Chapter 12 11. Qin's Story

Because of her ugliness, Wang Xiuer hid in her study since she was a child, afraid of going out, meeting people, looking in the mirror, and seeing her own reflection in the water basin.She was also afraid of seeing her own shadow under the sun, and thought that shadow must be the ugliest shadow in the world.The only thing that can make her love herself a little is playing the guqin.The sound of the piano under her hands is exactly the opposite of her appearance, the sound of the piano is soft and pure, with an invisible depth, as if all the strings of the piano have become lingering and weak muscles and bones.It seems that the lazy beauty is stretching her limbs and panting heavily.Sometimes listening to the sound of the piano, Xiu'er couldn't help crying, as if the sound of the piano did not come from her hand, but from a confidant.She spoke to the guqin, and the qin said, Xiu'er is a beauty, and all the beautiful whispers in the world are uttered by her.Upon hearing this, she

teary.She loves to play the piano at night, without lighting the lights, without looking at her short hands, just sitting in the dark and listening to the sound of the piano played by her hands. The sound of the piano in the dark night is more like comfort from afar.Sometimes she also writes poems and paintings, but the poems and paintings are just her brain, and the piano is really her body, or the only other person who loves her, can see her, and feel her.When holding the qin, she is an admired, caressed, and intimate woman. Without the qin, she is not even a good-looking shadow.Fortunately, she was pampered by her family since she was a child, and she didn't have to be bound by secular conventions.As long as she is happy, she can sit in the study and whisper to Qin, day and night, no one will stop her.Sometimes she hugged Qin even when she was sleeping, for fear of having any relationship with Qin.Growing up like this, she will not be too disappointed because of her ugly appearance.When she got married, she still held the qin while sitting in the sedan chair, as if the qin were her clothes.

After a short time during the wedding, the Guqin was taken away by the family and entered the bridal chamber, where the Guqin returned to her arms, and she sat there holding the Qin and waiting for her husband.Her husband came and took off her hijab. When she looked up, she was startled by her husband's beauty. She felt that the world was absurd. How could God make a man so beautiful and make her so ugly? He wanted them to be a husband and wife, isn't this playing tricks on her? And Jicheng looked at his wife, his mind was confused: Even if he only looked at flowers and plants all his life and didn't look at women, he had seen his mother after all, didn't he not know There are differences between beauty and ugliness in women, but the eagle-faced man in Jinxiu's arms holding a harp sitting in front of him is clearly a man disguised as a woman, but why is it that the blind man pointed out that his father ordered his wife? Doubts arose.Think about it again, that's all, you have to read books, you have to marry your wife, your father is always right, so go to sleep.So he said to Xiu'er: "It's been a hard day, my lady should go to bed early." After finishing speaking, she undressed and went to bed, ignored Xiu'er, and started snoring after a while.

Xiu'er sat holding the piano for a while, for a long time.Seeing that Jicheng didn't talk to her again, he couldn't help but feel like crying.She was sweating coldly while holding the piano, and she kept repeating the sentence "Talk to Qin Daiyu from the bottom of my heart, and wish to be worthy of virtue and join hands with each other".Unexpectedly, when the husband entered the room and said a word, he fell asleep by himself, leaving her sitting here alone, not knowing what to do.She wanted to play the piano to masturbate, but she was afraid of disturbing her step-family, so she sat under the lamp and wept. For the first time in her life, she didn't know who she was and where she was. Walking through the busy city in front of people is like walking, and I am extremely ashamed.Under the candlelight, I just felt that this body wrapped in silk and satin was redundant and disgusting, and I didn't know where to hide it.It's better when I'm crying, I finally have something to do, it's even more terrible when I'm not crying, I just sit there and I'm embarrassed, no sitting, no lying down.She lightly moved her fingers on the piano, rubbing against the strings, but no sound came out. The wood board and the strings made a soft friction sound. After a while, she heard a kind of music from the friction sound, and began to hum in her mind. Sing the hidden melody under the friction.I also remembered that when I was a human being, there was a poem written by Li Qingzhao, "When the phoenix tree falls, it is still autumn, and it is still lonely!" I really feel that life is better than death.Sitting like this until early in the morning, I really lost my energy, so I had to climb onto the bed with the qin like a defeated soldier, and fell asleep with the qin in my arms.

The next day, she wanted to honor her mother-in-law, so she fell a big somersault in the kitchen, knocked over a bucket of water, wet the pomegranate skirt, and stained the ground with red soup. Fortunately, my mother-in-law is good. Ever since her son got engaged, Lianying was so happy to quit "privet soup". She felt that her anger was slowly rising, and she finally woke up and slept right.She didn't see her daughter-in-law until the second day after her son's wedding. Not only was she not frightened, but when she saw Xiu'er coming over with lotus seed soup in her wet skirt, she fell in love with her.He hurriedly ordered the maid to boil water for Xiu'er to take a bath, and then she came to comb Xiu'er's hair, listen to Xiu'er playing the piano, help Xiu'er prepare paper and ink, and watch her paint. She didn't look like a serious mother-in-law at all.Lianying heard from Xiu'er that when she was at home, she only had a room for playing the piano and painting, so she asked someone to help clean up a study room in the garden for Xiu'er, and told Xiu'er that she no longer had to worry about the time, and that she could play the piano and paint whenever she wanted. become. "Don't be afraid of making noise, the sound of your piano is not as loud as snoring, it's almost like panting." Lianying said with a smile.

From then on, Jijiayuanzi continued to play the qin at night. Some people said that the Jijia really had the elegant charm of the people in the capital, but some people said that the sound of the qin sounded like a devil crying in the middle of the night, which was ominous. A year later, the grandson Jihe was looking forward to was not yet born, so he specially invited a doctor from the mainland to see Xiuer. After seeing Xiuer, the doctor told Jihe that no medicine would help, as Xiuer was still a virgin.