Chapter 4 Four

After a while, I saw Yahya holding the scissors, standing in front of her and saying, "Go! You just go! If you don't go, I'll blind you!" Nixi cried, "You want me to go!" Where are you going?" Yahya said: "I don't care where you go? I don't want you anymore." Nixi said: "It's such an easy thing, if you say no, then don't? I have been with you for more than ten years, and I have children Why did you come here after all the hard work? Today, if you say you don’t want me, don’t you want me?” One cried and the other screamed, Yahya became ruthless, smashed the handle of the scissors on her head, and said: "You really don't want to go?" Nixi rolled on the ground and splashed, saying: "You are so cruel! You kill me! Kill me—I don't believe your heart is so cruel!"

Everyone was afraid that Yahya would use force again, and stepped forward to persuade him, Yahya said coldly: "You don't need to persuade me, but persuade her. She is wise. Pack up your belongings, don't take too many things with you, and don't take your children with you. Get out of my sight immediately and stop everything. Ren Yazi, who led her, called her again and sold her. Look, she is stronger than me!" As she said, her face was blackened, and she went out to sit on the counter. Listening to his tone, Nixi was categorical. She must have been really angry this time. If she doesn't want to suffer the immediate loss, she might as well go out and avoid it for now, and wait until he understands.Taking advantage of everyone's persuasion, she went upstairs crying all the way, picked up clothes, and didn't hand over Yaheya's more expensive items to her. Moreover, he was really shrewd in his life, and Nixi couldn't let her down much.She flipped the box upside down, and dumped the things on the floor with a clatter, but the bottom of the box was covered with the blue and white flowered homespun bundle she brought with her when she came from the countryside to the city. She put her hand into the rough cloth, and Sitting crookedly on the ground, all the things in the past seemed to be rolling in like a tide, and she didn't know where her body was.

On the river bank of the water town, wild sparks grow to a height of four or five feet, densely lit with cinnabar spots in the dark blue sky.It is early summer all year round.At dusk in early summer, every family stood outside the white powder wall holding a bowl to eat and enjoy the cool, fried shrimp paste with vegetables and bibimbap.The fertile land, but Nixi lived a life of starvation, and when picking a grass flower to suck the honey from the greenhouse, she had to look back to prevent the chestnut from bursting into the back of her head.I didn't get enough sleep, I was still beaten in my dreams, I was hungry, and sometimes I ate a lot of unexpected food.When I woke up, there was a smell of wet toes in the dark room, and all the sleeping people were miserable.All these years she tried to forget all this.Because this part of the memory has never been stirred up, it is fresher and more intimate.Nixi suddenly suspects that she is still the same as before, and the twelve years in between have never happened.

Shaking, she crawled across the floor and put her arms around her eight-year-old son, Jimmy, and her two-year-old daughter, Serita, one in each arm, clinging tightly to her body.Twelve years had passed since she wanted the child to prove it.She wants children to shield her from terror.At this moment, she really loved the child.No matter how hard it is, you have to take the child with you.Without a child, she is a naked person, still the same as before. ... Yahya wants to keep the child, and it seems that he still has considerable affection for the child.Well, if she persisted in having a child, it meant that she was a good mother, and he might be moved and change his mind, maybe.Nixi's arms were still tightly wrapped around her children, but she changed her mind to a more realistic plan.

She hugged Serita and led Jimmy to come downstairs with a package in her arms. Yahya said: "You take the child away, and I won't stop you. I'm not going to go to court with you for this. It's just one thing: the child is with you, and I will give you 30 yuan a month until you marry So far. The child and I will pay you one hundred and thirty per month." After hearing this, Nixi knew that it was not a very decision-making decision, and he would not plan the amount well. It can be seen that there is little room for maneuver, so she sneered and said: "How do you settle this account? It's easier for three people to live than one person." Yahya said, "What do you not understand? I don't want two children for you. You can decide for yourself." Nixi said: "I'm too poor to sell my child. You've misunderstood the person." Yahya shrugged and said, "It's up to you." Yin put thirty Hong Kong dollars over and said, "I won't handle it from now on." Yes, a guy will deliver it to you on a monthly basis. You don’t have to come to me either—if you come this month, your allowance for the next month will stop.” Nixi threw the foreign money on the ground, and then tore her hair loose. Let's make a fuss, this time, after all, it's at the end of the battle, I'm very tired, Rao is a lively person, and I feel exhausted, and I was caught by everyone doing good and evil, still put foreign money on her, and sent her to a foreign car.After all, Nixi still hopes to reunite after a broken mirror. If she goes to the little sister's house to stay overnight, and the heads are mixed, that group of people Yahya has always been worried. It is better to live in a monastery. Although Melanie has a quarrel, where is it? She is a clean family, and even a more suspicious husband has nothing to do with her.

