Chapter 7 Chapter VII

Liu Yun couldn't forget this dawn, she opened her eyes suddenly, as if she came out of a comfortable dream.She looked at the white light on the curtains, stubbornly staying there, gathering strength, in order to light up the whole sky.This is dawn, right?Liu Yun thought in his heart.She didn't have the flustered feeling of suddenly waking up, because for the first time in a long time, she had a good night's sleep: deep and deep, without dreams, and slept the whole night. Of course, she also saw that the place where Geng Lin slept was empty, and she didn't know when he left.But she also felt strange that she was not particularly sad, as if it was only natural for Geng Lin to slip away from her bed, she turned her eyes to the white patch of dawn on the curtain, she was Thinking of other things, her mind was tied by her heart, and she couldn't face up to the fact that Geng Lin had slipped away.And her heart was feeling a kind of great happiness. She finally had such a relaxing bed with her husband, and she slept so sweetly after that.This great happiness broke the insomnia that had been tormenting Geng Lin ever since she left home, lifted her out of the incomparable pain involuntarily, and made her discover that happiness and pain are sometimes like a person's chest and back, almost There is no distance.

She thought that there must be many women in this world who enjoy themselves in bed with their husbands or lovers on weekend nights like she and Geng Lin, and then they can hug each other and fall asleep.Those women don't go through the embarrassment I have while my own man slips away like a thief.They know their man is still there, they can touch their man without opening their eyes, they can wake up their man if they want, but not to get up, but to play intimately until they are both hungry , will get up together and have a "breakfast" at noon.It's a pity that she never experienced this when she owned Geng Lin.Now she understands that a woman's great happiness can come so directly and intensely.So she seems to have power too, since other women can take my husband away through such a temptation, I can also try to take him back, she thought, as for the result, she didn't want to think about it, it seems that it is God's business thing.

She got up like a female soldier, she wanted to act, and she already knew what she was going to do.She thought that Geng Lin suddenly had another woman when she didn't expect it at all, which showed that she didn't know her husband well enough.So the first thing she wanted to do was to get to know her husband who had left home. She found a diary of Geng Lin.Seeing herself shaking before she opened the diary, she felt the moral pressure.Whatever her motives, she sees no reason to read someone else's diary, even her own husband's.But she also didn't have the strength to put the diary back intact.She hadn't eaten breakfast yet, and she felt exhausted after standing like this for a while.At this time, through the open window, she heard the old people downstairs who had returned from morning exercises greeting each other.She heard a voice in her heart: After all, I am not young anymore, and I will soon start to live in my old age like the people downstairs, whether I like it or not.I don't have much time and I want to grab my happiness so I have to get to know my husband because I love him.Even though it would be a mistake that no boss can forgive, I had to make it.

As soon as the sun rises, it begins its quiet movement. From morning to noon, how many things begin in the bright sun, and how many things end well or painfully, but nothing can disturb the quiet of the sun, It walks and walks again and again, as if it is a hand holding time forward, making time unbreakable like water.But people have to grow up, and gradually learn to see the two sides of life with time, and when many people see the other side of time for the first time, they are surprised at first, but unfortunately Liu Yun was already forty-one when he felt such a surprise for the first time Years old.

She read through the old diary in one breath, and her mind was blank for a long time.She didn't expect that Geng Lin never mentioned her in his diary, not a single word.He didn't even mention that her miscarriage had such a big impact on Geng Lin.But he wrote two diaries about Wang Shu and his wife.The content of these two diaries surprised Liu Yun again.She decided to meet Wang Shu's widow Peng Li. In Liu Yun's eyes, Wang Shu and Peng Li are the best couple in the world.Wang Shu's accidental death even reminded Liu Yun of a common saying that a good couple never ends.However, Geng Lin's diary described a different scene to Liu Yun. The woman Wang Shuai turned out to be was not his wife.What Liu Yun couldn't understand was how a man who had other women in his heart could treat his wife so well, or in other words, how could he make his wife so happy.She felt that the world was a bit chaotic, and for a moment, she had the idea to ask Geng Lin what kind of devil Wang Shu was.

When Liu Yun walked near Peng Li's house, he found Peng Li waiting for her downstairs.She felt that Peng Li was being too polite, but Peng Li said that Liu Yun was a rare guest and deserved to be welcomed.After Peng Li said this, she realized that Liu Yun was serious, so she added that she also took a breath of fresh air, took Liu Yun's arm and went upstairs together. Wang Shu and Geng Lin were close friends, but that didn't make Liu Yun and Peng Li also friends.Although they had a general relationship, there was no possibility of a closer relationship.Liu Yun has a natural prejudice against dancers. She thinks that all female dancers are domineering and posturing.Although Peng Li has stopped dancing for a long time, she will always maintain the characteristics of a dancer.So her enthusiasm for Liu Yun was interpreted by Liu Yun as being aimed at her husband.Once Liu Yun told Geng Lin that another reason that prevented her from becoming friends with Peng Li was that she couldn't understand how Peng Li always kissed her husband in front of outsiders. Don't they have a home?She remembered what Geng Lin said at the time, "Women always look down on women."

