Chapter 5 Charming Walker No. 5

butterfly dust sky and fall After that, every July, during the windy season, I would wear black clothes for a month.On July 1st, I will buy a large bouquet of fire lilies, and if there is no task, I will put them on the desk in the office until 10:45 am on July 2nd.The flight commander KC Li asked me, Second Lieutenant Zhao, is there any festival, I said, yes, it is a very important festival for me.He frowned and smiled, it must be your birthday, how old are you.I laugh: no, that's not my birthday.I didn't say, it was my prosthetic foot's birthday. After that everything is different.How could it be the same.When healed, he was painful, sometimes quiet, and sometimes repeated.

Former flight commander McGensh applied for early retirement after rescuing the 27th Incident of Shanarretti, and is currently retiring in Watson, central England, unemployed.Ashley, a former flight lieutenant, left the flight team a year after the incident and is now serving with a private helicopter company.Former pilot Zhou Yiming, who left the flight team at the same time, is now a firefighting diver. A76-s helicopters hkg-19 and hkg-20 were retired one year after the explosion and sinking of hkg-18. They were auctioned by the Brunei Air Force and replaced by three AS-302 LS Super Wild Leopard helicopters. It can carry 1,800 kilograms of fuel, accommodate 15 people or 150 gallons of fire buckets, and has a maximum flight distance of 500 kilometers. It is of excellent quality.After I was fitted with an artificial intelligence hydrocarbon prosthesis, I went to Hending College in the United Kingdom to receive six months of flight training, and was promoted to a flight second lieutenant. I became the first disabled co-pilot in Hong Kong, so my photo was on the front page of the newspaper.The reporter asked me the most memorable event in my life, and I said no.I know what answer they want.They asked, don't you forget the injury, don't you forget the prosthetics, don't you forget the flight again, I said, it's nothing, I forgot.Healing is silence: observe quietly, miss silently, no one approaches, please stay away.

My Physiotherapist Mustache Rollett: Pain that doesn't hurt, it lasts longer. The pain is short and intense: My physical therapist, Moustache Loretta, is fleeting and forgettable. Luo Lietan, a mustache, clings to the patient whose lungs have been cut with one hand: Wang Songgui, take ten more steps, and you can sit down after ten more steps.Lifting Liu Jing.It's like buying a live chicken in the street market, you can't do this, Liu Jing, don't be afraid, there is nothing to be afraid of doing it, do it yourself, don't catch me.He is obsessed with the patient's neckline all day long, and his hands are as thick as crabs with a mustache.There was also Li Siya, dragging the oxygen tube, leaning against the wall, refusing to move again.Chen Sangui, measure your heartbeat, Ye Tiansong, you, give me another hundred.Does it hurt like this, the mustache Luo Lietan pulls Yu Meijie's back.So, he pressed her.He sat down and thought about it.Alas, only six years old.Mustache Loretan is starting again and is six years old and my daughter is six years old.

Yu Meijie sighed.She has heard it countless times, but she hates that her back hurts all the time, and she has to come to see him every other day.Li Siya heard the little beard Luo Lietan said that his daughter, dragging the oxygen tube, would sit in a wheelchair and had to go.Liu Jing said, Xiao Huzi, don't do this, I'm so shocked, you said those things, it's shocking.Wang Songgui was very obedient. He walked ten steps more, and then another ten steps. While listening, the little bearded Luo Lie said frankly, "You said it might be impossible. My daughter is only six years old. My ex-wife beat me up and said I was playing with me." daughter.

She's only six years old, Luo Lie, the mustache, said frankly, she doesn't even have pubic hair, what's the fun, you say, Wang Songgui. Wang Songgui was very obedient, he nodded quickly and said, yes, he is only six years old.Surprised by this, Liu said loudly, "A sycophant, Wang Songgui is a sycophant, you shoot the doctor, the nurse, the physiotherapist, and you do less flattering."Wang Songgui scolded him, scared green ghost, don't think I don't know, I know, the whole thoracic department knows, you were so scared that you drowned even after intravenous injection.Li Siya couldn't speak, he could only pant, and when he heard the two of them scolding, he wanted to laugh, but he couldn't laugh, he just moved his throat.When Liu Jing saw it, he cursed her: Li Siya, don't think that you won't laugh to death, you laugh

Come on, laugh, laugh at you to death. Rollett was the name of a young woman.He knew that they called him Luo Litan behind his back, but he didn't, and he wanted to make it clear that he really didn't.It has been many years, and the last time she saw her daughter was six years old, saying that he was playing with her, and the welfare officer refused to let him see her again. He really didn't.Even the court couldn't convict him, the evidence was insufficient, and his daughter's confession was messed up, so he was not guilty of the crime. He didn't, and they still called him Luo Litan behind his back, and no one even knew his name anymore.He was called Mustache to his face, and Luo Litan behind his back.

