Chapter 36 36

I was smoking in the courtyard alone. The night in the suburbs of Beijing was very quiet, and the air was filled with the smell of earth. I really felt that we gangsters had ruined such a good place. Xiaoyu is a female cynic. She used to be in the same group as Gao Yuan. She can be regarded as Gao Yuan's best friend of the opposite sex. She is a very weird guy and a makeup artist.I admire her very much, even a face like mine can look like a star after she paints it with those colorful paints. I've heard people say that once a girl becomes an angry youth, she has a reason to change boyfriends. Otherwise, Xiaoyu is very persistent in her attitude towards love. In the past few years, she has been living with a poet who became famous in the 1970s. She raised the old man, which made me stand in awe.

Xiao Yu came out and got a cigar from someone. She held it in her mouth so funny, it was thicker than her thumb.She sat down next to me with a grim expression on her face. "The two of you are amazing! One of you gave the little girl a big mouth." I thought she gave me a thumbs up, but when I looked carefully, it turned out that she was passing the cigar in front of my eyes, and I took it, ruthlessly After taking two sips, I almost choked on tears. "What's the matter?" I asked her, "This scum in Gaoyuan also participated in our people's anti-pornography war?"

Xiao Yu, a big angry youth, always looked at me sternly, "To be fair, Gao Yuan is a good person...how should I put it?" She pondered for a while, "In today's age, physical deviance... shouldn't It's a betrayal, I think Gao Yuan is not bad, and I'm worthy of you." "Xiaoyu, although we don't have a deep friendship, I know who you are, and I won't be able to clarify the matter with Gao Yuan in a short time..." I looked very depressed, and the throbbing of beating people just disappeared in an instant, and I was depressed extreme. "To be honest, Yu, you are much purer than me emotionally. To put it bluntly, Gao Yuan and I have been using the guise of love for the past few years to earn some living capital."

"Chu Xiao, you and Gao Yuan both know that your relationship is unusual." I look at the sky, the stars are shining, these eternal stars have witnessed all the flowers and moons in the days when I first fell in love with the plateau, but now, I don’t know where they all disappeared, maybe some of them have gone with the stars I want to cry, for my innocent years. "That day, Gao Yuan came to the group, and he talked about you with me. He said that you are not a human, but a goblin, and he is doomed..." Xiao Yu looked at me sarcastically. I don't know if she was mocking me or Satirizing Gao Yuan, "Zhang Mengmeng was there that day, and gave me and Gao Yuan a cake. I took a piece, and Gao Yuan also took a piece. Zhang Mengmeng sat down against Gao Yuan. Gao Yuan didn't know where he was. He glanced at her and put Throw the cake on the ground and tell her to roll..." Gao Yuan is up to me, he has a dog temper, and he will have an attack as soon as he says it.

I asked Xiaoyu, when did she know that Zhang Mengmeng had an affair with Gao. She said that she knew from the beginning that Zhang Mengmeng ran to the plateau twice in three days, bathed and slept there.I don't think it's all to blame on the plateau, men's physical desires are easily stimulated by vision, but for any normal man, Zhang Mengmeng can't last long after such a toss.I also thought about Zhang Xiaobei, to be honest, compared with Gao Yuan, Zhang Xiaobei seemed a bit dull and honest, even he loved Zhang Mengmeng so much, she was really not simple. It is said that later Gao Yuan called Zhang Mengmeng to another room to talk. No one knew what the two of them said. I told the tabloid reporter about it, and scolded me bloody. When Gao Yuan got excited, he waved Zhang Mengmeng a big mouth, telling her to shake it off as she likes, to do what she should do, to live and die. Zhang Mengmeng should be replaced.

I was wondering just now, I don't understand why Zhang Mengmeng joined Fang Ming's crew after joining Gao Yuan's crew, feeling that Gao Yuan kicked her off and stopped playing with her.Now when I think of Gao Yuan, I think this grandson still has love and intentions!At least he is not confused, he can distinguish the seriousness from the seriousness, which is much better than Zhang Xiaobei Nasi. Li Qiong also came out of the house, and looked at me from afar, hehe happily. "What are you laughing at? You became a star in a blink of an eye!" I deliberately squeezed her, "How is it? In the end, we, Hu Jun'er, are the happiest!"

