Chapter 6 Chapter Forty-eight

To go to Chongming Island, you need to take a boat at Wusongkou. When you arrive at Wusongkou, Shen Li is overwhelmed by the incomparably open scene.This is not the Yangtze River in her imagination at all. The mighty river stretches as far as the eye can see like the sea, spreading vastly to the horizon in the cold winter morning.The bitter north wind was blowing head-on, and the river was surging like the waves of the sea. Rows of moving mountains rushed towards the shore, breaking into violent and splashing snow waves.Although Shen Li had been to the seaside for summer, she felt an indescribable excitement and stimulation in the face of such a rough and magnificent "sea" on this north windy winter day.She really likes this feeling.

She unbuttoned the ear buttons of her hat, allowing the cold wind to blow more deeply from her neck.The velvet hat ears fluttered on both sides of the cheeks like dove's wings.The short hair tied tightly by the hat ears was also like black satin at this moment, brushing back inside the hat ears as fast as one could.Shen Li simply took off her hat and shook her hair. Her black hair flew back against the river wind blowing from the sky, like a cold and gentle big hand pulling her hair backwards. The joy of liberation burst forth from the hot body.She put her hat back on, and in just a few moments the warm hat was blown cold.She turned her head to look at Lu Xiaolong with a gloomy face and said, "It's great, it's like the sea. Where is Chongming Island? Why can't I see it?" A hundred or so people had already gathered around. The joint investigation team from Chongming Island came from Shanghai before dawn in two large cars. At this moment, a group of people gathered by the river to enjoy the spectacular scene of sky and water.Lu Xiaolong replied calmly: "It takes more than an hour to get to Chongming Island by boat, and you can't see it at all." Shen Li exclaimed: "The Yangtze River is so wide!"

Lu Xiaolong remained indifferent, and said: "The Yangtze River has reached the mouth of the sea when it flows here. It is dozens of kilometers wide, hundreds of kilometers wide. It is not like the sea! Chongming Island is the third largest island in China, second only to Taiwan. Island, Hainan Island.” Lu Xiaolong just learned this knowledge when he met Wang Hongwen after arriving in Shanghai yesterday.Shen Li was also there at the time, but she had no intention of doing so.Now, when Lu Xiaolong spoke out as his own unique knowledge, Shen Li gained the happiness unique to women in this situation.She really likes the feeling of going out with Lu Xiaolong, and also really likes the reliability of having questions and answers from Lu Xiaolong.

She glanced at Lu Xiaolong's undeveloped face with a smile, and said angrily, "Why are you so narrow-minded? Are you still angry with me?" Lu Xiaolong raised his slightly protruding forehead reservedly and expressionlessly, looking at the surging river against the wind.He was wearing a grass-green cotton military cap with the ears turned up and tied on top of his head, leaving his ears exposed to the cold wind.In the conflict with Shen Li's personality, he used the man's silent self-esteem more and more.Shen Li took his hand and shook it, said: "You are so stupid, you don't know that I like you? Who is Wang Hongwen, I don't like him." As she spoke, she leaned close to Lu Xiaolong's face and said "Don't be angry, how about I kiss you?" Lu Xiaolong felt Shen Li's moist and warm breath falling on his face, and it became wet and cool in the cold wind.Shen Li's intimacy softened his stiffness. He looked at the noisy and moving crowd around him and said, "That's all right, all right, don't be ashamed of yourself." This Beijing hutong slang made Shen Li laugh, and she relaxed. She took Lu Xiaolong's hand, grabbed his arm, and walked down the high embankment with the flow of people, towards the ferry terminal over there.Still excited by the magnificence of the river, she pointed to the front right and said, "Look there."

Following the direction of her finger, you can see seven or eight seagoing ships parked far and near on the billowing, smoky river, the farthest ship is almost at the horizon.The slight bumps of these ships mark the vastness and loneliness of the river, as if they have been parked here for thousands of years and no one cares about them.Faced with such a vast scene, you can't feel the hustle and bustle of Shanghai at all. You just feel that you are far away from human society, standing on the edge of the human population, and taking a step forward, you will fall into the vast universe. They boarded a small ship. Normally, a passenger ship can only hold sixty or seventy people. Because there are too many people today, and there are four or five winds, a larger ship is needed, so the Shanghai rebels came here. A ship that can also transport passengers long distances at sea.