If one day I run into you on the street, will I still recognize you? It used to be a six-year-old daughter, the mustache Luo Lietan thought, I will not recognize her anymore, kid, grow up so fast, my ex-wife again After getting married, the daughter even changed her surname. There used to be, he used to think that he would be a family man all his life, there would be warm meals and hot dishes waiting for him every night, and he would play with little people after eating. He never knew how much a roll of toilet paper cost, even a roll He can't even wash a glass - he doesn't need to know.He used to think that if he could live his life like this, it would be fine.

Because only you know about it.I didn't say anything, Dominique, Thomas, the trainee pilots who were new to the flight crew, didn't even know I had a prosthetic until they read the newspaper.They're all well-bred young men, and they didn't ask me, for a routine rescue training exercise. We flew southwest of Hong Kong, and Dominic asked, this is the sea where Sinaretti 27 sank, and I know he knows. up.I just say, the most important thing is, if you can't save, don't save, don't be a savior, don't sacrifice yourself, your own life is the most important.Thomas said, isn't that cruel.

It's cruel.But if you are not cruel to other people.In this survival game where we weed out the weak and keep the strong, even if you are cruel to others, you will be hurt at the same time, let alone you are not cruel to others. Recovery was brutal. I still remember the eyes of the former flight commander McGensh, blue and green, looking at me, and he didn't say anything for five seconds.I know he knows it's me.He left the flight team and they had a farewell party for him at the flight club bar and I went there for a while and went home to sleep and woke up early that night and I was back at the flight team office at 7:30 am, the office No one, I opened the door to read the newspaper, heard footsteps, looked up and saw McGensh, he came back to pack, with the flying helmet in his hands, and the medals and medals awarded to him by the former British government.He stood at the door, looked at me, and left without saying anything.Those are a pair of sad eyes: greenish blue, very deep, as if to say: Is it you?Oh it's you.

He knows it's me.Six months after the sinking of Naretti 27, the commander-in-chief of the flight team, Esby, received a phone call from an English newspaper reporter, asking him that when the hkgl8 was sunk by the explosion, Gale Signal No. 10 had been hoisted when it was dispatched for the second time. At that time, Hong Kong was in the eye of the storm.Whoever decided to let hkgi8 go to the rescue in this dangerous situation.Asby said, it was the best decision we made on a case-by-case basis.The reporter asked if the decision resulted in the death of one pilot and one crew member, and the injury of one crew member. Is there any commanding officer responsible.Asby dropped the phone, but the news report also appeared in the newspaper, saying that he received the news, which was decided by the flight commander McGensh at the time, and no one was watching. He also wrote that the commander of the flight team, Asby, was asked Liability question,' dropped the phone very rudely. .In the afternoon, Commander-in-Chief Aisby received a call from the Security Section, summoning him to the Central Government Headquarters to find out the situation.

