Chapter 24 preamble

We always think we understand the people and things around us.When we want to get to know someone, we notice the way they behave, and when we find that the behavior we expect to see is being performed time and time again, we begin to believe that we are finally Completely grasp a person's inner thoughts and soul. I think it's just a personal feeling of arrogance, arrogance, because one cannot fully understand another person's mind, nor can one truly experience the exact same feelings or experiences as another person.We are all looking for authenticity, especially in the realm of our existence, the home we decorate, and the friends we choose to share it with.But I'm afraid in fact, I don't think a complex, varied individual can always be so clearly stereotyped by others.

Once upon a time, I was so convinced that I lived in a world built entirely on stone that it made me feel a little ashamed to think about Jarlaxle.I used to think that for him, rather than gaining a little simple personal gain, this mercenary leader cared more about long-term profit-after all, he let Catti-brie and I get out of Menzoberranzan safely. Left, and in fact at that time our two heads could bring him a handsome bounty.When Catti-brie became his prisoner and fully exposed to his power, he didn't try to get something out of her, although Jarlaxle himself admitted through actions, not words, that the girl was indeed very powerful. attraction.Therefore, what I have always seen is a personality limited to a certain height hidden under the cloak of the supremacy of interests. However, the information conveyed by my last encounter with Jarlaxle showed me that he is more complex, The more compassionate side to be precise, even more than I can imagine.Also, he calls himself a friend of Zach Nafein's, and while I initially rejected the idea myself, now that I think about it, it's not only plausible, it's possible.

So now can I say that I know the real Jarlaxle?So can I also perceive the truth of what happened around him and in the Dayet Independent Mercenary Group?Of course it is impossible, but I still believe that my current evaluation of him must be correct. I will not be arrogant enough to change the established facts, nor will I start to firmly believe that I already understand Jia Lasso for more deep stuff. So what about Wulfgar?Which Wulfgar was the real Wulfgar?Was it the proud, respectable man Bruno had brought up, the one who had fought alongside me in the fight against Billing and the rest since?The man who saved the barbarian tribe from the brink of extinction, and united the people of Ten Towns against future disasters through joint diplomacy?The man who traveled across Faerûn to save his imprisoned friend?The man who helped Bruno reclaim his lost kingdom?

Or was the real Wulfgar the man who hurt Catti-brie, the man who seemed to disappear after being tortured, and who in the end was completely depraved? These are all he, I believe, a Wulfgar of experience, feeling, awareness, and body, just like the rest of us.For now, the second of the three, feeling, had an element brought about by experience that overwhelmed his comprehension, controlling Wulfgar.The coldness of those feelings leads his awareness to negativity.On the basis of this fact, who was Wulfgar now?More importantly, if he continues to live with these troubles, then who will he become?

How I want to know.How I wish I could be by his side on this dangerous journey, to talk to him, to influence him, to change him.All I can do is enable him to remember who he is, or at least who he is in our senses. But I couldn't, because ultimately it was Wulfgar's thoughts and inner soul that mattered most, not his own idiosyncratic actions that ultimately manifested externally every day.I, no one else, could have more influence over his heart and soul than I could have determined the sun's rising and setting. What makes me curious is that when I think of Wulfgar, it's just dawn and sunrise, which makes me feel good.Why do I feel this way when I watch the sunrise?Why such a special time and not other times when the sun shines?

Because only at dawn, the sun's rays appear more brilliant.Because of the dawn, we see the awakening of all things after the dark night.Here lies my hope that, like the sun, this process is as real to people as it is.Those who fall can get back up, and then the surrounding things can make the eyes sparkle with a brighter light. I admired the rising sun, thought about the person I thought I knew, and prayed that my feelings would be right. -- Drizzt Do'Urden