People boarded the boat one after another, and when the boat galloped into the Yangtze River, most of them couldn't withstand the biting cold wind and got into the cabin.Shen Li and Lu Xiaolong stood on the bow deck, watching the rolling waves rushing towards them, and watching the smoky scenery.The white waves broken by the ship rushed towards the sides of the ship, and the sound of the waves hitting the steel deck was heard one after another. The sound was dull and booming, showing the weight of the ship and the texture of the steel on the deck.A snow-white seagull fluttered up and down chaotically on the bow of the ship, annotating the light gradually emerging from the smoky river.In the front left, the sun, which is blurrier than the dim moon, can be vaguely seen floating in the thick fog, like the face of a kind old man paying attention from a distance.

This time, it was Shen Li who proposed again that she hoped that Lu Xiaolong would take her to other places to participate in the big series.Lu Xiaolong blinked his eyes and thought for a while, and replied: "The central government is making repeated orders to stop the big collusion." Shen Li said: "It's because it's going to be stopped that I want to go out and have a look, otherwise I won't have the chance. "Lu Xiaolong is indeed in a big contradiction. According to the needs of political struggle, he should undoubtedly stick to Beijing.After the storm of power seizure in Shanghai in January, Beijing and other provinces and cities across the country are planning to seize power and establish a new revolutionary regime at the city level.The rebel forces from top to bottom are all fighting for their own positions. Beijing universities, colleges and middle schools are all preparing to set up the Capital Red Guard Congress, referred to as the Red Congress, and they are all vying for the leadership of the Capital Red Congress. The new regime in Beijing.He should never miss this opportunity, this is a critical moment that cannot be left for a day.However, Shen Li's ardent expectations radiated his extremely beautiful imagination.That day, he took her to the Beijing Aeronautical Academy to attend a secret meeting all night long, and the scene of huddling with each other in a dark corner has always been a good memory for him.He expressed his contradictions and hesitation.While Shen Li understood, she felt even more disappointed, and said unwillingly: "Well, I won't go, don't delay your serious business."

Shen Li's reasonableness touched Lu Xiaolong's psychology as a man. Standing behind Shen Li, he leaned over and kissed her moist hair, and said, "Let's go." Shen Li sat in front of the dressing table and looked at the mirror in the mirror. Lu Xiaolong said: "Really don't go, your political career is more important." But Lu Xiaolong overcame the last hesitation, leaned down and hugged her from behind, rubbed his face against hers and said tenderly: "We choose For a while, I will only go to one place, and I will go to Shanghai. It won't be a few days, and I will be back soon, okay?" Shen Li turned around and hugged him, and kissed him.Shen Li tidied up her belongings. Not only did she bring a hat, a mask, and the old flat mirror, but she also brought cosmetics and was dressed in men's clothes.She smiled and said to Lu Xiaolong: "I will appear in whatever role you need me to appear in." Lu Xiaolong asked: "How many roles do you have?" Shen Li stood up and raised her face at Lu Xiaolong , Said: "One is good-looking." After a pause, he took out the old pair of flat mirrors, "The second type is not very good-looking." He picked up his makeup box again, "The third type is ugly. Yes. There is also the fourth type, women disguised as men.” She stood with her back against the dresser and asked, “What kind do you want?” Lu Xiaolong said with a smile: “It looks good if it looks good; it doesn’t look good if it doesn’t look good; it’s really not good It’s ugly; if it’s not ugly, you can dress up as a man.” The two walked around the room happily, and set off that day.

