Chapter 13 Chapter Fifty-Five

After a few months, Lu Xiaolong was a little excited when he came to the gate of Shen Li's small western building in Xiyuan.Pushing open the door and entering Shen Li's home, just in time for a power outage at night, two candles were lit in the living room on the first floor, and Shen Hao and his wife Du Rong were talking unhappily. Seeing Lu Xiaolong's sudden appearance, Shen Hao's already big eyes widened, and Du Rong also looked at him in surprise. Shen Hao said loudly: "Lu Xiaolong, are you still alive?" Lu Xiaolong smiled honestly and cautiously, and said, "You're still alive." He was not surprised by Shen Hao's reaction.After fighting in the South for several months and returning to Beijing, many people thought that he had died in the "Gan River Massacre".Shen Hao patted the armrest of the grand teacher's chair and stood up, waving his hands and said: "Oh, this is nonsense, those leaflets and big-character posters are not reliable at all, this is too shameful. I saw a leaflet a few days ago , saying that you died in Jiangxi."

While talking, he limped to a nearby mahogany cabinet and rummaged through it. Du Rong was sitting there knitting a sweater. At this moment, he glanced at her husband and said, "The man has already returned, what else do you care about?" Leaflet?" Shen Hao turned around, shook his hands and said to Lu Xiaolong: "Hey, we all thought you were dead." In order to strengthen the sense of humor, he continued: "I really thought you, Lu Xiaolong, died for the country .” Lu Xiaolong smiled and said, “This time it’s not the turn yet.” Lu Xiaolong is naturally concerned about Shen Li's situation. However, he must first show respect to Shen Hao and his wife. He smiled and said, "As soon as I walked in, I heard you talking loudly." Sitting there, he glanced at his husband while knitting a sweater, and said, "He just can't think about it." Lu Xiaolong smiled and asked, "Is there anything Mr. Shen can't think about?"

Shen Hao repeatedly shook his head, waved his hands and sighed: "Oh, let's not talk about it." Du Rong said: "Xiaolong is not an outsider, so if you talk about it, you won't be bored." Shen Hao said: "I am overthinking myself." Lu Xiaolong asked: "What's the matter?" Shen Hao said: "A few months ago, I wrote a letter to Chairman Mao, meaning not to overthrow Liu Shaoqi. It was nothing more than talking about my suggestions. Later, Chairman Mao replied I wrote a letter and sent Liu Shaoqi’s material, and asked me to return it after reading it. Hey!” Shen Hao waved his hands and said, “I’m really unnecessary, it’s not interesting.” Lu Xiaolong immediately understood a little bit, and said with a smile: “Shen Hao Always care about the world's major affairs, just do your best." Du Rong said teasingly: "Doesn't he feel that he has no face?" Shen Hao waved his hands again and again, and said: "What face do I need? I just committed pedantry And unreasonable mistakes." Seeing that Du Rong wanted to talk about him again, he waved his hands and said, "Xiaolong, let's talk about this later, you should go and see Lili first." He pointed upstairs, "She is in the third in his own room."

Lu Xiaolong still wanted to make a polite transition, Shen Hao waved his hands again and again and said, "Go quickly. Lili has been sad about your matter for a few days, go quickly." Lu Xiaolong went up the stairs by the dim candlelight in the hall.As soon as he turned the corner, he took four or five steps to the third floor quickly and lightly, and pushed Shen Li's bedroom away in the darkness.There were two red candles standing on the desk by the window, and Shen Li was sitting there looking at something.Hearing the sound of the door opening, she turned her face, Lu Xiaolong closed the door behind her back, and stood by the door.

A candle shone from behind Shen Li, and a candle danced in front of Shen Li. Shen Li's hair and face were covered with golden light, her eyes were wide open in shock, and the air in the room It was very quiet, only the candlelight flickered in the air like a dream. Shen Li finally saw clearly and confirmed the facts in front of her. She slowly stood up from the table, as if she wanted to jump over, but stood there motionless.Under the illumination of the candlelight, they looked at each other, and the two approached each other step by step.Shen Li was wearing a thick white cotton velvet nightgown, slippers, and her hair. She stood quietly in front of Lu Xiaolong. The candlelight shone behind her. Her face looked soft and peaceful, and her tears were like silent tears. The stars hang down one by one.Lu Xiaolong smiled honestly and comfortingly, and said: "I'm not dead, I'm still alive." Shen Li turned her head and put her face on Lu Xiaolong's shoulder. Lu Xiaolong grabbed her shoulders and gently He hugged her lightly and holyly.Shen Li cried on his shoulder, and Lu Xiaolong hugged her a little harder.Shen Li's slender and warm body was shaking, and this shaking was transmitted to Lu Xiaolong's body, forming a shock of life.He hugged Shen Li tighter and tighter. The more he shook, the tighter he hugged him. The tighter he hugged, the more he felt the shaking. He wanted to completely integrate the lives of the two of them.

