Chapter 4 Chapter 4 Self-deprecation and Bitch

Old Xia: Once, you said that these academic doctors commented on you, and it felt like they had no access to your writing and life, and they knew nothing about your life experience. In this state of ignorance, they You can't get into your language, that kind of imaginary space, and you can't even get into the state that really hits you, that is, when they criticize you, they don't even really believe what they are opposing.Stick to something.Their most fundamental problem is that they don't stick to anything, so they don't have a target.Every word is suspect, except that the rage of intellectual vanity challenged is real.But the academic school is also quite weird. When they criticize you, they regard you as a ruffian writer who writes ruffian novels, but when they want to find empirical evidence of "postmodernism" in China, they put you in the ranks of "postmodernism", " "Post-modernism" was the most fashionable knowledge at that time, and it was also a cutting-edge cultural criticism in the West, which is already a very high evaluation.Wang Shou, Wang Yuechuan, Zhang Yiwu, professors and doctors who must be called "post" at the time, actually regarded you as a representative writer of postmodernism in China.What do you think about this issue, or this incident?

Wang Shuo: I always think that reviewing novels is completely different from writing novels.A critic speaks of himself by reviewing novels.From a utilitarian point of view in the literary world, a review involves a writer.Especially the fame and status of emerging writers.For example, before Chinese writers became famous, they published an article that had some influence. The publication that published this work held a seminar, invited critics to participate and comment, and then made a self-report by the author, and published it together on In publications, this is considered a success.From a utilitarian point of view, critics are important to writers, their affirmation and negation.Controversy and refutation determine whether a writer becomes a focus or focus within a certain period of time.But when I came out, it was tantamount to surviving without the critics acknowledging it.I survived by myself.That said, I don't need them when it comes to utility.From a utilitarian point of view, between serious criticism and non-serious criticism, the fame of a writer requires non-serious criticism to a certain extent.What about serious criticism?I have a pessimistic view. I think that novels cannot be explained by theory, and the way most critics work is to explain novels by theory. Sometimes, in order to match his research topic, he has no patience to Think hard about how you got here, that is, how your work came to be.He also only uses you if your work supports his theoretical views.And on this point, I think the critic just wants to talk about himself, and use you to talk about himself.This is very similar to the way we deal with the affairs of life.When a writer writes, he takes what he is interested in or supports his ideas in life and writes it into a novel. He must have left out many original things in life.Critics criticize novelists similarly.He seems to be explaining what the essence of fiction is.What characterizes a certain writer's work is, in fact, nothing else he has to explain than himself.If there is a critic who is particularly serious, and tells all aspects of the writer’s life without omission, breaks them apart to look at them, and touches them all, how exciting the writer’s feelings will be when he sees such a critic .Of course, there can be no such critics.Let’s put it this way, as a novelist, I understand this issue very well. I don’t ask critics to understand me, and there is no need to say about me.Unless otherwise, he will pretend to care about me, but he will cover the rest of me, and it is actually impossible to write a review like this.At least so far I haven't seen anyone who is such a modern and serious critic.So then I discovered that the relationship between writers and critics is close to mutual exploitation.He criticizes me in order to criticize other landscapes. It is difficult to say that their discussion is really about me. What am I, just a symbol or a symbol.What do I represent?The money worship in the society, the moral decline, he really wanted to use this to speak.In this case, I don't think it needs to be taken too seriously.So what is my attitude towards them?I am like this: Anyway, when you talk about me, even if you say it critically, I still seem hot. The public only knows that my name is mentioned repeatedly, and they always love to talk about me. As for what is being said, the public doesn’t particularly care.All the rebuttals and responses are actually a question, which in my opinion is an old-fashioned topic, nothing to do with it.They are also unable or unwilling to talk about other topics.After they define you as that kind of person, and they never want to understand you, it is impossible for you to try to make them understand you and change their opinion of you through reasoning or self-justification and self-explanation.I think they said I was just an excuse, just saying things to each other.As for me, after this kind of thing was created, I tried to maintain this state. Now I feel that I can maintain a distance from the mainstream culture.Of course, this sounds awesome, as if this is where my value lies.So I think what I am most afraid of is not being scolded, but being recognized by them.