Once in Shanghai, Lu Xiaolong managed to get in touch with Wang Hongwen.Wang Hongwen was very happy to hear that Lu Xiaolong had arrived in Shanghai.In the early days of the movement, when he was still the leader of a small rebel group in the unknown National Cotton No. 17 Factory, Lu Xiaolong was already well-known all over the world.Now, even though he is the famous leader of the Shanghai rebels, he still has time to meet with Lu Xiaolong. As soon as they met, Wang Hongwen showed great enthusiasm for Shen Li, which Lu Xiaolong felt from the very beginning, and Shen Li felt it too.When Wang Hongwen shook hands with Shen Li, his eyes lit up, and he looked very tall and straight, very dignified, very demeanor of a leader of the rebel faction.He shook hands with Shen Li longer than he did with Lu Xiaolong. He seemed to ask a few words casually but too much: "What's your name? Shen Li. Which Shen is it? Shen from Shenyang, Beautiful Li. Are you from the same school as Lu Xiaolong?" At this moment, Shen Li blushed slightly and nodded vaguely.When meeting Wang Hongwen, she naturally appeared with her true appearance.She clearly felt Wang Hongwen's interest in her as a man.She has been very sensitive to this interest since she was a child.When this famous rebel leader stood tall and imposing, staring at her with a smile, she felt her excitement.Greatness at a distance always surpasses greatness at a short distance. When Wang Hongwen, who was famous from afar, suddenly appeared, he was indeed more dazzling than Lu Xiaolong, whom she had long been familiar with.

Lu Xiaolong stood aside and immediately had a sensitive reaction.He felt that Wang Hongwen was tall enough.When he shook hands with Shen Li, the difference in height between them showed the harmonious relationship between men and women, and also showed his own lack of height.Wang Hongwen was discussing something lively with a room full of people, this feeling of standing up to receive Lu Xiaolong and Shen Li in the midst of his busy schedule was very good for him, but very bad for Lu Xiaolong.When they sat down, Wang Hongwen looked very simple, peaceful, not domineering, and had enough respect for Lu Xiaolong. However, after all, he was in his lair, surrounded by a group of cronies.

While talking with Lu Xiaolong, he kept taking the phone from his assistant to answer the phone, and he also had to sign the documents sent by some people who were urgently waiting for his approval, and he also had to give instructions on some of the most important and urgent issues. .Such a background of daily affairs underlined Wang Hongwen's status, underlined his talent, underlined his kind and amiable demeanor towards Lu Xiaolong and Shen Li.As far as his and Lu Xiaolong's current status is concerned, the two should be equal.However, the background of the scene put Lu Xiaolong at a disadvantage.And Wang Hongwen's attitude towards Lu Xiaolong also showed a bit of condescending kindness. He called Lu Xiaolong Xiaolong, welcomed him to Shanghai, and hoped that he would take a walk in Shanghai and have a look.If you need his help with anything, don't be polite, just tell me, and he will arrange it.Lu Xiaolong was originally a person who was not good at words, but he didn't show any displeasure in the face of Wang Hongwen, who seemed very affectionate and friendly, but was somewhat domineering.Although he felt that his face was a little hot when he was in a bit of embarrassment, he still sat there very plainly and even a little cautiously, speaking simply with an expression without any sense of performance. Wang Hongwen sat in a triangle with Lu Xiaolong and Shen Li.He looked majestic, talking and laughing, sitting slightly back in a swivel chair with armrests, crossing his legs, turning around in a very chic way.When someone asked for instructions, he would lean back and turn his head to deal with it more gracefully.When the instructions are over, when you turn around, you will have a commanding general demeanor.He wants to stay with Lu Xiaolong for dinner, and even plans to spare time to accompany Lu Xiaolong around Shanghai.He said: "I can let you see what you want to see the most. The largest shipyard, the largest ocean liner, 10,000-ton hydraulic press, the big world on the 24th floor, the Bund, and the steel factory. You can go wherever you want. Where to go, I will send you boats and cars. I can also let you go to the Zhoushan Islands and send warships to take you off." These promises undoubtedly aroused Shen Li's interest.Relying on