She lived in Pok Fu Lun Monastery for ten days, and all the nuns seemed to have a blunt disease, and each of them turned into a widow's face, with sharp mouths and shrunken cheeks, and their complexions became uglier day by day. Nixi had to take out money from time to time to add food, take care of the subordinates, and also dedicated herself to helping with some delicate work.In my free time, I went to the sisters' house a few times, and the people I met were nothing more than prodigal sons, and none of them looked like a lifelong support.Once in the monastery, I ran into Mr. Mill, who gave her the ring at the beginning. He touched the previous feelings and released the means of a romantic creditor. Later, I heard that she had come out of Lumjian's house, and now she dragged her two children and disappeared. Yes, and knowing that she has a good temper and is difficult to deal with, he is a man of wealth, so he was afraid of being blackmailed by her, so he let go.The nuns saw that Ni Xi was exhausted, and signaled her several times to find a house and move.Nixi had no choice but to look at a room on King's Road. The location was desolate and shared with other people. It was a very narrow and dirty place. If she fell there, her status would immediately be lowered. People, it will be difficult to think of a day to turn around.Therefore, although she paid the deposit, she just refused to move in.I am sewing a linen prickly border for the altar of the monastery, and I plan to make a lily in the corner before I start.

On this day, she was sitting in the reception room working with two nuns, the glass door was wide open, and she looked out to the green grassland, the sun was misty, like smoke from the grass—a humid climate unique to Hong Kong. sunny.Nixi's hair was itchy, and she shaved her scalp with the needle in her hand. Suddenly, she saw a nun walking by an Indian man in the garden. The man was wearing a tight white suit and was carrying a gold-headed walking stick. , kept knocking the gold head on his front teeth, the front teeth seemed to be inlaid with a grain of gold, if you look carefully from a distance.Nixi was startled and said, "Is that Faris?" Xiao Ni said, "You know him?

A jeweler who has recently made a fortune.Mrs. Ailan brought him to visit our orphanage and asked him to donate a sum of money. I saw Mrs. Ailan talking and pointing, Faris Fora let her walk alone on the coal dust road, but retreated to the grass. The grass of the monastery must not be trampled on easily. It can be seen that Falisi Si really has two coins. Nixi ran out with her work in her hand. When she reached the door, she stopped and bowed to Xiao Ni twice: "Thank you, I tried to invite Mrs. Ailan in, I'm going to have a word or two with that man.We used to be very close friends. "

Nixi called all the way "Faris, Pharis!" and ran to him, and when they stood face to face, but couldn't speak, she lowered her head and used her nails to pick at the little red cross embroidered on the table, and then slowly Slowly following the stitches, he found the needle poked on the cloth, took the needle off and pinned it to the skirt.Faris also seemed embarrassed, turned his hands away, and knocked the golden cane on his hind legs.Nixi put her little finger against the lace cloth, wiped her tears gently in her eye sockets, and sobbed, "Faris..." Faris said, "I know it all, sister-in-law. I've heard of it too."

Even though he knew everything, Nixi still told the story again, saying: "Yahya heard the whore's nonsense and divorced me, leaving my mother and three children, with no one to lean on. Pity me, who has no relatives... Faris, seeing you is like meeting a family member, how can I not be sad!" Saying this, he began to cry more bitterly, Faris was inconvenient to criticize Yahya, unable to comfort her, so he could only cry out from his trouser pocket. He took out a stack of banknotes, and was about to hand them over, but he felt presumptuous, so he blushed first, brushed off the top of his hair, and handed them over, but Nixi didn't go to pick up his money, but held him with both hands. Holding Lila's hand in her arms, he wanted to put his hand on her heart, and said, "Faris, I knew you were a kind person. Good intentions will be rewarded..." Faris broke free from his hand and stood in the air. There was a pause, as if hesitating for a moment, before she withdrew her hand; she retracted and stretched out again, and put the money on the work in her hand. Nixi glared at him, her eyes unrestrained, and then followed Glancing slightly from the end of his eyes, he whispered: "Who wants your money?

