Chapter 18 Amy: Unswerving until death (11)
Zhuoyou is really powerful. Not only did Shi Yan not suffer the embarrassment caused by "divorce", but he even saved her the trouble of going to the marriage registration office. He immediately brought back two marriage certificates, which were exactly the same. The other one is kept by the woman.If it wasn't for the bright red front of the marriage certificate, she would have thought it was a divorce certificate, otherwise why would there be two?
She took two papers of marriage, which were thin in her hands. The quality of the paper was not as good as the certificate of "three good students" she got when she was a child. Could it be that these two papers changed her life? Fill in "married"?She asked suspiciously: "Doesn't both parties need to be present to issue a marriage certificate?"
"According to the regulations, those who are required to be present should also have a pre-marital physical examination, but you are no longer a virgin, how can you stand up to the examination?"
"The pre-marital check-up is just a check--this one?"
"According to the regulations, of course it's not just checking this, but those doctors are not interested in anything else, only this. Are you willing to lie there and be touched by them, put their fingers inside you, and be laughed at behind your back? "
She really didn't want to do that, but she didn't come to apply for the marriage certificate in person, so she was always a little worried: "Is this a real marriage certificate or a fake marriage certificate?"
"Of course it's true, haven't you seen the official seal here?"
"Could the official seal be fake?"
"You're kidding! Forging the official seal can be punished with death. I got it from the marriage registry formally---"
She studied the official seal carefully, and it was indeed from the Marriage Registration Office, but it was not from the Teachers College area, or even from D City, but from a nearby county.She asked worriedly: "This official seal doesn't belong to us at all, does it work?"
"Why doesn't it work? Isn't it from our area, so it's not the People's Republic of China? As long as it's the official seal of the marriage registration office, it will work."
"But will others have doubts, why don't we register in our own area, and go to the nearby suburbs to register?"
"What's the point? Registration at the nearest location is the same as enrolling at the nearest location. It's just for convenience. If I have to go thousands of miles away to register, who can eat me? But for those who have no way out, you are not Living in that area, the people at the registration office there can not accept your application, so you have to do it in your area—”
"Then we don't live in that area, how did you issue a marriage certificate from there?"
"Because I'm not a helpless person."
"Is this legal or not?"
He chuckled: "What did you say is legal or not? This marriage certificate? Of course it's legal, but if you're talking about whether it's legal or not for me to do this, then I don't know. It's not all because you don't want to do it for me. Is that titular 'divorce' embarrassing? I didn't embarrass you, and you're bothering whether I'm legal or not---"
She didn't want this to ruin this supposedly festive day, so she immediately changed her mind and said, "I'm just worried that this marriage certificate is not legal, as long as the marriage certificate is legal---"
He joked: "Are you afraid that this marriage is illegal? Then you can try to get another marriage certificate with someone else, and see if the court will convict you of bigamy---"
"Who else can I get a marriage certificate with now?"
"As long as you are willing to get a marriage certificate with your 'Clock Tower Man'! Even if he knows it's a bigamy, I guarantee that he will run away---"
She was a little upset when she saw that he called Huang Hai "The Horror of the Bell Tower", but she knew it was her fault because she told him the allusion herself.However, the love he described for Huang Hai for her still made her very happy. If he loved her so much that he was willing to commit bigamy for her, wouldn't that be considered extreme love?At least it surpassed Yan Jing's love for Yao Xiaoping. Didn't Yan Jing not dare to commit bigamy?But in this way, Yao Xiaoping should be regarded as extremely in love, because Yao Xiaoping committed a de facto crime of bigamy, while Huang Hai's crime of bigamy was only fabricated by Zhuoyou.
She asked in a joking tone: "When you said that the steel mill was catching Huang Hai, did you want to drive him away so that you can dominate me?"
He said triumphantly, "Is my plan to divert the tiger away from the mountain very successful?"
"Then what do you mean you don't use despicable means when competing?"
He retorted: "Am I mean? Haven't you heard of 'love is exclusive'? I tried to drive him away, just obeying the basic laws of love, don't you think it's me I love you, but call me despicable, really biting Lu Dongbin, not knowing a good heart. Like Huang Hai, who doesn’t know how to fight, just sits there and waits for you to love him, can that be considered love?”
She thought of Huang Hai not just sitting there waiting for her to love him, Huang Hai also took the initiative, never let go of an opportunity, and always said that excellence is not kind.She couldn't help laughing, and said triumphantly: "Hmph, you men, you have to engage in conspiracy when you are in love---"
"Don't you women engage in conspiracies when you're dating? You do the same, but your level is lower, and the conspiracies you engage in are easier to be seen through. Others don't think you are conspiring, they just think you are stupid---"
"I'm not plotting—"
"I know, so I say you are pure."
This sounded comfortable, she no longer cared about the conspiracy, and asked instead: "Then when will we hold the wedding? Don't delay it too late, it would be too shameful to hold the wedding with a big belly---"
"We can start with a simple ceremony and tell everyone we're married. When I'm done and I have money, we'll have a big wedding—"
She is quite satisfied with this arrangement, and understands that he writes articles day and night, because he said that after a while, he will have money, which of course means that the articles he writes now are sure to earn royalties. up.
From then on, every time she saw him reading a book, she would urge him in her heart: write quickly, write quickly, hand it over for publication, so that you can get the manuscript fee and hold the wedding sooner.Every time she saw him writing, she was happy, as if she saw her wedding dress flowing out of his pen bit by bit, and furniture and so on, pouring out of his pen one by one.She didn't know how much he could get for each article, otherwise, she could help him calculate how many articles he had to write in total to cover the wedding expenses.
Now she's okay with him not cooking because he's making money for their wedding.Although she doesn't like the saying that "the man takes care of the outside and the woman takes care of the inside", she can still accept their way of "the man takes care of the money and the woman cooks", because now she can't take care of the money, so she has to cook.
She decided to tell her parents about her pregnancy and marriage, fearing that she would not report until after the baby was born, and they would blame her for cutting the news first.Fortunately, her parents were not surprised when they heard this, and only urged them to go home and hold the wedding as soon as possible, so as not to hold the wedding with a big belly and make others laugh.
She knows the customs of the "Dongdongguai" side. The wedding is held by both families of the man and woman. The man treats guests at the man's side, and the woman treats guests at the woman's side. When the man comes to pick up his new wife, he will take all the guests from the woman's side and celebrate together.