his huge power in Shanghai, Wang Hongwen showed enough grandeur and charm of a thirty-year-old man.Wang Hongwen's age also has a more mature charm for Shen Li than Lu Xiaolong.During the short meeting, Shen Li was indeed somewhat charmed by Wang Hongwen.Although she is very smart and understands the psychology of men and women, she also consciously took care of Lu Xiaolong's self-esteem, and tried her best to express the girl's self-esteem and reserve in front of the opposite sex she just met, but her happiness, her excitement, Her flying spirit not only gave Wang Hongwen the confidence to speak eloquently, but also gave Wang Hongwen a little imagination. Wang Hongwen's speech seemed to be mainly aimed at Lu Xiaolong, but Lu Xiaolong felt that all the enthusiasm was due to Shen Li.He sat there weakly, holding on to his self-esteem, and at the same time, he felt hostility towards Wang Hongwen in his heart.When Wang Hongwen finally asked, "Where do you live and what arrangements do you need me to make for you?" he replied very simply: "We live at the Liaison Station of the Red Guards stationed in Shanghai in the capital. We arrange some activities by ourselves. Go back to Beijing." At that time, Wang Hongwen smiled casually and nodded, and said to Shen Li: "Are you going back to Beijing with Xiaolong?" Shen Li has long been aware of Wang Hongwen's enthusiasm. Excited and a little uneasy.She smiled, turned her head to look at Lu Xiaolong, and said, "Of course I will go back with Xiaolong." When Wang Hongwen finally stood up and shook hands with them to say goodbye, he said very affectionately: "I hope to come to Shanghai often in the future. When I come to Shanghai, I will find Me, I welcome you at any time, and I am willing to serve you." He tore off two pages of desk calendars, wrote down his multiple contact numbers on them, and gave one to Lu Xiaolong and one to Shen Li.When holding Shen Li's hand, he said: "You give me a very different impression." Then, he turned his head to look at Lu Xiaolong very caringly, and said: "Your name, I have been with you since the Cultural Revolution. I just heard that even Chairman Mao said you are a student leader!" At the moment of parting, Lu Xiaolong once again felt the harmony between Wang Hongwen's height and Shen Li and the pressure on himself. That night, he and Shen Li crowded together at the Shanghai Liaison Station of the Red Guards in the capital.This is a crooked, gloomy old western-style building, with wooden floors and wooden stairs upstairs and downstairs, one room in the east and one room in the west, like a confused mouse cave.In the humid, dark and icy environment, many Beijing Red Guard students ran around in a mess.Telephones and mimeograph machines rang noisy.The footsteps stepped on the colorful papers flying all over the floor.Outside the window is the narrow and noisy streets of Shanghai. It is very close to the opposite building, which makes you think that you can ride a rope bridge by throwing a rope across it.The smell of oil, salt, sauce and vinegar, the smell of shops, grocery stores and sewers floods up from the narrow streets downstairs, giving you a feeling of darkness and denseness.The two of them huddled up all night in a room the size of a bean curd block with a half-foot-thick big-character newspaper. There was no distinction between men and women here, and the rooms upstairs and downstairs, including the corridors, were mixed and crowded in the middle of the night. Male and female students.Some people were covered with military overcoats or ordinary overcoats, and some people just fell asleep with their clothes on.Some people pillow big-character newspapers, and some people pillow their own cotton shoes and sneakers.In the cold winter of Shanghai, there is no heating system or stove, and a cold old house is filled with a little warmth by the body temperature of groups of young men and women.The smell of rubber shoes is mixed with the smell of ink, dust and damp, intertwined with the dim light that lasts all night, reminding you of the lonely dream of youth on the night of the Great Revolution. That night, there was a little friction between Lu Xiaolong and Shen Li.When meeting with Wang Hongwen, Lu Xiaolong's quietness prevented Shen Li from concealing her excitement more closely. She always thought that Lu Xiaolong was a boy with a very stable mood, and his behavior was as it should be.However, she finally discovered Lu Xiaolong's deep anguish.Before lying down, Lu Xiaolong sat on the ground with his