Chapter 33 33

33 At ten o'clock in the evening, Chen Tian's car drove downstairs. He looked gentle and sad, which is my favorite look. "what happened to you?" "Actually, I can go back after seeing you." "Find a place to sit for a while." He nodded and started the car. "I never told you about myself, did I?" he said as he drove, not looking at me. "No." "I want to talk to you." "Ok." "I always end up in this embarrassing situation!" He looked tense and frustrated, and I waited for him to go on, as if he didn't know how to start.

"Let's take a while." His own business was about women, and everyone knew that he had a wife, children, and that he didn't live with them, that he had another life, another lover, and in short, a lot of trouble. By the time we sat down in a nearby hotel café, he was much quieter. "Where did you take your son to play?" I think it's time to talk about light topics. "go fishing." "How's the harvest?" "It's not good. Thinking of your absent-mindedness, the fish won't even know it's biting the hook." "Is it fishing in the fish pond?"

"right." "Then let's go fishing." "It's not that kind of small fish pond, it's very big. Let's go together next time." "it is good." He smiled on the opposite side, looking very tired: "You can always make me quiet." He told me about his parents and their conflicts when he was a child.His father was an orthodox old writer who had been the editor-in-chief of a major newspaper, and he had been a rebel since he was a child. Their conflict continued for many years, and it was not until later that they discovered that they were proud of each other.

"My father once said to my mother, I don't worry about anything else about this child, I'm only afraid that there will be a lot of trouble with 'women'..." "Is he right?" "Yes, I didn't understand at the time. I was only in my twenties and I just started dating." "He has a sharp eye and sees things you haven't noticed yet." "yes." He was silent for a moment, and I think he thought he would never be like his father, and he felt bad about it in the bottom of his heart. "I want to make everyone happy, but it's impossible. Good intentions or not, things are always wrong," he said nonchalantly. You're already married and have kids."

What can I say? "I'm going to England for a month, will you come with me?" I shake my head. "Think about it, there is still time, let me know if you want to go." I smiled. In the end why he was depressed and entangled by something, he didn't say anything in the end, and I didn't ask anything.Come to think of it, during the year we were together, I never asked him any questions.Several times, he tried to talk about it, and I think he even wanted me to ask a question to continue this topic, but I finally couldn’t ask, I heard where he said it, out of dignity, I don’t ask, That means I have nothing to do with other women around him.

He sent me home as usual. "Sorry, it's too late." "Where, I often go out at this time." "Don't do that." "'Don't do that.'" I imitated him. "That's what my mother used to say." "I'm twenty years older than you, do you think I haven't thought about this?" "That means you're already in love, and I'm still in the amniotic fluid with my eyes closed!" "That's cruel." "Come on, it's not that scary!" He didn't make a fuss, and suddenly stretched out his arm to hold my hand. I didn't move, and he didn't make any more noises. He just drove all the way downstairs to our house.

Chen Tian stopped the car, and then let go of my hand to change gears. After I got home that night, I really wanted to call him, because the atmosphere in the Peugeot just now was really strange, I thought I should make a few jokes to dispel the ambiguous atmosphere, but his phone has been busy, I know That's his trouble on the busy line. One night, I called him, and he spoke bluntly and impatiently on the phone. After he said something, he realized it was me——he mistook me for another woman.I secretly made up my mind at that time, never let him speak to me in such a tone!If rejecting his love will serve that purpose, reject him.

Reject him, I made up my mind. But what did he ask for?Only intimacy and kindness can be refused.