"Hey, let me say, Liu Yun, it hasn't been long since I saw you last time, why are you so thin?" Peng Li brought fruit to Liu Yun, poured tea, and then uttered this Surprised, Liu Yun felt sad for a while.Liu Yun could imagine what kind of life she was living now. "That's right," Liu Yun still wanted to hide. Although she sympathized with Peng Li very much now, she still couldn't trust her. In a word, she still didn't want Peng Li to know about her and Geng Lin. "Maybe it's because I haven't been sleeping well lately." "Then you have to be careful," Peng Li said seriously, "I'm afraid it's hard to get rid of insomnia at this age."

For some reason, although Peng Li's consolation came from concern, Liu Yun sounded a little gloating.She looked at Peng Li and found that she had also lost some weight, but the haggardness brought about by the thinness just rightly added a little sadness to Peng Li. This sadness made her look more free and easy than before, and had more flavor. The beauty shown on the outside has moved to the inside.Liu Yun vaguely felt that men would be more attracted to Peng Li than before.But she didn't express all these feelings. For a doctor, Liu Yun is not good at expressing unclear feelings. "You seem to have lost weight too." Liu Yun immediately added, "How are you doing recently?"

"Can I still keep thin?" Peng Li said with a gloomy expression, "I can't sleep well either." Liu Yun didn't speak, she suddenly felt very sad, and a strong sympathy arose in her heart. "I'm really screwed," Peng Li said casually, "I still miss him even now, especially at night when I'm lying on the bed alone, I can't stop crying." There was still a little smile on the corner of Peng Li's mouth, tears in the circles of her eyes Seeing this scene, Liu Yun's nose became sore. "I want to open up." Liu Yun said. "I understand the truth. Many women whose husbands are about my age have died, and they have found others." Peng Li glanced at Liu Yun, "I know I'm not ugly, but I don't want to look for it anymore. So what, no one can treat me better than Wang Shu. I have had such a good husband, and this life is enough and worth it."

Liu Yun was very touched by Peng Li's words, and couldn't help but think of fate. Women often have different lives because they marry different husbands, and at the same time, it also determines their attitude towards life.Peng Li sighed because of Wang Shu. Conversely, if a woman does not have a good husband, no love, but only a successful career, can she feel that this life is worth it?Liu Yun immediately gave a negative answer in her heart, and she strengthened her current opinion that men or feelings are too important to women. "You have to try to do something to distract yourself." Liu Yun said to Peng Li.

