Chapter 75 75

75 Winter is coming, it is a harsh winter for Chen Tian, ​​and it is also for me. Everything went wrong, one after the other, and it was impossible for anyone to reverse it.Chen Tian was caught in the entanglement of affairs and couldn't get out. He had repeatedly asked to leave the company and go home to write, which made him very unhappy with the company.A lot of things were left there, and he was frowning all day long, helpless.I heard more than one person complain, saying that he took a lot of things with enthusiasm at the time, but now he suddenly puts his hands away and puts everyone in the middle.I can only listen, he has been under too much pressure.

"Children's Sky" was left in mid-air like other things. The Hong Kong producer called me, saying that it had been delayed for too long, and Chen Tian could not be found. Chen Tian's female secretary was still talking to him, Let him go to the co-production department.I still can only listen.I won't ask Chen Tian about this matter, every minute with him is precious to me, I don't want to gossip like this.Moreover, this matter was initiated by him in the first place, and he can do whatever he wants. I know that I have completely violated the principles I set for myself, and this is the inevitable result. I deviated from the first principle and fell in love with Chen Tian, ​​and I can only get out of hand in the future.This is a bit like Xu Chen's theory - if you don't keep the first oath, you don't have to keep it in the future.There is no principle in my life anymore, the only logic left is Chen Tian's logic.

Du Yufei and Chen Tian fell out.I mentioned this woman before, from Chen Tian's past chats, I knew how good she was to him. He said they were good buddies, but what she asked for must not be good buddies.As the boss often said: there is a problem with the relationship between supply and demand.Chen Tian's kindness to women is enough to make people have illusions, but "goodness" is "goodness", neither consistent nor exclusive.Chen Tian agreed to edit a set of books in order to repay Du Yufei's favor. Du Yufei didn't know why he doubted him, so he called him in the middle of the night and asked: Tell me honestly, what exactly do you want to do?Anyway, they don't trust her anymore, and being so rude shows how close they were in the past.How can a strong woman be willing to be neglected and wronged by a man?

It was really an eventful winter, and the most terrible blow to Chen Tian finally came - his father passed away. I haven't seen Chen Tian for a while, his voice is completely hoarse, and his whole face is swollen because of toothache.I want so badly to comfort him, but I can't, I'm another trouble for him, all I can do is get away from him and keep him quiet. He stopped calling every day, with longer and longer intervals, but I still waited by the phone every day. That gloomy winter day was the most exhausting and depressing day for Chen Tian. He looked like a different person, lifeless, gloomy and silent, which made people feel sad. Weeping all the time, he said: When I die, I don't know if I can be respected from the bottom of my heart like my parents.He said he drove all night on the third ring road, he felt his creativity was exhausted, he didn't know what to do, and sometimes he was so desperate to crash into the fence...

When I saw him, he was writing in front of the computer, and I sat down far away without speaking. He kept his back to me and never looked back, which made me feel that it was the posture he chose for me, the subconscious posture, the posture that made him safe.I looked at the back, and suddenly thought of Zhang Chu's song, and the lyrics flew into my mind - "He is old and no longer a match." He got old suddenly that winter, and he will continue to grow old, I don't want him to feel that way!It has been a long time since I felt such deep pity, and there is nothing I can do, my hands cannot smooth his wrinkles, I cannot comfort him, and I will never be able to blame him.I didn't care to feel sorry for myself that winter. If anything could make him happy, I would do anything.The problem is, I can't do anything.

It took a long time before he stood up from the computer, walked in front of me, and without saying a word, suddenly squatted down, hugged my legs, and hung his head in my arms... ——My heart has turned into a puddle of water, and the puddle of water is so sour that it will drown me.