Old Xia: There is a big difference between ruffian literature and "post-modernism". Wang Shuo: I'm too lazy to figure out this difference. I only know some of its characteristics, but I don't understand what it actually refers to. Lao Xia: "Postmodern" is a very avant-garde thing, and it is completely a countercultural movement in the West.If you are a ruffian of mass culture, then you are part of the mainstream culture in China, how can you become the "post-modern" of the counter-mainstream culture? Wang Shuo: This is a big misunderstanding.I found that in this process, everyone is not considered to be converging.For example, ruffians are actually a small society and have nothing to do with the masses. The roughness of popular culture also appears in a delicate and optimistic way, but its essence is vulgarity. Well-made productions cannot hide this vulgarity, and sometimes make it more eye-catching.

Just like "a good man lives a safe life", I think this sentence is very vulgar, it is the kind that does not distinguish between good and bad, or it is the kind of generalization, and it is so thick here.vulgar?It is its roughness that comforts everyone but is expressed in a gentle form, this is its vulgarity.Strictly speaking, people accept ruffians because they belong to society, not to the general public.At that time, I felt that there was a kind of gangster on the street who learned this ruffian to be vulgar and made it a part of popular culture.In other words, it is right to package the ruffian's "roughness" into the "vulgarity" of mass culture, and use this packaging to improve the quality of mass culture and move toward elegance.

Lao Xia: Elegance in popular culture is precisely where it is most vulgar.Refined vulgarity, making a piece of cake is more attractive than roses. The reason why the popular culture of Hong Kong and Taiwan is superior to that of the mainland lies in its refinement. Wang Shuo: It moves towards elegance.I'm messing with this thing, I don't package or refine my riffraff, my riffraff is anti-popular culture.If I must be popular, it must not be rough, but elegant in fashion.So I said, in fact, that and the vulgar are not the same thing.Ruffian is rough, not clean, not smooth, but real, so it is not vulgar; popular culture is elegant, clean and smooth, easy to be accepted by all walks of life, but it is fake, so vulgar, like Hong Kong and Taiwan culture.

Lao Xia: Mainland rock music has a rough side to many riffraff, but compared with Hong Kong's sweet songs, it's both ugly and vulgar.Those young rock singers after Cui Jian are ruffian in life and songs, but they are by no means vulgar. Wang Shuo: Actually it is.The ruffian does not constitute an offense to others, its offense is constructed.But from my point of view, elite culture’s criticism of riffraff seems to be critical on the surface, but in fact it is a tone of superiority to teach people, and it is a taste formulated by mainstream culture.The taste of the original mainstream culture is no longer good, so it must find support in the popular culture and academic culture, and let these two things repackage themselves, so they merge.But they began to insist on ruffian literature as mass culture. When "post-modernism" came, they eliminated the ruffian literature. After it was eliminated from mass culture, where did it go?No it's back to the counterculture again.So I don't know how to say it myself, I can't escape from popular culture and go to the academy, can they put me in their group?I do not believe.Actually I am very different from them.

