Chapter 8 chapter eight

I spent the past two years in Tainan. At the beginning, when Zhenguan decided to go out, her mother did not agree; so she followed Zhu Yingtai's example and made a contract with her father before leaving home. Zhen Guan and her mother also have such a contract: "After two and a half years, my younger brother has graduated, and I will come back right away." Because of this sentence, her mother stopped insisting, and her second aunt helped to say: "There are water lilies in Tainan, why are you worried? Besides, in my opinion, Ah Zhenguan is determined, His footsteps are steady, he is a very proper person—"

Before her mother could finish speaking, she said, "Where am I worried? I'm not willing to give up... After all, I only have her as a daughter!" Zhenguan heard the meaning of the words, and stroked her mother's hand and said: "Mom, I go to Tainan, I can do things, make money, and take care of Ah Zhong, their boys are careless..." At that time, her eldest brother was about to enter the second grade, and Zhenguan put all her hopes on him because she hadn't passed the college entrance examination. Her mother said again: "How old are you, how much money can you earn?"

Zhenguan didn't respond, especially since her aunt had already found her a job at the collection office as a temporary bill maker. Her mother paused and said again: "I gave birth to my daughter, will I still not know her heart? You don't have to rush to share the burden on me, but let me ask you, what do you think in your heart?" Zhenguan swallowed, thinking: What can I think?You are a widow, even if I am unable to share my worries, I will not always be a burden! Her mother said: "I saved some of the hard-earned money your father earned during his lifetime, and saved some, plus the pension; it was exchanged for your father's life. It bought the turtle farm in Hougang and threw it away. Let your uncle and concubine look at it. If the situation changes in the future and the money depreciates, your sister and brother will have the foundation; , I promise, no matter what happens at home, you will never lose money for reading books and buying books—”

When it comes to bitterness, her mother shed tears several times, seeing Zhen Guan's face, and also reflecting the decision in her heart: "Mom, my grades are not so good, what else is there to test? It's better to be like Yinyue They make money earlier, prepare dowry—" She intended to make her mother laugh, but she couldn't help being ashamed when she said it, so she stopped talking. That night, mother and daughter shared the bed and talked all night. The next day, they went to the street together again, cut floral cloth and made some clothes.On the day of departure, two aunts accompanied her mother to take her straight to the station, and Zhenguan got on the train. Her mother warned through the window: "A person who really understands things must be able to receive people and get along with good people, and he must Know how to be with the bad guys, don't deliberately fight against them, remember this sentence - the bad horse is ridden by the bad man, the bad man is punished by the bad man-"

She waited for the car to drive far away before pressing a handkerchief to her eye sockets. She just pressed it lightly, but tears really flowed down. When she lived in Tainan, Zhenguan went back every year according to the festivals: Shangyuan, Qingming, Duanyang, Pudu , Mid-Autumn Festival, and then wait for the Chinese New Year; like this, two years have passed; now—my younger brother has already passed the third grade, counting down, there are only more than three months left, nearly a hundred days! The hometown is still the hometown, she will always have the power to make people yearn and miss, but——today, Zhenguan has become nostalgic and restless, and what makes her want to go is difficult: she didn't know what kind of place Tainan was at the beginning.

She walks for half an hour every day to go to work, and at dusk she follows the old road back to her aunt's house. In fact, the road is not long, and others can walk it in ten minutes, but she can walk, like a grandmother with bound feet and bound feet . How would you know that there is such a scene in Tainan Prefecture, the streets and alleys of poinciana trees are like burning fire, you will see them when you go out, and you will see them when you look up. Boiled phoenix flowers. Thinking about the history, Zhenguan can't help but miss the predecessors and ancestors who started the stage in the early days; when they were scrambling, opening up and reclaiming wasteland, they still had leeway and foresight to plant such melodious and beautiful flowers and trees for future generations.

