Chapter 12 12

12 After leaving Xu Chen, I lived a simple life. Because I was tired, I found a gentle and elegant boyfriend, and then got tired of it, and longed for a different life again. I call those days the "Red Shoes Era", The notable feature of the "red shoes period" is heartless, reckless behavior, and the obvious feature brought about by it is that there are many boyfriends. If Candice Bushnell writes this in her column Sex and the "City", she would definitely describe it this way: "For a while, the girl chose three men and slept with them on the first, third, and fifth, so that there were four days left to do nothing. About the four free days she was thinking of Two ways, one is to find three more boyfriends, or go to bed with each of them twice a week, and the rest of the day as a rest. Neither of these methods is feasible, the former is because she is absent-minded and often calls the wrong name , misremembering the date. The latter requires them to be more attractive to her."

As I said at the beginning, people's desires are inconsistent, ever-changing, and chaotic, holding your nose and making you exhausted.For human beings, desire and boredom are two pillars, alternately appearing to support our life.All choices are related to these two things.But vampire zombies are not. They only have desires, never get tired, and rarely betray.They are my kind. During those days, I met a lot of good people, and of course some bad ones.This is what I think now. At that time, I didn’t care whether they were good or bad. As long as there was a little attraction, it might be the wrinkles at the corners of the mouth when smiling, a tired look, a lonely figure turning away , anything is possible.

There is a song by Li Shouquan, which I often listened to at that time. I forgot the title of the song, but I only remember the first sentence: "There was a dinner and a bed, at what time, where and with whom, I have forgotten, I have forgotten..." I'm like the village girl who put on the red dancing shoes, spinning away like the wind, not stopping for anything, not for happiness, not for warmth, not for joy, not for love. Maybe I'm missing a lot, who knows. Many years later, I met a "red shoes" boyfriend on the street. We hadn't seen each other for a long time. My impression of him was that he kept smoking and had a pair of slender and beautiful hands. After two or three greetings, he suddenly said: "Marry me." To be honest, I really wanted to say: "Okay." Just like in the movie, then I held hands with him, looked at each other and walked away, walking farther and farther on the avenue of sunshine, music From now on, "The End of the Drama" is launched, a perfect Hollywood-style ending!It should happen at least once in my life!I was standing on the street giggling while thinking this way.

But the red shoes turn out to be an ugly pair of broken shoes, and the poor girl cut off her own feet to get rid of it! In the early spring of 2002, a Kneehigh The theater's British troupe came to perform this play, and the butcher took a shiny butcher's knife (it was a real knife, and it sparkled on the ground) and gestured at the girl's feet, knowing that he would not It's really chopping, but it still makes me shudder. If you don't believe that restraint is the key to happiness, indulgence certainly isn't. This is my experience.