After I really detached myself from popular culture, it was time for me to see my place.Their criticism of me continued as usual, so I had to let it continue.And I clearly feel that I am a little ridiculous, where is the ridiculous?I also joined in the critique of popular culture.At this point, I have joined them again.But I think that now mass culture and political culture have merged to form the mainstream.The academic school puts the elite culture outside the mainstream culture, so it is easy to merge with my current position.Together with them, I feel that they seem to be in harmony with each other, and they are close to having ghosts.Anyway, I think the objects of everyone's criticism are actually similar, or the same, but this does not affect everyone's needles and pouring cold water on each other.Stumble.One of the most commonly used expressions is that everyone is enduring an intolerable hook-up.So-and-so colludes with power, and so-and-so colludes with popular culture.So-and-so hooked up with the elites, which was intertwined and crooked, almost a hodgepodge of triangles and incest, flirting with each other, beating with each other, scolding with each other, and what I was afraid of was being thrown into this muddy water for no reason.But I admit that the obsequiousness I used when I hooked up was not more elegant than theirs, maybe even more vulgar.For example, it is also a criticism of mass culture, they want to say that their criticism is more interesting, they are authentic, they are elites trained by the academy, and they are the style of the leader.So now I am happy to look at my own stuff, it is completely my own thing, in order not to make my point of view merge with them when criticizing mass culture, I have to fight against them at the same time. In fact, I agree with some of their views, and I agree with some of their views on matters of fact.

Old Xia: Since you and the academics agree in criticizing mass culture, why can't you join forces?Do you still hold a grudge against them?I asked you just now, didn't you say that you have never felt jealous? Wang Shuo: I have already stated clearly my thoughts and opinions on the academic school.I have no personal grievances with them. The confrontation is because they are accomplices and think they are holy, and they are very qualified to teach others and save all sentient beings.They don't know, I do.In the past, I would not directly tell them what they are, just to joke with them, now I will directly tell them that they are grandchildren of popular culture.They are vulgar, no matter how great their knowledge is, they are also vulgar. Compared with their vulgarity, popular culture is just a small vulgarity, and they are the big vulgarity.In contrast, wallets that cater to the masses are vulgar.Of course, this does not mean that I have to talk about this matter when I have free time. I will not say anything as soon as I want to write a novel.But there are a lot of things I feel I have said a long time ago and people can't hear them.So for me, I didn't realize that I was addressing them.I don't like mass culture at all, and I don't want to get close to them.But at that time, I insisted on following it for a while, and made it a darling of popular culture.But I won't hang with them forever.That is to say, when I get along with you, of course I want to benefit, and if I want to benefit at that time, of course I have to be good.Later, I felt that I started to lose a little bit of points, and I didn't get tired of crooked anymore.This is a matter of course.There is no such process for me, and I may not be able to recognize its face.Maybe I'm shameless here because I'm shameless, and I won't play around anymore after I get the benefits.Now I dare say that that kind of complicity has only happened to me once, and it is enough that I know it has a comfortable superficial way of behaving, and that superficial comfort is undeniable.It is not enough for a person to insist on writing alone, it is very lonely.In fact, they have nothing to do, the workload is not heavy, and they don't have to be so serious about creating, so they are easy to get lost.But if you want to say that you write by yourself, if you really don’t like doing this and insist on writing, then you really can’t write.You feel tired, how tired you are to compete with yourself every day, not everyone can stick to this extreme posture.In fact, there are shameless things in my bones now, but it is more of a feeling that I can finally be myself calmly. Of course, this word belongs to Hong Kong and Taiwan.There are often such words in Hong Kong and Taiwan songs: "Finally be yourself." It is a kind of joy to really be able to be yourself.

Lao Xia: The mass culture of the 1990s began to spread everywhere, and a very important feature was that it involved many writers. Writers became famous and influenced not by critics, but by adapting their novels by well-known directors.For example, Liu Heng, Su Tong, and Yu Hua were all inflated by adaptation, and you are one of them.When Zhang Yimou was at his best, several well-known writers would write scripts about Wu Zetian for him at the command of an order. The temptation of the movie was actually the temptation of fame and profit.Some people can rely on Zhang Yimou's adaptation to rise to the top.For example, Shuping from Changchun, Zhang Yimou used his novel to film "Speak Well", and he became popular immediately.

