Chapter 26 Chapter Fourteen

Yao Mi thought: What an embarrassing situation it would be if Fang Fang and her lover broke in through the front door when she had asked someone to have a secret talk in the former library of her house!However, she immediately wrote back and rejected Xu Yancheng, thinking that it was unnecessary; as a consultant, it may be more convenient to talk on paper than in person. Then she said as a consultant: "My mother often said: Yancheng is very good at protecting his beauties. Although the two have different temperaments, Yancheng is a loyal and good husband after all. If you want to divorce, my mother must say: Husband and wife occasionally have some disputes and misunderstandings. It's normal, just explain it clearly, why divorce! I mean the same thing."

(At the end of the letter, she asked Mr. Xu not to take the letter out of the study, please throw it in the drawer of the desk, and she will deal with it herself.) Yancheng went to the office to pick up Lilin, and often saw Yao Mi.She is always so faint, far away.Yancheng thought to himself: "Is she just my consultant? Is she still angry with me?" When they didn't know each other very well at first, their eyes would suddenly meet in the crowd.Now their eyes never meet again.Was she running away, or because she knew she was under close surveillance? Yan Cheng had to defend himself.He hastily wrote a letter.

Yao Mi: you are wrong.Between Lilin and I, there are not occasional disputes and misunderstandings, far from it.I was wrong myself.I always thought that I was an easy-going person, but my temperament was a bit withdrawn, I was often moody, and I even suspected that I had depression, and I felt that it was a mistake since I was born. Every word and deed is always inappropriate in retrospect.I was wrong about everything.Why should there be me? Now I suddenly understand a big thing.I feel like I'm missing something.Because I lost my other half.I came into this world to find "her", and I finally found "her"!Nothing is wrong, it's just a twist in the search process.How could I find "her" without going through these twists and turns!I seem to feel the boundless happiness, the indescribable sweetness in my heart, but at the same time I am afraid, afraid that if I let go, I will fall into boundless distress.I have to break free from all shackles and demand that this crippled me be complete.It's involuntary, and there's no way I can lose my "her"—my half.So I have to get a divorce.

(He still asked Yao Mi to destroy the letter, and he also obeyed and left Yao Mi's letter in the desk drawer.) Yao Mi's reply was just three short questions: 1. "Mr. Du probably doesn't know your intention yet. If she knows, can she agree?" 2. "Does your girl admit that she is your half?" 3. "Did you come to this world just to find someone?" Yancheng felt distressed.She is so calm!Has she not forgiven him yet?He didn't dare to open his mind, and only hurriedly answered questions. Yao Mi: You are right.Of course I didn't come to this world to find someone, I came to be a person.But when I found "her", I realized that I had been confused and depressed because I couldn't find "her".Without "her", I can only be a disabled person.

I would be presumptuous to call "her" my "half".I only call her "ma mie" in my heart (please check the dictionary, not pinyin).I'm not divorced yet, how can I ask "her" to be my "half". I don't know yet whether Lilin will agree to a divorce.You must know about her proposal.I didn't say "I love you" according to the rules, because I didn't have this feeling, and she didn't force me, she just asked me to be faithful to her forever and tell her the truth.So, shouldn't I tell her the truth now?If I don't tell her, I'm being unfaithful to her; if I tell her the truth, will she think me faithful?

I shouldn't have followed her in the first place.But, should she be the master of my life? Xu Yancheng Mrs. Yao saw that her daughter was worried, and that was when Yao Mi received this letter. Yao Mi still paid attention to replying to the letter as a consultant. Mr. Xu: Your matter, after repeated consideration by me, the answer is as follows. To be honest, at first glance it seems to be a dilemma, but in fact it has long since become a problem.Mr. Du is asking you to be faithful to her.You are no longer faithful to her.Moreover, from what she said to Mr. Zhu that day, it can be heard that she doesn't believe what you say at all.As for you, you didn't want to tell her the truth for the sake of being faithful, you just asked for a divorce, not the "half" I expected Mr. Du to think he had found her when he first met you.She is single-minded and sees you as her indispensable "half."She once delayed her studies in order to meet your mother's request.In order to go back to China with you, she abandoned her own flesh and blood.She has been careful to guard "her and your whole".If you want to cut her off, she will have to tear off half of her heart, and she will definitely be seriously injured, or even permanently disabled.