But she didn't expect that someone like her who was out of town would have to go home to hold a wedding, and she thought she could get by.Her parents said that it must be done if they are in other places. If they don't do it, it means that they didn't marry the girl and gave their daughter away for nothing.If you can't do it at the same time as the man's family, then do it separately, but you have to do one.Her parents said that they don't need to worry about the wedding, and they will pay a penny, as long as the two of them go back.
Her mother was the most anxious, calling her every day to urge her, saying that if she didn't do it, her stomach would show up, and others would know what she did with her boyfriend before the wedding.This is looked down upon by "Dongdongguai", mainly because the girl is looked down upon, because the man is in a hurry to do that, no one finds it strange, men are beasts, and if they don't want to do that, they just want to do it. Don't call me a man.But if a girl can't control herself, people will look down on her, and even her parents will be scolded. The family education is not strict, and they have raised such a cheap daughter.
She also knows that the people at "Dongdongguai" are very cruel to girls who get pregnant without a wedding. They have a very disgusting saying about this kind of girls: "If your dick is so itchy, you won't find a bondage." Grinding the stakes of the ox?"
At that time, she didn't understand this very well, but of course she understands it now, but she felt very aggrieved. She didn't have a problem of "unable to handle it" at all, but she didn't know what the problem was, anyway, she brought it up by herself Do it, no wonder others.
She discussed with Zhuoyue, fearing that he would be too busy to go to "Dongdongguai", but he was very straightforward: "No problem, I can bring all the things I want to write and work on the train---"
The two of them took a weekend ride back to Dongdongguai by their parents. Her parents had already arranged everything, and the reason they told the guests was that she was going abroad soon, so they rushed the wedding.
She was still a little uneasy, afraid that others would find out that she hadn't gone abroad and would laugh at her, but Zhuo Liang didn't care: "Country people take going abroad as a very important thing. If you say you want to go abroad, they must admire you to death. When the time comes You are in other places, how do they know that you have gone abroad? When you come back next time, you will say that you just came back from abroad, and they know a ghost. "
"Just came back from abroad and held a baby in your arms?"
"Revolution and production are both correct. So what do you say? Your parents have already told others this, so can you still go out and break rumors?"
That's true, since my parents have already said so, I have no choice but to bite the bullet and "go abroad".
The visitors heard that Zhuo Zhuo is a university professor, Shi Yan is an assistant to the principal, and they are going abroad, and they are all envious. Those who have children teach their children to learn from Uncle Zhuo and Aunt Shi; those who have no children wish to change places with them ; When the child grows up, he can't learn from Uncle Zhuo and Aunt Shi, so he blames himself for being born in the wrong era.In short, the two of them were very beautiful, and even she herself thought that Zhuoyou was a university professor, and she was an assistant to the principal, and she was about to go abroad.
After returning to City D, Zhuo Zhuo suggested: "Then I'll tell my mom about it too, but don't expect her to organize a wedding for us like your parents, she doesn't do these things. Let's not talk about having children so as not to listen to her political class--"
When she saw him talking about his mother like that, she thought it was funny, and asked, "Your mother likes to give political lessons to people?"
"Marxist-Leninist old lady, very orthodox---"
"Then will she give you political lessons?"
"Why don't you teach me? You taught me the most. When I didn't have you to cook, I ran home every week to eat, so I had to listen to her political class. I got used to it. I just regarded it as a female monk. While chanting—”
Shi Yan giggled at the words "mother monk", then asked worriedly, "Is she good at cooking?"
"Who? My mother? She doesn't know how to cook. She is so absorbed in her work that she has no time to take care of housework. Our family always hires nannies, even during the Cultural Revolution. When she died, my dad found a relative from the countryside to cook for our family. If she doesn’t pay her, it’s not considered an employment, but we support her whole family—”
She breathed a sigh of relief, as long as her mother-in-law can't cook, she will have one less shortcoming, and maybe she can show her hand and win her favor, because her mother-in-law can't cook at all, she can at least know a little, I'm afraid That nanny is a master cook, so let's compare her.She asked curiously: "Then every time you go back --- do you go to eat babysitters?"
"Not to eat the nanny, but to eat the meal made by the nanny---"
"That's what I mean. Your nanny is- who is it?"
"Chinese, woman, but don't think about it, she is already old, ugly, not worthy of your jealousy---, I know you women regard all female animals as rivals in love---"
"Nonsense, would I treat a nanny as a love rival?" She still admitted in her heart that what he said was a little bit right, because she had confused him with the train conductor that time, but now she is concerned about other things, "I Go --- there, what do you call your mother?"
He is very magnanimous: "If you can call her Mom, call her Mom, and if you can't, call her Aunt Qiao. She doesn't care about these---"
After receiving this preferential policy, she finally felt relieved.
On the morning before going to her mother-in-law's house, she was so nervous that she almost had diarrhea. She ran to the bathroom several times in a row and felt the urge to defecate or urinate. Finally, Zhuo Zhuo said, "It doesn't matter if you don't finish the bowel movement. It's time to take you to the nearest toilet on a motorcycle---"
She just went downstairs with him, got on the motorbike and said: "Wait a minute---" But he didn't wait, and started the motorbike directly. In fact, she was on the road, and she didn't feel like peeing anymore.
When I arrived at my mother-in-law's house, before I went upstairs, I met several neighbors who came up to say hello. They all talked to Zhuo Liang, but looked at her, making her furious. They were afraid that they would think that she was not worthy of being Director Qiao of the Education Committee. daughter-in-law.She timidly followed him into her mother-in-law's house, and found that it was not as luxurious as she had imagined, only bigger than her parents' house.
Joyo's mother is a little older than in the photo, but she has the demeanor of a cadre from an intellectual background. She is wearing a thin black open-breasted sweater with a white shirt inside and gray trousers underneath, which looks very high-end.She never dared to match the top and bottom like this, because her lower body is stronger than her upper body. If she matched it like this, her lower body would look stronger, like an A-line.But she felt that his mother's combination was very stylish and foreign, and she admired her so much.
After Zhuo Zhuo introduced them, the three of them sat down in the living room and chatted, and Aunt Jiang, the nanny, brought them tea.Aunt Jiang is not as "ugly" as Zhuozhuo said, and of course she is not beautiful. She is just a very ordinary middle-aged woman with a big and flat face. Face", it can be seen that it is from the country, but it is not the kind that just came out of the country, but the kind that has been in the city for many years.
