Chapter 29 29

29 Bai Tushan came back from France before the weather warmed up. Bai Tushan was not originally called Bai Tushan, but her name was Bai Xiaohui, and Tushan was her own name. Tushan is a watery girl. To say she is water is not a description, but she is indeed water.When she came back from Japan, she bowed her head and her head was smooth, her features were clear and her eyes were clear, and the most important thing was the gentleness of bowing her head, and her shyness that could not bear the cool breeze.When he came back from France, he became a living person, his whole body was tanned and glowing, his eyeliner was thick and curled up, his gestures were coquettish and charming, and his clothes were not to mention avant-garde in France.I can't imagine what she will look like when she goes to Africa! (She thinks she should marry a chief and live near the equator.)

According to Aimei, Tushan's life is dominated by water, her life is filled with water, she has no concentration, and always drifts with the current, so she is doomed to be adrift all her life. After Tushan found out, she decided to add some concentration to her life, and asked Aimei for advice.Ai Mei said that this help can't be helped, she thinks everything should go with the flow.Tushan borrowed a lot of books from Aimei to read. Aimei borrowed her book and let it go. After studying for a long time, Tushan decided to change her name to Bai Tushan, which means a high earth mountain, to shake the water in her life.She seriously announced to everyone that she hoped that everyone would call her "Baitushan" in the future, and the more she called her, the more effective she would be.However, everyone disagreed, some thought the name was ugly, and some called it just to make her happy.She made up her mind to change her passport, and after asking several times, she realized that it would be a lot of trouble.Slowly, the freshness wore off, and everyone called her Xiaohui again.She persisted for a while, but because of the nature of water, she gave up.

But I keep calling her Tusan, hoping to help her. Of course, it must have had little effect. Back then, Tushan divorced the Japanese and made up her mind to go to France for one reason—she loved France.There is certainly much to love about France, and why Tussan loves it is unknown.Anyway, she got divorced, left her younger son to her mother in Beijing, and went straight to France, where she married an old French man named Chanel Philippe a year and a half later. When she came back from France in the early summer of that year, she hadn't married the old handsome Qianla.The story about Bai Tushan is basically remembered by her love eyebrows, and Tushan herself has forgotten it.

I first met Tu Shan a year ago. She had just returned from Japan, and she hated Japan deeply. She didn't understand how she went to that place and married a Japanese.Aimei reminded her of how she was so dissatisfied with Japan, how elegant the scenery was, how exquisite the life was, and how attractive the men were. Bai Tushan looked at Aimei in surprise and said decisively: "Impossible." Seeing that Aimei was so angry that she couldn't help it, Bai Tushan waved her hand and said nonchalantly: "It's possible, I forgot. Anyway, I can't bear it for a day now."

For me, who kept a diary since I was a child and kept every scrap of paper, Bai Tushan was considered to have never lived.I am so obsessed with recording my actions and feelings (mainly feelings, those diaries basically do not describe what happened), in the hope that I can discover some truths, truths about people.Observing others is of course also a way, but it is more difficult than observing yourself. It requires insight and interest in others (like love eyebrows).As a socially awkward person I choose to watch myself.I want to be able to discover how I react when things come my way, whether my intuition about a person is accurate, what is causing me real anger, what is on my mind most, what is the source of my inconsistent behavior, etc.

Tushan never bothered about this, she only lived in the present, at this moment, and she was neither interested nor responsible for everything at that time, whether it was behavior or thought.Aimei and she are college classmates, and I saw how she was confused and stumbled through her youth, until she was thirty years old, she was still the same and had no progress.Aimei sighed repeatedly every time she mentioned her past, saying that she was a god-man, while Tushan always interrupted with a smile on the sidelines as if nothing had happened: "Really, there is such a thing? Impossible!"

Tussan had had her purse stolen twice in France, by handsome young men she had accosted in the streets and parks of Paris.Think about it, in the picturesque Luxembourg Gardens (where the love scenes of countless French movies were filmed), the sun shines through the thick branches and leaves of chestnut trees and dapples on the stone pavement, and the black-haired The French boy met a charming oriental woman. They greeted each other, talked softly, looked at each other, and the emotions were turbulent. Everything was so beautiful. The only problem is, the French guy took the Chinese girl's wallet.

Tushan is fearless because she has no memory.It's easy to endure when you don't know, but when you know what's coming your way, you're terrified.This is why older people lack courage. When Schopenhauer talked about the pain in the world, he said: "The ability of thinking, memory, and foresight possessed by man is a machine to condense and store his joy and sorrow. Animals do not have this ability; whenever they are in pain , as if experiencing such suffering for the first time. Animals are incapable of summarizing such feelings. How enviable their unconcerned, serene disposition is therefore!"

How envied Bai Tushan is! Tushan's temperament is so cute, I liked her almost immediately, after she went to France, I often asked Aimei how she was doing, and when she came back this time, Aimei and I couldn't help eating and chatting with her, and participating in some art activities.Tushan was generally ignorant of art, not disgusted, nor interested.But Aimei believes that she has a keen sense of art, so she doesn't refuse to take her to watch dramas, art exhibitions, or buy VCDs, so let's take a look.