Every time Zhenguan walked under the tree and looked at the shade of flowers in the sky, besides admiration, he felt boundless gratitude. In order to walk, her aunt and his wife laughed at her several times: "I have never seen such a person in the world, who does not sit in the traffic car, and loves to kick it step by step!" She smiled and helped herself out: "I used to ride in the car, but I couldn't sit still! When I saw the Phoenix Flower, I couldn't help myself, so I got down and walked!" All the flowers in the world should be bloomed for people to see and appreciate. Only the ones on the phoenix tree, Zhenguan feels that it is a kind of spirit, a kind of mind, and you can't just look at the past; I understand her; even when she wrote a letter to Sister Yinchan, she actually wrote back: "——Since you love her so much, why don't you just make a long-term plan and marry a Tainan native!"

With Yinchan like this, the more Zhenguan misses Yi; among the sisters, she knows Yinchan's temperament best. Sometimes Yi likes to be angry with herself and act like a baby, it's because the two of them are the best. In fact, she was just talking, and the two of them knew in their hearts: no matter how the times change, their hometown will always occupy the most important position; the sea and night of their hometown will always be their hearts to rely on. When Zhenguan came back from get off work that day, he first saw his younger brother reading the letter. There was a long envelope on the table, Zhen Guan saw it, and thought in shock: It’s this handwriting again... It turns out that there are so many people with similar handwriting in the world——she thought to ask: "Ah Zhong, who wrote it?" ?”

"Oh, sister, it's Brother Daxin——" As her brother said, he took out another letter from the drawer: "This letter is for you!" Who I thought it would be, turned out to be that person! "When have you been in touch with him?" Her younger brother said with a smile: "Brother Daxin is my correspondence teacher! It's been a semester, don't you know, sister?" "..." "It's the summer vacation of the third year of high school, and the fourth concubine asked him to write to me. With his guidance, if I don't score 90% in physics and chemistry this July, I will be sorry to the three emperors and five emperors, and my ancestors— —”

Zhen Guan thought about it and said, "Hey, isn't he a senior?" "Yeah, pre-official exams, graduation exams... There are a lot of preparations, but it doesn't matter, he is strong——" His younger brother laughed when he said this; his red face showed a row of white teeth. "That being said, you should pay more attention to yourself!" Zhenguan said while opening the seal to read; two years ago, Daxin gave herself a letter, at that time, she didn't think about getting back to him, now—— Zhen watched it, put it away, and wrote a reply the next day, with polite words, the main thing was to thank him for teaching his younger brother to take care, but within a few days, his letter came again.

