1 "Men only grow old and never mature." ——Paul Éluard, "The Public Rose" "I can't find you anymore, you are not in my heart, not here. Not on other people's minds.Not in this rock either. I can never find you again. " — Rilke, "The Olive Garden" I know I'm going to grow old and no one can stop it from happening, not even your love, I'm going to grow old from now on, first quietly, then with a lot of fanfare, until one day you see I'd be amazed - the one you love can be another. We're all going to be different, even if we don't believe it.

Ah Zhao is stubbornly messing around, Gouzi is stubbornly drinking, Xu Chen is stubbornly changing girls, Aimei is stubbornly not getting married, the boss is stubbornly doing nothing, I am stubbornly being your little girl, we are stubbornly being your little girl when others go home Going out when others are sleeping, stubbornly working when others are sleeping, stubbornly wandering around pretending to be innocent, but these are meaningless. You know I've done my best, I've done my best for what I promised you, you're bossy and demanding, you beg me, you want me to say yes, you want me to be young forever, you want me to be your legend, for For your love, I must be young, forever young, I must continue to be self-willed, I must be stubborn to the end-you only love that girl, that girl who dances striptease in the morning light of time.

The process of us growing from youth to maturity is just a process of gradually becoming accustomed to the unreasonable and absurdity of our desires, words and deeds. One day, when I understand that we do not have the nature to obtain happiness, we have been tortured for a long time when we were young. And my pain vanished. "What can't be changed is something we have to live with." Our needs are conflicting, ever-changing, and chaotic, and nothing given by any god can make us eternally happy. I have neither sympathy nor trust in human nature.