Li Qiong smiled but didn't answer, damn it, I learned to be silent when I just entered the showbiz, I scolded Li Qiong in my heart. "When will you get married?" "May 1st." Li Qiong replied, really stabbed me, May 1st is a good day I chose for myself, facing the sea, when the spring is warm and the flowers are blooming, wearing a wedding dress, receiving a lot of red envelopes, counting Money, how cool, I drool just thinking about it. "You and Zhang Xiaobei...what are your plans?" Xiao Yu left, Li Qiong came over and asked me, I was so scared that I was in a cold sweat, why did I start planning to have sex with Zhang Xiaobei again, isn't this a matter of nothing? !

"Bullshit!" I gave Li Qiong a blank look, "Do I plan to get along with him?" "Gao Yuan's mother told Hu Jun... Hu Jun told me, it's not something to be embarrassed about, if you have nothing to do with Gao Yuan, you should lock Zhang Xiaobei as soon as possible, really, to be honest!" Li Qiong looked at me, She looks so good today, with light makeup on, every frown and smile reveals elegance, just like when she was a flight attendant back then.I don't need to explain anything to her. I don't think I need to explain to anyone whether the relationship between me and Zhang Xiaobei is a pure man-woman relationship. In my heart, there is only one lover, and that is Gao Yuan.I know that I can spare myself and marry myself to another person I don't love for the sake of profit. That's another matter. The person I love is Gao Yuan, there is no doubt about it.

I looked into the distance, as if I saw the artistic face of the plateau, wrinkled into a flower again, grinning at me, endless, windy, not far away is the reservoir, The sound of the wind blowing water was very clear, and I seemed to hear the phrase Gao Yuan shouted when he hugged me for the first time, "Don't communism, don't live forever, as long as you are my bride!" Communism does not live forever, and I am not his shitty bride until now, but the seedlings of our love have already grown wildly and become pastures where grass grows and eagles fly. "I have to go." I stood up and patted the dirt off my buttocks, "I have to go." I repeated.

"Gao Yuan's old lady is guarding there, you can't see him!" Li Qiong really deserves to be my sister, he can think of me going to see Gao Yuan with his feet. I turned around and faced her, "You have a way to get the old lady away." I looked at my watch, "It's 10 o'clock now, I'll drive back around 12 o'clock, you find Hu Jun in two hours, give me the old lady Madam, go away!" I gave Li Qiong an order like a commander-in-chief, and after thinking about it, I must see Gao Yuan today. "What if Gao Yuan doesn't want to see you?" Li Qiong asked a substantive question, which made me look embarrassed. Yes, I'm really not sure that Gao Yuan would like to see me now, or that my appearance would not stimulate his fragile nerves. .

Call up!I called Gao Yuan first to find out what he said.Thinking of this, I walked a few steps to the edge of the reservoir, dialed Gao Yuan's mobile phone, the phone rang three times, and was cut off by the other party. I called again and turned off the phone. I have a sense of frustration that comes from a very far away place.I used to say that there is no way to say who is right and who is wrong when it comes to feelings. Before, I just made up nonsense based on my feelings. Now, I finally understand why when I mentioned feelings with Benben, she acted very contemptuously. I really see through It's Benben, this man and woman have no fucking relationship at all.I feel hopeless, for myself, for the plateau, for life. Smoking in the field feels good, very quiet, and the sound of insects is very friendly. Back then, Gao Yuan and I sat on grass like this, back to back, talking a lot of nonsense, on the lawn of Tsinghua University, in the Under the banyan tree at the south gate of Peking University, in the teahouse called Huang Tingzi in front of the Film Academy, we had many conversations about ourselves and the unknown life. The moment I sat there, I suddenly discovered that all of this It was so far away from me, and suddenly I drifted to a place that I could no longer reach. I was afraid. I was afraid of losing like never before, and I blamed myself. six…… My phone rang suddenly, and I saw that it was Gao Yuan who dialed the phone back. For the first time, I realized that my hands shaking while holding the phone. "Hello?" My tears came out before my voice. No words were spoken on the phone, I could hear his breathing. "Gao Yuan... Gao Yuan, please say something." For so many years, I have never spoken to him in a voice that was almost pleading. I was more afraid than ever, afraid of losing him. "...I don't want to talk to you, I don't want to talk to you at all!" Gao Gao said a little excitedly, "Chu Xiao, you are such a jerk, there is no one who is more jerk than you..." I listened, and shed tears while listening to Gao Gao draw conclusions for me. "Why do you think you're such a jerk?" He asked me, "Tell me, tell me!" "Gao Yuan, I love you..." After being together for more than five years, I told him that I love him for the first time, and I was very moved. My voice and the sound of the wind filled the receiver of the phone. Gao Yuan didn't speak for a long time, and I thought he was crying there. He is so fragile.