Ai Shibi came back and threw the computer to the ground in the office, smashing it to pieces. There must be a ghost inside, he said.Get out of here.Of course, it was useless for him to throw ten computers.He called McGensh in and talked for two hours, and McGensh immediately took a month's leave.When he came back, he applied for early retirement and returned to England. Everyone looked at each other, and Megensh and I looked at each other for five seconds, then I lowered my head.At this moment, he should understand that he, Lieutenant Ashley and pilot Zhou Yiming came to see me, and I closed the door with a slam. My embarrassing mood at that moment still hurt me deeply after I recovered. They are so strong that they can empathize, love, and be gentle.I'm so weak, I can only close the door very roughly. They didn't actually want to hurt or sting me.Just like I don't want to hurt McGensh, Ashley and Zhou Yiming.They are all my good partners, and they are also healthy, cheerful, good men who love the sky—why did I fall into this situation. Like the endless growth of bones, piercing tissue and skin, how evil it is to heal. You should be very happy, the flight lieutenant Ashley said to me through gritted teeth.But no, I'm not happy at all. Is it really fate, obviously, why everything is different after a peaceful day. But nothing happened, the mustache Luo Lietan said, nothing happened that day.That afternoon I received a call from my ex-wife, who rarely called the hospital on weekdays.She said, I'm going out after get off work, can you go pick up my mother and pick up my daughter home.He asked strangely, where are you going.She seemed to have been kidnapped and said, don't ask, I'm fine. Nothing happened that day.When he received his daughter back, he would play bear and beer with her as usual, and when his wife was away and had nothing to eat, he would buy a box of char siew and salted egg rice to eat with his daughter.Playing Bear, Beer, Daughter shouting, Daddy, Daddy, I need to pee.He said, you go by yourself, such a big daughter, you go by yourself. After urinating, the daughter shouted in the toilet, Dad, come here. When he came, the daughter took the high skirt and smiled: Come on, wipe it off for me, I'm so wet. dad.She raised her skirt.What a temptation. He saw the little man's lower body, naked, with small cracks in the stone. It was terrible that he had an erection at this moment, it was wrong, he couldn't. He pressed the front of his gym shorts, horrible. dad.The younger daughter took his hand and wiped it on her lower body. So comfortable, the little man smiled. He raised his hand blushing.If she was a grown woman, he could raise his hand and say in a very dignified manner: "Bitch."But no, she's just a little person, she doesn't understand.But what does that mean, she's a little devil, taking advantage of the situation. What does that mean, he stood there, the little man giggled.He wiped her clean and put on her floret underwear. I was so startled all night, I didn't dare to look at my little daughter, as if he had done something. She does nothing, draws pictures on her little table, draws many, many flowers. Nothing happened that night.Maybe there is a spell.That night, his wife was crying beside him.When he heard it, he instinctively wanted to hug her, but he saw that she was facing him, looking at him with her eyes open, but she couldn't see him at all.He felt a chill in his heart, knowing that her crying had nothing to do with him.He turned around and closed his eyes. The rock breaks, the meteor flies down, and the floating island appears, when exactly will it happen.Little Beard Luo Lietan didn't know when something happened, and then everything was different, shattered, and the simple life was no longer recognizable. My physical therapist mustache Luo Litan: You have to be strong before you can tolerate weakness. I would rather be able to crawl on the ground, so I am happier.But I stand so tall and so good.The back chest and pectoral muscles are getting bigger and bigger, and the prosthetics are so skillfully operated that other people hardly notice that they are fake feet. I always smile, and my appearance is neat and clean. Thomas said, you have a very kind face, I even adopted a deaf-mute handicapped child. Every weekend, I went to the deaf-mute school to pick him up and play for a day, and then sent him back to school. This is the greatest love I can give. They all said: Flying Second Lieutenant Zhao Mei, she is fine. My bones are growing, and there is a devil in me, and no one knows it. It's like looking in a mirror, blurry. After the former flight commander McGensh left the flight team, I found that they began to be afraid of me.It's strange, I'm not the commander-in-chief, and I'm not scowling, smiling and whispering from time to time, but they are still very afraid of me.Thomas and Dominic were both afraid of me, and would stop talking when I went in.Once after work, I saw Dominic crossing the road with his girlfriend holding hands in Lan Kwai Fong. Seeing me, Dominic immediately let go of his girlfriend's hand.Strange, I am not his lover, what is he afraid of.Every time Ashley saw me, he straightened up and called me Second Lieutenant Zhao, but his rank was actually higher than mine.My immediate boss, Commander KC, wanted to ask me when I would like to take a vacation, but I didn’t dare to ask, so I asked Thomas to ask, and when he saw me, he rubbed his hands from time to time, asking himself and answering, did you receive the notice, did you? Did you see it, did you see it.Only Zhou Yiming watched coldly, folded his hands, looked at me with a half smile, didn't speak, and left when I approached him. After the flight team's annual dinner and dance, everyone went to the bar to drink.That night Zhou Yiming was very happy, drank a lot and kept singing, it turned out that his girlfriend had just agreed to marry him.I said, congratulations, he glanced at me, did not clink glasses with me, and drank by himself.The midnight bar was full of people, I wanted to leave, but I found Zhou Yiming with my backpack, so I went.He was half drunk, and suddenly grabbed my neckline and asked: Are you sad?I answer, I don't, what.He said, I want to beat you up.Ever since your foot got better, I've wanted to slap you.I said, oh?he gently tugged on my Fa: Why are you not sad, you are terrible. . Why should I be sad, I'm fine.In this jungle survival game, I am a survivor, why should I be sad. And forget: pain has no