knees hugged, looking extremely indifferent to Shen Li.Shen Li didn't know why, but after thinking about it, she understood, and she felt a little sorry for Lu Xiaolong.It's just that she didn't want to admit anything, so she didn't give any explanation.In the somewhat embarrassing silence, Lu Xiaolong in front of him looked especially short and overshadowed.Lu Xiaolong's long face and motionless posture not only did not arouse her admiration and respect, but instead made her feel contemptuous.Dim and boring lights fell from overhead, making the cabin even more cramped.A broken table, some broken barrels occupied one corner, and a small window with narrow, dirty glass. Through the glass, I can see the lights of Shanghai in the middle of the night, like a world of ghosts.Sitting there, Lu Xiaolong looked like a small stone sculpture in a dilapidated forest or a silent stone dog. In the dirty small room, Shen Li finally calmed down slowly, and gradually got to know Lu Xiaolong again in all her memories and life background.She thought of the story of him and her starting from the prelude, and how Lu Xiaolong made the decision of "not loving Jiangshan but loving beauties" to go out with her.This is a boy who can't see any chic demeanor and masculinity at a glance, but he is a boy who can stand careful recollection and taste.In Taste, Shen Li's understanding of people was fully revived.In her recollection of the day, she saw clearly the roughness of Wang Hongwen's performance during the meeting, and also saw the true nobility of Lu Xiaolong who was always honest and peaceful, neither overbearing nor humble. However, she was still unwilling to explain.Fortunately, the Capital Red Guards Liaison Station in Shanghai was going to join the Shanghai rebels to go to Chongming Island to investigate the "economist malpractice" on the farm the next day. Knowing that Lu Xiaolong was here, they asked him to lead the team.This event will undoubtedly cause a natural thaw in the relationship between the two people the next day. Shen Li said: "Lie down too, I'm sleepy." She lay down first.Lu Xiaolong was still sitting there motionless. Shen Li said: "Can you lie down next to me? This way I'll be warmer." After a while, Lu Xiaolong lay down beside her without saying a word.Shen Li put her arms under her head, looked at the square ceiling and said, "This is the first time I've spent the night alone with a man when I grow up. It's you, it's like this." She turned around Facing Lu Xiaolong, put his hand on his shoulder lightly, and said: "It's unimaginable." Lu Xiaolong was still lying on his back, thinking about the day's affairs, feeling the sensitivity of self-esteem and the intensity of inferiority complex, At the same time, I also thought of the ideal of life to work hard.Shen Li fell asleep beside him, snoring and snorting softly on his neck like a child.This calmed him down slowly.He turned around and fell asleep with Shen Li gently hugging. Before dawn in the morning, a group of people set off together.His reserve and indifference are just the aftermath that needs to be comforted.A huge wave hit the ship's side head-on, and the splashed snow waves rushed to the bow deck like giant claws.Shen Li turned her head and put her face on Lu Xiaolong's shoulder to avoid the wind and waves.Lu Xiaolong stood motionless holding an iron rod.After the storm passed, Shen Li raised her face to look at him, and said, "Are you not stupid enough?" Lu Xiaolong said expressionlessly, "I won't take you out again." Shen Li straightened up and turned Putting on the ear buttons of the hat, she said, "If you don't take me out, I won't come out alone? Can a person's heart be trusted?" She glanced at Lu Xiaolong, "You are just a big fool." The sun gradually lifted off the white mist covering the river, and the sky began to brighten.When several sailboats appeared far and near in the mighty river, the land of Chongming Island floated out from the horizon.Once ashore, there will be a car to pick you up. After getting in the car and walking for a long time, I arrived at a farm headquarters.When a joint investigation team of more than 100 people began to investigate Chongming Island, the surrounding vast land, woods, rivers, roads and houses made you completely forget that this is an island.You can't imagine that it is surrounded by the Yangtze River water on all sides, you feel like you are in the suburbs of a city.The majestic poetry of the Yangtze River is completely gone, and there are only the most mundane scenes