Chapter 31 lost face

She is coming. She just wanted to take a look at the city and that person. This is a city full of signs.Now the city is full of signs, colorful signs, and then walls.The roads extend in all directions and are noisy everywhere. Cars pass by the road "day, day", bicycles flow back and forth like rivers, the shop windows are full of bright colors, and the streets are full of human faces... But in her In his eyes, there are only walls, and his eyes are full of walls.People are walls, and roads are also walls.Sometimes, while walking, I hit the "wall".You look at me, I look at you, that person is like fake, skinny, indifferent and strange.Occasionally, there are some kinder ones who nod their heads and point you in the direction, but they are still strangers.

Yes, in this city, she only knew one person, but that person no longer knew her. However, on an overpass, she was unexpectedly stopped by someone.It was a middle-aged man, who approached her enthusiastically, and said to her abruptly, "Big girl, you have something on your mind." She felt a "thump" in her heart and stopped.The man glanced at her, then looked at her again, and said very secretly: "You have something to do. You have something to worry about. Let me show you a picture." Liu Hanxiang raised his head and looked at him silently. This man's hair was disheveled, He was wearing a very wrinkled suit, and one of the trouser legs was rolled up... The man repeated: "Look at the picture, I can break it for you." But Liu Hanxiang smelled something all at once, it was Something so familiar, something sour.She said, "I don't look at faces." As she spoke, she walked forward.But the man kept chasing after her, pestering her and saying, "Look. You have something to do. Look at the five yuan." Liu Hanxiang stopped again, and she looked at the man, still silently.The man looked at her, stunned for a moment, his eyes wandered, he muttered a few words, then suddenly turned around and left, submerged in the sea of ​​people all of a sudden.Liu Hanxiang knew that this was not a stupid person, he understood her eyes, of course he knew what she said.This is like a "code word" for the joint, her eyes told him that they are all country people, so don't lie to yourself anymore.Of course, some words were pressed down below, and she didn't "speak".If she made it clearer, she would tell him that if you could see through people's fate, see through people's life and death, if you could really predict the future, you would not be like this... But she didn't say anything.

After getting off the overpass, she hadn't gone far when she was stabbed suddenly.On the side of the bustling road, she saw a black hand.That hand was shaking like chicken feet, tremblingly shaking a small porcelain bowl... people were moving, hands were trembling, but there was no money in the bowl, for a long time, no one had thrown a bowl into this bowl Penny. Liu Hanxiang stepped forward, but what she saw was a paralyzed man.The paralyzed man was kneeling on the side of the road, with a small piece of wood under his body, it looked black and dirty, like a piece of burnt charcoal... How could a person be so disabled?What is especially heartbreaking is that what is wrapped in that pile of tatters does not look like a person at all, it is a pile of ashes, a pile of black ash rotted on the ground!On the noisy street, the raised little porcelain bowl seemed to be a "?", and the "?" trembled empty on the street, which was really sad.So, Liu Hanxiang turned around, turned around and came to a small street shop that he had just passed, and took out the money to buy a sesame seed cake.The biscuits were hot. She took the biscuits and walked quickly to the paralyzed man, bent down and handed them carefully to the small porcelain bowl. The porcelain bowl was heavy...but the paralyzed man's head was buried deeply In her arms, she couldn't see his face, only a mess of dirty hair.She sighed, said nothing, and walked on.After walking a few steps, when she turned around to look at the paralyzed man, the biscuits in the bowl were gone, but the bowl was still shaking on the side of the street... Liu Hanxiang said in his heart that he was still reluctant to eat it.

Later she sat in this small restaurant.This is a restaurant facing the street, across the road is the gate of the military area.She knew that the person she wanted to meet was inside.She didn't come to make trouble, and she wasn't like that.She just wanted to see him. It had been eight years, and she wanted to see him. The restaurant is not big, but very clean.She sat on a seat by the window and ordered a small bowl of noodles... Looking at the road outside the window, she suddenly felt a little dizzy, and the sun was shining bluntly, and she couldn't remember anything at once.Strange, really strange, she couldn't recall what that person looked like.Is it a long face or a square face?Really, she couldn't remember.That's right, it used to be so easy, there was a little bit of intimacy...but suddenly, she couldn't remember his appearance.She patted her head, her mind was in chaos!It was vague, as if there was a shadow, which was very familiar, but she just couldn't remember it.She thought, although she hadn't seen him for many years, she still wouldn't recognize him, right?

