Chapter 68 68

68 Ten days later, at eleven o'clock in the evening, I saw Chen Tian.He sat in the dark, and the entire building was without power.I came up in the dark, and the tense feeling of deep feet and shallow feet made the word "cheating" very vivid. He took out the candle he brought and lit it. In the flickering candlelight, his face was in a trance, lacking in reality.I reached out to grab him and grabbed his arm that was sunk in the shadows, at least his body was real, warm, weighty, bouncy, and there it occupied the corner of the couch - the only thing I could grab thing.I just kept holding on, never let go, didn’t want to say anything, I just wanted my hands not empty, my arms not empty, I didn’t want to listen to love words, no matter how nice they sounded, love words are empty, love is also empty Yes, everything I have is empty.God bless Plato, let his love go to hell, I want this real, touchable, fresh and completely material love.Let's make love, I need your weight on me, your heat in my face, I need to feel filled, shaken, baked.Let's go to bed, let's fuck, let's cheat, since we are such a bitch, let's cheat again and again, in this candlelight, in the dead of night, even if we type out love Daqi can’t change this fact, even if you insist on not having sex with other women, you can’t change this fact, let’s cheat, or we are born to like cheating, any normal love can’t satisfy us, we need tears, we need ambiguity , needing separation, needing to cross barriers, needing everything beyond reach, don't we have arrogance?Have we not shamelessly sung carols?Let's cheat!

"Are you a Pisces?" Chen Tian suddenly asked when he was driving me home. "No, why ask this? This is not your topic." "They say Pisces are born for love." He glanced at me and didn't continue. Born for love, many people advertise themselves like this, born for love?No, I am not born for love. Love is a monster that I can't hide from. It is the winking eyes thrown at me by life. A little nostalgia born from looking forward to love is the reason for this world to take you down and make you give up your dignity. The only weapon.Don't talk too much about living for love.

"I'm not a Pisces. If I were a Pisces, I would have made you restless and jumped up and down!" I laughed and poohed him. "Aren't I restless now?" "I don't know why, is there a Pisces who is as restrained as me?!" "I don't understand, I just glanced at Xu Xiaobin's novel called "Pisces"." After stopping for a long time, the car had already driven off the Third Ring Road, and he said, "Your restraint is what makes me sad the most." These are Chen Tian's love words, which shows that he has insight into everything. He knows how restrained I am to smile at him gently, to obey his wishes, not to say I love him every minute, to not say I love him every minute. Only by suppressing the desire to hug him for a moment can I sit quietly, not cry, talk, smile, live...

He knows I love him more than I show and it scares him. Later he said. "You are a hidden volcano. A smoking volcano is not scary. People will avoid it, but you, you stay there quietly. When you erupt suddenly, you will destroy everything." "Don't worry, the crust here is much harder than other places." But he was obviously not at ease.