Chapter 23 Chapter Twenty-Three

Those who often like to read novels, do they always show a unique temperament in their daily life, such as like to lament things that are too beautiful or not so beautiful, even though these things are ordinary in the eyes of others.Another example is that I also like to tell others the stories that happen in my life.Dr. Li from the Department of Thoracic Surgery may be such a person.His wife has worked in Hainan for many years, and the two get together less often, but they have lived in peace for many years, neither divorced nor transferred together.From the appearance, everyone should admit that Dr. Li is a happy person.But his lifestyle is a mystery to Liu Yun.After work that day, Doctor Li asked Liu Yun to have dinner together, and Liu Yun was very happy.She thought that maybe she could chat more with Dr. Li about this during the meal. She had never had a meal with Dr. Li before, or had a private conversation with him, although they usually joked and looked very familiar.

He took Liu Yun to a very secluded restaurant, and they found a quiet seat to sit down again.Liu Yun found out that Dr. Li was very familiar with the waiter, and he had a little feeling in his heart. Did he bring his girlfriends here often?she thinks.At the same time, I also wondered why he didn't ask her out early or late, but at this time.But she still looked quiet on the outside, she believed in her intuition, Dr. Li was not a man who didn't know how to measure, and it was impossible for any woman he dated to feel uncomfortable. Dr. Li spoke out the names of several dishes skillfully, without looking at the menu at all.Then he smiled and said to Liu Yun:

"The food here is average, but quiet and clean." "Do you come here often?" Liu Yun also stared at Dr. Li when he asked, and Dr. Li immediately understood the meaning of the sentences she didn't say: Do you often bring women here? "I often bring friends here for dinner, of course, most of them are girlfriends." Dr. Li wanted to establish a clear foundation from the very beginning—as colleagues, male and female colleagues, not men and women to chat. "I've always thought that you lived a chic life." Liu Yun quickly accepted Dr. Li's frankness.

"It's quite chic." Dr. Li said. "Your wife is also willing to live like this, always separated?" "She's so smart, if we didn't live like this, we would have been divorced." The waiter first brought cold dishes. "Try this Suannibairou, they cook very delicious here." Dr. Li then said to the waiter, "Is there any rice wine?" The waiter nodded. "Let's drink less alcohol too?" Dr. Li asked Liu Yun for his opinion. "Okay." Liu Yun readily agreed. "A jug of rice wine, hot." He said to the waiter, who smiled and left.Liu Yun could tell that none of the waitresses here disliked Dr. Li.

A man popular with women. Liu Yun became interested. "You said what's the benefit of two people living separately?" Liu Yun asked for advice. "Both sides can have a little more time." Dr. Li put a big mouthful of white meat into his mouth. "What are you doing with this time?" Liu Yun seemed to be interviewing an aborigine in America. "Reading, dating women." "What book are you reading?" "Professional books and novels." "Do you like reading novels?" Liu Yun didn't seem to believe it. "I read a lot. Reading novels is very interesting and immersive, and I forget everything."

"And make a date with the patient?" Liu Yun asked half-jokingly. "With patients? I never date patients." "Why?" Liu Yun also took a bite of the cold dish, but she didn't want to take another bite right away.At this time, the waiter brought the first hot dish-family portrait, which is a big mix of vegetables and mushrooms.After the waiter who delivered the food left, Liu Yun continued, "There are also beautiful female patients." "But they're all patients first, and I don't like patients, I mean dates." "That's an interesting theory, so don't you want to have family fun?"

"You mean with my wife, when I'm old?" Liu Yun nodded. "I think a man doesn't need to prepare for such a long time for family happiness. Whenever he wants to have it, he can say a few words of reflection to his wife, and it will be there." "You are too confident." Liu Yun picked up a piece of mushroom. "You're right, I'm not confident, I just comfort myself like this. When I want to have family happiness, I probably don't have it. Even so, I don't want to make preparations now. For my old age, I have to put It’s not worth it for young and middle-aged people. If I am too lonely in my old age, I will commit suicide. Maybe I don’t commit suicide, maybe I like loneliness.”

"Of course," Liu Yun thought of his situation, "You won't be alone, maybe you can meet a young woman and get married again, wouldn't it be a happy family?!" "Why are you young women?" Dr. Li ate without raising his head, and at the same time did not miss his words, "People like your husband like young women, but I don't. Young women are more attractive than middle-aged women, but I will find one Girlfriends are not just for looking at her, so it is enough for me to sit on the road every day. If a man finds a young woman for the second marriage, he will soon regret it. Because the shortcomings of young women will be exposed as soon as they get married Undoubtedly, these young women don't have the advantages of his former wife. Enough..." Dr. Li looked up at Liu Yun at this point, and immediately stopped talking: Liu Yun was staring at him, with tears in his eyes.