As long as you really care about me, you don't care about money. " Falis panicked, and saw Mrs. Ailan standing far away from the glass door of the reception room, so he waved to her and shouted: "I'm leaving, please excuse me." He ran out of the garden in two steps, Ailan The mistress came to see them off, and when Falis saw someone coming, he became more courageous and felt a little inconsiderate on Nixi's face, so he turned around and made up for it: "Sister-in-law, don't worry, don't worry. You use the money first." Let's go." As he said that, the person had already gone far away.Nixi counted some money and thought in her heart: "Why is he so afraid of me? He must be in love, but it's just for Yaheya's sake, I'm sorry." The next day, she found out the address of his apartment and went to see him. He happened to be out, and Nixi left a message telling him to come to the monastery to discuss something urgent.After waiting for a few days, I didn't see him coming. In the evening of this day, Xiao Ni sent word that someone was looking for her, and Ni Xi hurried out with Serita in her arms. Under the light, it was Cui Yuming who looked kindly.Nixi didn't mean to cry this time, but she couldn't stop shedding tears. The child was lying on her shoulder facing backwards, so she turned her head and snuggled up to the child, covering her face with the child's robe and trousers.Cui Yuming, dressed in green and black, with a red hat knot on his head, greeted grandma with a smile.Nixi was troubled, and carried the child to the window, leaned against the window sill, and looked out of the window, a corner of the glass was faintly glowing white from the blue sky, presumably the moon had come out.There is a pot of hydrangea on the floor against the wall. The hydrangea is white with blue and purple, and it is also full of moonlight during the day; there is no moon in the room at this time, and it seems that there is a moon shining on it.Nixi has affection for Cui Yuming, but at present, safety is the first priority, so she has to put her love on the back burner for now.Yin tremblingly said: "What else are you here for? You didn't kill me enough! " Cui Yuming said: "It was my recklessness that day, I beg grandma to forgive me. I have no other choice." He coughed, looked outside the door, saw people passing by, and said: "I have two words to say to grandma boldly. " Nixi saw that the child on his shoulder had dozed off, so she walked lightly and led Yuming to the steps outside the glass door.There were no lights on the steps, and there was no moonlight.There was a gust of wind, and it was a bit chilly.Yuming said: "I know that I have caused trouble, so I didn't dare to see grandma again, but our boss insisted on me coming." Nixi asked in surprise, "What?" Yuming remained silent.Nixi was stunned for a while, then asked: "What about that day? Did your boss send you here too?" Yuming said: "That's not true." The full raindrops slapped on the wall, and a dozen of them turned into black spots the size of green coins, scattered and distinct. Yuming said: "Our boss has seen you since that time." According to the grammar, this cannot be an independent sentence, but from his tone, it is all there.He went on to say: "He heard that you came out now, and he sent his family to the countryside. I ask you, if you are willing, you can move in. He treats your two children as his own. He this year Fifty-seven, Tong Chun Tang in Jiandao is a two-hundred-year-old store moved from the provincial capital, and a branch store has recently opened in Central. His surname is Dou, and Dou's Panyu family is a rich family, and there are fields in the countryside. He will never treat him badly in the future yours." Yuming retreated behind the glass door and spoke while standing behind Nixi. While speaking, he brushed the water beads off his shoulders with his hand.After all, Nixi replied.He snorted and said, "Why didn't you come in? Look, the child is wet." Nixi touched the child's clothes, untied her vest, and covered the child's head and face.Yuming said: "Why don't you come in?" Following his call, Nixi came in in a trance, her body and head were drenched, and the child in her arms woke up, still a little dazed. Ge stretched his hands and feet out of the vest. At first glance, he didn't know that there was a child hidden in it, but he saw her chest rising and falling, as if she was breathing rapidly. Serita stretched out a small hand and tugged at her mother's neck.Nixi stared straight ahead, she was already insane, she wanted to pull away Serita's hand and fish it back and forth in the air, but she couldn't.Serita's little yellowish hands touched Nixi's face, and then touched her ears. Nixi follows Dou Yaofang, the boss of Tongchuntang.From the upper floor of the silk shop she moved to the upper floor of the medicine store. Ever