You won't fail to hear yourself condemning yourself for meeting your own demands.You are not that kind of person.You will be sorry and feel sorry for her.You will feel ashamed and feel that you are morally wrong.You are strict with yourself, and you will regret it.It's too late to regret. As your advisor, I have to think of everything for you.I think unless Mr. Du insists on a divorce, you cannot file for a divorce.Of course, this is not to say that you should be in charge of her for the rest of your life. Yao Mi Yancheng thought over Yao Mi's words over and over again, and had to admit that she was very caring, that what she said was right, and that she was very grateful for sorting out the mess in his heart.But he couldn't calm down, he only blamed her for being "so calm".

He wrote a letter to thank Yao Mi for his thoughtfulness, and admitted that he would indeed feel sorry for Lilin, feel ashamed, and despise himself and regret it.But he said, "I regret it all over again." He then said two words of wish: "But, Mr. Advisor, you are like an angel in the sky, with only one head and a pair of wings. But I am a mortal with flesh and blood, with a mortal heart. I want to give her up—or, If she despises me, she'll tear out half of my heart, and cripple me for life." He felt that he shouldn't be fooling around, so he quickly turned around and said: He knows that the flaws in the world cannot be repaired, only people can repair them.He will modify himself to bear everything, just begging Yao Mi not to blame.Whatever orders she gave, he was willing to obey.

He went to Yao's house and took the letter with him.He listened to the music with Mrs. Yao, and he only thought about this letter. He guessed that this was the last correspondence between him and Yao Mi.He came out of Yao's house in a dull mood and went to pick up Lilin at the office. Halfway through, he remembered that he forgot to put the letter in Yao Mi's bookcase.It was inconvenient for him to go back, and he thought that he would see Yao Mi soon anyway, so he should try to convey it face to face. In the office, there is only a stove in the outer room, and Lilin and Yao Mi are sitting by the stove, reading a book.Yancheng ran to stand aside, asked them what books they were reading, then walked into the inner room, found a book from the bookcase, and said loudly: "Yao Mi, have you read this book?" Put it in the book and hand it to Yao Mi.Seeing some papers in the book, Lilin stretched out her hand and said, "What book? I'll read it too." Yao Mi nodded hurriedly, tucking his fingers in the book and said, "Let me write down the pages first, so we don't mess them up." .” She took the book to the desk, took out the paper and took notes, and immediately handed it to Lilin.Seeing that there were still some papers in the book, Yancheng thought to himself: "Oops! Oops!" It wasn't hot in the room, but he was sweating profusely.But he secretly saw that what Lilin secretly pulled out from the book was just a blank sheet of paper.Yao Mi acted like nothing happened.Yancheng felt that Yao Mi was really a "smart" confidant; Yao Mi must have forgiven him.

One day later, he arrived at Yao's house, and with some curiosity, he went to the study to see if Yao Mi replied.There is a note in the book in his letter, which says "Whatever order you have, I am willing to obey." Yancheng thought: "She said it so easily! Does she know how difficult and painful it is for me to obey her?" He was also somewhat annoyed and disappointed, feeling that she was not a person of flesh and blood.He couldn't help tearing off a blank page from the legal pad, and wrote a sentence: "If I ordered you like your fiancé, would you be willing to obey?" It's time to get angry.He only hoped that before Yao Mi could see him, he could take it back early.But Yao Mi had already taken the note away.

Yao Mi is only for Yancheng's willingness to accept her meaning, and has deep sympathy for him.She wrote that sentence, nothing more than to express that she was very satisfied and didn't think of anything else.After he pointed it out, she felt reckless; but when she thought about it carefully, she was willing to do anything for Yancheng, regardless of anything, and only hoped that he would not be "disabled".So she simply replied: "I will be your Fang Fang." When Yancheng saw her answer, it was as if Lin Daiyu had heard Baoyu say "Don't worry", and felt "like a thunderbolt", "more earnest than what comes out of her heart".He remembered his second conversation with Yao Mi in that library; now she actually said "willing to be his Fang Fang".Sweet, sour, bitter, hot was mixed in his heart, and he didn't know what it was like.But what he asked was not an affair; he wanted to be with her day and night, forever. He went back to his "kennel" to write a reply, but he wrote and tore up several times, and only wrote a text message without beginning and end: "I can't express my gratitude, but how can I ask you to do it?" Where is my Fang Fang. The words in my heart are several miles long, at least longer than the silk drawn from a silkworm cocoon, and it will take a lifetime to spit them out. I hope you will allow me to spit them out slowly." Yao Mi was not willing to destroy the letters and notes between him and Yao Mi, they were all sandwiched in a newspaper and erected on the wall of the bookcase.Since the critical article of "Runan Wen" appeared, Yao Mi no longer worked hard, although she still studied hard.Before she goes to work every day, she always goes to her small study to look for books.Always work in the office every day - except Sunday.Reading and writing letters is more convenient in the office than at home.