"I'm sorry, Liu Yun," Dr. Li put down his chopsticks, looked at Liu Yun and said seriously, "I know about you, so I asked you out." Liu Yun didn't speak, but felt that tears were coming out of his eyes, so he took out his handkerchief to stop it. "I found out before you went to the emergency department. I have experience in this area, so I can see it at a glance. I know that this kind of thing can't be helped by others, but I still want to ask you out for a chat. The advantage of colleagues is that each other I understand, because we are always together, so I want to tell you about my life." Dr. Li raised his hands to Liu Yun when he said this, "Don't get me wrong, I don't mean that my life is more interesting than yours. I always feel that your life It's too... how to say, too conformist, so you must not be able to withstand such a blow."

Liu Yun listened very carefully. "Actually, the little favor I can do for you is to let you know that people in this world can live whatever they want, as long as they want to. If you want to kill someone, you have to become a criminal. It's very simple, you don't have to worry about him Lose yourself. Do you see how thin you are now?" Liu Yun turned his gaze elsewhere. "Liu Yun, men and women are different animals. It is a man's nature to like the new and dislike the old, but it is the natural enemy of women. Women must find another way out by themselves, so as not to become victims."

"What can I do?" Liu Yun murmured. "You have your career, and you're a good doctor with a bright future. And there are other men in the world besides your husband, and they're not all screwed up like me." When Dr. Li said this, Liu Yun smiled.Dr. Li was very proud, so he ate again. The waiter brought the food again, and Liu Yun seemed to have an appetite, so he ate a few mouthfuls in a row. "You invited me to dinner just to tell me this? Then I have to invite you. I think you have a point, but it's not easy to do." "That's right." Dr. Li said, "I'll tell you a story." "As expected of someone who reads novels," Liu Yun said. "Actually, it's not a story. It's a real story. It happened in a friend's hospital, the Second Hospital." Dr. Li paused when he said this, and he saw the waiter coming over carefully carrying the cup from the hot pot. "If you don't come again, it will be an after-dinner drink." "When I hit the pot of wine just now, it fell on the ground." The waiter explained with a Henan accent. "Then pick it up again and it's over?" "What? Can you pick it up again if it's broken?" the waiter was anxious. "He's teasing you." Liu Yun said. "Really, I thought he was serious." The waiter smiled and left. "Go ahead." Liu Yun urged. "Actually, this should be considered a medical malpractice, but the patient left it alone." Dr. Li drank two sips of hot rice wine, "The patient is a female English teacher in her forties. I actually met her once. She's a very charming woman." "What disease?" "It was suspected to be breast cancer. It was in my friend's ward. I had a biopsy first, and when I waited for the results, my friend found that the patient's mood fluctuated a lot. Her wife is an engineer. It is said that she is the kind of man of few words. In general, not as good as that woman, but this man's inner world is definitely good. My friend talked to him once, and immediately respected him. He simply asked about his condition and didn't say much. My friend felt that the man had something on his mind , so I asked a few more questions. Unexpectedly, the man said frankly that if his wife’s life is running out, he has to step up. My friend asked him what to do to speed up. He didn’t explain in detail, but he said, I My wife is a wonderful woman, and I have always loved her very much. But she has always been dissatisfied with me, and I always want to do something for her, but I don't know how. Now I think I know." "The result turned out to be benign. Although my friend was a little skeptical, I was still happy for the couple. When I was admitted to the hospital, my friend obviously felt that the woman's attitude towards her husband was always impatient, but when she was discharged from the hospital, she just Something has changed." Upon hearing this, Liu Yun interrupted Dr. Li's narration out of professional instinct: "What does your friend suspect? Isn't the result benign?" "That's why he was suspicious, because it didn't look like it." "Understood." Liu Yun said with her heart sinking, she was completely attracted by this story. "I said this story doesn't look like a real story, it really is, it's too coincidental." Dr. Li also talked about his interest, and the two of them stopped eating. "Not long after, another breast cancer patient's test sheet was lost, so my friend went down to the laboratory to check the results, and wanted to make up a new one and put it in the medical record." "Found the test results of the female teacher?" "That's right, and it's the opposite. My friend didn't say anything, and hurried back to check the medical records. After finding the address, he went there the next day, but the neighbor said that they had moved away, and no one knew the address of the new house. That's it, I My friend went to work again, but the work unit said she was on sick leave, and the phone number was old, and no one even knew she had moved. The last clue my friend found was that a colleague of the female teacher had a good relationship with her. Maybe I can know the new residence of the female teacher. But this colleague is not in China. My friend left a phone number, hoping that the person can contact him when he comes back. Hey, it sounds like a legend, but it is all true. My friend is a very Sensitive people always think about this. When he told me, he thought it was God's will. God didn't let them find this patient, let alone, since then, he has been quieter, but he has not given up looking .Finally, after about two months, the colleague of the female teacher came back, and he called my friend and told her the address of her new residence." "When my friend saw the female teacher, she was shocked. She was a completely different person: she always had a smile on her face. They