since Nixi followed Dou Yaofang, she suddenly felt that the world has widened.The same is a shop, but this medicine shop is very different from Yahya's silk shop. The room is bright and bright. Needless to say, Dou Yaofang has already sent his wife and daughter back to their original place. In addition to the staff, there is another staff in the shop. The population of the house is Nixi.Dou Yaofang had a son called Yinguan, who was only nine years old. She kept him by her side and hired a gentleman to teach him how to read books and books.Nixi reckoned that Dou Yaofang was already a candle in the wind, and she wanted to make a long-lasting plan to match her daughter Serita with a silver official. At the beginning, it was just a joke, but gradually she became serious, and she was chattering day and night. , Dou Yaofang had to vaguely agree.At that time, although the two were Lushui husband and wife, each with their own children, they also lived their lives wholeheartedly.Nixihuang wore a pair of gold jewelry.Her two children, Jigme and Serita, whom Nixi taboo said were of mixed race, were dressed in robes like those of silver officials.The nuns in the monastery thought they were snobbish, so they ignored them in anger.The little sisters in the old days felt that their background was too low, and when they started dating, they were looked down upon by the shop assistants, and even the proprietress was looked down upon.A group of relatives in Dou's family were afraid of causing trouble, and stayed away from her. They didn't try to court her, so they felt lonely. Nixi has nothing to do, she is used to operating, now she calls slaves and servants, reaches out for tea, opens her mouth for meals, impatient with idleness, and has a deficiency in her heart, at this moment, she thinks of Yahya's benefits, Fortunately, there was Cui Yuming in front of him, and the two fought like a fire.Nixi posted his money secretly. At the beginning, she posted secretly, and she was quick to do it. Later, seeing Dou Yaofang care about these things unkindly, she felt sorry for the money again.Yuming's eyelids are shallow, he asks for whatever he sees, and if he wants to be with him only once out of ten times, this is already extremely generous in Nixi.She hangs out with people all her life, just taking, not giving; it's rare to give something, if it's not pretty, it makes the recipient feel uncomfortable, but Nixi can't see this. Yu Ming had some spare cash on hand, and even changed into silk shirts and trousers inside and out, pointy shoes and clean socks. Zha Kuo was different from everyone else, and bought peanuts, melon seeds, dragon fleas and sweet ginger for a treat in three or two days. Deji Meserita drove him only to call him Big Brother. Although Nixi is not shy about her own children, sometimes she can't help thinking that the banker is an eyesore.One day, Dou Yaofang put Zhang vines on the balcony to beat Zhongjue. Nixi held the glass door with her hand and watched the little girl simmering mung bean soup on the stove. followed in.It just so happened that the third silver official bumped into him and asked if the mung bean soup was ready. The husband had some snacks and was going out to see his friends.The girl told him to silence, and said, "Your parents are sleeping." The silver official probed into the room and said: "Father is on the balcony, it's still a bit windy, and mother is in the house with the curtains on, she's suffocating!" Before the girl could stop him, Nixi heard him talking, and just pretended to relieve her, and came out from behind the curtain. , asked him what he wanted.The silver official said.Nixi said: "Seeing how irritable you are, I wish I could send my husband away early and finish the job. If you study like this, it will be useless even if you study for a hundred years. Betroth your sister to you. In the future, you will be useless, and you will be humiliated! No! As for the advanced things, which eye can I see you in?” After scolding Yao Fang for a while, he was afraid that Yao Fang would wake up, so he didn't dare to raise his voice, so he held his breath for a while, when it was getting late, and the silver official had left school, he was arrested again and said, "It's not that I like to take care of you." Nosy, you don't study hard, people say you don't study well, but blame my two children for playing wild with you, I have to make it difficult for your father. I want to test your book!" Forced him He took out the book and recited it to her.She often reads the libretto in her spare time, and she knows a few characters. Now she becomes a serious teacher, beats him if he can't recite it, interrupts him if he can recite it, throws the book across the face, and punishes him to kneel on the floor.Yaofang felt sorry for her son, so she didn't contradict Nixi face-to-face, she