Chapter 12 Chapter Twelve

Because he is a doctor, Liu Yun always has to maintain his last sanity.When she woke up from the sudden fainting state, the first consciousness that came back to her brain was, what kind of fainting does this belong to, vascular neurological?Cardiogenic?But she immediately put aside these, and the pain caused by the unprovoked injury just now wrapped her up. After calling Geng Lin, she was almost in despair.She really felt that there are such cruel things in this world, which are beyond the limit of what people can bear.For example, right now, at this very moment, she couldn't cry or shout.She needs an opponent, she can quarrel with him, but there is nothing.Even though she had gotten up and made herself lie on the bed more comfortably, she still had trouble breathing from time to time, as if a lot of dirty cotton was stuffed in her heart, and she couldn't spit it out or swallow it.

She just lay on the sofa for two hours.Her mind was like a car that had lost its direction. It bumped here and there, but every time it bounced back hard, giving her a stronger sense of suffocation.None of the train of thought was smooth enough to convince her.The strange thing is that she only thought of Lou Hong who called her to hurt her twice, and the more anger was directed at Geng Lin.She wanted to go to Peng Li, but it was too late, she wanted to call another girlfriend, and it was too late, she still had a child.She would never think of going out, into the streets, to those bars that were only open at night, to use external forces to dissuade her.At this time, she was crying, and tears flowed down the corners of her eyes and into the hair on both sides. "Why do I have so much sanity? I can't even disturb others, let alone hurt them. But why, others can hurt me in turn? Is this also a logic?" She thought of this and turned from crying to howling Crying, even though it was a big cry, it was only a small cry, because she covered her mouth with her hands fiercely.

It was like this until after one o'clock at night, she washed her face, turned off the light and lay on the bed, waiting for someone to sleep, although she didn't feel sleepy at all.She thought, "I have to sleep because tomorrow I have to go to work. Doctors are different from other professions. Doctors have to sleep." Doctor Liu Yun lay in the dark and finally fell asleep. The park in the early morning is the world of the elderly. They each occupy their own old places and exercise their aging bodies through different methods. They are more serious than before in their work.A fat old woman was hanging on a locust tree branch with her hands, her legs were stretching and flexing constantly, and she was still making hi-hi sounds.When Liu Yun passed by her, he felt great sadness.But she couldn't tell whether the sorrow was for the tree, or for the old woman, or perhaps for herself.Because she only slept for two hours, she walked lightly.She felt that the ground on her heels was not solid, and she was worried that there would be a strong wind and she would fly up.

Although she only slept for two hours, she was not sleepy or tired at all.Various thoughts kept rushing into her head, but each thought left her in a hurry like a hasty passer-by.She had a very slight headache, so when she passed the park on the way to work, she felt that the fresh air was not fresh, like a market in the morning, full of people, especially old people. When Liu Yun walked into the emergency room, the night shift doctor was washing his hands.He is a doctor who likes to smoke cigarettes, and when you are half a meter away from him, you can already smell the smell of cured tobacco leaves on his body.

"How is it?" Liu Yun asked. "I hope you had a good night's sleep last night." He began to take off his white coat as he spoke, "Today's outpatient visits will definitely not be small." He said and glanced at Liu Yun.Liu Yun smiled wryly, "I didn't sleep almost all night last night, one after another." "Is there any left?" Liu Yun pointed to the patients who needed further observation. "No, I sent them all away. Three were hospitalized and two went home," he said. Hearing what he said, Liu Yun didn't ask any more, and the patients who had already been treated had nothing to do with her.

"I have something for you to see this morning." He finished speaking and was about to leave, "This outpatient clinic is weird. It's busy at night and must be busy during the day. I'm afraid there are devils." A middle-aged woman was brought in. "Look, here we come, take it easy, goodbye." Liu Yun immediately checked the middle-aged woman's abdomen.The patient said that the epigastric pain started suddenly and became more and more severe.Liu Yun suspected acute cholecystitis after examination.She asked the patient to do routine tests first, but the female patient lying on the bed said to the man who came with her:

"You go to pay the money first, after all the formalities are done, come pick me up again." After the man went out, the female patient said to Liu Yun: "Doctor, let me lie down again, it hurts me to death. It hurts worse if I lie down like this." "It can be done before other patients come." Liu Yun said while writing the medical records. "Hey, why are you here?" It was Dr. Li from the Department of Thoracic Surgery who came in and spoke. "For the time being, Doctor Song has gone abroad." Liu Yun said with a smile. "Scared me, I thought the institutional reform would cancel the cardiac surgery."