There are bookcases on both walls of the living room, which are full of books, big and small. Where she is sitting, she can just see the study room. As far as the eye can see, there are all bookcases, which are full of books.She couldn't see what book it was, but it was definitely not "Popular Movies". She felt very stressed because she didn't have so many bookcases at home, and the only two bookcases were filled with textbooks used by her and her younger brother, and " "Popular Movies" and other things, I don't know whether Excellence cares about the difference in background and taste between the two.
She sat there with low self-esteem, a little at a loss, Aunt Qiao came to talk to her after talking to Zhuoyue, and the two talked about some insignificant topics, which somehow got involved with her work.She thought, no, you won't ask me what achievements I have made at work during this time?If you ask, it is really a blank paper.
But what Aunt Qiao cares about is not her work performance, but the nature of her work: "You graduated from the Teachers College? Then why do you work in the Scientific Research Department of the Teachers College? There is no rule that graduates from the Teachers College must go to middle schools to teach What? Why didn't you—didn't go to middle school?"
She didn't know if Aunt Qiao really didn't know or if she didn't know, so she hummed and didn't answer directly.
Aunt Qiao said very bluntly: "You are violating the principle of distribution of graduates of the normal college. Are you a relative of someone in the normal college?"
She felt that Aunt Qiao didn't seem to be pretending to be serious, so she had no choice but to hum and not answer directly.
But her humming and hahaha clearly confirmed her crime. Aunt Qiao no longer inspired her to confess and be lenient, and directly sentenced her: "You are a graduate of the Teachers College. You went to work in the front line of middle school education, but you took advantage of your relatives to let someone put you in the scientific research department of the teacher's college. This not only damaged our middle school education, but also endangered the scientific research work of the teacher's college. Growth is also very bad--"
She lowered her head and said nothing, thinking that I only thought you were chanting scriptures, but she had never heard monks chanting scriptures, neither male nor female, so she couldn't "just be".Not only did she listen to Aunt Qiao's words, but she didn't even miss Aunt Qiao's words and sentences. The use of "damage" and "harm" is really particular! Disasters are "damages" because they did not make contributions; while staying in the scientific research department not only did not make contributions, but also because they did not understand anything and messed around, that is "harm".
Aunt Qiao extended from this incident, criticized current affairs, worried about the country and the people, and talked for half an hour.She saw Zhuo Liang sitting there, listening very carefully, nodding from time to time, almost applauding, she felt a little unhappy: You are the one who caused me to stay in school, why does it seem to be my mistake now?Did you bring me here today to be your scapegoat?
She was angry with Zhuoyou when she realized that Aunt Qiao had finished reading the scriptures, and a wooden fish used for chanting was thrown at her: "You should give up your job in the scientific research department and ask to go to the front line of middle school education. If you If you don't take the initiative, I will ask your teacher academy to investigate and deal with this matter. At that time, you will be passive and your relatives will be implicated---"
She was petrified, and Lei Da panicked and pointed to the tree and said, "You'd better ask about this--- Zhuo--- Yue---"
Now it's all right, a word will turn the tiger away from the mountain, and liberate her from Aunt Qiao's gunfire.In the following period, Aunt Qiao has been admonishing Zhuoyou: "Your father and I have been honest and honest all our lives. We never engage in these crooked ways, and never seek personal gain for ourselves or our children. You can go to any place in D City Go inquire and see if anyone can tell us half a word. How come you ruined our innocence? I know you never listen to me, always go your own way, mess with you That set of relationship studies, if you go on like this, sooner or later you will be ruined on it---"
Shi Yan regretted that she shouldn't have confessed to a comrade in the trenches. Originally, only one of them died, but now it's all right, both of them died in battle, and there is no one to write a memorial speech.She wanted to go up to cover him, but Aunt Qiao's gunfire was impenetrable, like a machine gun protruding from a bunker, and the bullets hit rocks and sparks, and she wanted to go up and block the hole with her chest He had no chance, so he could only watch Zhuo Liang die tragically.
That day was spent in politics class and eating. She couldn't understand how Zhuo Liang and his mother could sit at the same table and eat like a family after confronting each other for so long. Anyway, she was very embarrassed, but Zhuo Zhuo and his mother are like the leaders of the Kuomintang and the Communist Party. They fight each other on the battlefield, and they are very friendly at the negotiating table. Even Aunt Jiang is like the International Red Cross. No matter which party you belong to, I only care about saving lives and healing the wounded.
Aunt Jiang yelled: "The meal is ready, let's eat." The other two seemed to hear the bell for the end of get out of class. The lecturer stopped speaking, and the listener left the lecture hall. Both of them went straight to the bathroom, like two urgency elementary school students.
The meal was not rich, but there were four dishes and one soup. Shi Yan ate very heavily, and always felt that this meal was exchanged for excellence.She felt sorry for him, and felt that he had suffered so much when no one was cooking, and came back every week to be trained just to have a delicious meal.She is determined to cook good meals for him every day from now on, so that he can eat well, so that he doesn't have to go back to his mother's house to be scolded.
After taking a few bites, she realized that Aunt Jiang's food was not worth risking her life to eat every week. You have tears and snot coming out, and you have to eat rice, so you can swallow a bowl of rice without much food, but when it comes to the taste of the food, you don’t feel anything except spicy.
She saw that Excellence was eating with great enthusiasm, it was so spicy, and she still remembered boasting "delicious and delicious" between the two "sizzling", which may have been trained by Aunt Jiang's devil's recipe.She remembered that she seldom puts spicy food in her cooking, but he never asked her to put chili in the dishes, so she remembered what he said, "If you cook, I will eat a little, if you don't, we will go to the cafeteria" , she realized that he was really just "following a little", and didn't dare to make any demands on her cooking skills.Her nose was sore, and she wished she could go to the vegetable market to buy peppers right away, and make him a "dinner" dish.
She could see that her mother-in-law was still very close to the people. Aunt Jiang, the nanny, ate at the same table, and she didn't look timid.Even when serving the rice, it can be seen that Aunt Jiang is the nanny, because no matter who has finished eating, Aunt Jiang rushes to help serve the rice, and the person who is served the rice does not look disturbed.