connected with the land.An old dog with drooping ears was lying on the side of a small tea shop on the roadside, a dirty little doll was squatting next to the old dog and peeing, a listless old man was sitting in the tea shop, a broken gasoline barrel was opened, Lying there, it became a small reservoir. A sow with skin disease shook her belly mopping the floor, wheezing and wheezing as she walked across the dirt road. topographic map.On the vast waves, you will feel that the water is vast and the land is small.Here, land is everything. Stepping into this rustic place step by step from the vast Yangtze River, Shen Li felt very difficult to understand at first, but then she understood.Chongming Island is very large. Since the three-year famine, Shanghai has mobilized more than 100,000 people to cultivate land here.One farm after another is intertwined with the original small villages, forming a new Chongming County.After the beginning of the Cultural Revolution, farm workers who came in different periods all put forward demands for rebellion, and as a result, batch after batch of rebels went to Shanghai.Now, one farm after another is almost empty except for some cadres staying behind.The cold northwest wind blows over the uninhabited land, and also over the few one-story houses. Rows of simple red brick one-story houses lie dejectedly in the sky and the earth. In front and back of each row of bungalows, there are still scenes of the owner’s original living with firewood, rice, oil and salt. Almost every house has a small shed built indiscriminately. There are pots, brooms, mops, firewood, and broken bicycle tires.The doors of each house were locked, some with curtains drawn, and some without curtains.Going closer to the window and looking in, some of the interiors have been swept away, leaving only bare wooden tables, wooden chairs, and wooden beds.Some beds still have quilts, and there are still a few clothes hanging on the coat hangers in the corner.Different situations show that some of their masters left a retreat for their great retreat, and some did not leave a retreat at all.Some rooms had their doors wide open, and apart from a few pieces of heavy wooden furniture, they were empty and in a mess. The curtains were all gone, the nails were gone, and the wires hanging from them were hanging badly, and the cold wind was blowing into the room, and a shredded newspaper or two flew up with the dust.Walking out of the house and looking around, this once densely populated farm is now deserted, reminding you of the vicissitudes of history. The joint investigation team formed by the Red Guards from Beijing and the Shanghai rebels showed improvisation and disorganization. Lu Xiaolong's investigation activities in the past few days have shown his organizational skills. He did not make earth-shattering actions or speeches. Just relying on the existing reputation and some effective measures, the work of the investigation team has gradually become orderly.A decent leadership system is arranging the whole activity relatively properly.Ordinarily, this is some very tedious or even boring work. Many members of the investigation team showed boredom in eagerness to leave, but Lu Xiaolong did it in an orderly manner. On the last day, the entire investigation team has been operating in an orderly manner like a permanent institution. .Shen Li has been observing with great interest. When Lu Xiaolong organizes the meeting calmly and forms a decision based on brainstorming, he always looks in front of him thoughtfully and says that it is a final decision. if.It is Shen Li's admiring gaze that makes Lu Xiaolong have such tireless enthusiasm for activities on this empty and deserted island far away from Beijing, and even far away from Shanghai. This is the last night on Chongming Island, and we will leave by boat tomorrow morning.Shen Li and Lu Xiaolong wanted to avoid the crowd before leaving, and they stayed for a while.They lived in the field department of a farm. The office was a bungalow with bricks and tiles. There was a large hall in the middle surrounded by seven or eight irregular small rooms. In each room were sleeping Beijing students from the investigation team or Shanghai rebels. workers and cadres.Lu Xiaolong and Shen Li are in the same room, a writing desk is attached to the window in the middle, and a single bed is placed on each side.They lay on their respective beds side by side, talking face to face, with the door ajar, showing that they were isolated from the outside world but