Liu Yun smiled, "You, you don't have a serious sentence. If you say you are humorous, it is too far-fetched. If you say you are talking nonsense, I feel a little wronged." "The whole problematic person." The female patient interjected during the pause of pain. Dr. Li was taken aback, and walked in: "Who is this? How dare you draw conclusions." "Patient." Liu Yun said. Dr. Li approached the female patient, put his hand gently on her upper abdomen, and suddenly pressed it hard, and the female patient sat up with an "ow". "Ouch, it hurts to death."

"Acute cholecystitis." Dr. Li winked at Liu Yun after speaking. "That's right." "Hey, what's wrong with you, you have such an ugly face, you quarreled with your husband, and you didn't sleep all night?" "It's nothing." Liu Yun's mood dimmed, and he didn't even have the strength to joke around. "Hey, when are you free, let's have dinner together. I have to tell you a story that you will never forget. It's true. I experienced it myself not long ago." "Okay, find time." Doctor Li walked out, and Liu Yun's thoughts drifted back to last night.Lou Hong's stinging words reminded her of Geng Lin's perfunctory treatment of her for no reason. In such a relationship, she was the only one who was unprotected.She was once again controlled by anger, and the hand holding the pen trembled violently.

"Doctor, can this pain go away?" the patient asked, "If the pain continues like this, I will die." "Not alive anymore?" Liu Yun was pleased that the patient's words pulled her out of the emotion just now, "Do you think it's so easy to die?" "Look who you told me, I'm not afraid of death, I'm afraid of pain but not death." The patient said, "Death is one thing, but the pain is endless." Liu Yun was attracted by this rustically dressed patient.She felt that the words she spoke had a strange power, opening up many spaces in her heart that were unfamiliar to her.