Just from a serving of rice, she could see that Aunt Jiang respected Aunt Qiao, but she loved Zhuo Liang. She couldn't tell from the details, but she had such a feeling anyway.A ridiculous idea suddenly popped up in her mind: Is Zhuo Zhuo the son of Aunt Jiang?So Aunt Jiang loves him so much?She remembered the plot of which movie this seemed to be, but couldn't remember the name of the movie.
Before leaving, Zhuo Zhuo was called into the study by his mother to tell him what to do. Aunt Jiang put two large lunch boxes into a plastic bag and handed them to Shi Yan, saying that they would take them back to eat.Aunt Jiang told her a lot of eating habits and hobbies of Zhuoyou, and asked her to cook more delicious food for him, saying that Zhuoyou suffered a lot when he was a child, and his foundation was not good. Now he should eat more to make up for it. .
She didn't understand why Zhuo Liang had suffered a lot when she was a child, she had never heard of Zhuo Liang.Aunt Jiang said that it was because during the Cultural Revolution his parents were sent to the cadre school, and no one cared about him. He went to the acquaintances and friends of his parents to eat hundreds of meals, one meal, one meal, and one hungry meal It was very pitiful to have a full meal. It wasn't until Aunt Jiang came that Zhuozhuo had a meal.
Aunt Jiang was in tears when she spoke, and Shi Yan was in tears when she heard it.When Zhuo Liang came out of the study, the noses and eyes of the two women were red.Aunt Jiang wiped the corners of her eyes and said: "Yue'er has a good heart. He always said that when his career is completed, he will pick me up to live in the capital and hire someone to serve me---"
Zhuo Zhuo heard it and said, "I keep my word, just wait and enjoy the blessing."
After returning to her small home, Shi Yan apologized and said, "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have confessed to you, causing you to be reprimanded by your mother---"
He didn't care: "I said it a long time ago, only when she is chanting. But don't be angry with her, she is such a person, dead-hearted, but not bad. She is a devout believer in communism, and she is also Those who are truly honest and honest, don’t engage in flattery and flattery, so they always fail to get promoted. Up to now, they are only the director of the education committee. Her unhealthy behavior made no one like her. If I hadn't helped her, she wouldn't even be able to keep this position---"
When she heard what he said, she admired Aunt Qiao very much, and said sincerely: "I'm not angry with her. In fact, I admire her very much. She is consistent with her words and deeds, and her appearance is the same. If our national cadres are like her, That's good--- "
He said disdainfully: "But her method won't work anymore. She is an older generation of intellectuals and cadres. She is a gentleman in a narrow sense. She pays attention to cleanliness and self-discipline. She thinks that if she is not corrupt, she can stop others from being corrupt. She will end her life if she persists." It is impossible to rectify the party style, and it is impossible to eliminate corruption.”
"Then who can rectify the party style and eliminate corruption?"
"Must be someone like me lo--"
She thought he was joking, so she also smiled and said, "A person like you? You take the lead in opening the back door, and you still correct the party style and eliminate corruption? Then you should also be eliminated?"
"You don't understand. I am a gentleman in a broad sense. The important thing is not to be corrupt or not, but to have power, and then use the power in my hand to eliminate corruption---"
This is the first time Shi Yan has heard that a gentleman can be divided into a narrow sense and a broad sense.When she heard the word "gentleman" before, she immediately thought of "thief", because in her impression, the word "gentleman" was always related to "thief".She lost her key, and when she asked someone to help break the lock, the man broke the lock open at once, and said: "This is not a tumbler lock. It is useless. It can only lock gentlemen, not thieves." Later, I heard that What is "the gentleman on the beam", so she connected the gentleman with the thief.
Now when she heard Zhuo Liang talk about a gentleman, she couldn't help but think of a thief, and it took her a long time to get back to her thoughts, and said, "Didn't you say 'righteous people first correct themselves'? If your own morals are not righteous, how can you --- correct others? "
"Righteering people first is the point of view of the common people. The common people have no power in their hands, so they hope to use the power of morality to restrain those who have power. Have you never heard that 'morality is the weapon of the weak'? The weak cannot defeat the strong." If you are too powerful, you can turn to morality, and the strong don’t care about morality or immorality. If you have no power, who else can you correct except yourself? How much power you have, you can correct as many people. Like my mother, she She is very upright, but what's the use? At most, she can only upright the people below her, and she can't be upright with those who are higher than her. And because she is too upright, she can't climb up in this era when righteousness does not suppress evil. So there will never be a chance to correct many people. All in all, if you want to correct the atmosphere in which area, you must first have the power to issue orders in that area. If you don't even have that power, who are you correcting?"
This seems to make sense, and she took it for granted, "Then--- just ask the chairman of the country to come out and correct the atmosphere, wouldn't it be enough?"
"The question is whether the president of the country is willing to come forward? Among other things, if you are the president of the country now, would you take the initiative to ask to teach in the middle school below?"
She was promoted to the position of President of the country at once, and she couldn't turn the corner for a long time. Suddenly, she remembered what her mother-in-law said, saying that she would be kicked out of the teacher's academy, so she was no longer the president of the country, and she just asked worriedly: "You said your mother?" Will she --- really ask the teacher academy to drive me --- away?"
"No, tiger poison doesn't even eat children, why would she ask the teacher academy to drive you away?"
"Then how did she— say that? Scared the hell out of me—"
"She said that just to show her attitude. If she sees such unhealthy tendencies and does not criticize, she will feel very uncomfortable, because it is in conflict with her way of life. But when it comes to driving her daughter-in-law out of the teacher She'll be a mother when she's in the hospital. Don't worry, she won't--"
She asked happily: "Did you tell her about us? Does she know that I am her --- daughter-in-law?"
"She asked me to go to the study, just to ask about this matter, I told her, so that she wouldn't get confused, and really went to the teacher's academy to file a complaint---"
She knew that he must have been trained a lot, but now she can't care about him, and only thinks about the next generation of revolution: "Then you told her about my --- pregnancy? What did she say?"