moved into a big house of more than 100 square meters. The photo. My friend understood the house when she saw the house, the matter that her husband said to step up. People who don't know the inside story will think that they have always been such a loving couple. It's a pity that her husband was not at home at the time." "The female teacher pointed out my friend's reason for coming without saying a few words. She said: It may be God's will for you to find me, or it may be because you are too serious. My friend found out that she knew everything. She then said: Not long after I came back, I felt bad, so I went to another hospital for an examination alone. They told me that it was malignant and it was too late, and they wanted to operate on me immediately. I refused, and I told them that I would go to another hospital. A hospital operation." "She left the hospital and threw things like laboratory tests into the trash can on the side of the street. She told my friend that she didn't want to spoil the happiness in front of her. She said that she had always been dissatisfied with her husband, but she still felt that she couldn't Leave him. They never had a chance to get to know each other seriously, and they were overwhelmed by trivial matters every day. When she was hospitalized and suspected of breast cancer, she was reminded for the first time, and it was reminded by death, so she returned Thinking too much about the couple's life for so many years, she suddenly realized that she didn't know her husband. Over the years, he has been silently loving his wife in his own way. It's just that this way is not as romantic and satisfactory as his wife hoped. Therefore, When she was discharged from the hospital, they started a new relationship as a husband and wife. They were closer than ever. Later, when they moved to a new house, she soon found out that her husband bought the house with a loan. The female teacher was very moved. Her illness not only reminded her She reflected on herself and reminded her husband. She said that if the gods let her die now, she would not complain, because she felt it was worth it. A woman finally knows that she is loved and that she is also Love the person who loves her. It was also at this time that she went for the checkup. After that, she decided not to go to work and no longer have surgery. It may not be possible to save her life, so she might as well let it be. So she almost cut off contact with her friends, and what she does every day is to serve her husband’s three meals a day, go for a walk together after dinner, and watch TV. She said, the child She also went to college, and she seemed to be ready to die at any time, the only concern was how her husband could pay off the loan." Liu Yun was turned into a statue by this story, and the name of the statue can be called "Leave Yourself".Her soul must be floating somewhere outside her body at this very moment. "My friend begged her to go back to their hospital if she didn't feel well. But the female teacher refused. She said that she would bring trouble to others if she went back. Of course, this kind of mistake should not be made, but she didn't want to go back and settle old scores." She said that life is not easy for anyone. If she has to die, it is God's will. God gave her love, but took her life. Then, I don't know what to say. She finally died in our hospital gone." "When?" Liu Yun was taken aback. "Last spring." Dr. Li said, "I went to see her once. She was very peaceful when she was dying." "Why didn't you tell me?" "At that time, my friend didn't want me to tell." Dr. Li then asked Liu Yun, "Do you have any impression of this patient?" Liu Yun shook his head. "Yeah, because you don't know her, she's just an ordinary patient to you. That's what a patient means to a doctor." "You mean doctors don't care about patients?" "That's not true. I think it is difficult for patients to really touch doctors. Occasionally doctors feel sorry for patients and sympathize with them, but this general sympathy does not touch themselves." "why?" "Because doctors think they are not patients." "Actually, diseases don't have eyes. There is no boundary between doctors and patients, just like there is no boundary between people." Liu Yun nodded earnestly, but she half understood in her heart, but her respect for Dr. Li suddenly increased a lot. "Whoever realizes it will be saved. Once you are saved, how you live is reasonable." After breaking up with Dr. Li, Liu Yun walked home slowly alone.She has not been in such a state of mind for a long time, walking slowly on the street alone, paying attention to everything around her.After the change in her family life, she involuntarily quickened her pace when she walked down the street, as if she didn't want anyone or anything to take notice of her.She is afraid of seeing happy people, reminding her of her misfortune; she is also afraid of seeing unfortunate people, making her despair.But today, Dr. Li's words brought her a peace of mind. Maybe she didn't really understand the specific meaning of those words, but through her short-term relief, she not only relaxed her nerves, but also saw the reality of daily society. Face: Not everyone who walks on the street betrays his wife and husband; not everyone who waits for the bus no longer believes in love... For the first time, Liu Yun reminded himself not to drown himself in the in pain. But not at every turning point, God waved his hand to guide, sometimes he ignored it, perhaps, he felt that the last moment had not yet arrived.After Liu Yun opened the door with the key, he first found a pair of men's leather shoes at the door.Although she didn't recognize these shoes, she immediately thought that Geng Lin was back. When she was walking towards the living room, she thought that it was Geng Lin who bought new leather shoes, she didn't know, then she immediately thought of the woman in the office who crossed her arms and glared at her, so this thought went into a dead end and disappeared . "Why are you back?" When she asked Geng Lin, she didn't even look at him.She went straight to the balcony and took the watering can to water the flowers