He held Shen Li's face and kissed her gently, Shen Li closed her eyes and gave him her lips.He kissed her, hugged her, and really felt the urge to enter her body with all his heart.This impulsive hug and kiss made Shen Li a little out of breath, she made a light pushing movement, and Lu Xiaolong relaxed his hands a little.Shen Li buried her face on his shoulder again, and stayed close to his body for a while, then raised her face, touched Lu Xiaolong's cheek with her hand, looked at him and said, "You are so lucky, I came back alive." Lu Xiaolong kissed her again, and said, "If I die like this, wouldn't it be too unfair?"

Shen Li shook off the tears on her face, and said with a smile: "Why?" Lu Xiaolong looked at Shen Li and said, "I died before I had anything to do with you, isn't that too unfair?" He bumped his head on the shoulder and said, "Then let you die unjustly." Both of them laughed.Lu Xiaolong put his arms around Shen Li and kissed her, walked to the desk with her, and sat down facing each other by the dancing candlelight. Lu Xiaolong stared at Shen Li who was illuminated by the candlelight, and after a while said: "You look so beautiful in this pajamas." Shen Li smiled and said: "Of course it is better than wearing a gray suit when I went to Shanghai Dalian with you." The skin is beautiful." Lu Xiaolong said: "You don't look ugly in that dress, you look good in anything you wear." Shen Li glanced at Lu Xiaolong and said, "Look at you, you are quite appreciative." The two separated again. Candlelight stared relatively quietly for a while.Shen Li looked at Lu Xiaolong's gray cloth clothes and asked: "What are you wearing inside?" Lu Xiaolong said: "The top is a sweater, and the bottom is a pair of cotton wool trousers." Shen Li said: "Take off your coat and trousers." Right." Lu Xiaolong said: "What does that look like? Wouldn't it be too embarrassing for your parents to come up and see?" Shen Li glanced at him with a smile, and said, "It doesn't matter. I won't let you wear this coat. You hug me. You didn’t see that I’m wearing pajamas, there’s a difference between inside and outside.” Lu Xiaolong scratched his head, stood up and took off his coat, hung it on the back of an empty chair, hesitated again, and took off his outer pants, Leaving it on the back of the chair.Shen Li took a pair of slippers and said, "Take off your stinky sneakers, and put these on." Lu Xiaolong put on the slippers, looked at himself up and down, his upper body was a dark blue sweater, his lower body was a brick The red cotton wool trousers are a bit nondescript.Shen Li glanced at him and said: "Don't be embarrassed. I'm giving you special treatment today." Lu Xiaolong smiled, he naturally knew the meaning of intimacy here, and he said: "I appreciate it, but I feel a little uncomfortable like this " Shen Li glanced at him again, looking at his cotton wool trousers with holes in the knees, she couldn't help laughing, she asked, "Are your clothes clean?"

Lu Xiaolong said: "That's absolutely no problem. After I returned to Beijing, I washed and changed it inside and out. If I want to see you, I have to be clean and tidy before I dare to come." Shen Li opened the closet, took out a light blue cotton velvet nightgown and handed it to Lu Xiaolong, saying: "Put on this dress, it will look decent." Lu Xiaolong took the nightgown and comfortably put on.He shook his nightgown, looked at the mirror in front of the dressing table, winked mischievously, and said, "Today's treatment is indeed extraordinarily grand, and I'm a little flattered." Shen Li said, "Of course. The bedroom is originally You can’t allow people to come in casually, and pajamas can’t be worn by anyone.” Lu Xiaolong smiled and teased: “I know your theory, the bedroom is a part of the body, and pajamas must be a part of the body, so today I am completely It has completely entered your body." Shen Li looked at him through the candlelight and said, "I really shouldn't let you come back alive." Lu Xiaolong sat down in front of Shen Li, looked at her quietly and said, "I Really thinking about it." Shen Li asked: "What do you think about?" Lu Xiaolong replied: "I want you."

Shen Li lowered her eyes to think about something, then raised her eyes to look at Lu Xiaolong, and Lu Xiaolong also looked at her, two red candles were burning, jumping, and shining beside them, and they heard the slight crackling sound of the candles burning.Lu Xiaolong looked at Shen Li with piercing eyes, and said, "Promise me." Shen Li didn't speak.Lu Xiaolong said: "After this catastrophe, I think that if I really died like this, it would be too unjust." Shen Li stared at him and said, "Didn't you not die?" Lu Xiaolong said: "Then if I die in the future If you are dead, it is still too wronged." Shen Li said: "I promise you, you will not be wronged?" Lu Xiaolong said: "Yes." Shen Li stared at him for a while, then said: "But, if you really die , am I not wronged?" Lu Xiaolong thought for a while and said, "Then I won't die." Shen Li took Lu Xiaolong's hand on the table, squeezed it gently, and said, "You really don't want to die. Don't do anything too desperate." Lu Xiaolong turned his hands over, squeezed Shen Li's hand, rubbed both hands together, and asked, "Did you ask me to do this?" Shen Li thought for a while, and said: "Forget it." Lu Xiaolong said, "Then I will do my best."