However, she sat in that small restaurant for a whole afternoon until it was getting dark, but she didn't recognize that person.Yes, there are soldiers coming out of the gate on the opposite side of the road, all of them are wearing shoulder badges with stars, and when they walk, they shake their hands, looking very mighty.But she was puzzled in her heart, one came out, and it looked like it didn't look like it, and another one came out, and it looked like... Yes, some looked like him, with a face; some, It's the expression; there's also the walking posture... But is it him?But she couldn't decide.There were so many times, she thought it was him, that was him.However, when she ran out of the restaurant and looked at it again, she didn't look like it again, she didn't look like it at all... Lost, her person, lost.

The next day, she sat in this small restaurant again, silently waiting for that person.First, I waited for a while, but the man still didn't come out.Later, soldiers continued to come to this small restaurant across the street.Some came to eat, some came to check out.Among them was a small man who spoke with a slight Sichuan accent, which was rather savage.When this person left, he seemed to glance at her inadvertently, with a strange look in his eyes.She knew it or not, so she didn't care.However, after a while, the man came back again.This person came in a hurry, went in a hurry, tossed back and forth several times, he looked puzzled, glanced after another, and didn't know whether he wanted to ask or say something... For a moment, she wanted to stop him Ask, he is also a soldier, maybe he will know the situation of that person.But for some reason, she held back.Strangely, afterward, this man walked up to her and said something that surprised her——

He said, "If I'm not mistaken, your surname is Liu and your name is Liu Hanxiang, right?" There was a "boom" in Liu Hanxiang's mind, and she said in her heart, God, is this him? !No, he's not that short, and he's not that white... No, it's definitely not him. He said, "I've seen your picture. Your hometown is Ping County, right?" Liu Hanxiang hesitated for a moment, then asked in surprise, "You..." He said: "you came to find a man, his name is Feng Jiachang, right?" Liu Hanxiang stood up, and Liu Hanxiang looked at him in amazement: "You are..."

He smiled and introduced himself: "My surname is Hou, I'm from the military region, and I'm comrade-in-arms with Feng Jiachang... Sit, you sit." Then, the man sat down in front of her.This is an officer with "two bars and one star" on his shoulders.He was chubby and had a very kind face, but his eyes looked weird, and she couldn't tell what was wrong, but she just thought it was weird.He said enthusiastically, "Since you came to see Lao Feng, why didn't you go to the compound of the military region?" Liu Hanxiang hesitated for a moment, then said, "He, is he alright?"

He said: "Well, that's great. I married a mayor's daughter. The woman's natal family has a lot of background, a lot of background..." He spoke in a flat tone, as if casually speaking.Seeing that she didn't speak, he tentatively asked again: "You came to see him, what's the matter?" As if a knife had been stabbed in her heart, she murmured: "Yeah, nothing, nothing." He seemed to see through her all at once, and said, "Since you're here, let's meet him. I'll take you there." With that said, he stood up.Involuntarily, she also stood up.Then, he followed him to the military compound.When the two came to the gate, Lao Hou hooked his finger behind his back and motioned to the sentinel, "I'm looking for Staff Officer Feng."

After entering the gate, Lao Hou greeted every soldier he met while walking.With a smile on his face and a loud voice, he casually hooked his fingers behind him and said, "Look for Staff Officer Feng." Going down, every time he saw someone, he would hook his fingers and repeat again and again. Said: "Look for Staff Feng!" When he led her to a small building, Lao Hou stopped suddenly. He pondered for a moment and said, "Wait here for a while, I'll see if anyone is there." Stepped into the building. Standing at the corner of the corridor, Lao Hou smoked a cigarette and slowly stabilized his mood.For a moment, he once persuaded himself, forget it, forget it.This move is a bit shady, this move is too shady, Ge Laozi's, this might ruin Gou Ri's life.But this is the only chance, if you don't do it, you'll have to watch him get promoted... Fuck, why? !