Wang Shuo: Now Shuping follows Jiang Wenping.He can write very well.In fact, Zhang Yimou is not effective now, and his ability to promote writers has disappeared since Yu Hua's. Old Xia: Now Shu Ping is not only among the big names in film and television in Beijing, but also the vice-chairman of the Writers Association of Jilin Province.You have a reputation in the film and television industry, but you didn't get to be the chairman or vice chairman of a certain association.Be famous, make money, and be an official.And you only have the first two items. Wang Shuo: Do ​​you think it is interesting to have a name?

Lao Xia: You are an early self-employed "code character" in China. You have been self-reliant and a non-system writer. Not only did you support yourself and your family, but you also supported them well, and you became a "decent middle class".However, most of the academics live on the emperor's food, relying on the wages and titles of the system to support them.How sad, they cling to their job in the system, for fear that it will be smashed (the iron rice bowl in the current system has become a porcelain rice bowl).None of them can create a basic independent status for themselves economically, so what qualifications do they have to criticize the kitsch of self-reliant people.Now, the famous writers here are the same as the academic school, most of them are affiliated with a unit and have a division level.Bureau-level treatment.They are double parasites, benefiting from the outside of the system and relying on the inside of the system.According to my choice, I would rather have a hundred self-sufficient writers who appeal to the public than an elegant scholar and famous writer who holds a royal job.By the way, I forgot to ask, you are also a member of the Writers Association now, right? Wang Shuo: I am a member.But economically it has nothing to do with it.With a membership card of the Writers Association, at most you can go to other places to show off.But in fact, I have never used this certificate to show off. Old Xia: Your face is easier to use than your membership card. Wang Shuo: Then you mean I'm showing off my old face. Old Xia: Almost.At least I've seen you swagger a few times on TV.But your face is not intelligent on TV.That is to say, a kitsch face, the movements of facial muscles are fairly normal, not exaggerated to the point of sneezing, grinning or deep thinking. Wang Shuo: As long as it doesn't make people feel sick enough to spit it out. Lao Xia: Speaking of it now, you feel that you have withdrawn from popular culture.I think quitting mass culture is quitting mainstream culture.Since the TV series "Longing", mass culture has actually merged with mainstream culture. Wang Shuo: When I was in popular culture, I was very clear about it.At that time, we had a very clear slogan called "two elders are satisfied", "two elders", one is a veteran cadre, and the other is an ordinary person.Isn't this obvious? It was like this from the very beginning.Every time I make a film, I have this requirement, and my personal pursuit can only be within the scope of this slogan, which is very clear.Hong Kong and Taiwan also abide by the rules of the game when they enter the mainland. I have worked with them, and they can't fly anywhere.Hong Kong and Taiwan also come to the mainland in two ways. The first is to respect what should be respected, and the second is to persist in what should be persisted.In fact, the premise of insisting on respect is that once you have respect, even if you still persist, you will not be able to persist.Popular culture has always been like this, especially film and television dramas, which require a lot of investment and require the widest and most complete approval.The society also knows that the result of persistence is death.We later made two films, and if we made one and killed the other, the investors couldn’t afford it first, because the cost of it was too high, and the cost of resistance or persistence would be even greater. No one can stand it. If the investors don’t Just make money to make you happy, and then you can do something of your own.But no businessman does that.The businessman himself always hopes to find a suitable opportunity. He never likes you to mess around. If you mess up, his opportunity may be lost.So in Chinese terms, it is good for stability and unity, and film and television dramas must play a role in stability and unity here. Old Xia: The Chinese people are afraid of being poor, and the drive to kill the rich and help the poor is too ferocious.Now many people have made their own way out, bought a property abroad, and obtained the right of residence.Do you want to live abroad?Have you figured out a way out for yourself? Wang Shuo: I have thought about it.I am afraid that I will go abroad when I am old.In China, I’ll tell you the truth, I don’t feel like I have any chance, no sense of security here, and I’ve felt that way since I was a kid.I have seen too many things that nothing happened overnight. Liu Shaoqi was also the chairman of the