Zhenguan held the flower soul in his hands and looked at it. It was a half-brown and half-red rhododendron, as Daxin said, a little dry. This person is also interesting, but his letters are hard to answer, because he doesn't even have a proper title. How should it be called?She rarely even called Yincheng and the others by their names directly.After thinking for three or five days, Zhen Guan wrote a short message: Only three days after the letter was mailed, he sent another one; Zhenguan thought to himself: What did this man do?The graduation exam is about to take the first place; are you ready? Attached is a photo of a bachelor, Zhenguan can't imagine that the boy who burned the mosquito net while watching "Hou Duan Dabie Mountain" is now such a handsome gentleman with a dignified appearance. Wealth lies in siblings, and intelligence lies in ears and eyes——Daxin's eyes are particularly clear, restrained and unrevealed. Looking at it reminds people of the saying: "Deng Ke has a pair of eyes and a second eyebrow". The most unique thing is his look, as seen in magazines, the Japanese physicist who won the Nobel Prize - Hideki Yukawa. However, this letter kept her frozen for more than ten days. During this period, Zhenguan hurried back to his hometown, because Yinyue was to be the bride and had to marry Yiban. The sisters haven't seen each other for a long time. Once they make a pile, it's really day and night, and I don't know how to separate them. The night before the wedding, five of them locked up in one room and chatted all night; in fact, there were six people including Ginkgo. It was hot, and she couldn't get in the mouth, and she knew that she was pulled together to make up an even number, so she fell asleep with her head covered not long after entering the room. On the day of the bridegroom's wedding, there were many people in the audience, and the sisters were sent straight to the town of Yanyan for marriage; the in-laws had a big feast until three or four in the afternoon. Can't let go. Seeing her bowing her head and weeping, Zhenguan felt sore in her heart, so she could only make up her powder and wipe away her tears, while saying: "Order the water tank, who loves to cry and break the tank—" In a word, Yinyue was finally put to death. Amused. On the return journey there were many convoys, and Zhenguan happened to be sitting with her four concubines; she heard her ask: "Did Daxin write a letter with Ah Zhong?" "Yes, it's all he is teaching! When you get into your first choice, let him thank you sir!" "Ugh!" But she sighed all around: "Actually, at these times, he himself was in a bad mood—" Zhenguan heard the strange words, but it was hard to ask anything. Her four concubine said: "There is a girl in his class. In the first year of freshman year, we have been friends with him for the past few years. They always have feelings for each other. Now they change as they say they want. Last semester, they didn't say a word. Marry them." What visiting professors, we went to the United States together—" "—" "Actually, it's better for such a heartless person to change sooner. It's just that he's stubborn and doesn't know how to figure it out?" "..." Zhenguan listened quietly, and was overwhelmed by all five feelings at once; however, she understood that she valued Daxin not from the beginning of love between men and women, she always regarded him as a person of the same sex. So today, she should feel that she has the same heart and feelings with him: I have pity on my wronged and wronged brother! Another day later, Yinyue returned to Ning to have a banquet, and the whole family was in a hurry until the sun was westward, and the driver came in from outside the door several times to urge people, and the bride left her parents and left with tears. Zhenguan also packs up her luggage and prepares to return to Tainan with her aunt and her husband; she bids farewell to everyone, but she cannot find Yinchan alone. Yinchan was under the stove, Zhenguan went straight to the kitchen at the back, only to see that she was helping the master and some people to collect vegetables after the feast. After the feast, fresh soup and dishes are mixed together, collectively referred to as "caiwei". "Caiwei" is a three-year-old child who has only grown teeth and has just learned to eat, and they all know its delicious taste; in the past, whenever there was a marriage or a big event at home, the "caiwei" could not be eaten for days, and it was too hot in a day. One day, five or six days pass, seeing that the bottom of the bucket is about to be empty, I immediately have a whimsical idea, hoping to have another happy event at home, and to marry my sister-in-law again; happy farewell... Thinking about it now, what a cute, funny heart—"A Yinchan, I'm leaving!" Yinchan turned around and saw that it was her, took a big bowl in his hand, carried it across five rooms, pulled her again and said, "Come and eat this bowl before leaving!" "Amitabha! I can't take it anymore!" Yinchan didn't care, and gave her the spoon, saying: "I'm hungry again in the car! Once you arrive in Tainan, you won't have to eat it even if you want to eat it!" "But--" Seeing her like that, Yinchan laughed: "But what? Even a three-year-old child knows it's a good taste." After talking for a long time, the two of them finally ate it together; Zhen Guan couldn't help laughing at Yin Chan and said: "When you get married, you don't have to share the end of the vegetables with the neighbors, and save the seven or eight barrels for the bride to eat by herself! " "Yes! Eat it for ten days and half a month!" The two laughed, and Yinchan carried her luggage until she arrived at the station. It was already nine o'clock at night when we returned to Tainan. Her aunt was tired from driving, so she washed her body and went to rest.As soon as Zhenguan went up to the second floor, seeing that her younger brother was still awake, he gave him the ginseng from home and told him what his mother had told