am here." The four hands were entangled, like noodles in boiling water, Up and down, it took a long time before it subsided.I thought, Chao Tianwang's strength is really great, Brother Song's face turned purple, like a purple eggplant.

That scene was so touching, many brothers cried, and I was moved to cry too. I scolded myself for being narrow-minded while crying. I thought Chao Tianwang stretched out his hand to strangle Brother Song, because that hand was clearly aimed at Song. Big brother's neck was gone, but now it seems that Chao Tianwang should be delusional.My life didn't seem to be very satisfactory. When I left, I wondered if anyone would cry, but I know that no one laughed when I was born. At that time, the midwife called "monster" and passed out.