Chapter 101 101

101 Unbelievably stupid - I was dumbfounded by myself, on that rainy day. It was a year after leaving Chen Tian, ​​Aimei and I were on vacation in Dalian.It had been drizzling since the morning, and Aimei’s friend drove us to the military port in a medium-sized van. Because I woke up early and felt sleepy, I sat alone in the last row and opened my mouth lazily.Through the car windows with sunscreen, the beaches, villas, and woods outside are covered in gray cobwebs, blurred and far away, and nothing can be seen clearly.The road was not well repaired, it was very bumpy, maybe it was because I sat at the end, and after an hour of shaking like this, I thought I should change my position, but I still couldn't be bothered to move.At this moment, that idea came from nowhere, and it made my stomach churn with fright.

——It's Shen Xue. This inexplicable ending, until now the love affair that still entangled me was cleared at that moment, and I suddenly realized who is Chen Tian's never-shown girlfriend—who else?I knew it a long time ago, Guo Guo told me from the very beginning, she is Chen Tian's secretary, Shen Xue, a girl five years younger than me! What's so strange?You'll say you've always known he had another lover, and that's not news.No, no, his lover can be any woman, as long as it's not Shen Xue, as long as you don't make me think I'm an idiot, I'm an incorrigible idiot who can't wake up with a few slaps!I said that I have cross lines on my palms, I have intuitive abilities, and the most clever of them is my sensitivity to the feelings of men and women.When I was twelve years old, my mother had a colleague, Aunt Zhang, who had an extramarital affair. She came to tell my mother her heart. My mother is known for her integrity. One can imagine her attitude towards such things. Mention who.I walked into the room by chance, and their conversation continued, I only heard a few words, but I remembered them.Many years later, I mentioned Aunt Zhang once, and I said I knew that she had an extramarital affair with Uncle XX.My mother was shocked and asked me how I knew, I don't know how, but I just know.When I grow up later, this kind of skill is naturally higher and stronger. As long as someone within my radius moves their eyes and flaunts even a little bit of flair, I will catch it. I am always the first to know about the love affairs of friends around me. I can know a thing or two about what's on my mind.The slightest sign of such a thing escapes my eyes, and I can even smell it with my nose.

How can I be so stupid? !What a mystery! Okay, let's talk about Shen Xue. ——A delicate girl with narrow eyes, thick eyebrows and long hair, in my impression she always dresses in a simple and casual way, not talking much, not pretentious, she looks like a high school student. (You can see, she is the type Chen Tian likes.) I have limited friendship with her, but we have always been friendly.Every time I go to "Tian Tian Shang", she will take a teacup, pour water, hand me the printed script, and occasionally chat for a while.I heard the talkative Guo Guo talk about her. She was born in a small town in the south, her parents divorced, her life was poor, and she went to an unknown college in Beijing. Someone in the company that her mother knew recommended her to be Chen Tian secretary.Shen Xue's only relative in Beijing is her distant cousin, who seems to be an entertainment reporter from a certain newspaper, whom Guo Guo knows, and according to Guo Guo's statement, she is proud of the ambiguous relationship between Shen Xue and Chen Tian.It is precisely because of Guo Guo's doubts about her cousin's character that I took the relationship between Chen Tian and Shen Xue that she told me at the first time as a boring gossip.But can I not see it?of course not.I have seen Chen Tian take care of Shen Xue on many occasions, as long as he can take care of her, he will try to say a few words to show his concern.On days when the company's lunch box is not delicious, they often go out to eat together.He had always been considerate to girls, and he suspected him of being mean.Shen Xue is a pure and straightforward girl. During the days when I went in and out of "Everyday Upward", I saw her becoming increasingly gloomy, preoccupied, and eccentric, with a resentful look that only women have. Didn't I Ever wondered why?Once, Chen Tian and I talked very late, everyone in the company left after get off work, and Shen Xue from the room outside also left.We kept talking, quite seriously, I forgot what we were talking about, anyway, it was business, and I was still keeping a distance from Chen Tian at that time.It was getting dark outside, and the whole office building became very quiet.Suddenly, the outside door rang, and someone entered the outside office, "Who is it?" Chen Tian asked, but no one answered.I think Shen Xue forgot something and didn't care.As the conversation continued, Chen Tian suddenly got up, picked up the teacup and walked out the door, meaning to pour water.The lights in the outside room were not turned on, and it looked strange through the glass door.He said a few words outside, but Shen Xue remained silent, that time should have been longer than pouring a glass of water.I didn't think about it again after he came back with the water, and I didn't pay attention to whether he drank the glass of water or not.

Another time, a group of people from Hong Kong were discussing co-production of a film at the company. We wanted to eat Sichuan food at noon, so we went to Tianfu Restaurant near the company.Before leaving, Chen Tian asked Shen Xue if he wanted to go together, Shen Xue shook his head.Halfway through the meal, Chen Tian's pager rang, and he glanced at it but didn't call back.On our way back, Chen Tian stopped in front of a grocery store to buy something. "Shen Xue asked him to buy something." I don't know why I think so.Returning to the company to continue working, the Hong Kong people fiddled with their video cameras, looking at the exterior scenes in Beijing, and I went to the bathroom in the corridor.Just a few seconds after I walked quickly through the outer room to the door, I saw Chen Tian standing in front of Shen Xue's desk, he was slightly hunched over, talking about something, or giving her something.My footsteps did not stop at all, but the back at that moment was enough for me.The kind of aura that makes the nose expand and the heart tightens is already there, which cannot be explained but cannot be concealed. "It's not okay, it's annoying me," I said to myself in the hallway.

There are many more moments like this, which I ignore and forget.And on that rainy day, on the roads in the outskirts of Dalian, they popped up one after another, regardless of my ability to bear it. "Don't want the plot of the female secretary and the male president, it's not good." Chen Tian commented on a TV drama synopsis. "I'm twenty years older than you, didn't I think about this?" You are twenty-five years older than her, why are you still saying such hypocritical things! "You're still a little girl." God! "Stop." I said weakly from behind.

"What's wrong with you?" Aimei turned her head. "I'm going to throw up, motion sickness." "Stop the car, Tao Ran is uncomfortable." Ai Mei yelled. Standing on the side of the gray road, my hair and clothes are getting wet, Aimei is holding an umbrella beside me, I push her away. "Spit it out, it will feel better when you spit it out." But I just bent over and retched, and couldn't spit out anything. "I'm afraid I'm going to die."—this is the one who's going to die! I thought of how many times I walked into Chen Tian's office under her eyes and under her gaze, how Chen Tian's fingers slid across the back of my hand through the glass door, and how he licked my hands on their bed. One picks up my hair, I'm ashamed, almost die of shame!

Facing the field in the rain and mist in the distance, I couldn’t vomit out the love stuffed in my chest, only tears. I straightened my waist, with tears in my eyes, and said, “I can’t forgive him.”