Chapter 88 88

88 I spent a night of waiting, alone, wearing a white linen shirt, very formal, it was the attire for a dinner party, in the night, in the evening wind, I knew my face was bright and bright, ready to smile, I put Eat dinner as a ritual. This is what it feels like to wait for a person, my stomach hurts faintly, my hands and feet are numb, I force myself to eat, fragrant rice, southern milk lotus root slices, watercress stewed with raw fish, I eat hard .It's easy to live without any hope before nine o'clock. From nine o'clock to ten o'clock, I plan to divide it into four stages, and wait for each stage one by one. He said that there was a ninety-year-old lady in his dinner party, The old lady can't last that long, it should be over before ten o'clock.What if he can't come?what should I do?Should I act very sensible and tell him it's okay?Or force him to come, even if it's just to look at him.He used to drive a long way just to see me. If he doesn't come, it means he doesn't love me as much as before.The first quarter of an hour passed, and there was a reading program on the TV in the restaurant. Although the sound was turned on very low, there were subtitles, so it could be watched from a distance.I had already drank most of the can of soup, and the woman at the next table who said that without ambition, I can't achieve great things has left, and even the foreigners who came later have finished eating.The restaurant closes at ten o'clock, if he still doesn't call, where should I wait?The second quarter of an hour also passed. "Do you still love me?" I want to ask him this way, I have never asked anyone this way, I always refuse to be straightforward, maybe it is my problem.At nine forty, the phone rang.His voice sounded vague and distant.

"It's just finished, I won't go there." "What's wrong?" "It's almost time, I should go back." I didn't make a sound, not knowing what to say. "I had a cold at first, and the air conditioner in the restaurant broke down again, so it was terribly cold." "Go back if you feel uncomfortable." "It's so boring, I want to be with you when I'm full of energy." "Where are you?" "On the way, near Wanwanzhuang." "Oh, over there." "OK?" "ask me?"

"Yes, I'm asking you to let me in or not." "I just wanted to see you." "I'll see you tomorrow." "Well. If you are sick, go back." "What about you? Still eating?" "Well, I'm waiting for you." "So? The more you learn, the worse you get." "I'm telling the truth." "Well, how is tomorrow?" "Okay, let's go back." I have no choice, I have tried my best, even if my love luck is very good today, I wear my lucky color, I use various methods of divination like a superstitious fool, and I take the initiative to give He called, I forced myself to say straight up that I wanted to see him, I was impeccably dressed, I changed at least five outfits, and I waited patiently all night.I feel that I am sad, I am very afraid that the kind of sadness will continue to intensify, and if it intensifies, it will hurt very much. I know, I will cry, and I will be knocked down. It will not reach this level, you are a hard-hearted Capricorn .

Tomorrow we will meet, in a meeting at the company, I can see him, but only from a distance, we have become out of reach. The phone rang again, and I thought he had changed his mind and turned to look at me. of course not. It was a phone call about writing a script. This phone call saved me and restored my identity to reality. I tried my best to move my head, answer all kinds of questions raised by the other party, and ask all kinds of questions to the other party. The phone call lasted 20 minutes , During these 20 minutes, I talked as much as possible, very enthusiastically, I felt the blood flow back to my heart little by little, the sadness no longer intensified, the trembling caused by the pain gradually subsided, okay, that's it, that's it...

I sat for a while, and when the waiter started sweeping the floor, I checked out and left.I think the tacit understanding between us may have disappeared, or it should be said that the good luck of always being together is no longer there. This tacit understanding once made us love each other, and when it is gone, we are destined to be separated.