country, so it was just overnight.I think all the status and the little money I earn now are very illusory.I sometimes feel that I have opportunities and a sense of security here, but most of the time I feel that there is no iron thing to protect you, that is, whether what you get legally will be lost illegally.It always feels like a dream, and everything you got is gone.In fact, I think some people have nothing to let go of property, but there are some things you have to consider, such as children.I have been insecure since I was a child, and of course I hope my child is safe in the end.I think rich people have legitimate concerns.Many rich people don't care when they have no money.But when you first start to have some private property and some personal things, your position will sometimes be softened, and you will ask for an attitude, and you will have a lot of concerns, and you will definitely not dare to mess around.My point of view on this point is to see how unsafe it is. If you are unsafe no matter what you do, then you can only let your temper go. Instead of seeking a moment of safety, it is better to be yourself.Take a step back, that is, if you don’t want to be yourself, you need to be careful now, and don’t do shameful things.So I say that life is a place full of conspiracies. To some extent, the rigidity of the system can prevent some small conspiracies from happening, but these small conspiracies have not disappeared, but piled up there, temporarily resting, but not idle with.From the perspective of interest exchange, popular culture is more reasonable.Popular culture is business, and business must emphasize credibility and contracts. Of course, this kind of business in China is definitely not standardized and chaotic, but this chaos is not a business problem, but power comes to disrupt business and profit from it.The most troublesome thing is dealing with power.One of the ways to avoid trouble is to stay away from it, don't touch it. Old Xia: I think some things may be determined by your innate personality.The children in your family are strangers in the nursery and in the family since they were young. They have no sense of security, and they can't do it if they want to please.In fact, you were born in a military family and grew up in a military compound. You are also a member of the red cradle. You are the most popular type of people. Why do you feel insecure? Wang Shuo: I don't want to say. Old Xia: There is a government with the kind of people.You and I are also born and raised here, and this country is closely related to us.It is the tree and we are the soil. Wang Shuo: That's why I have the experience. Old Xia: As for your explanation just now, I think it is a bit tactful.For example, you are bouncing back and forth between popular culture and writing fiction.What will society think of your attitude of going in and out?Do you have something real in it?That is to say, this kid Wang Shuo has earned money and gained fame, and he wants to show his nobility again.Back then, when he said I was a hooligan, who would I be afraid of? We were also ordinary people. At that time, you were making money, and you used these self-deprecating statements as a shield.Now you're out again, blaming popular culture conventions.People would think that Wang Shuo is a treacherous and cunning kid who wants to take advantage of both sides.Of course, you just said that your transformation is real, and you already knew in your heart that it was out of tune with the tastes of popular culture.Don’t you think there is no reason to criticize popular culture after earning money from it? Don’t you think that after it has given you favors, you still know that it is not good and still say it, isn’t it very unkind?Regarding your attack on Jin Yong and the four customs of Hong Kong, there have been many unkind comments, such as the first, second, and third editions of the mass culture communication you talked about, so that the topic is changed endlessly until personal attacks.And the speculation I'm going to say is more of a personal attack.More vicious.That is to say, you feel that you can’t get along in the popular culture, and the popular culture can no longer add points to your reputation and interests, so you need to change your way and reshape.Pack yourself.You are consciously designing yourself, at what point, what cards should be played, step by step, and the timing and opportunities are well grasped.I think some people feel the same way as me.Faced with such a question, have you not seriously reflected on yourself?That is to say, is this transformation of yours really as pure as what you just confessed? Wang Shuo: As far as I am concerned, it is really that pure.No matter what other people think, I am sure of myself.I just want to say again that I have long been displeased with popular culture, why didn't I come out and make trouble sooner?I also have opportunistic considerations: I have long seen these new ways of life, the new petty bourgeois elements, and next time I will practice with them.But I wouldn't start