"Of course she took politics class first, but I could see that she was very happy. She said that when her grandson was born, she would retire and take care of the children at home, because she had to learn a lesson this time, and she would never Don't relax the education of her grandson, lest her grandson, like me, learn badly from others outside, and can't even correct it---"
After hearing this, she was very happy, and felt that her mother-in-law was not a elm-headed one, but also understood the nature of affection and motherhood.But she immediately thought of such a picture, a little man, with his hands behind his back, walking behind her mother-in-law very seriously.After walking for a while, the old and the young stopped to talk, with one hand behind their back and the other finger pointing.For some reason, when she thought of the word "cadre", she had such an image in her mind that her hands must be behind her back, at least one hand must be carried like this, otherwise she would not be a cadre.
She thought that her child would have to be taught by her grandma when she was born, and felt very distressed, so she suggested: "Let's not give the baby to you—give it to grandma. Didn't you say that she never takes care of housework?"
"She didn't care about it before, it was because she was so focused on her work, but didn't she say it? When the child is born, she will retire---"
She hastily declined: "How bad would it be to make her retire for the sake of a child?"
Or he woke up suddenly: "What are you worrying about now? We are in a hurry before the baby is born. As for?"
She didn't say any more, but she murmured in her heart: My child won't be taken to politics class, we can't educate ourselves?The child's father is still engaged in higher education, not as knowledgeable as you in primary and secondary education?But she felt that it wouldn't be good if the child was like Zhuo Liang, because Zhuo Liang seemed to be a little restless, always thinking about a big career, and didn't know what he was doing, which made her very nervous.She inquired round and round and heard: "Then---if you have power, are you---righteous people and yourself, or only righteous people but not yourself?"
He shook his head with disdain: "Politics are not that simple. It's not as red or black as you imagined. Forget it, you women don't understand politics, so don't talk about it---"
She thought, this is strange, you can't justify yourself, you say that women don't understand politics, since women don't understand politics, then why are you talking about gentlemen in the broad sense and narrow sense?I think you don't understand as much as I do, otherwise why can't you answer?But she didn't want to get angry with him because of this, so she pretended not to hear what he said about "women", and only asked: "Then what kind of style do you want to correct?"
"Of course I just want to correct the atmosphere in China. I can't say that my country has not done well, so I went to ask other countries about it?"
She was taken aback, thinking that his ambition was to be in a teacher's college or D city, even then, she felt that he was a bit dreamy, and now he was going to the whole country, it seems that Zheng Zheng's international is just a matter of priority , this --- seems too --- that, right?
She said worriedly: "Don't talk nonsense like this outside, people should say that you are---arrogant---"
"Don't worry, I'm not so stupid. I haven't done anything yet. How could I be outside? I'm afraid that others won't come and catch me?"
The word "catch" really scared her out. He didn't seem to be talking to her for fun, but what he was really doing. He even thought of the possibility of being caught, and even Aunt Jiang made a good wish Yes, he said that he would take Aunt Jiang to enjoy the blessings, which shows that he is indeed very ambitious.
It’s okay for a man to be politically ambitious --- if it’s just a "heart", it means thinking about it and bragging about it. Men have this common problem. If they don’t brag about national affairs, they are afraid that others will look down on them. of.But among the men she met who liked to talk about national affairs, none of them really worked in the "country". At most, they were small cadres in the unit. The affairs of the world, in the end, none of the three things can be achieved, maybe even my own marriage will fall through.
But Zhuoyou is a little different. He doesn't just brag about it. He seems to have a theory, a plan, and a group of accomplices.She felt that if Zhuo Liang was really doing something dangerous, he should have done it during his trips to City E, because when he was at home, he could only read and write, and he hadn't even practiced kung fu, let alone dangerous activities. .
She felt that dangerous activities would definitely involve guns and guns. If there were no guns, how could they do dangerous activities?She remembered that she had learned about the Guangzhou Uprising when she was a child. They were all for the real thing, making soil bombs at home.It seems that there was an uprising that failed because the enemy discovered that a revolutionist was building a bomb at home and it exploded, killing the uprising in its infancy.She didn't understand two things at that time, but she didn't have the nerve to ask the teacher: First, why put the uprising in the cradle?Second, why don't they make silent bombs?
Zhuoyou has never made a bomb, and he doesn't even know how to light a gas stove. He is buried in the pile of books all day long. Could it be that there is a bomb hidden under his books?No wonder she was not allowed to see it.
While he was not at home, she searched through the piles of books, making marks as she turned them so that they could be recovered later.She was sweating all over, she didn't know whether it was from being tired or frightened.But she didn't think there was anything wrong with looking through his books like this. It seemed that the husband and wife belonged to the KMT and the Communist Party respectively, and they were both intelligence agents who had penetrated into each other's interior.
She flipped through it for a while, but found nothing. She glanced at the titles of a few books, all of which were about higher education. She found it very strange, what method did he want to use to riot?Could it be that teachers in colleges and universities are used to incite student riots?This is the way to save the country by doing "education to save the country" for a long time?She hurriedly found a magazine, and read a few lines from his underlined lines, but it was still the same as last time. It's long, but it looks like I didn't say anything. I don't know how such a sentence can motivate students?At most, it puts the students to sleep.
