Chapter 10 postscript

There is no holiday throughout the year, and I have saved four weeks of vacation, and I will finish this novel at home at the end of the year.The air conditioner is fully turned on, and the room is quite warm. I bought a very expensive "Da Bin" style purple sand pot, which is bone-compatible, and I don’t want to leave my hands.Just find a few books and put them next to them, including "Xinhua Dictionary" by the Commercial Press, Nabokov's, Salinger's "Nine Stories", Henry Miller's, Liu Yiqing's, and Yu Hua's.I thought, if I can't write "Xinhua Dictionary", I can always write it.

This novel has a prototype of a novella called "Zhu Chang", which was written very early, with 20,000 to 30,000 words.After ten years of re-watching, the literary style is very heavy, young and ridiculous, but it reflects the state of mind at that time, and it is a good raw material.The novella participated in the first Yifan essay competition, before the dot-com bubble burst, and won fourth place and a third prize and a check for thirty dollars.At that time, I was in Atlanta. I bought ten catties of green shell crabs and a lot of pig kidneys that Americans do not eat for thirty dollars. I ate them for a long time.

At that time, Lu Xun Academy of Literature gave the following comments: The work spans a large time and space and covers a wide range of subjects.The work aims to explore and analyze the sexual psychology and rebellious mentality of adolescents.The work integrates the environment of family, society and school, and places it in a specific historical background, which gives this exploration a certain depth. The style is ingenious, the language is humorous, and the art of the work is well grasped.It shows that the author has deep inner strength. When describing the dark side of society, teenagers' evil psychology and rebellious behavior, due to the strong exaggerated style of the work itself and the resulting appreciation style, it is easy to have a certain degree of negative influence on the underage readers.

I especially like the last paragraph of the comment, I feel like a wizard with super powers to confuse people.So I decided not to change the story line of this novella. In the process of advancing simple clues, through memory, imagination and fiction, let the peanut trees and the warblers fly around to form a novel. During this process, the publisher Mr. Xiong Can and I repeatedly talked about the importance of plot and story to a best-selling novel.I have repeatedly emphasized that I am not writing a story about a middle school student's puppy love, I want to nag, I want the pleasure of writing, and I want to record the truth I feel.Whether it sells well or not is secondary to me.For the responsibility of the text and my own pleasure, between the storyline and the restored state, I chose the latter again.In order to increase persuasiveness, I quote Zheng Xie's words: "Zheng Banqiao's bamboo painting is not well-thought-out, thick and thin, dense, short, long, fat and thin, and he writes it casually.

I don't like eating alone.In the process of rushing to the novel, I occasionally ate with a few prototypes in the novel. In the end, I always faced the winter outside the window, took a sip of Yanjing Chunsheng, and sighed, "Life is too short, so let's do something as soon as possible." . Writing a novel is hard work, suitable for thirty to fifty years old.I wrote a motto to motivate myself: "Familiar with Lisao and drink five thousand words a day." After a few days, I not only had a headache, but also had shoulder and back pain. I didn't know what it would be like to be older.

Most of the novels have a "hurdle", which appears about two-thirds of the way through the writing. I don't know what to do, and feel that what I wrote before is rubbish.At the time of writing, "kaner" came early and felt it by one-third.The biggest mistake was that when "Kaner" came, I grabbed my coat and went to the bookstore.There is a discount bookstore on the north side of Dengshikou Street, where new books are piled up for sale, like Chinese cabbage stored in winter, filled with cattle, from the floor to the roof, Wang Xiaobo's complete set of the four major anthologies is only 20 yuan.At that time, I was in a trance, like five thunderbolts, and lost my confidence. How much garbage is there?How many books will still be read five hundred years later?With this kind of understanding, how awesome and how arrogant does it take to write hundreds of thousands of words with your ass pouting, and then print them on clean white paper, ruining a lot of trees and flowers used to make white paper .I think of the Japanese genius Akutagawa Ryunosuke, who opened the window of the attic when he doubted his ability, and shouted "I am a genius" into the void.In the end, it was useless. At the age of thirty-five, he took sleeping pills and died.

Looking back on myself, there is really no need to write, this is definitely a process of "entropy" reduction.Honestly do a consulting report, a piece of A4 paper, write horizontally in slide format, you can charge 20,000 yuan. "Peach blossoms are all over the branches", the school girl who used to lead exercises on the playground is now considering when to break the national policy to have a second child, and whether to open a kindergarten by herself.Why bother in the name of recording life experience, and lusting over others again? So I eagerly look forward to a few more long vacations, and finish writing what I have to put on paper.After writing, there should be nothing in my heart, right?Saying goodbye to an old friend can also feel like water in an ancient well, without a trace of waves.So I eagerly look forward to the day when I don't have the urge to write, and then claim that I am self-absorbed and have limited talents, so I don't write a single word, just like eagerly looking forward to the arrival of impotence.

Unofficial history said that after Jiang Yan exhausted his talents, he lived a happy life of eating, drinking, whoring, gambling, cheating, kidnapping and stealing. I want to believe it.