just said that the kid was not talented enough, so she stopped asking him to study, and sent him to a nephew's shop to learn business.At this time, Nixi was reluctant to let go, fearing that the silver official would escape her control, and she would not be able to control the Dou family's property in the future.Yin turned his face again, cherishing him in every possible way, and kept saying that he was too young, so he was worried about him going out.Yaofang had no choice but to find his nephew to talk to her in person.Seeing that it was his wife's nephew, Nixi wanted to play tricks on him, so he let him take the child away. She carried a fruit basket to change clothes, and only looked after the child, and would go to his store five or seven times a week. . I was so happy that Cui Yuming went to the countryside to visit his mother in those two days, but he was not here.When Yu Ming came back, how could he tolerate others.On the first day when he arrived in Hong Kong, the guys sold wine to welcome him. He covered his face with wine, then he slapped the table downstairs and started cursing. He stepped on the bench and said: "Our boss is a bully, we wear Tsing Yi, hold Hei Zhu, you are not the one who eats food and doesn’t care about things, go in with a white knife, come out with a red knife, let us take the blame for our boss!" Yao Fang was not at home that day, and his nephew heard this from upstairs, so disturbed, Nixi hurriedly dressed him and coaxed him out, saying: "I don't know which guy was drunk outside, and he came back drunk and crazy. When your uncle comes back, see if I don't tell him!" The nephew went, Yuming walked up crookedly, Nixi rushed him to beat him, and said: " Shameless things, it's your turn to be jealous!" But I like it in my heart. This Nixi lived in Tongchuntang for five years and had two more children.If there is talk, it will be long, and if there is no talk, it will be short. Although there are some gossips outside, Yao Fang just keeps silent, and others can't say anything.Nixi's situation is getting more and more generous, but her heart is getting narrower day by day.Whenever Yaofang communicated with his family in the countryside, or brought some salted fish and cured meat by chance, Nixi would definitely not follow him, lest he send money home, and often intercepted the letters. If you listen to her, you can't trust her. On this day, a man came from the countryside. Nixi suspected that Yao Fang's wife had sent to ask for money, and she felt displeased. Because Yao Fang felt unwell, she took medicine and lay down. Come to the kitchen to find trouble and curse.There was a glass jar on the cupboard, with some bamboo chopsticks stuck in it, Nixi took out a few to have a look and said: "Tell you not to put your chopsticks into the oil pan, the tops of the chopsticks will be burnt, and you will have to replace them with new ones. Try your best to ruin things, your boss will not tell you that you can't live, but treat me like a flower It’s a debt, I paid my own money!” In fact, although some of these pairs of chopsticks are half black, there are also a few brand new ones.Nixi was surprised and said: "Where did this new one come from? I bought a new one and kept it there, and I didn't say anything to me, so I just dragged it around?" When I hurriedly opened the drawer to look, the new bunch of moso bamboo chopsticks were still intact.Then the old lady said slowly: "I burnt the chopsticks, I'm afraid that grandma will get angry, and I will pay you two pairs." Nixi couldn't get off the stage, her cheeks turned red, her face turned purple, and she pointed at her and cursed: " You pay, you pay, you blackmail me with money! You are a helper, where did you get so much money? You are not my housekeeper, so you can kick the sky and the well; since it hits my hand, it is not easy I'll let you off! You've been in Dou's family for so many years, and you think his family's money is fat, and now you're using money to gag me!" The old woman sneered and said: "It is true. If you have made enough money, you should go. If you don't leave, the money you made in the hands of the old grandma will be spent in the hands of the new grandma!" Nixi then Telling her to leave, she said: "I want to resign, I will go to the boss to resign." Nixi jumped up and said, "Don't bring out the boss to scare me. Even though you are a husband for a day, you are the master for the rest of your life. He, I want him to sit and die. He dare not fall asleep and die! Don't think you are Come before me, you see I told you all to get out." After dancing for a while, the old lady was forced to pack up her bed immediately.The old lady went to the servant's room for a while, and Nixi was about to remind her. When she walked to the door, she heard that a colleague of the old lady was helping her make the