him; when he returned to his room, he turned on the light, and the first thing he saw was a familiar bird on the table. The envelope; my younger brother put it for her at some point. She sat down, but she was not really settled, she felt her heart beating. I couldn't find the scissors temporarily, and I couldn't do a lot of searching. I was afraid of making a noise, so I had to tear it by hand. Tearing is not good, crooked, she is so restless tonight because she doesn't know what Daxin is going to say. After staying for a while, she finally unfolded the paper, lit the lamp, and read each word in detail: Zhenguan suddenly covered the letter and closed her eyes, why did she open such a letter?She shouldn't have read it. All the favor Daxin gave her started from this letter! ——Sometimes floating out of the world, returning my prudent and restrained life—what a polite person! Such a similar heart, similar temperament; she is also reading the few books he mentioned!Even reading a book is the same thing, so how can she treat him like nothing? Three days later, a time-limited letter came from Taipei: If Yinyue got married this time and she didn't go back, even if she did, as long as she didn't ride with Sijin and didn't hear Yi's words, Zhenguan should have replied to Daxin soon; Knowing the twists and turns in his heart, and thinking of his people day by day, it is really not easy to go back to the original indifferent. After thinking about it for a few days with no results, he was feeling embarrassed when his letter came up: The letter is not finished yet, Zhenguan can imagine his inner confusion and struggle! He didn't want to hide it from her, but he couldn't tell her, so he used such an unwise metaphor; just imagine: except for the person involved, how would anyone know about the vow between lovers? Zhenguan felt sore; she never expected that he would have such a past, but she still cherishes and respects the person of great faith. It is from here that Daxin's brightness and yang energy can be seen; he is really a bright person! Knowing this, she wanted to be angry with herself again, so she wrote him a letter like this: When the letter was just sent, Zhenguan didn't think there was anything wrong with it, but after waiting for seven or eight days and there was no response to the letter, she realized that she had done something wrong; since he didn't say it clearly, why should she point it out? ?The world is true and false, even if she knows all the details, so what? It turns out that she is just a fool, an idiot in the maze of the world; many things in life, in fact, don't have to be so real! On the tenth day, the letter finally arrived slowly: Zhenguan calculated that her younger brother's graduation ceremony was coming soon, and it had been two years and four months since she came to Tainan. The world is unpredictable; when she made an appointment with her mother, how did she know that Tainan had such a landscape and geography, and how did she expect to get acquainted with Daxin in this county? In any case, now is the time to say goodbye; Tainan Prefecture will always keep this in mind!She just realized now that a good place doesn't have to be lived all year round; as long as she has lived there once, and knows the mountains, rivers, sun, moon, customs, and customs of Iraq, she will know each other in her heart and live up to the land. Zhenguan packed up everything now, she decided to leave. Not only because she has something to say first, what really disturbs her is: she senses that Daxin is about to find her... She must terminate such a relationship; Daxin is a treasure, and the deeper you go, the better you will know him. ...But she is proud and angry: No more—she may be angry with him, or herself; the fire turns into ashes, and he has already been burned. Why did they know each other first?No matter!Let the two of you pay the price together for this! On the second day, Zhenguan went to the office to hand in his resignation letter. When he turned around and came out, he suddenly thought that he would not be here tomorrow, so he walked along the streets one by one. In one afternoon, he almost walked through half of Tainan Prefecture. After coming back for dinner, she told her aunt and her husband what she had said. The couple were very surprised: "It's not all right, why are you leaving?" Zhen Guan smiled bitterly: "I don't want to leave either, but I already told my mother when I came—" Her aunt smiled and said: "So it's for this! It doesn't matter, let me talk about your mother—" "But no!" Zhenguan said anxiously: "The last time I went back to marry Yinyue, I made an agreement with grandpa and grandma; the two old people told me to go back earlier!" Her aunt is a filial daughter, and when she heard this, she stopped insisting and said: "If this is the case, let's stay a few more days! I... can't bear you either!" When talking about her aunt seriously, Zhen Guan can't make up her mind again. She hadn't received her salary in the first month when she came to work. Her aunt was afraid that she would be short of money. Every night after she fell asleep, she would sneak into her room and stuff some money in her clothes pocket. Zhen Guan would often see it when she put on her clothes in the early morning of the next day; at first she just guessed, she couldn't be sure; until one night, when her aunt came into the room, she hadn't fallen asleep, she was lying on the big bed, and her aunt didn't know that she was sleepy through the mosquito net. Pretend to put the money into her small purse—Zhen Guan waited for her to turn around and leave the room before sitting up; looking at the departing aunt, tears filled her eyes. ——For a month, until she received her salary... Thinking of such kindness, Zhenguan made an oath: I will let my tree of life grow well and flourish, and use it to repay my loved ones. In this way, Zhenguan stayed for a few more days, and she dropped this letter at Tainan Station just before boarding the train: