Chapter 9 81-90

81 The next day, Yuan Xiaochen's phone rang, and she began to answer some work calls. From the content of the phone, I could estimate the intensity of her work. It can be seen that Yuan Xiaochen is shrewd and capable at work, and she is full of tricks, " I would rather say ten sentences than take a step" is her motto. It was a matter she had to go to the scene to deal with, but I asked her to make a phone call to solve it. As the night approached, she insisted on cooking together. Eat, I had no choice but to go to the vegetable market with her. Because I exercised too much yesterday, my waist was sore and my legs hurt. This time, I walked like two elderly people. After buying vegetables for a long time, I decided to save trouble. Dinner Eat hot pot, so we had to go to a nearby supermarket to buy another electric hot pot.

After returning home, we washed the vegetables together, and then sat by the hot pot and waited. When the water boiled, she saw the bubbles coming out of the electric hot pot, and she laughed foolishly by herself. I asked her why, and she said, "When you are stupid, It's bubbling like this." 82 Classics often describe love as fiery and deep, which is mostly the feeling of foreign property owners, and it is difficult to imitate it. When Chinese people fall in love, they want to be relaxed, and the pressure of life is so great that people can only talk about it. Doing love as entertainment and leisure is basically no different from hooligan activities. Even white-collar workers can only do this. At night, I sent Yuan Xiaochen home. Just bid farewell in the car: "Go back, if you leave tomorrow morning, you will still be stuck in traffic, and it will take more than an hour to go back. I have to go to bed early today, and next week I will be very busy, and I will have to work overtime every day."

83 "The third time I was raped, I was nine years old, my uncle did it, my cousin held me down, it was a sunny afternoon, there was lightning and thunder outside the window, and it was raining heavily—" When I got home, I couldn't sleep, I was depressed Hanging on the Internet endlessly, writing bullshit pornographic novels, passing the empty time in misery, alas, there is no way, loneliness makes people boring, and, no matter how boring things are, someone has to do them. Thinking back on this weekend, it was like a war, one thing after another, non-stop, I know, this is Yuan Xiaochen's life rhythm, I accidentally stepped on her point.Now, I am sitting in my study, falling into a kind of cold silence, the grass-green checkered curtains are drawn down, no cars can be heard downstairs, the phone does not ring, and the front of my eyes is lined up to the roof. I took out a copy of "Four Books and Five Classics of Vernacular Chinese" at random, and I saw such a sentence, "Young master suddenly said: Send some brave but lacking fighters to attack the enemy and flee quickly." Frowning, it turns out that the ancient Chinese troops were divided into combat groups according to their personalities, and I don't know how they fight!

I threw the "Four Books" aside, and picked up an old and yellow "Rodin's Art Theory". It seemed to be the first art theory I had read. Between the lines, there are trails that I have drawn with my hands for more than ten years. It seems that I thought it was good and wonderful at the time, but I can’t see it now. On the cover is Rodin’s famous sculpture "The Thinker", which I thought at the time It is simply a transcendence of Greek sculpture. The bulging muscles show the beauty and strength of the thinker everywhere, but now it seems that there are many problems. According to my personal experience, when people think, muscles can't help much. Yes, on the contrary, in order to maintain the high speed of the brain, it is necessary to relax the muscles, but Rodin does not see the problem in this way. People believe him. If the troubled model is a thinker, then he is simply making fun of the appreciators. I secretly think that the reason why he can succeed must be because there are few appreciators who have thought.

Hey, the past, the past, those sponge-like pasts, those ignorant pasts that nod their heads indiscriminately, I have mixed feelings, with the pride, novelty and stupidity of youth, and I don't know what to ask people to say. 84 I don’t know when, reading idle books has become the longest part of my life. There are idle books everywhere in the room, which can be grabbed at hand, just like someone likes to leave snacks around the house. People are not surprised, but in my eyes, life becomes a war of attrition against emptiness. In the end, emptiness overcomes life, death ends everything, and the laws of the universe never change. Looking at it this way, no matter what kind of life, it is like a In the long run, the remaining performance is just a matter of demeanor. Those who desperately maintain their mortal self are called lack of demeanor. Those who obey are more calm. Those who are paid attention to are called performers, and the rest are audiences. That's it.There are also a group of other people who try to use strange methods to surpass life, but unfortunately they have not been able to clarify where they have gone. Sometimes I really hope that so-and-so can come back and have a look, and introduce the situation after surpassing life. Unfortunately, This kind of thing never happened.

85 There are often some nameless pains that attack my heart, making me uncomfortable, I try to name them with words and introduce them to others, but unfortunately that is not a story, so no one likes to listen to it, living people have their own set of rules to use Life is real and credible, Beijing is spread on a large piece of land, and people have left traces on this land, but where is Beijing?How can one word describe so many people and things?When I closed my eyes, Beijing disappeared like a puff of smoke. But when I opened my eyes, I thought I was still in that light smoke, and I knew there were cars passing through the streets, people hurrying past under the trees, and outside of Beijing, there was still an imaginary Beijing that existed in everyone's eyes. In the mind, one touches this fantasy with desire, as one dream touches another.

86 The phone rang, and it was Yuan Xiaochen, who asked her where she was, and she said she was in the bathroom, and then she leaned on the receiver and said to me in a mysterious tone: "Our boss has been sick for the past two days." "What disease?" "Flower-crazy!" She said every word. "How did you know?" "In our general manager's office, everyone says that." "It's his fault." "That won't work. It's the first time he committed a crime against me today." "How did he do it?" "When I gave him the documents, he didn't accept the documents, but hugged me and patted my back with his hands. I dodged to leave, but he took the opportunity to touch my hair again."

"So bad all at once?" "Yes, it is said that there are several times more powerful than this." "How old is your boss?" "Fifty, but he dressed as if he was under thirty. I heard that he came to work in a baseball uniform and a baseball cap once." "Then forgive him, how can you not bow your head under the eaves of others?" "I forgive him, don't you go to the bathroom to wash your hands?" "That's good." "not good--" "What's the matter?" "I'm talking about what happened in the morning. In the afternoon, he committed his old problem again. He just touched the neck of Xiao Hong who was listening to the phone."

"Hey, why are you nervous, it's not you anyway." "After a while, it will be my turn. I'm going to deliver the plane ticket to him. No one is panicking here. I'm panting! I just want to wear our knee pads as a collar, and ah, this time Going to Singapore, just four of us, you said we would sit side by side on the plane, what should I do if he makes a mistake? I can’t just take a parachute on the civil aviation! Well, I have to go, and I will report to you later Our boss's new move, in vain." 87 Relying on the reimbursement of mobile phone bills, Yuan Xiaochen would always call me like this when she had nothing to do, telling me some company jokes and trivial matters to relieve work pressure, and taking the opportunity to act coquettishly. She often heard her sighing on the phone: "Look, I'm exhausted from being dominated by them. I might as well be a girl of a big family in the past. Maybe I can meet a handsome guy like Jia Baoyu. Now it's miserable, being surrounded by a bunch of old white-collar workers , I can’t even speak, look, the little white-collar is like this all day long

If you bear the burden of humiliation, you don't pity me. "I always think of our meeting while talking, "You should feel sorry for me when you see me, or there is really no hope for me to live. " Generally speaking, I just listen to her, catch up with a sentence or two, and let her finish her sentence. However, I know that gradually, she has regarded me as a kind of comfort. 88 Four days later, Yuan Xiaochen went to Singapore and came back and bought me a gift from the duty-free shop, a bottle of Versace perfume for men. It is said that with the support of the boss, he secretly bought a high-end suit with public funds and paid it for office expenses. "Seven It’s more than a thousand dollars. They talk about ostentation, and I’ll take advantage of it. Next time you go out, remind me to only bring the dress that my grandma loved to wear when she was seventy, and see if they can buy me a new one!”

This time, she brought back more boss nympho news. "There was a German translator in Singapore, named Juliet, who was uglier than me, and he couldn't bear it. He shook hands with him as soon as he came up, and he even spoke English! It made him feel embarrassed, and said sorry, sir, I don't know. Know Spanish!" "Your boss doesn't speak English well?" "Nonsense, if it works, who will I eat!" She rolled my eyes and said. She added: "After we finished talking, he still went to hug her. In order to avoid him, he hit his head on a vase. It really embarrasses us mainlanders! It's like there are no girls in mainland China. Tell me, why is he Is that so? I didn’t know what to do at the time.” "Later I found out. I took a peek at our financial advisor. He had a straight face and looked at his feet. I will do the same in the future, just like a silent mourning." "It's not over yet! Listen, at the end, when we adjourned, he hugged all the attractive women. I guess he thought he was a member of the upper class from a foreign country, but, Listen, when we saw each other for the last time, he was so dizzy that he hugged another waiter who came in to serve the plate, and everyone turned around, and he was still salivating. Julia told me that like him, In Singapore, they have already been sent to court, how can there be five people and six people wearing suits and making troubles everywhere!" "The most dangerous thing was that one day, we changed hotels, and he asked me to go to his bedside to read an instruction manual for him. He even turned on the light so darkly on purpose that I couldn't read the words clearly! I Said, "Boss, can you turn the light on so that I can read the words clearly?" He said, "Little girl, my eyes are not good. I hope you can help me choose some shirts tomorrow. I trust you young people the most." Eyes!' As he spoke, he touched my back with his hand and almost unfastened the buckle of the bra! I turned around, and he put his arm on my shoulder, and I shook it After touching his hand, he was not angry at all. After a while, he wanted to touch my face with his fingers. I tilted my head and dodged, and he almost knocked my eyes out. Do you think this man is hopeless? saved?" "I'll sue him for sexual harassment in two days." "No one will believe you if you tell me. His white hair is almost gone, and his spirit is not good. He looks like he is incontinent. It is estimated that he has long since failed in that aspect, which is why he looks so nympho. In fact, It's very pitiful. Where is it like you, the biting dog doesn't bark at all!" "Yeah, you don't bite, and your screams are worse than explosions. From now on, stop yelling in bed, as if you want to invite neighbors to watch. Do you know what your voice sounds like? It's like playing a ballad with a hammer drill! You are too rebellious!" "Get out!" She kicked me viciously, "You are not allowed to interfere with my happiness!" 89 After working for more than a month, Yuan Xiaochen received her first salary. She was not at ease with the list. She went to the mall after get off work to buy some odds and ends. The longing for future consumption: "Hey, something happened to me!" She said exaggeratedly, "The money sent to me was beyond my expectation! I really don't know whether I should return it or not!" "I support you to go back, the heavens have eyes, let me have the opportunity to meet noble people in this life." "Bah! I'm not stupid yet, don't teach me! Listen to me, I bought you a long-sleeved T-shirt. It looks good. You can wear it when you meet! Stand in front of the mirror with your chicken breasts up. Let's see what the effect will be if I tell you." She became happy on the phone. "What effect?" "Our lumpy girl Huaichun is just like you!" I don't know where she learned such a sentence and insisted on using it on me. 90 Next, Yuan Xiaochen was even busier. She was a very good secretary. This time, stimulated by the money, she finally felt that she had found her position. She often told me complacently how good and capable she was. She worked harder quietly, because the company started a business with an Italian company, so she started to learn Italian. At first, she learned Italian with a few employees of the company, but later she left them behind because she learned too much. , people saw that she learned so fast, they lost confidence, and in the end, she learned alone. Although she squeezed time to meet with me, the chances of meeting me were getting less and less. She fell asleep after talking nonsense in my arms, her phone was like a death bell, chasing her like a shadow, without a moment's rest, she became thinner, and the suit she wore before wandered around, At the end of the summer, she went to Italy to discuss business with people from the company, and played a game by the way, and it was a little better when she came back. She bought two Venetian masks, one for her, one for me, and a large bag in Rome, Low-value daily necessities collected in Turin, Genoa and other places, which she called works of art, some heavy replica Greek statuettes, a cup, an iron jewelry that can be worn on the body and hung on the wall, A hand-fired plate stolen from a small restaurant, two giant wooden spoons, and other such treasures, she brought back one by one and placed them in my house, and she reluctantly chose the one that looked the worst Ashtray, take it home to send her dad off. The next time I came, I was even more reluctant to take off a small tapestry from the wall and give it to her mother. Her own equipment has also changed, and she is full of mixed public and private things. She often takes out one thing from her bag, which is a brand name, and the other is a more expensive brand name, as well as a handheld computer. Now she is the company's The little red man is like a duck to water and fully committed.