not isolated.For the convenience of speaking, they aimed their feet at the window and their heads at the door, avoiding the obstruction of the table's view.The quilt was thick but damp and uncomfortable to cover.The conversation between the two was carried on in a sleepy and restless travel mentality. Shen Li said: "Look, we two, a man and a woman, are in the same room. It doesn't seem strange to anyone." Lu Xiaolong said: "It was like this during the Great Revolution." In Beijing, it’s unbelievable. In this environment, many things are desensitized and numb. For example, at the Liaison Station of the Red Guards stationed in Shanghai that day, boys and girls were sleeping next to each other.” Lu Xiaolong said: “Everyone is not in the mood. In this regard, they are not sensitive, so they are casual and natural. Anyone who is like you will not be allowed to enter his own bedroom." Shen Li said: "Of course." Lu Xiaolong said: "You said, it is now in your bedroom Or is it in my bedroom?" Shen Li looked at the unclear moonlight outside the window and said, "It's neither yours nor mine." Lu Xiaolong said, "That's ours." Shen Li said: "What nonsense are you talking about? I'm not afraid that others will hear it." Lu Xiaolong said, "Who cares about listening to this now?" Shen Li said, "However, I think people pay more attention to you. Your reputation is indeed not small. Even Wang Hongwen is very polite to you.” Lu Xiaolong said: “What is Wang Hongwen? It was after careful consideration." Shen Li said: "Wang Hongwen must have used his brain a lot." Lu Xiaolong said: "What are you defending for him?" Shen Li said: "Am I worthy of defending him? You discuss issues." Lu Xiaolong said: "It's hard for me to imagine." Shen Li said: "Imagine what?" Lu Xiaolong said: "It's hard to imagine you, such a delicate person, but you sleep on the floor on the train all the way, and men and women Sleeping in a big room is quite revolutionary." Shen Li said: "I think it's very interesting." Lu Xiaolong said: "Then you don't want to go home, just follow me around." Shen Li said: "I have to go home when I have to go home. I can't do this all the time. Of course, I can't stay at home all the time. It's so dirty here, I can't eat well and sleep well. I still feel homesick. But if I stay in that house all year round It can really suffocate people to death." Lu Xiaolong said: "Then why don't you go to work?" Shen Li said: "I didn't just graduate last year, and I was assigned to the CPPCC. Now that the Cultural Revolution is going on, what kind of work do you do?" Lu Xiaolong Said: "If I didn't study at night, I would have been a college student." Shen Li was suddenly very interested in this in the dark, she got up and asked: "Why do you study at night?" Lu Xiaolong said: "I Almost all the students in the third year of high school were born in 1947. They started school at the age of 7. I was left in my hometown by my father since I was a child. There is no school in our village. Going to school. In the first year of school, my feet got chilblain and almost rotted. In the second year, I went to the first grade again." Shen Li asked: "Then how old are you this year?" Lu Xiaolong said: "I am older than my classmates. Two years older, already twenty-two." Shen Li said: "It's better for you to be older." Lu Xiaolong said: "What's so good about that?" Shen Li smiled and said after a while: "Then we are about the same age." Lu Xiaolong asked : "Are you really unwilling to have a relationship with a boy younger than you?" Shen Li said: "You don't know, that kind of feeling is not good. You look younger than your actual age." Lu Xiaolong Said: "That's because I didn't eat well when I was a child." Shen Li laughed.Lu Xiaolong said: "You look small and big." Shen Li asked a little nervously: "What is small and big?" Lu Xiaolong said: "If your expression is kind and innocent, you will look like a junior high school Student. You didn’t see this time you came out and said that you are my classmate. No one doubted it. You look younger than many girls in our class. But if you put on a cold face, you really don’t look like a middle school student. Sophisticated." Shen Li smiled and said: "Then do you like me small or big?" Lu Xiaolong said: "For me, small; for others, big." Shen Li smiled happily and said: "The most So that I can offend people, and everyone hates me, so you will be happy." Lu Xiaolong also laughed, and said: "Didn't you see that Wang Hongwen is full of desire for performance when he sees you." Shen Li