The hands of the two were gently kneading each other, Lu Xiaolong stared at Shen Li, but Shen Li was thinking about something far away.After a while, she said: "I heard that you died, I'm really sad." Lu Xiaolong asked: "Really?" Shen Li nodded sincerely, her eyes were wet again under the candlelight, her hands were still He and Lu Xiaolong squeezed each other's hands on the table, put their faces on their arms, and said, "Do you still remember the scene when we talked on the last night of Chongming Island?" Lu Xiaolong nodded.Shen Li said with hazy eyes: "That is almost the best memory in my life." She paused for a while and then continued: "And after meeting Wang Hongwen in Shanghai that day, at night at the Liaison Station of the Red Guards stationed in the capital for two Sleeping on the floor of the hut is also the best memory in my life. There is also the secret meeting at the Beijing Aeronautical Academy, sitting in the corner of the meeting room, I fell asleep leaning against you, and felt vaguely My body slid down, you hugged me, leaning on you, that is also the best memory in my life." Shen Li said with hazy eyes, new tears kept oozing from her eyes, her hands were still in contact with Lu Xiaolong held and pinched each other's hands, supplementing his verbal expressions in the silent night shrouded in candlelight.

Shen Li said: "You are really kind. You are really kind to me." Shen Li said and gently pulled him over, and the two kissed affectionately under the candlelight.Now, their faces were lying on their hands on the table, and they looked at each other closely. The candles were burning and shining beside their faces, and the smell of oily smoke from burning candles filled the air.A string of red candle tears flowed down the candle and fell onto the table, making a very soft and slight sound, and then froze into a red petal at the root of the candle.Shen Li kissed Lu Xiaolong's cheek and said softly: "You are really kind to me." Lu Xiaolong said: "There is still room for improvement." Shen Li said: "In order to accompany me to join forces, I also delayed my political career." Lu Xiaolong shook his head quickly and said: "That's nothing, I don't care." Li looked at Lu Xiaolong and said, "Do you think you treat me well?" Lu Xiaolong said: "Of course." Shen Li asked: "What do you think is good?" Lu Xiaolong said: "Fortunately, I really like you." Shen Li closed her eyes and smiled, Lu Xiaolong suddenly remembered something and said: "I I even drew a picture of you." Shen Li asked: "Where is it?" Lu Xiaolong said: "I brought it." Shen Li said: "Show me." Both of them sat up, and Lu Xiaolong took out a "Red Flag" magazine from the canvas bag hanging on the back of the chair, opened it, and took out a drawing paper from it. On the picture, Shen Li was wearing a white dress, holding her hands in her arms. in front of you.Shen Li took it over and looked at it, and said with a smile: "It really looks like a painting. When did you draw my appearance?" Lu Xiaolong said: "It was the appearance of you when I first copied your house." Shen Li Li said: "When did you draw it?" Lu Xiaolong said: "Draw it in Jiangxi." Shen Li asked: "Why?" Lu Xiaolong said: "I miss you so much." Shen Li looked at the portrait again, and then looked at it. Looking at Lu Xiaolong, he said, "You really are a bit of a painting genius." The Shen Li on the screen is filled with a moving vitality that makes her admire.Lu Xiaolong said: "Sometimes I think, if I can't do politics, I will do art in the future." Shen Li asked: "Do you often paint?" Lu Xiaolong said: "Since the Cultural Revolution, I have only painted two pieces, both of which are The figure in the painting." Shen Li asked: "Who is the one in the other painting, is it also a woman?" Lu Xiaolong nodded and said, "Yes." Shen Li asked: "Is it Lu Minmin?" Lu Xiaolong shook his head and said: "No. It's Jiang Qing." Shen Li looked at him, and asked puzzledly, "Are you particularly interested in Jiang Qing?" Lu Xiaolong thought for a while, and said, "My feelings for her are more complicated now." Shen Li Li lowered her eyes and remained silent for a while, then asked, "Where's Lu Minmin?" Lu Xiaolong was a little sad for a moment, and said: "She went to Jiangxi with me, and she was injured in the head in the fighting, and now she is a little demented." Shen Li asked: "Is it serious?" Lu Xiaolong lowered his eyes and said, "She hardly recognizes me now." When Lu Xiaolong said this, his eyes were a little dull.It was very quiet in the room. Two red candles danced at the sides of their faces.The candle light illuminated the room, and also projected the figures of the two onto the roof and walls. The breeze gently blew in through the screen window, and the candle flame trembled, sending wisps of black smoke fluttering up.After such a quiet time for a while, Shen Li was thinking about something very important. She looked at Lu Xiaolong and said softly: "Can you go and lock the