She decided to go to City E with him to have a look, otherwise she wouldn't be at ease, now it's not as good as before. In the past, he was single, one person was full, the whole family was not hungry, one person was killed, and the whole family went to heaven.但现在他是要做爸爸的人了，如果他出了事，她们娘俩怎么办？
她准备了一大篇理由，恨不得把舌头扯到三寸半长来说服他带她去，结果他一口就答应了，还说：“我已经唱出去了，生怕你不肯去，那我就丢人了--- ”
她不解：“什么唱出去了？”
他解释说这个周末有个什么名人要来，他已经对会议主持人说了要带夫人去，但怕她因为怀孕不肯去，正担心着呢。
石燕觉得卓越说那个名人的名字的时候，表情是很崇敬的，似乎也以为她知道这个人的来龙去脉，且跟他一样崇敬。但她完全没听过这个名字，不知道是何许人也。她怕他嫌她孤陋寡闻，只好装做如雷贯耳的样子，满脸是“真的？他也要来？”的表情。
卓越肯定是上当了，以为她真的知道这位名人，而且真的跟他一样崇拜这位名人。他以知音对知音的口气说：“你应该去这些场合锻炼一下，培养出领袖夫人的风度来，以后我出访啊，出席宴会什么的，都要带夫人的--- ”
她不在乎什么领袖夫人风度，只担心孩子：“不知道坐车会不会影响--- 孩子？”
“应该不会吧--- 汽车总比摩托车平稳吧？你坐摩托都没事--- ”
“我们坐火车吧，比较平稳--- ”
最后他们还是决定坐汽车，因为火车太慢，而且到站时间都不大好，不是半夜，就是中午，都不方便。汽车快多了，有好几趟，早中晚到E 市的都有。
石燕对这次聚会场景的想象不外乎两种，一种是在一个阴暗潮湿的屋子里，一群人正弓腰驼背地造着土炸弹，另一个就是在一个豪华的大厅里，很多文质彬彬的知识分子在激扬文字，粪土当年万户候。不过她知道真实的情景肯定跟这两个场面不同，因为事实经常跟她的想象是相反的。
到了E 市郑教授家，她发现真实场景果然跟她想象的不一样，既不是阴暗潮湿的屋子，也不是豪华的大厅，就是一个很普通的房子，不在E 大里面，是郑教授自己的私房，如果不是有很多人在那里聚会，可能会有点阴森的感觉，不过老房子都是这样的。
她听卓越说过，郑教授是他在K 大时的导师，挺有名气的，后来因为受排挤，调到了E 大。卓越本来也想进E 大的，但没进成，再加上要照顾他妈妈，就回到D 市，进了C 省师院，这样就离E 市比较近，方便他跟导师来往。虽然师院名气不大，但卓越也没准备在那里干一辈子，所以学校好坏还没离导师远近重要。
她不太明白为什么卓越已经毕业了，还跟导师保持这么密切的联系，她想可能研究生就是这样的吧，或者名校的学生就是这样的吧，人离校了，心没离校，跟导师保持着千丝万缕的联系，就是跟名校保持着千丝万缕的联系，因为一般来说，导师都是留在名校的。不像他们破校的本科生，一毕业就像刑满释放了一样，恨不得跑八丈远，才不想跟母校扯上什么关系呢。被人问起来，都要支支吾吾，不说“ C 省师院”，而说“师大”，让别人误以为是“ C 师大”。
与会者大多数是男的，只有几个女的，看上去都不年轻了，只有一个女孩年轻一点，也比她大，可能最少有二十五岁左右，卓越介绍说那女孩姓朱，叫朱琳，是他的师妹。
她一下就发现了一个规律，除了朱琳以外，其它几个女的都很瘦，好像胖瘦是跟年龄成反比的，年纪越大，人就越瘦，眼睛片子就越厚，给她的感觉就是搞她们这行的很费脑筋，很费眼力，也让她明白为什么卓越没在自己的同学当中找个女朋友了。
这伙人总体说来都是知书达理的人，不象是些头脑发热，在家做土炸弹的人。尤其是那个郑教授，很有知识分子的风度，虽然长相说不上英俊，但那个风度是摆在那里的，不在知识堆里摸爬滚打几十年，绝对不会有那种深入骨髓的知识分子气质。
就是那个名人很令她失望，个子矮矮的，有点干瘦，不象个叱咤风云的样子，她不明白为什么卓越那么敬佩他。
卓越的表现还令她挺满意的，因为他把她介绍给这个，介绍给那个，而且都是说：“这是我夫人石燕--- ”让她听着很舒服。
但她很快就有了自惭形秽的感觉，因为那些人全都是名校毕业的，最低的都是C 师大的，而且都是教授、研究生什么的。幸好她事前就跟卓越打过招呼，叫他别提她是哪里毕业的，所以卓越介绍的时候没提，那些人也没问，不知道是对她不感兴趣，还是早就听卓越说过了。
她这人就是有这么一个毛病，一旦觉得自己低人一等，就只想躲避，她既不能心甘情愿地承认自己是比名校生差，也不能闭着眼睛说自己绝对不比名校生差，进大学之前你还可以说大家都一样，只不过你运气好考进了名校。但四年过去了，名校生肯定学到了更多的东西，因为他们的老师更好，学校设备更好，不然谁还去名校？
有了这种自愧莫如的心情，她就死也不肯参加他们的活动了，等到他们开会的时候，她就坚决不去，卓越没办法，只好给她找了个房间，让她自己在那里玩。
那是郑教授的一个小书房，里面除了书，就没什么别的东西。卓越指着桌上的电话说：“你想看书就看书，要是觉得没事干，就跟你那些亲朋好友打电话玩，公费的--- ”
这个让她挺感兴趣的，平时给家里打个电话都要跑学校外头的电话服务点去打，因为学校的电话都不能打长途。她问：“真的不要钱？”
“不是不要钱，是不要你的钱，只要公家的钱。你自己玩吧，我开会去了--- ”
等他走了，她就真的来打电话，但一时想不起给谁打好了。她父母家里没电话，平时都是等到父母上班的时候打到单位去的。她想给黄海打个电话，给他说说书的事。自从他那次从她家走后，就没再跟她联系过，她也因为把书都给了姚小萍，而姚小萍说会付钱黄海的，她也就没费心思去对跟他联系，潜意识里，她觉得自己不该再跟黄海有联系，不知道是怕卓越知道了不高兴，还是觉得那样做有脚踏两只船的嫌疑。