After a while, he came out of the corridor leisurely, waved to her, and said, "Come on, come on, come on." When Liu Hanxiang walked up to him, he lowered his voice and said, "Sister, let me let you go!" You are meeting someone. Tell him something..." Liu Hanxiang was startled, and said, "Who are you meeting?" He said, "Chief. I will let you meet a chief." Then, he urged: "There is Say what you want, don’t be afraid. In some cases, the chief needs to understand.” Suddenly, Liu Hanxiang smelled an ominous smell in the air!For some reason, she suddenly felt that this man's gaze was cold... But at this moment, she was no longer allowed to think about it, and a hand on her back pushed her forward forcefully, and whispered as she walked: " Don’t be afraid, don’t be afraid. Go, it’s the chief who wants to see you. If you have any difficulties, you can tell him boldly.” That’s it, when she raised her head.Has been pushed into an office... The door was closed, but the man did not come in. There is a huge desk in this office, and behind the desk sits an old soldier with gray hair on his temples.The old man looked very majestic!Seeing her, the chief said casually, pointed out his hand, and said, "Sit, sit down." Then, the chief stood up, poured her a glass of water, and put it in front of her.Then, he pulled a chair, sat down in front of her, and said lightly, "Are you looking for Feng Jiachang?" At this time, Liu Hanxiang hadn't woken up yet, so she just sat there blankly, not knowing what to say for a moment... After a long time, she finally said "hmm". The chief asked: "Are you from Ping County?" Liu Hanxiang nodded silently. At this time, the chief said to himself: "This little Feng, this, this... I heard that his wife is pregnant. It seems that she is about to give birth? You, this, this... are not the nanny he is looking for Bar?" Liu Hanxiang was stunned at first... Then, she shook her head and said silently: "No." The chief said "Oh"... For a moment, Liu Hanxiang hesitated and said, "His... wife... is pregnant?" The chief said: "No, they are about to give birth. A while ago, they said they were looking for a nanny..." Liu Hanxiang sat there, silent for a long time.At this moment, she seemed to be sitting on a volcano, and she felt that her heart was about to burn!The pain, pulse by pulse, leaf by leaf, rotten, broken, pierced... She murmured, confused: "... I gave birth... soon, I gave birth to a... child?" The chief said: "Yes, yes. Drink water, you drink some water." But Liu Hanxiang's mind was still on those two words, and she still said to herself: "Child, child, how soon, he has a child..." ... Gradually, the chief's face became serious, and those two thick eyebrows were like blades!He said, "What is your relationship with Feng Jiachang?" Liu Hanxiang was bored for a while, and finally, finally said: "...a relative. It's a relative." The chief said "Oh" and asked, "A general relationship? Nothing else?" Liu Hanxiang wrung his hands, hesitated for a moment, and nodded again. At this time, the chief looked at her with some confusion, and asked, "Then, what can you do with him?" Liu Hanxiang pondered for a while, suppressed the surging blood and swallowed it in his stomach, and said forcefully, "It's nothing...it's not a big deal." The chief looked at her in surprise, and said with concern: "Don't be afraid. If there is anything you want to do, just say it boldly..." For a moment, Liu Hanxiang wanted to say something.She wanted to pour out all the bitterness in her heart at once. For so many years, so many days and nights... the words rushed to her throat with a wave of blood, but she swallowed the words again gone back! The word "child" was like a mountain, blocking everything she wanted to say! ... After all, she still pities him, for some reason, she just pities him. She was a little dazed and said, "Oh, there is something wrong." The chief encouraged her: "Say it, say it." Finally, Liu Hanxiang said: "If you want to say, it's not a big deal. Just... let him help." Immediately, the chief fell silent. After sitting like this for a while, the chief suddenly stood up. He walked around the room a few times and said to himself, "What is this monkey doing?!" With that said, he turned and went back to his desk Behind him, he picked up the phone and ordered, "Let Feng Jiachang come over."