meaning. Please stay away. The mustache Luo Lietan went to work alone, left work alone, and said to the other person: I don't have one, she is only six years old.Like a walking flower, she lures him and calls him, her skin is so white, her smile is innocent, is she really innocent?The mustache Luo Litan avoided his youngest daughter as if he avoided a lover.But she didn't let him go, Dad, Dad, she often called, I want.dad. She was so weak, so weak that he couldn't resist. His wife said he wanted a divorce and he didn't answer her.He thought she was joking.The next day, in the elevator, everyone went to work together, and the wife said again that they wanted a divorce.Someone walked into the elevator, and the two fell silent.The third time, when he wiped his teeth in the toilet, she said that he wanted a divorce.He said, let you wipe it first, okay? He didn't take it seriously at all.No reason, no divorce, no way. He didn't know she was serious until the police invited him to the police station to make a statement.She blocked her daughter like a hen, and called him: cheap.His eyes were wide open, speechless.You misunderstood, it wasn't, but he, he, couldn't speak.They wouldn't believe him at all.The daughter was so weak, flowery, giggling, and he actually touched her, and he didn't do anything, the gym shorts were full of cum. How is this possible, they cannot know, this is impossible, Wang Songgui, you say.Wang Songgui's sycophant said, "Impossible, this is impossible." Wang Songgui had no idea what the little beard was talking about.In this way, I can do it thirty times, okay, Wang Songgui asked him. Have you ever met the six-year-old girl, Wang Songgui?The mustache Luo Lie smiled frankly: I've seen it before, naked, with small cracks in the rocks. To be free from not loving and forgetting My partner and brother pilot Gasiya: In the silent seabed, how cool and quiet, how painful.I always thought I'd see you again, and when I put on my flight suit, the uniform that had turned from orange to dark blue, the helmet and the radio, I always thought I'd see Gasja again.On Friday, November 8th of this year, at 13:06 on a clear autumn afternoon, the control center received a report that a No. Trapped on the roof of the building.At 13:10, two ASJ02 LS Super Wild Leopard helicopters and one Super King ZS-10 fixed-wing aircraft of the flight team set off to the scene to assist in the rescue of trapped people and firefighting by throwing water bombs. The AS-302 LS Leopard helicopter registration number hkg42 arrived at the scene at 13:21. The pilot of the aircraft was Lieutenant Anthony Finney, the co-pilot was me, and the pilots were Dominic Liu and Tom Ma Shi Wu. The hkg-22 arrived at the sky above the building, and the flight altitude dropped to 20 meters from the roof. The pilot Dominic was about to hang down, when a sudden explosion occurred on the top floor of the building, and the flames rushed to the bottom of the helicopter. Seeing that someone was already on fire, he was rolling on the roof and calling for help.The sound of explosions continued. Flight Lieutenant Finney and I hovered the helicopter about 100 meters away from the roof. We could see from a distance that there were wounded who were burnt and jumped from a high place. A ball of fire fell like fireworks. Minnick and Thomas were dumbfounded, the explosion sounded again, and Finney raised the altitude to 200 meters. Can't go down, Flight Lieutenant Finney told pilot Dominique, it's too dangerous.Dominic climbed on the helicopter door and watched as the second ball of fire jumped down.Thomas opened his mouth wide and said nothing.For them, it is the first time, watching them from life to death.I said, if you see these things a lot, you will gradually get used to them. Dominique said, I don't want to, I don't want to get used to it, it's terrible. Thomas turned away, leaned back in his chair, and never raised his head again. How young they are.My buddy brother, the pilot Gasia: We too were young, fragile, and easily moved. Like rocks breaking, meteors flying down, floating islands appearing, my partner and brother pilot Gasia, when I see you again, the world will be different. My physical therapist, Luo Litan the Mustache, passed by an empty parking lot at noon on a clear autumn day, and thought, Luo Litan, six years old.He did nothing, but there is no difference between doing and not doing.In that empty parking lot, he decided. Little sister, he said, sister, you are alone.I want to visit the hospital. Do you know how to get there?Can you take me, you are such a good boy, come on, get in the car, and tell me how to get to the hospital.The little girl, maybe six years old, wait for her mother at the bus stop, wearing a small white floral dress, her hair is tied up, her skin is so pink, her hand bones are as small as a spring chicken, and she can be crushed with a strong pinch. Crushed her head and opened it like a white pigeon egg. He pulled her, and when he touched her, all the pores of his body opened, like a peacock spreading its tail. It turned out that revenge is so happy. He said, don’t be afraid, uncle is fine. , Uncle's hands are big and warm, you will be very comfortable, don't be afraid. . .Small stone cracks, so tight, so beautiful.For the first time, Mustache realized that happiness can be so intense. On Friday, November 8th of this year, at 14:02, hkg22 set off to return to the flight team base. Five charred and bloody corpses were dragged back to the cabin, which made the cabin smell like burnt meat.Dominic and Thomas sat with the dead body without talking. The sky was cloudless and emerald blue like a lake.Lieutenant Finney asked me if I would go water skiing on Saturday, and I said, well, why don't I take my adopted son to play, I don't know if my artificial feet can water ski.Finney laughed, already forgetting that you have artificial feet, I said, that's good.I turned and asked Dominic and Thomas if you were going.Dominique and Thomas, very sad, looking at me and Lieutenant Finney in disbelief, in those dark eyes, I see you, my flying partner Gasia, eyes Clear and bright, reflecting the vast and distant sky, slightly blue, there are always many questions about life, which cannot be answered, so sometimes it is silent and sometimes intense. When you close your eyes, it is the deep blue seabed. Time goes back and forth, only waiting for the storm, Every July, always ask where you are, and whether your desire for freedom and integrity is consistent.