Chapter 73 73

73 When Yadong called, I was so bored, but please be polite. "Hello!" I pretended I hadn't seen him in months and wasn't planning to see him again. "How are you?" "very good." If we continue the conversation, I know that I will pretend to be busy, and he will also tell me that he is just saying hello and will contact me when he is free.If I don't call, he has already been rejected once, and he won't take the initiative to call again. Everything is over, and there is no need to say a word. If we meet again, there is no need to be embarrassed, and everything is very decent.

But he knew as much about it as I did, so he spoke up. "I'm going to America next week, I'm afraid I won't be back often..." "That's right." "are you free tomorrow?" I paused, he waited on the other end of the phone, all right. "Okay, let's have dinner together, or where should we sit?" I first stated my position, how can he not know if he is so smart. "Jazz·ya, it's half past eight in the evening." "it is good." I sat at Jazz·ya waiting for him, very disapproving of the place he had chosen, even though the cocktails were top notch and the music was good.This is the place where Yadong and I met for the first time. It is not his style to pick a random place. Everything he does has other meanings. This is the reason why I like him. We don’t say anything to test each other’s understanding. Strength for joy.But with my current state of mind, I'm really not interested in this kind of game. I hope he won't make another dramatic scene like kissing me on the eve of the wedding.

While I was sitting on a wooden chair drinking Coke ice cream and thinking wildly, Yadong came in.He still looks good, still catches my eye, just as he did a year ago when I spotted him at that raucous party.But so what?I am familiar with his expression when making love, but I can't tell where he works.A design company!That's right.But which one?What is he doing?I really do not know. He said he was leaving and immigrating to the United States, and his wife had already gone.I said yes!It seems that you are lucky, because my cousin is also going to the United States and has been rejected countless times, and now she has to wait in line for two or three years for immigration.He said so, haven't you thought about going out?I said no, I'm not going to live in a country that speaks another language, except to hang out.Why?Because I like this place, I have the language talent here, I was born and raised here, I like the men here, and I only fall in love with them.Not to mention I didn't notice, all my boyfriends are from Beijing, with only a few exceptions, I didn't do it on purpose, it seems, I still love the temperament of this city, even if I always complain about its air Dirty, bad weather.

He usually doesn't talk much, I vary depending on the opponent, but we chatted for a long time that day, I must be trying to be warm and let it all end on a friendly note.It could have been done. He still looked at me calmly, his eyes narrowed for a smile. "Didn't know you could chatter, never noticed before," he said when I said that there are two New Yorks for me, Woody Allen's New York and Martin Scorsese's New York . "You don't like their movies?" "I don't know anything about movies." Well, I won't smooth things over for you anymore, you insist on doing something amazing before you leave?okay then.I stared at the ice cream that had melted into the cola in the glass, and made no sound.

He sighed and became serious: "I don't know if I should say it or not. I know I'll just hold on and I'll go. I'll never tell you. But I'm selfish and I'm afraid if I don't say it , I will remember you for thinking about these unspoken words. I don't want to think about it in the United States." I looked up at him, my face must have been flushed with tension, and he smiled. "You thought I was going to say 'I love you'? Did you?" "I don't know why." I raised my eyes, a little annoyed. He still looked at me with a smile.

"What are you trying to say?" I asked, irritated. "Every time I want to say something, I think you will think I'm talking stupid, so I have no choice but to stop." "I don't think you are talking stupid. On the contrary, you are a rare smart person." "Of course, because I understand every word of yours, every expression on your face. You like me, but that's all, don't stay too long, you should go, don't tell me about you, I don't want to know !I'd rather I be stupid and don't know what you mean. Tell me, is there someone who can't see that clear line you've drawn?"

How do I answer? "I thought you liked it, you didn't show any... displeasure, and you're married," I pointed out to him. "Don't tell me you have any principles, don't associate with married men, isn't that the best boundary you want?" "That's not the case." "Then there is still a reason. You suddenly stopped talking to me, but you don't think I need to know the reason." "I've been punished." "I can't tell exactly what to blame you for, maybe it's because you didn't give yourself a chance."

"Actually, if you give yourself a chance, if you want to love, you will eventually love." "yes?" "Yes." I affirmed his question, "——I have boarded the pirate ship, and it is about to sink." "That's right." He was silent for a while. "Forget it, it's not a mistake not to fall in love with me." He finally said with a smile, quite gracefully. If Yadong was trying to hit me, he did, and these days I keep finding out that I'm actually a smart fool.Of course he didn't want to hit me, what to hit me?Under normal circumstances it would not have disturbed me at all, perhaps it would have fed my pride, but now it is different—love makes one so humble.I very much hope that one day I can say to Chen Tian as chicly as he did: "Forget it, it's not a mistake not to fall in love with me." Or, "It's not a mistake not to love me from the beginning to the end." What a mistake." But I couldn't say this, because Chen Tian refused to admit that he didn't love me.

According to the elementary school teacher: Students, what does this incident about Yadong show?I'll raise my hand to answer - it's an example of how two similar people, or two smart people, just can't end well. That's it. ——Only misunderstanding can produce strange charm and love.