以前都是黄海把电话打到她寝室来的，用的是他朋友单位的电话，所以她从来没问过他的电话号码，他也没说过。
最后她决定给姚小萍打电话，因为姚住在集体宿舍里，是她唯一能逮住的人。她拨通了电话，还有点担心姚又要三请四催才来接，但这次姚小萍很快就下楼来接电话了，听见是她，还以为她是从学校打的。姚小萍问：“怎么？又跟卓越吵架了？”
“没有啊，我跟他到E 市来玩，现在他开会去了，我没事干，给你打电话玩--- ”
“啊？你好阔气啊，从E 市打长途电话玩？那得多少钱？”
“公费的--- ”
“噢，难怪不得，用公家的钱舒服吧？”
她问：“严谨呢？他没跟你在一起？”
“他带学生到青岛那边参加比赛去了--- ”
她几乎忘了严谨也是有正当职业的人，感觉里面好像严谨的专职就是跟姚小萍谈恋爱的。她听见“青岛”二字，感兴趣地问：“那你不叫他帮你买些--- 珍珠项链回来？”
“我是叫他给我买了，噢，还有，我让他把你那串带去做样子了，叫他也送我一串那样的，看他舍得不舍得--- ”
她稍稍有点不高兴，因为姚小萍事先没经她允许就动了她的东西，严谨那个马大哈，可别把项链搞丢了。但她没说什么，知道万一搞丢了，姚小萍肯定会想方设法赔她一串，这点她还是很信得过姚小萍的。姚可能爱占点公家的小便宜，但对朋友还是很豪爽的，决不会占朋友便宜。至于占公家便宜嘛，谁不爱占呢？她这不也在用公费打私人电话吗？
她刚想跟姚小萍开几句玩笑，说“难怪你今天接电话这么快呢”，但姚小萍很郑重其事地问：“你是怎么搞到生育指标的？”
她不懂：“什么生--- 育指标？”
“就是生孩子的指标--- ”
“生孩子的指标？”她心说，生孩子就生孩子，还什么指标不指标？怎么听上去那么难听呢？像是哪个农民在谈养猪的事一样。
姚小萍追问道：“你没拿到生育指标？那你怎么生孩子？你没到学校去要指标？”
她还没把怀孕的事告诉任何人，想等到办了婚礼再说，除了家里人，外人当中就姚小萍一个人知道，她一直掩藏得挺好的，因为她只在吃过饭后想吐，而她一日三餐都是在家吃，所以单位上还没人知道。她不解地问：“生孩子还要到学校去要指标？在哪里去要？”
“应该是学校计生办的吧，我这不是在向你打听吗。如果你还没去要指标，那等你去的时候，你帮我打听打听，看象我这样再婚的，如果带个孩子还能不能生育第二胎--- ”
“你自己怎么不去问？”
“我怎么好去问？怕别人不知道我在搞婚外恋？”
“你丈夫那边--- 弄好了？”
“快了，就是孩子的事还没谈定，所以我要先打听清楚--- ”
她好奇地问：“那如果你带个孩子不能生第二胎，你就--- 不要孩子了？”
姚小萍没吭声，半天才说：“你肯定要觉得我是个没人性的妈妈，但是你不知道，如果你不爱一个人，你天天看到一个跟他长相一模一样的孩子--- 那真的是一种--- 折磨--- 我那儿子-- 现在一举手一投脚都跟他爹一模一样--- ”
“是不是严谨他--- 不能接受你--- 带个孩子？”
“他没有，他对这些事无所谓，我带不带孩子，对他来说都一样，反正也不用他照顾孩子。但是我--- 很担心，他是独子，家里肯定想要个孙子，如果我带着孩子不能再生--- 那真的是太对不起他家了--- ”
她也觉得这是个大问题，忙安慰说：“但是严谨他没孩子，难道不能以他那边的情况让你再生一个？”
“有的说可以生，但有的又说不行，我搞不清楚，所以想请你问问。你也太胆大了，连生育指标都没拿到就怀孕了，如果到时候不让你生，你怎么办？”
这个问题她真的没想过，连生育指标都是第一次听说，她惶恐地说：“我想等到婚礼之后再--- 让人知道，我跟卓越都--- 从来没生过，难道我--- 生一个都不行？”
“不是说你生一个不行，你们两个都是头婚，生一个当然没问题。但是学校有指标限制的，每个单位一年能生多少都是有规定的，所以各单位都会制定一些政策，从年龄上婚龄上限制一下，不然的话，由着你们乱生，那还不该单位吃罚款？”
她吓坏了：“如果我拿不到指标，那怎么办？”
“那就打掉，还能怎么办？”
石燕慌了，问道：“那你知道不知道我们师院是什么规定？”
“我也搞不清楚，不过我知道我弟媳单位的规定是这样的：女方二十五岁以上结婚的，一结婚就有指标，二十五岁以下的要结婚三年才有指标，他们两口子商量结婚时间的时候，我听他们说过，那时我弟媳二十四岁，他们想干脆等一年再结婚，那就马上有指标--- ”
她更慌了：“啊？二十五岁以下的要结婚三年才能生孩子？那我--- 怎么办？”
姚小萍安慰她说：“我说的是我弟媳单位的政策，谁知道师院是什么政策？我生孩子的时候，我们单位就没这些政策。再说你卓越这么神通广大，弄个指标还不容易？既然他同意你生，那肯定是有办法的罗--- ”
她对这一点不敢肯定，很可能卓越跟她一样，根本不知道生育指标的事，所以也不着急，反正孩子不是揣在他肚子里，他就一天到晚忙他的事业，什么都不管。她越想越气，越想越急，对姚小萍说：“我现在去问他一下，看他是不是能搞到指标--- ”
姚小萍交待说：“如果他能搞到指标，你问问他，看他能不能帮我搞一个。”
她想姚小萍也真会见缝插针，这种事也要卓越帮忙，但她想到姚小萍如果不是没人帮忙了，也不会找卓越帮忙，就支吾着说：“我先问问他吧，说不定他连自己的事都帮不上呢--- ”
她挂了电话，就满屋子找卓越，最后在一间大屋子里找到了他，但他坐得很靠里面，脸又不是朝着她这边的，她也不敢喊，只好跑回书房写了个小纸条，让门边的那个人传到卓越那里去。那些人都很配合，一个传一个，象击鼓传花一样。
花传到了卓越旁边那个人手里，而卓越还浑然不觉，正在聚精会神地听发言人说话，他身边那个人碰了碰他，把纸条给了他。他看了纸条，朝她这边望过来，看见了她，顿时脸红了，表情很尴尬，使她想起读书时候的事，班上那些同学在城里混了几年，从穿着打扮到言谈举止，都有点脱离乡下气了，但他们的乡下亲戚仍然是土得那么正宗，又不懂事，最爱上课中间跑到教室来找人，把那些被找的人窘得满脸通红。
她发现自己做了一回乡下亲戚，有点后悔，但在心里给自己鼓气说：我这不是有要紧事吗？如果没要紧事，我会跑来找你吗？