bedding. This kind of rehearsal! It's so crazy that there is no fold! Poor our boss is lost and lost. He is also an old man, and he has been a man for half his life. It's really hard to talk about men. Don't say it, he knows it in his heart, relatives Friends, which one does not persuade? Letters from my hometown came one by one, and things here are clearer than we are there. He read the letter, made himself sick with anger, and even kept it from her, fearing that she would be angry.You say how stupid a man is! "Ni Xi was taken aback when she heard this, and walked away in two steps, leaning on the railing of the stairs. There was a bamboo pole on the stairs, and a birdcage hung on it. She stuffed a piece of birdcage into the grid Holding the green vegetable leaves in his hands, he teased the bird, and heard the room say: "Keep your eyes wide open and look back, if you have the ability to stay in this gate for a lifetime!One day, when the crimes are full and everyone is aroused by public anger, the old man can't help but make the decision, and there must be a stick to drive her out of the house!The people of the Dou family have not died yet. " Ni Xibo turned around and walked back and forth to the room, forgetting that she was still holding the vegetable leaf in her hand. There was water on the leaf, which was cold and stuck to her palm, and there was also a cold piece the size of a palm on her heart.Walking into the room, Dou Yaofang was lying on the bed. She fell on the bed and cried while covering his leg.Yao Fang pushed her, and she cried, "I know it all. Everyone hates me. They wish they could eat me in a long pot. I know it all!" She cried, shaking, and stretched her hand into her bosom. Go, there's a stack of envelopes in his shirt pocket that's stiff like a half-folded envelope.She pressed her hand on the pocket, and he pressed his hand on hers, and the two of them remained silent for a long while.Yaofang said in a low voice: "Don't worry. As long as I live, I will not wrong you." Nixi cried: "My dear one, one day you will have a high mountain and a low water..." Yaofang said: "I If you die, you won't be wronged. When you were with me, how did I say it? You can rest assured, I will take care of myself." Nixi sobbed: "My relatives..." Since then, the love has grown deeper .Yaofang's illness was getting worse day by day, and she couldn't afford to look down on her. Nixi took care of him in dismay, and she and Cui Yuming rarely held hands and kissed on the dark stairs.That night, Yaofang woke up in the middle of the night and called Nixi.Nixi brought over the small teapot filled with hot water. He shook his head, held her hand, and burst into tears before saying anything.Nixi sat down on the edge of his bed, only to hear the wall clock on the wall going "Did Da Da Da, Di Da Da Da", the birdcage was covered with a black cloth cover, the electric lamp was covered with a black cloth cover, and the small yellow light Also like falling asleep in a black hood.The moon outside the glass window was dim, as if it was covered with a black cloth. Yaofang said: "I'm going. Be careful in everything. My family has a lot of people, so it's not easy to get along with each other. If you don't agree with the marriage between the silver official and your daughter, just let it go and forget it." Even the two children I have with you should follow yours and be brought up by them, for fear that they will not be able to grow up. As long as you can keep your private house, if you can't keep it, I have other plans. My son, you need to think twice when you do things. You are young, with four children behind you. I know your temperament: with your temper and appearance, if you marry someone, and there are other people in the room, no one will tolerate you, nor will you tolerate others.I think you are still monogamous, so pick someone you like and follow him.It's not that you don't know how to live, as long as the husband and wife put their minds to it, you won't be afraid that he will not develop. " The words went straight to Nixi's heart, and she couldn't help crying, although she didn't let out, she cried until her heart burst.Yao Fang breathed a sigh of relief, and said again: "I gave Yuming the branch on Emperor's Road. I set up a branch there last winter, and that was the plan. The location is not very good, but the land on King's Road has gradually become more valuable in the past two years, and it is said that it will increase.I set up a written statement, and it was considered to be a plan for him, and my family members must not say anything. "Nixi's heart was beating wildly, she didn't understand what he meant for a while, and when she felt sorry, she didn't know how to answer. She put one hand on the inner bed, leaned down to check his expression, but he turned his face away. Go, sigh, and say nothing.