said: "I have seen it a long time ago." Lu Xiaolong said: "I think you are quite enjoying it." Shen Li Said: "Of course. Girls don't want others to like themselves." Lu Xiaolong said: "You are not afraid of my discomfort?" Shen Li smiled in the dark and said: "This is your style of speaking." Lu Xiaolong said: "What style?" Shen Li said: "Really." Lu Xiaolong Xiaolong said: "What good is it?" Shen Li jokingly said: "Let me feel bad." Lu Xiaolong said: "People like you don't know how to love others." Shen Li said: "Why?" Lu Xiaolong Said: "You are kind to me, not because I am pitiful." "Why is that?" Shen Li asked.Lu Xiaolong said: "Because I think I'm still a little bit great." Shen Li pouted with a smile and said: "Of course, if you are a wimp, why should I treat you well!" Lu Xiaolong said: "This That's right, so I said you don't know how to feel sorry for others." Shen Li propped her head up a little higher with her arms, looked at Lu Xiaolong and said, "Then what you said is too incomplete. Do you know that beautiful women love heroes since ancient times?" Lu Xiaolong said, "Why don't you know? You have to be a hero before beautiful women will love you." Shen Li said: "But do you know that many beauties love fallen heroes?" Lu Xiaolong thought for a while, but said nothing.Shen Li said: "First you have to be a hero, and second you have to be a little bit tragic." Lu Xiaolong smiled and said, "You just have to be a little pathetic." Shen Li also laughed and said, "When you meet Wang Hongwen He actually lost in demeanor." Lu Xiaolong asked: "Why?" Shen Li said: "I still don't understand." Lu Xiaolong looked at the ignorant moonlight outside the window and said nothing.Shen Li went on to say: "His behavior like that is actually rude to you. He has grace on the surface, but in reality he has no grace. His behavior can only deceive shallow girls." Lu Xiaolong said: "No Are you blindfolded?" Shen Li said: "It seemed to be a little blindfolded at the time, and the more I thought about it after I came back, the more disgusted I became. Your performance that day was the real grace." Lu Xiaolong smiled, scratching his ears with his hands, Said: "It's an honor." Shen Li said sincerely: "It's true." This voice moved Lu Xiaolong somewhat, and he stared at Shen Li in the dark. Shen Li said: "Do you know, I love you very much right now." Lu Xiaolong looked at the door and said, "Keep down, are you afraid that others will hear you?" Are you afraid?" Lu Xiaolong said nothing.Shen Li suddenly turned over and lay down on the bed, put her face on her arms, looked at Lu Xiaolong and said, "I think it's hard to get your strength." Lu Xiaolong smiled and said: "What do you mean?" Shen Li said: "It's hard to get, it's really hard to get, you have to taste carefully to really understand you." Lu Xiaolong said: "You said this on the boat today. That’s it.” Shen Li said: “I’ve said it before, so I can say it again. Really, you’re pretty good.” Lu Xiaolong said, “What’s so good about me?” Shen Li said, “Fortunately, I can’t really tell. I'm a little sleepy, let's not talk." Lu Xiaolong said: "Okay, you go to sleep first." Shen Li said: "You go to sleep too." Lu Xiaolong said: "Leave me alone." Shen Li stretched out her hand and said, "Then touch my hand." Lu Xiaolong stretched out his hand to hold Shen Li's hand, and the two hands were hanging together in this way.Shen Li said: "It felt so good to sleep next to you at the Red Guard Liaison Station that day." Lu Xiaolong said: "How about today?" Shen Li said: "Today I also want to sleep next to you, but I can't." Shen Li's Her voice became weaker, and her hand became heavier and heavier in Lu Xiaolong's.Soon, there was a slight snoring sound. Lu Xiaolong got up and got off the bed, put on his shoes, and gently placed Shen Li's hand on the bed.The room was very cold, he thought for a while, then gently lifted the quilt, put Shen Li's hands in the quilt, and then covered her quilt, Shen Li just lay face down like a child with her face on her side and her arms on her stomach fast asleep.Lu Xiaolong bent down, kissed her cheek lightly, then returned to his bed and lay down with a manly feeling. He looked at the half-blue moonlight and the shadows of the mother-in-law's whirling trees outside, heard a dog barking in the distance, and felt that the mighty Yangtze River was very far away, the bustling Shanghai was even farther away, and Beijing was even more far away. Now, only the breathing of a man and a woman echoed faintly in the dark and silent cabin.