卓越走出来，压低嗓子问：“没看见我在开会吗？什么事？这么急？等我把会开完不行吗？”
她小声咕噜说：“不急我会跑来找你？这里说话不方便，你跟我来一下。”她看得出卓越是努力克制着自己，总算跟她来了，但一路都没跟她说话。他越这样，她越不开心，心想你什么不得了的事？就开个破会，还弄得神乎其神的，难道开会比自己孩子的命还重要？
进了书房，她不等他发牢骚，就说：“我刚才给姚小萍打了个电话--- ”
她还没说完，他就不耐烦地打断她：“我说什么大不了的事呢，姚小萍的事不能等等吗？”
“不是姚小萍的事，是她说--- 她在问我们有没有生育指标--- ”
果然不出她之所料，他根本不知道这回事，摸头不是脑地说：“什么生育指标？你们这些婆婆妈妈的事，两个人在电话上说说就行了，把我搅和进来干嘛？耽误我开会-- ”
她搞烦了：“好吧，好吧，你回去开会吧，我去把这个孩子做掉。”
他吓了一跳：“孩子怎么啦？是坐车坐--- 坏了？”
她见他还是知道为孩子着急的，又原谅了他一些，但仍然绷着脸说：“师院教职工生孩子是需要生育指标的，你知道不知道？”
“我没听说过，你听谁说的？姚小萍说的？她在师院生过孩子？她知道得这么清楚？”
她也不知道姚小萍到底算不算得上搞清楚了，只提醒说：“我就是想看看你知道不知道这事--- ”
“那你不能等我开完会？”
“到底是孩子的事重要，还是你的会重要？”
“孩子的事重要你现在问了也不能做什么，反而把我开会耽误了，你把我叫出来，我就不知道别人在讲什么--- ”
她有点语塞，但她不服气，硬着嘴说：“你会上那点事，就算你错过了，你不会问问其它人？”
“那你不会问问其它人？”
“我问谁？”现在她已经是相当的生气了，她觉得作为一个即将做父亲的人，听到自己孩子的出生权有了问题，难道不应该条件反射地着起急来，慌忙火气地跑去打听或者想办法吗？把他叫出来了，他还这么不高兴，到底有没有一点爱心？
她赌气说：“你去开你的会吧，我回D 市去了--- ”
他瞪着她，生气地说：“你怎么这么不懂事？专门拣我忙的时候耍这种小脾气，我跟你说，你要回去你回去，但是如果你在路上出了什么事，把我的孩子--- 弄怎么样了，我跟你没完! ”
她被他唬住了，又觉得他还是很爱孩子的，可能现在逼着他去打听生育指标的事真的有点过分。她不敢再提回去的事，只绷着个脸，表示没有屈服。
他生了一阵气，说：“你别给我添乱，你给我好好呆在这里，等我开完了会，我会找人打听的。你懂个什么？就知道瞎操心。”
他说完就返回去开会了，她气晕了头，真恨不得马上跑回D 市去，但她现在两眼一抹黑，去哪里坐车都不知道，而且身上一分钱也没带，想跑回D 市都不可能。她生了一阵气，又给姚小萍打电话，对姚诉苦说：“他一点都不在乎，还嫌我把他开会打断了，没见过这种男人，完全不把孩子当回事。”
“他也不知道生育指标的事？”
“他知道个鬼，还是听我说的。如果师院真不让我生，我看他也未必搞得到指标。你怎么不早告诉我生育--- 指标的事呢？”
“我哪里知道你们计划这么早就要孩子？你这么年轻，他年纪也不算大，如果我是你， 肯定要玩几年再生，因为孩子一生出来，就把你捆住了，像我就是这样，如果我那时没怀孕，肯定早就离婚了，也不至于拖到现在--- ”
“你丈夫跟你抢孩子？”
“抢什么孩子？他那种人会跟我抢孩子？我主要是觉得孩子没爸爸不好--- ，现在我也想通了，有那么一个破爸爸，还不如没爸爸--- ”
她现在觉得谁的丈夫都坏不过卓越，便说：“你丈夫也就是--- 跟你没共同语言，他对孩子应该还是--- 没什么问题吧？肯定不会象卓越这样--- ”
姚小萍那边肯定也是觉得天下丈夫唯有自己的最坏：“卓越至少还有点事业心，哪像我丈夫，既不搞事业，也不搞家务，成天就是游手好闲追女人--- ”
“他还敢追--- 女人？那他把你放什么地方？”
姚小萍显然是不知道自己被放在什么地方，恨恨地说：“所以你不要觉得我脚踏两只船对不起他，是他先开这个头的。他那种男人，就是属畜牲的，一天到晚就知道那点事，你怀孕了干不成，他就去找别人。你抓住他了，他还理直气壮得很，说谁叫你怀身大肚干不成的--- ”
这话仿佛给她敲了一记警钟，她有好一阵没说话，心里不知道在想什么，等到姚小萍问了几声了，才说：“你说他们男的--- 是不是真的--- 离不了那事，所以--- 妻子怀孕了--- 他们就爱--- 出轨？”
“什么离不离得了，都是一个借口。花心的男人，你怀孕不怀孕他都可以花心，只不过你怀孕期间他更容易花心罢了。本来嘛，他们追你的时候，就是讲个新鲜，一旦结婚了，不新鲜了，就想着去找更新鲜的。”姚小萍倒完自己的夫，转过来保石燕的夫，“不过我说的是我丈夫那种没理想没追求的男人，你们家卓越肯定不是这样的。我宁愿我丈夫象卓越那样，一天到晚忙事业，我不吃事业的醋，事业上有个追求的男人，就不会一天到晚追女人--- ”
两人又互相“贬我夫捧你夫”了一阵，终于觉得心情好了一些，不知道是因为发现天下丈夫一般黑，还是发现自己的丈夫总还有些比别人丈夫白的地方，或者就仅仅因为有人听了自己的抱怨，似乎就有一半的委屈被电话线传送到对方那边去了，很可能是在电话线上挥发掉了，因为对方似乎并没因此增加委屈。
两人扯七拉八地聊了一通，她问：“上次我转让给你的那些书，你--- 后来跟黄海--- 联系过了吗？”
“联系过了，我说把书钱寄给他，他叫我别寄，说那些书他是送给你的，你想怎么处置都行，但他绝对不会收钱，我寄钱过去了他也会给我退回来的，别搞得两人寄来寄去，白白浪费人力才力--- ”
她很惭愧，书是黄海送给她的，而她转让给姚小萍了，很对不起黄海，她下意识地为自己开脱罪责说：“你有没有告诉他，我把书转让给你，不是因为我对他--- 有--- 意见--- 而是因为我想考出国？”
“我告诉过他了，我说其实不是你想考出国，是卓越叫你考出国--- ”
看来在开脱罪责上，她还需要向姚小萍学习。她问：“那他怎么说？”
“他说他会去帮你搞出国考试的复习资料，不过他听说本科生出国不太容易拿到全