practicing with them from the start.That is, when mass culture first emerged, you condemned this kind of life and culture as boring, empty and even immoral, earlier.And I know that anti-leftism is to destroy the dead, and everyone pushes the wall down. There is no risk. This is directly against the public, and going against it will cause public outrage. Lao Xia: Chinese cultural people have always had two destinations, either stepping on the red carpet on the podium, or throwing themselves into the arms of village girls.Power and the people are two gods. Wang Shuo: I also had the opportunity to practice with it at that time. For me, I didn't need to think carefully.But if it is done early, there will definitely be negative effects. It has not fully integrated into the mainstream at that time, and it has just come out. At this time, I think it is still a healthy force compared to the mainstream.It should become a common way of life, eating, drinking and being merry.Sensual dog and horse.sentimental.Good people live a safe life, all of this has become a common practice now, and it has begun to become a mainstream helper.I think it's time, and we must not simply say that it is good just because the people have a strong pleasure in it.Fittingly, when it became mainstream, when it became a common way of life, that's when I chose to practice with it. Lao Xia: Is this a serious choice or a severe test for you?Have you ever thought about what it means to be an enemy of the masses?You have really reached the point where few people read your works, won't you regret it?I used to feel the almost instinctive resistance you insisted on, and this resistance is even more obvious.In our place, some people also try to survive strategically and skillfully, but they always fail.This kind of failure is not because he doesn't want to live like others, but because he has more energy than energy, a kind of physiological.Physical inadequacy prevents him from entering the group, from gaining a kind of recognition, as a member of the legitimate group.Thus, all his struggles turned out to be a kind of resistance, a kind of disobedience, even though it was helpless.Did you stick to it from the beginning? Wang Shuo: Of course.I think this kind of persistence is trying to live like a human being as much as possible.The so-called being like a person is nothing more than living as realistically as possible.I think truth is all there is to it.It is impossible for me to choose a person who is purified, or cultivated into a person with a high moral level.Very pure person.Or don't go too high, just want to be a person who is out of low-level interests, which is very difficult.But, of course I can pretend to be better, and I have done some, but if I pretend to be better, I will not get any direct things except tiring myself. Sometimes instead of improving myself, it will lead to hypocrisy after a long time , not even a little bit of humanity, so I don't think it's necessary.Sometimes I think it's honest and Nazi to look at some issues from a commercial, purely commercial point of view. I thought so when I first entered popular culture.Compared with past political transactions, money transactions are the cleanest.Politics is sometimes too dirty, and business at least talks about fair trade.Of course, here in our country, nothing escapes the pollution of politics.Business and money transactions also get dirty.But withdrawing from mass culture and commerce does not mean that the prevailing business rules are abolished. From a commercial point of view, on the premise of honest transactions, at least choose the path with the least cost.Then I feel that as long as there is no particularly major test, I will strive to live as a person.But I dare not say too absolutely. I mean I can't guarantee that everything will be true and will always be true.If there is a big problem or a big test, I can't guarantee that I can withstand it.I will try it, maybe I can withstand it, or I may not be able to withstand it, I dare not say so dead without being personally on the scene.And as far as I know myself, I probably can't stand it. Old Xia: The inherent fragility of human nature is also an inevitable prerequisite for living as an individual.Either become a god or become a demon, as long as you don't go to these two extremes, the National People's Congress will have a test that you can't pass.It's just that some people don't have the chance to meet.Those who mold themselves into gods are precisely developing the worst part of human nature to the extreme and becoming demons.Just like there is no heaven on earth, trying to create a paradise on earth is tantamount to digging a grave for the earth.When you say that about yourself, do you suspect that you will not be able to stand up in the future and leave a way out?Like your "we're a layman too"? Wang Shuo: In fact, I want to write about the double fragility of human beings in the novel, which is inherent in human beings. This kind of thing cannot be compensated by understanding, knowledge and cultivation. It is