"I can suffer anything in my life, but I can't be wronged. I will not do it." The female patient's pain eased a little, and she began to speak loudly, as if Liu Yun had told her that she was deaf. "Live one breath, men say that, and women can do the same. I am not afraid of troubles, but I am afraid of feeling uncomfortable. If you are good, you will win, but I still have to fight with you. At worst, I will not live. .” She seemed to be describing an experience she had just gained. "It doesn't matter if it's right or wrong?" Liu Yun said. "What is right or wrong? There is no such thing as right or wrong. If you feel comfortable, you are right, and if you don't, you are wrong. It's that simple." When the female patient said this, the man who came with her paid the money back up. "How can you talk?" he asked. "Ouch, it hurts again just to ask you such a question." The female patient yelled... By around ten o'clock in the morning, the number of emergency calls was not as high as the night shift doctor said.Liu Yun took the time to call Geng Lin. "When are you coming back?" Liu Yun cut to the point, but her tone was moderate, she didn't want the colleagues around her to feel anything. "I'm not free right now, what's the matter?" "We'll see each other later." "I'll call you in the afternoon to see what time I'm free." "Noon." After Liu Yun finished speaking and put down the phone, she had almost decided that if Geng Lin didn't call at noon, she would come to her door. Geng Lin turned off his cell phone and immediately went to Lou Hong's office.They once agreed that if Geng Lin had to see Lou Hong during working hours, he would walk around Lou Hong's office as if nothing happened, chat for a while, and then they would leave the company one by one and go to a small office near the company. cake shop.There were always Collins songs playing there, because the owner was a Corinthian fan, though that didn't bring good business to the little shop. It can be seen that Lou Hong is the only one in the office today, which surprised Geng Lin, because the office with six employees is always full of people. "What happened?" Geng Lin asked Lou Hong. "what do you mean?" "Where did everyone go?" "They were all fired." Lou Hong said. "If you tell me the other way around, I still believe it." Geng Lin joked unintentionally. But Lou Hong thought for a while, "Do you want to say that I am not professional?" She wanted to stab Geng Lin with this sentence, but swallowed it back, because she had not let Geng Lin call Liu Yun. I know, somewhat guilty. "Liu Yun called me several times, saying that she has something to discuss and I want to hear your opinion. She seems to be in a bad mood." "Nothing?" "No, she said to meet and talk." Lou Hong suddenly became irritable, but she didn't know who she was angry with.Liu Yun was able to hold back such a big matter. This calmness annoyed her, because if she had, she would have jumped up.At the same time, she also regretted that she called Liu Yun impulsively, and now Geng Lin is so flustered and has no idea at all, he actually came to discuss with her, what's his head?All of this annoys her, and whenever she is annoyed, her little head can no longer activate her intelligence, and everything comes from her own temper. "Isn't this a good opportunity? On the one hand, we can talk about things, and on the other hand, we can also get rid of your continuous thoughts." When Lou Hong opened her mouth to say this, she still felt uneasy because what she wanted to say was unfair to Geng Lin .But after the words were spoken, her uneasiness was immediately replaced by a sudden resentment, as if a new "fact" had emerged: Geng Lin missed Liu Yun every day, not her, Lou Hong. Geng Lin looked at Lou Hong and thought, this is a girl who needs his love but will never be able to love him. He should get rid of the habit of living with Liu Yun, such as discussing things together. "Look what I'm doing, hurry up, it's getting late." Lou Hong said. Geng Lin left.On the way back to the office, he said to himself, "Women are all the same, they're annoying. I'm not going anywhere the fuck, I'm not seeing anyone. I'm going to be alone for two days and do what I want That's it." Lou Hong was sitting quietly at the desk on the surface, but her heart was agitated, wondering if Geng Lin would go to see Liu Yun.After thinking about it, she calmed down again, as if her natural self-confidence would always help her at such times. "If Geng Lin can turn around, he won't be worthy of my love." After thinking about it, she continued to deal with the work at hand. Many things, especially those things that bring you serious consequences, after the past, most of them can clearly show us the fate factor that once played a decisive role.Fate is sometimes an opportunity and sometimes a doom.In the morning, under the sunlight, one could even see fate meddling in Liu Yun's life. The emergency room is a highly valued department in Liu Yun's hospital, which is related to the geographical location of the hospital.The hospital is located in the city center, on a transportation hub, and it is a relatively large hospital, so it is easy for emergency patients to be sent here.But this morning, the two consultation rooms of the surgery department were not as busy as the night shift doctor said, but there were many fewer patients than usual.At noon, Liu Yun talked about this with a doctor in another consulting room. He also felt the same way, and he said that there would definitely not be too many patients in the afternoon.Liu Yun said that only God knows. Because there are few patients, Liu Yun has time to feel uncomfortable. What happened last night always suddenly came back to her memory.Each time it captures a different clip, sometimes it is Geng Lin avoiding her on the phone, and sometimes it is Lou Hong scolding her.But none of them came more violently, which made her feel special pain.But she felt something unbearable, as if inside her, and she couldn't get it out, say it, or even touch it.It played a huge role not far from her, oppressing Liu Yun and suffocating Liu Yun.Several times this morning when those memories came back, she had the urge to tear everything apart.But she could still control herself, she imagined seeing Geng Lin, she must explain all this clearly, she wanted to scold him, let him know that what he and his girlfriend were doing was too shameless. Liu Yun was in this mood waiting for Geng Lin to call back. Until two o'clock in the afternoon, Geng Lin did not respond, like a group of disappearing radio waves.Liu Yun came to the consulting room next door, and Dr. Hu, who was having lunch with her, was on duty.He has a big beard, so everyone calls him Dahu, and some people call him Hu Dahu.Anyway, no matter what others call him, he always agrees with a smile. On the surface, he looks like a joking person, but through his colleague Liu Yun, he feels that he is a serious person who can take responsibility very well. "Liu Yun, your complexion is not very good. Would you like me, a surgeon, to show you?" Hu Dahu said half-seriously and half-jokingly. Liu Yun pretended to be nonchalant and smiled, but her heart became excited because she saw Dr. Chen sitting opposite Da Hu, a young doctor who had just been transferred from other places. "Xiao Chen, why are you here? Is there a class?" Liu Yun said to Xiao Chen, an idea that hadn't formed before she stepped into the threshold was clearly reflected in her mind. "He came to work even when he had no shift, because he was alone." Da Hu rushed to answer for Xiao Chen. "Really?" Liu Yun wanted to confirm. "He lives in the celibate dormitory of the hospital, and he always comes over during his off-duty hours to soak up." It was Da Hu who said first again. "The main reason is that Dr. Hu is attractive, so I love to come here." "Then you will be on duty for me for a while, I have to go out for a while." Liu Yun seemed to say the request without even thinking about it. "Is something really wrong?" Da Hu looked at Liu Yun seriously. Liu Yun nodded.She felt that tears were welling up, and if Hu asked another question, she might burst into tears.Da Hu didn't ask any more questions. He knew what kind of woman Liu Yun was, and she was by no means someone who could easily ask for help.So he waved his hand to indicate that Liu Yun could go to work. "Go, it's me. Xiao Chen and I can handle all the emergency cases in the world." Dr. Hu said with ease, but he still felt the pressure in his heart.He couldn't imagine what happened to Liu Yun, who dared to risk the emergency surgeon leaving his post. When Liu Yun changed his clothes, the tears he held back earlier still flowed out.But she went to the street without hesitation and hailed a taxi...