door?" Lu Xiaolong looked at Shen Li, understanding With this slightly sudden words. Shen Li put her elbows on the table, supported her face with her hands, looked at Lu Xiaolong in the close candlelight and said, "Go." Lu Xiaolong stood up, walked to the door and gently closed the door. Shen Li lay flat on the bed in her pajamas. When Lu Xiaolong came over, she patted the bed lightly and asked Lu Xiaolong to sit down beside the bed.Lu Xiaolong sat down next to her body, grabbed one of her hands, and stroked it with his own.Both of them knew what they were going to do, but they both lost the impulse they had when they were not ready just now, and seemed a little awkward, awkward and unfamiliar for a while.After a while, Shen Li gently pulled Lu Xiaolong towards her with her hands.When Lu Xiaolong leaned down to hug and kiss Shen Li, he was far from being as full of love and excitement as when he saw Shen Li crying in his arms. He even thought a little uncomfortable that Shen Li promised him now, because it was the same as the Lu Xiaolong who just talked about it. Minmin's topic was related, when Shen Li hooked his neck and kissed him, it reminded him that she was trying to erase the impression of another girl in his mind.At this moment, the kiss between him and Shen Li seemed lacking in content. Shen Li also seemed to have sensed something, she gently pushed Lu Xiaolong away and looked up at him.The two stared at each other, both thinking.After a while, Shen Li asked: "What are you thinking?" Lu Xiaolong swallowed with difficulty, but did not answer.Shen Li asked: "What are you thinking?" Lu Xiaolong shook his head.Shen Li lay down inside for a while, and said: "You can also lie down for a while." Lu Xiaolong lay down, and the two of them looked up at the candlelight beating on the ceiling, wisps of tiny candle smoke lingered under the ceiling illuminated by the candlelight .Shen Li turned around and gently stroked Lu Xiaolong's shoulder with her hand, and said, "Did you think that Lu Minmin was hurt? It's okay, and he will be fine after heals slowly." Lu Xiaolong also felt his own behavior Somewhat inexplicably, he hugged Shen Li and kissed, hoping to fall in love, and the kiss really made him fall in love gradually. The girl's beauty, fragrance, tenderness and warmth quickly arouse the man's impulse.Shen Li whispered in his ear, "Blow out the candle." Lu Xiaolong sat up from the bed and went to blow the candles on the writing desk.Because of the distance, the flame of the candle fluttered and flickered after two blows.He was a little annoyed, Shen Li asked him to blow out the candles now and asked him to insert the door just now, both seemed to subtly destroy his state.He didn't have time to think about the mystery here, he only knew that in this kind of love, he didn't want to play the assigned role.He pulled on his slippers, stood up and walked to the table, and swept down the two red candles with a wave of his arm.Hearing the sound of the candle breaking and falling on the desk, the candlelight was also extinguished, and through the starlight outside the window, two wisps of black smoke could be seen rising from the desk.Shen Li asked: "What are you doing?" Lu Xiaolong walked to the bed, leaned over and grabbed Shen Li's arm and said, "What do you think?" In the dark, Lu Xiaolong felt the antagonism between men and women, but this antagonism made him enter an impulsive state. He grabbed Shen Li's arms with both hands, and his impulse was transmitted to Shen Li's body through the vibration of his hands.Shen Li also felt impulsive from the depths of her life. When Lu Xiaolong began to press on Shen Li and untie her clothes roughly, both of them felt that the beautiful intercourse of life they had imagined was a little bit of Started in an evil impulse.Lu Xiaolong rode on Shen Li, and took off her clothes with some rough movements, as if he was slaughtering a world at his disposal.Shen Li looked up at Lu Xiaolong whose upper body was upright, and felt that he was tall, authoritarian and oppressive.When the brief preparatory period passed, the two began to collaborate in a state of not quite harmony for the first time in their lives.Women are born to know more, men are born to know less.Women want to lead men, and men are unwilling to be led by women.After some unfamiliar cooperation, the biggest thing for men and women finally began. By the grace of God, both are good: the man is hard, the woman is soft; the man is full of initiative, the woman is meek and pandering.When the combination of life reached a climax in full swing, Lu Xiaolong truly showed the brave gallop of a man on the battlefield of love, and Shen Li also fully indulged and appreciated Lu Xiaolong's brave gallop.Shen Li burst into tears as excitedly as when she first saw Lu Xiaolong, and hugged Lu Xiaolong's neck tightly. Lu Xiaolong hugged Shen Li tightly while venting his fury, and kept kissing she.Love becomes very pure at this moment.