the kind of innate and eternal fragility. There is no shame in exposing this vulnerability, it is the conspiracy and trap in personality design to cover it up. Old Xia: The Chinese have been digging this kind of trap for themselves since ancient times. Wang Shuo: So I feel very sad.In fact, it may be a very sad fate for people like me to be destined. My kind of ego doesn't really lift up.That's why I'll get into a revealing state whenever I get a chance, and I'll become very aggressive, or rather presumptuous.Because if you don’t have such a space, you’d better not be presumptuous. If you go too far, you won’t be able to close the scene when it’s critical.Because I know that on key issues, on real tests, I can't stand it.Of course I have thought about this, that is to say, I hope that I have an ideal life. On this point, I am not discouraged, and I am not so different from other people.In fact, popular culture like the United States is really a peaceful choice, and it is completely possible.I feel that when I said that sentence, that is, we are also ordinary people, I felt that it was not what I thought at the time.I feel that the kind of life I want is very far away. Our life here is extremely vulgar. No one can escape this vulgarity, so we can only be a vulgar person.So at that time, I never thought that there would really be such a reasonable society, not an ideal one, but a roughly reasonable society where everyone would have a chance.If you can't get out alone, just be honest and be an honest citizen like most other people. Old Xia: This is where our tragedy lies. To be an honest citizen is an extravagant wish.We are also ordinary people, we are ridiculed, but also helpless; we are self-deprecating, and we are also sluts.What I don't understand is that you are so aware of the fragility of people and your own fragility, how can you still wade into the muddy waters of mass culture?With a bunch of such boring people.In addition to making money, get together every day to talk about some boring things.You want to use the fragility of human nature to explain it. Now that you realize it, your fragility has been brought into full play through the muddy water you wade through.Later, you returned to the novel, because you were bored, or because you had a self-conscious requirement for yourself. Wang Shuo: Don't you know that I have a vulgar side?I have a vulgar side. Old Xia: Just hang out with those people, isn't it uncomfortable? Wang Shuo: There are also interesting people here, of course I mean interesting talk.It's not that their kind of people are all hideous, nor is their language dull.He can also say some funny things, so I just make fun with everyone, so I can enjoy myself.The charm of a vulgar life is that you can enjoy yourself, really.When I think about it, I was really fucking disgusted at that time, and I was so fucking fat.Get drunk, say some shameless things, and hang out with some bitches.In that life, the days passed so quickly, I didn't even know how it would pass in three to five years if I didn't pay attention.I still think about writing novels in the future, work hard, and think so every day, but the year has just begun, and it is the end of the year in a blink of an eye, and it will be another year in a blink of an eye.Ultimately it's boring, eventually it's definitely boring, and most of the time it's boring.However, a boring time is also very easy to bear. You have to accumulate a very long time before you may really feel that a boring life is boring, and sometimes you need something to push you unexpectedly.If I hadn’t been filmed at that time, I would probably still be hanging around in it, and you would become lazy. As soon as you opened your eyes, there would be such a group of people, and everyone would do all kinds of things with you.You don't realize that it's boring. When you do these things, if you have a little whimsy, you will think: "Ah! This thing has become very interesting." You are also complacent about your own cleverness. Especially many.Even in the process of working on something, sometimes I can create some small happiness and some small complacency.But then it was pushed.Only after this push did you realize that to some extent someone else made the decision for you.You are not from here, so stop messing with us.Some people did not withdraw, there is no way out.How am I better than them?When I was messing around inside, I always had a feeling in my heart that I didn't want to look back, and I just wanted to mess everything up.I remember meeting Cui Jian in a bar once, and I babbled like an idiot, this is dead, and that is dead.It seems that Cui Jian said, you write novels, who cares?It was then that I realized that no matter how I got around in the film and television industry, others thought I was a writer.The readers I met said, how about the novel you wrote.Few people say to me: I have watched your play.People still think of me as a writer.At that time, I found that I did not regard myself as a writer, but people still regarded me as a writer again and again.