"I know, but I don't know what to do. When Wang Shu was alive, everything was always arranged for me, and I'm used to not caring about anything." "Who is in charge of his company now?" Liu Yun thought of Geng Lin's diary again. "His younger brother." Peng Li said, "Sometimes I think that having a good husband is a good thing on the one hand, but on the other hand it is not a good thing. The good thing is that you can be happy, and the bad thing is that you lose your ability, like a Son. To tell you the truth, we have been married for so many years. Wang Shu has always slept with his arms around me. If he doesn’t hold me, I can’t sleep. So sometimes he is on a business trip. Go with him. Anyway, one more person will pay more for the ticket. So, you see, how do I adjust, I live with him, our lives are separated on the surface, but in fact they are glued together." Liu Yun stared straight at Peng Li. Peng Li looked away and continued. "Now, my daughter is growing up and going to high school this year. I'm going to live like this. I don't adjust anymore. If I miss him, I try to make myself think about it. People say that depression makes people lose seven years of life. I I don't care, as long as I can live until my daughter goes to college, that's enough. The child will be independent as soon as she goes to college. In terms of finances, her uncle will take care of it. Anyway, the company is owned by the child's father. If the child goes out, I will If you still miss him so much, tell me, why don’t I go to him, why do I have to think so hard.” Peng Li looked up at Liu Yun when she said this, and smiled shyly. Liu Yun didn't say anything discouraging, even though she knew it was polite to say it right away.But at the moment, she was extremely envious of Peng Li. She could understand that once a woman gained a huge relationship, her life would become small. Could this be the fate of women, or the essence of women. "Sorry, I'm just talking, drink some tea, let it cool down, I'll add some water for you." Peng Li stood up and poured water for Liu Yun. "Hey, by the way, why didn't you come with Geng Lin?" "Ah, he has gone to study." Liu Yun lied before he could think it through. "Really." Peng Li said softly, and put Liu Yun's cup by her hand again.She remembered Geng Lin's visit after Wang Shu's death.Geng Lin said a lot of things to her that seemed inexplicable to her, but what made her happy was Geng Lin's attitude, and he treated her very heart-to-heart.Since then, she has always felt that Geng Lin wanted them to become confidants.But now, Geng Lin's confidant doesn't even know about such a big matter. "When will you be back?" She asked Liu Yun. "Where did your daughter go?" Liu Yun didn't answer, but asked another question instead. "I went to her grandma's house." Peng Li replied casually, but kept her eyes on Liu Yun. She had already realized something. Liu Yun stood up, approached a cabinet, and looked at the couple photos on it.In the photo, Peng Li smiled sincerely. Liu Yun seemed to feel that the world had no rules, but she knew that she could not tell Peng Li the contents of Geng Lin's diary.No matter who is like her, she is unwilling to destroy Peng Li's deep feelings. "You two are really a happy couple." Liu Yun said to the photo. "It's a pity that it doesn't end." Peng Li said, "Geng Lin can't be wrong with you, right?" Peng Li asked. Liu Yun turned around, smiled at Peng Li, and sat back on the sofa.Peng Li's well-maintained face made her feel childish. "How do you say it?" Liu Yun said vaguely. "How did he treat you?" Since Peng Li felt something, she couldn't stop asking until everything became clear; she stared at Liu Yun, and found that tears slowly filled Liu Yun's eyes. orbital. "Tell me, what's the matter? If you don't even trust me, who else can you trust? As soon as you walk in, I will find that something is wrong with you." Peng Li is like a good actor, infected by the situation she set up.She did feel that something was wrong with Liu Yun, but it definitely wasn't when she just walked over. Liu Yun's tears still flowed out under Peng Li's sincere call.Since Geng Lin left, she has never directly vented her inner pain to anyone. When Wu Gang sent her home, she didn't want to confide in him, but she couldn't cry in front of a man who wasn't her husband. size. Peng Li sat next to Liu Yun, put her arms around her shoulders, and said nothing.She knows what a woman needs in a situation like this, even though she's hardly ever been in one. "Cry, cry if you want to cry. You'll feel better if you cry." Liu Yun cried like a child. Peng Li left Liu Yun silently and went to the bathroom to get her a towel.Without asking, Peng Li could guess what happened. It seemed that the only thing that could make women cry so much was that men left them. "I'm sorry," Liu Yun said while sobbing, "I, I..." "Don't talk about this. If you want, you can stay here for two days. Anyway, I'm fine, so I can accompany you every day." The crying Liu Yun was no longer so arrogant in Peng Li's eyes, which made Peng Li feel that she was more than those people at the moment. A woman who is not proud at all is even more pitiful. Liu Yun finally stopped crying, she smiled apologetically at Peng Li.Her smile looked so helpless, which made Peng Li feel that she was a strong person. "what is the problem?" "It's very simple. Geng Lin has a girlfriend and we separated." "How could you agree to a separation so easily? Who is that woman?" "I didn't agree to the separation. He left by himself. I don't know who that woman is. He didn't want to tell me. He was afraid that I would hurt that person." "Is he crazy? I can't tell where is inside and where is outside." Peng Li was furious, like a heroine, "Why didn't you tell me earlier?" "I……" "You are too honest." Peng Li said. "If Wang Shu was still alive, he might not have taken this step." Liu Yun's thoughts suddenly became confused, and he was thinking about his own thoughts again. "You reminded me of that," Peng Li was firmly on Liu Yun's side before thinking about it. Maybe Geng Lin had another woman and would never talk to her again, which made her feel uncomfortable. "Some time ago, Geng Lin came to my place once." "Really?" Liu Yun was a little surprised. "He said something inexplicable to me." "Why?" Liu Yun asked. "Perhaps you are right, Wang Shu's death has stimulated him." "What did he say?" Liu Yun thought of Geng Lin's diary. "What, that's the way people live. It doesn't make much sense. He still thinks that life is a big deception, and nothing is forever meaningful. Hearing what he said, I comforted him. I thought you were arguing." "At that time, did he have this woman?" "I don't think so. I asked him, how are you, because I wondered why he said these things to me instead of you. He said, you are busy with patients all day long, and you always have operations. He doesn't want to talk to you." You talk like this. On the one hand, he thinks that you don’t like the feeling of uncertainty, on the other hand, he thinks that your work responsibilities are too great, and he doesn’t want to add to your obstacles. When he said that, I didn’t think much about it.” Liu Yun smiled, Peng Li immediately understood Liu Yun's intention, she said: "Yeah, this is a man who says one thing and does another, and no one is worthy of your trust. By the way, he kept asking me if he thought life was meaningful. I said, of course it is meaningful, God gave I am Wang Shu, he loves me so much, even though he has left me alone now, I still feel that life is meaningful." Liu Yun nodded seriously when she heard this, and she began to appreciate Peng Li's optimistic attitude towards life. "But he told me that he didn't expect that I still believed in miracles." When Peng Li said these words, she was insensitive, as if she was talking about something related to another person. "I didn't expect him to think that the relationship between me and Wang Shu was a miracle, but I thought it was normal. I asked him what constitutes a miracle for him, and he said that anything that can last for a long time is a miracle for him." "Deceit and lies?" Liu Yun interrupted. "Yes, that's what I asked at the time," Peng Li said excitedly. "He said, it's all the same. If it's not exposed, it's a miracle. Hey, do you think he's weird?" Liu Yun had nothing to say, and her thoughts turned to Peng Li again. Now she couldn't figure out who was luckier, she or Peng Li.